One in a millions
Mood:  amorous
Never Blog for such a long time. Hand itchy. Not feeling well (coughing) for the few weeks. Taking medication and I guess after taking too many medication trends to influences your thinking and your behaviour.

Sometimes think about it... is it a bless or curse to understand so much in life until the stage that you don’t even border what happen around you? I guess there is no definite answer for it. Since we live in an uncertain world and full of contradicting.

For those can go through so many challenges and suffers in life they will changes their course of life. I guess most of the people will encounter these kinds of situation during their twenty most of the time, when they start to work (no doubt this can also happen throughout the life cycle). But for those whom encounter it earlier will make their thinking more mature and behave differently.

My destination start to changes can track back since I start to read a lot of books and novels (majority in Chinese) at my teenage era. Giving benefit or doubt for the contents that’s all the books I read no matter what it is, it trend to have some philosophy of life that the author encounter or they understood and they try to express that kinds knowledge’s or wisdom in the creator of the books.

I guess parts and puzzles I pick up all these information and form my character today. I my childhood I’m an impatient and emotion most of the time. Anything that not happy I will throw tantrum and make hell lots of noisy and these will ruin my day.

When grow older in age, discover that throw tantrum can’t solve the problem so why make our life so difficult. Then mind set change from this point of time and try to find a solution or find a way to divert the attention to what other thing that can make me happier rather stuck in and unsatisfied moments and make me more distress.

When we grow older we will analyst thing more in depth before you take any move or action. For me, I always remember the Sun Sze “Art of War” theories. In life we like living in the battle field, in order to survive you need to understand your enemies and yourself well, these will make you no fear when you going for battle to face your enemies. (For me life is a battlefield) Everyday wake up is a new war going to fight. In order to survive everyone need to have the skill to protect yourself before you can attack unless you are that kinds that very good in attack (or is given by GOD) so this also can become a form of protection.

To win a war you need a good general or a leader. How to differentiate a normal soldier and a general? The following story gives you an idea.

In a construction site, there are many construction workers. As usual construction work going on and three particular construction workers working on this site of the construction area and they are building a wall.

A visitor was passing by and ask the first worker “What are you doing?” the first worker reply “ I stake up brick” in a boring tune.

The visitor asking the same question for the second worker and the second worker reply with a normal tune, “I’m building a well”.

The same question go to the third worker and the third worker reply, “I’m building a Church” with an exciting tune.

I guess most of you notice who are the general and the soldier. To become a great leader need to have ambition, confident (but not snob or over confident), positive, think out of the box and think big.

In Chinese said, you can get a good general are one in a millions. Are you planning to be the ONE?

Sign off now.

Reality TV
Mood:  bright
In today’s context, majority of the TV verities show are dominant by the reality TV show. You like it or not but that’s the trend, Reality TV shows such as… Fear Factor, Amazing Race, American Idol and etc. Even the documentary are switching from the traditional filming style to something like reality TV show… the host are chasing the animals and explain what kinds of animal is that, what is their habitat and so on.

These kinds of reality TV really change your view on the show. For me, I really don’t like documentary film see the host chase around all kinds of animal during the show and explain to me at the same time. Although some of my friends like it very much, but I still find that hosts are endangering their life to record the film, he or she also endangers some of these animals by catching them and put them under the camera.

Your can said that I’m not adapted to change. But for me I still prefer to watch those traditional or classic documentary film with all the animals run freely on the Savanna or in the jungle and the host narrated along the film to explain why the animal behave like and or so on and so forth.

Technologies advance
Mood:  energetic
At the last decade, in the 60s to 80s most of the electronic appliances are expensive and durable. At that time when any of these stuffs spoil or not functioning, most of the time people will send for repair because the costs for repair are cheaper (these including the spare parts and labour cost) then replace with a new set.

To repair electronic stuff need skills. In order manage the skill take years, but when technologies advance, these kinds of skills are replace by machines or computers. Because of these some of the industries are out of business because cannot catch up with the technologies changes, investments on machinery and training for the employees. In directly the costs go up. When the costs go up getting less and less people will repair the stuffs unless is really expensive stuffs if not a brand new set are cheaper then repair.

Technologies advance change our daily lifestyles; shopping habit, improve productivity and wasting resources?

