My life changes so often that i can't really know it. Its like one second a certain person is saying one thing to me, and then a week later, they say something completely different. It hurts me, and that person knows this, but they still can't make up their mind. I can handle it better now though. I don't just sit and cry and feel sorry for myself. I know now that, that won't get me anywhere. Its definitely not going to help me in any way shape or form. I think i'm dealing with everything better now, which is really good for my stress level, which used to go through the roof. Thank god for MTV. I love MTV. Cribs, newlyweds, the osbournes, all that stuff. I love music in general, so its all good.