Guys are jerks!!!
Mood:  don't ask
Last night was the worst night ever! I freakin told Chris that I didn't want to go to his house if Chaz was going to be there, but of course I gave in so Megan could get her CD. But Chaz was being a B****, but what else is new?! Megan cracked me up though even in my worst mood. Megan's like lets jump on her, I'll pretend she's a trampoline, I always wanted one..lol. I guess you would have to see Chaz to think that's funny:) She's like 400 pounds. She's a FAT UGLY WITCH! Then Cynthia's telling me to fight for my man, go in there and get him, but I'm scared that he might choose money over love:( Me being love and Chaz being money. I guess Christopher doesn't understand that I'm not going to let him starve or anything if he leaves her, I'm just not going to make it easy like she does. I want him to do things for himself. Maybe I'm wrong and Chaz is right but I don't think everything should just be handed to somebody, I think that they should have to work for it. The only reason Chaz gives him all of her money is because she knows that he would leave her if she didn't. But it aggrivates me b/c I see how smooth he is with her maybe I'm blinded too. Maybe I am being used also and not even realizing it. It just sucks b/c I love Chris with all my heart and I have never been so comfortable with a guy before. I've known Chris for like 2 months now. I dated Jesse for a year, I'm more comfortable with Chris. How is that? Even little things, like I never did anything with Jesse, but Chris it's like he's different. I waited 2 years to sleep with somebody, i tried to be a born again virgin, and I dated Jesse during that time and had plenty of chances to sleep with him and other people, but I wasn't ready. And then I meet Chris, hang out with him and then 2 years of waiting down the drain...but i dont regret it at all...not yet anyways. Well we will see how things end up in my crazy ass life.