Technologies advances make production costs lower to produced but it also killing the retail repair business and wasting resources when people just replace the not functioning stuffs.

Living in the city everyone so busy and so stress. Whatever things can settle fast and get it done will be good. Now days hardly got people learn how to repair home appliances at home. Firstly lack of space in the house and it really take up a lot of time to manage the skill and repair.

In the old days at my father used to teach me to repair home appliances stuffs at home. Beside these my father also teach us (me and my brothers) how to use all kinds of tools in order to fix a problem or repair.

Because of the technologies advance I guess the next generation loss all these kinds of skills.

Music
Mood:  blue
In my teenage, I listen a lot of nonsensical songs. Every times this group release any new album I will not hesitate save some pocket money and buy the cassette tape and listen. Until one find day, my brother was get bored and annoyed by the song that I play and commented the songs that I listen was meaningless and have bad influences towards my life. So since then my taste toward was start to improved when I’m turning to 15 or 16. Improved meaning listen to those songs that sang by a good artist or singer and the lyrics are meaningful. Most of these songs are sentimental and pop songs in the 80’s. Beside Chinese songs I also like to listen English songs during that time. Although my English was not very good (until today my English still not very good wahahah….), but because of the rhythm and music was fun to listen with.

In the 80’s, Grammy Awards English songs and Solid Gold for Chinese songs (Hong Kong) dominant the market. During that time the most famous song for me is “Beat It” and “Billy Jean” by Michael Jackson. As for Chinese Songs prefer artist like Alan Tam, Leslie Cheung, Anita Mui, and Jackie Cheung.

I have a bad habit established when come to listen music especially MTV songs that, I prefer to listen MTV in the midnight when everyone have gone to sleep and I will switch of the light and plug in the head phone and enjoy the MTV. (Correct me if I’m wrong MTV only introduced into market in the 80’s). By doing this make me feel surrounded by the music and very relax. My mind will drift when the lyric relate to the similar situation that ever encounter and remind me some happy moment in life or versa vice.

Shopping
Mood:  cool
Shopping are the most favorites activities for the female. Some researches in US even did a research on it, and come up with the terminology call “Shopaholic” for the female that addicted to shopping.

This web http://www.yournewromance.com/shopaholicquiz.html even provide quiz to test or proved that you are addicted to shopping or not (as a guideline or standard).

Finding for the researches, shopping activities tracking back to the ancients time (stone age) when the men were go out for hunting and the female and going for fruits collection and taking care of the children at the home which is at the cave. So when the female go for fruit collection, they take time to select and choose the best for the family. This gives satisfaction to the female.

Modern female treat shopping as leisure, social activities and reduce stress. When settle the bill, they don’t even blink their eyes like the cowboy gun fighter. Draw out their wallet and hand over the credit card and the next things the machine clicking sound and bill generate and their put the signature and the bill is settle (Like the John Woo action movie gun fight scene in slow motion the good guy draw the gun and shot the next moment the bad guy die).

Due to the shopping habit, the female are divide into two groups… one group is their account are always in the red, need to struggle to paid back their debt for the bank, the other group work smart and maintain good habit on spending.

So base on the economic theories… when economic is down spending more will improve the situation provided that the whole nation is doing that. Beside when economic down turn if the individual have enough saving this giving the individual more spending power.

My teenage era
Mood:  a-ok
My teenage era around 80’s… all the things… or my world are fill with Hong Kong TV series, Songs, Movies, Books and Comics and not formal education.

In my hometown at the 80’s Hong Kong TV series were dominance the entertainment for the family. This because is cheap and economical. Imagine you spent about 2 bucks to rent a video (those TV series) and play it after the dinner. Whole family were setting down at the hall and watching it. Once a while having a discussion about the show and this is how the whole family interact with each other most of the time. That how most of the family killing their time during the 80’s.

Beside that, all songs and music’s are from Hong Kong… The books I read also from Hong Kong. So my world is fill with Hong Kong culture. I don’t denies that once a while I watch Western or American movies… Like Star War… James Bond’s Series… Indiana Jones and So on. But Hong Kong is my world and my world is Hong Kong.

This is the world I live in before I leave my hometown to another country to work and seek for better opportunities.

