Old habits die hard
sometimes its hard to break old habits especially bad one . They are like cats with nine lives but today i'm going to be strong. Goodbye Nuno forever.

And it Christmas
blah blah blah just another crappy day in the neighbourhood.

Another Day
STRUGGLE

I am a person with feelings and emotions ......... stop stepping on them.

Nearly Unnoticed
by Reese

She is lonely
Even though you can't tell
She is reaching out
For what, she doesn't know
She will continue to sit in silence
And hope that someone may stumble across
Her and all of her emptiness
But they only hope that they do it in time
Otherwise she will have drifted too far
And she may let go
Of whatever grasp of the world she has
As she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone
Nearly unnoticed.






People seem to think i have no feelings or emotions. The are often inconsiderate and expect me to just accept it .

Its been another depressing day. I wish i could close my eyes and sleep for eternity. I bought a pack of sleeping pills today. The label says extra strength. Hope they can do the trick . Sleep brings much needed escape.

Something Must Be
by Oblivious

Something must be wrong with me
with all this hurt inside,
always bursting with anger,
and never any pride.

Something must be wrong with me
if all I do is cry,
I can't stop this pain
all I want to do is die.

Something must be wrong with me
if my emotions run wild,
all this confusion does
is make me feel like a lost child.

Something must be wrong with me
with all these terrible things,
always there and never gone
depression is what it brings.

Something must be wrong with me
if I can't stop these thoughts,
all this pain does
is turn my stomach in knots.

Something is truly wrong with me
when I think there's only one way out,
"Let this pain end,"
is all my heart will shout.




Its three days before Christmas and yes its shaping up to be a typical one for me . Typical = lonely, sad, depressing. Its been that way now for a long time so i'm kinda used to it although i can't help hoping each year that this would be the year things change .