Edge was practically waiting to pounce on her when she came home, but Christian carefully explained what had happened, as Edge look blankly at him.
"But you didn't actually.." Christian shook his head,
"No. I'd never." Edge nodded.
"Good. Thanks for taking care of her, Christian. And thanks for not taking advantage of the situation." He smiled and decided to take Gabrielle from Christian.
"Edge….just let her sleep." He called out after his brother, who was carefully helping Gabrielle upstairs.
"I had no other intentions." He remarked, sighing as they reached her room, and the set her on the bed pulling up a chair, creating an all too familiar mockery of her first night feeding.
"Edge.." she said, voice shaking. He took her hand and answered.
"Yes, Gabrielle?"
"I'm so tired…"
"Lay down Gabrielle. Go to sleep." She shook her head slowly.
"No. I don't want to. I want to stay up with you."
"Please, just sleep. I'll stay right here, beside you. You need to sleep." His eyes pleaded with her, but she gazed back almost unaware.
"I want to stay up. I was thinking about something.."
"About what happened with Christian?" she mouthed his name and shook her head again.
"No, you. I realised that I don't know anything about you. Can you tell me? All of it?" Gabrielle asked, hope in her voice and eyes. As Edge stared into those eyes, he felt pain well up in him. He had been over this moment in his mind so many times, and was somehow not prepared for it. So he just sat, staring down at her hand enclosed in his and prayed they both forgot. He opened his mouth not knowing what to say, but hearing something Jeff had told him. You owe it to her. Jeff's voice rang through Edge's head. of course he was right, and he owed Gabrielle that and so much more. But if he couldn't accept his past, how could Gabrielle?
"Gabrielle…" he began, "I'm not ready. I can’t tell you."
"Why?" her voice had the curiosity of a child.
"Because I need to face it first. I need…I need a release from it before I can tell anyone."
"Oh." She lowered her eyes.
"I'm sorry, Gabrielle. I'm really sorry. But there are things I can't even understand myself, and I just - Time. I need time." She nodded slowly, and squeezed his hand. "Thank you." He said, trying to smile.
"Its okay. I owe it to you." She remarked, before letting his hand fall, and turning over to sleep. Edge pondered her words, and couldn’t help but notice her bitterness in her last phrase, but he never left her side.
Jeff nodded wordlessly, listening to Christian tell him about the night's events.
"And you're sure it was just the alcohol in the blood? Maybe you both slipped…"
"No, because even after I knew what was happening, she kept trying to get at me." He sighed.
"So you feel like you can't trust yourself around her anymore?" It was more of a statement rather than a question.
"Exactly. I mean, I would do anything with her, in a second. But I don't know if I can take her out hunting anymore. We could have easily gone further."
"But you didn't." Jeff pointed out.
"That’s hardly the point."
"But it could be, Christian. You showed restraint. You respect her relationship with Edge too much to let anything happen. You should be happy."
"Then why don’t I feel happy? Why do I feel like I'm being torn up every time I see them?"
"You love her too much. You may have been with her in the past, but you're not now."
"But I can be. In a second, I can be. I could have been tonight, but I wasn't. And I don't understand why." Christian sighed, and looked at Jeff who was deep in thought.
"Don't ask questions, Christian. Not too many. Just accept it. You cannot have Gabrielle." Christian's eyes hardened towards Jeff, and he abruptly left the room.