Badminton… primary school activities
Mood:  cheeky
I was playing badminton since my primary school day. Surprise to say that I’m the school representative for the badminton team and won a first runner up before and was a honor for the my school. My primary school was not a famous school in town and it was try to establish as a top ranking school and better learning environment at that time.

Everyday after school is the training session… the school even recruits a professional trainer to train us. Besides that every Saturday half-day training session is compulsory. Training is fun for all the team players. For the boy you get to play the game you like is consider a blessing and we are very happy about it.

Training is getting intense and prepare for the competition and the trainer arrange a friendly game with another school. The end result for the friendly game was not very promising, a tough fight but lose. Then more training was arrange to boost the skills, stamina’s, tactics and strategies.

When the final competition comes, the team was able to advanced to the final. When the school heard about the team advanced to the final of the competition, although never get the Champaign but the headmaster still announce it on the following Monday school assembly and all the badminton team players were invited to the stage as a compliment of the achievement. The headmaster giving a very inspiring speech on how the team able to achieve what we have today is a moral boost for the staffs of the school and the student because through hard work and determination we will able to achieve what we set. With this story we the badminton team set an example for the rest of the students.

My primary school days
Mood:  happy
I remember when first day go to school I was crying. That day was raining. (Not a good to go to school). Before going to school my parent buy all the stuffs for me and I feel very happy during that time but when the actual days come was disappointed that I cry. I don’t know why I cry… maybe chicken out because school is a strange place and no freedom to talk and eat as a wish as at home.

But my father accompany and try to encourages me throughout the first two weeks and after that start to used to it. But still don’t like to go school, everytime reach home lazy to do homework. Pester my father to teach me and hold my hand to write because the homework is too difficult to do and so on.

During school holiday… teachers assign homework for the school holidays were forever never finish in time… because always very playful until no time to finish. Although very lazy in all aspects, I ever ask my parent about my result during the primary school days. The answer from my parent was still acceptable… I don’t how to define acceptable under my parent standard. I guess I never rank the last in the class before so was consider acceptable for them.

I able to remember and still fresh in my memories that since primary 3 onward my score and rank always the top 15 in the class and throughout my primary school days the highest that I can achieved was 5 in the class during my primary 6.

First video in the family and my first X-rated movie
Mood:  flirty
My family had the first colour TV was some where around early 80’s and the first video player was in the mid 80’s.

Most of the time… my parent and the rest of the family members watching video after dinnertime and in the weekends my brother and me can have extra viewing hour until the midnight.

When my brother first buy the video from his friend electronic shop. A delivery appointment was set and was in the weekend. Two complimentary movies were come along with the video set that’s was told by salesman (my brother friend). After setting up the video player a documentary was play for testing after the documentary over my parent suggested that all family members should go rest except my brother and me wanted to continue with the next show (because that time me and my brother sleep at the hall), but my parent warn that need to rest for at least 15 minutes then continue with the next video.

Here come the interesting part… the second movie was an X-rated movie during that time. The movie title is “The Blue Lagoon” act by Brooke Shield. As a young boy during that time, watch X-rated movie will feel exciting and the heart keep bouncing, throat feel dry, face turn red and feel horny (waahahah… no doubt about it. Sometimes even wet dream? Not sure about wet dream during that time :p).

Imagine as a young boy first time saw a naked ladies and the erotic scene, the above mention feeling will sure have. I guess most of the guys and girls have these kinds of experiences.

Leisure activities… Reading
Mood:  bright
I start reading novels and books since I was young. This habit was influenced from my siblings and my farther. If I’m not wrong… when I was 10 years old, grandparent black and white TV was spoil due to the lighting strike and send for repair for a couples of days. Since no TV to watch everyone in the family start to read again and did other leisure activities such as play chess and etc.

I choose to read, because I’m the youngest in the family and all my siblings were busy with their activities. Dare not disturbed their activities. So I borrow a book from the school library and start to read. Since then never stop reading.

When I was in the primary school, I was addicted to Chinese wuxia xiaoshuo (Chinese swordsman). Some of my favorite Chinese authors were Gu Long and Jin Yong.

When I was in the secondary school, start to excel to other books such as science fiction and detective. From these reading, have a great impact on my life. Imagine a kampong boy, don’t know how the world works and the only leisure activities were go to movies once a while. The only asset and the biggest asset is through reading gain more knowledge, build up creative thinking and philosophy of life.