terrible eelings, amazing feelings
Mood:
down
Last night i broke down after george fed me spaghetti. i had half a cheese sndwich and half a donut. i'm such a pig, i'm up from 140 to 141, which is awful, and i can't sex it away because i have my rag. but last night, before i left george's house was amazing, god we haven't fooled around like that for a long time. but all i can think about right now is how terrible i was last night, as my punishment i can't eat for the rest of the day, except for a few nbbles if i get dizzy, but otherwise water water water. i'm going to see george again tonite. i love being able to see him this much, it seems like a lot to us both but we use to see each other everyday for hours, now we have been apart for so long that we don't know what the hell to do when we get to see each other. i have so much work to do, i have an essay to write and one to revise. plus my midterm for latin civ is thursday, which i know i'm going to bomb. i hate that class, i really do. but i love writing it is my oly joy lately, other than george of course. i sound so mushy, but i am actually deeply in love with him, we've been together for a year and a half, and we've had some really rough times. but we always pulls through, we always make it pass everything and end up cuddling each other to death. i'm so glad i've gotten back into my website and inot ana, i feel whole again, depressed, but whoe again. i hate the way i look, but i love having my 3 best friends supporting me: george, my journals, and of course ana. but i have to write a paper now. ttyl. and if anyone even bothers reading this, please gimme some feed back. i need an ana buddy anyway.