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Mood:  loud
Now Playing: Anything But Ordinary
July 12, 2005

You must be wondering, Annie: what in the world is going on? On the one hand, you have thoughts that are humanistic and harmonious about both your family and your work environment. But on the other hand, you also have a deep desire to destroy everything in order to start fresh! So you will have to choose. In any case, given the current climate and the fire inside of you, any sort of compromise will prove difficult. Be careful not to go too far overboard!

It’s weird.. Because this thing is right. Nobody knows it, but they don’t know me! Only a few people do, and it’s not anybody in my family! ‘Oh Annie! Do you really think your emotionally abused?’

YES! ‘No, I don’t.’

Gosh.. Everyone thinks they know me.. ‘Oh Annie you have the great life! I mean, a huge house, parents that still care about each other,’ NOT, my mom still acts like she’s using my dad! ‘You get a huge allowance, and you don’t have a bed time!’ That really means that my parents don’t care.. They are too afraid of being rejected to be real parents.. Why do you think that Amy is the way she is? My parents have anger management problems, and she was their target,, Now I am!

I hate it, because nobody has the ability to understand! They all think I’m over reacting.. I just wish someone could accept me for who I am! Not the girl that my friends think I am. Or the person my parents think I am.. That’s why I want to be emancipated, so I can start fresh!

Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: music
I'm tired.. Simple.. I'm trying to think of paybacks for Kevin and Amy.. I know, lamo.. but thats me! Yesterday I put frosting on Kevin and Amy's casadias.. STill don't know how to spell it.. ANd they thought it was sour cream..I missed it though :(.. O well..

I don't if I told you yet.. But Amy has a way of getting us kids taken away from our parents! Kinda cool as long as we get visitation and not a foster home! Either way I am getting emancipated with Em and Kirsten when we all turn 16 and have all the stuff to move out and live on our own.. Jordan is reading over my shoulder.. SO I am gonna go..

Bye,
Love,
Complicated Girl!

Mood:  irritated
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres.

I don't know why I decided to put this in here.

Kevin just started crying because my mom gave me the leftover casadias (I know that is totally wrong, but sew me). I tried to tell him that if they meant that much.. He could have them.. But nooo.. He comes out and starts yelling at me.

A few minutes later I was unlocking my door, and he walks by (It goes something like this..
"You know Kevin, if you never listen to anybody.. Your gonna end hating everybody."
He turns around and yells at me.. Then goes downstairs.
Amy: "You have no way of treating him like that you little fat ass.. You have no right to be a bitch to everybody."
Me: "But you do?"
Amy:" I'm not a bitch to anybody" Then she comes over and punches me.

She's still got a stick up her butt..

Anyway.. So thats that, and now I'm quoting the bible.

Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Oh, Brother Where Are't Tho.. I don't know how to spell it
Todays little excerpt is from the book of Amy..
I wanted to rent a movie, and she would only walk down there with me if I rented her one too. I said okay.. And then she kept calling me a bitch.. Which is pretty hard because dogs can't type.. Let alone rent a movie.. Anyway, then she punched me.. And long story short.. I ended running home and hiding all my stuff in my room.. Now my keys are in the freezer so she won't find them.. Forget about that role model thing.. I don't know why ANYONE would want to her to be their role model! I hate it.. She can beat me up all she wants and I can't do anything about it.. My parents don't even care!

Amy.. Take the stick out of your butt!!!!
See ya tomorrow!

Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: Nothing.. I am listening to Jordan play spyro
Jordan has his stupid friends over! I hate it.. Plus, they ate my Top Roman! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh! Anywho.. How are you guys? I'm okay.. Just hungry! Has anyone ever seen the movie The Man In The Moon? If you haven't, you should. I have never cried so much for a movie! I'm babysitting my brother again
:( :(. I have to almost everyday of the summer.. and I don't get anything for it.
ACtually, I get 5$ for every 21 days I babysit.. Rip off!

Hey there!
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Country
Hey! If you're new..(since we're all new)Here's a little review.

I hate my life three fourths the time I live in it! My parents are so busy trying to be parents that they don't even notice the things that matter. Here's a little flash back for you.. A few days ago my dad started yelling at my older sister Amy about a jump rope he lost a year ago, or.. My sister beats me up alot, and then my parents come home and I tell them "Amy, don't beat up your sister"
Amy: "I didn't"
Parents: "Okay!"

Yeah.. Anyway! I love country, and some of the stuff most teenagers listen to. I am thirteen and my birthday is December 12. I went to two schools last year, Cedar Park and Whitford. I have a choice of which I want to go to next year.. And I have no clue which one I want!

My best friends are Kirsten Ann Hatch and Emmalyn Sarah Orzol. Kirsten is the kind of girl who is obsessed with clothes, while Em is obsessed with anime. Other close friends are Natalie who is just like me.. And Tiffany who is also like me except in foster care.

I like to sing.. and *cough cough* dance.. I love to write and read, and I am totally obsessed with the internet!

My family contains too many people to count! My mom, my dad. My oldest sister Beth and her husband Michael. Their daughter Emily and their son Ethan. My other older sister Amy. My older brother Kevin, and my younger brother Jordan.
Mom: She trys too hard! She hates to be rejected, so she'll say she's gonna do something, like stop you from leaving.. But you can walk out of the door without her saying anything.
Dad: Anger Management! He'll come up with the most random things to yell about! He can be ausome though. Every weekend we go to Tully's coffe house and get coffee and bagels, then we drive around downtown.
Beth: Beth is one of the most ausome you will ever meet! She is 21 and has a 6 year old and a 2 year old. Beth is nice and understanding.. Which is really cool for a 21 year parent!
Michael:Michael.. He is cool, he understands me.. He askes about my day, or school.. Or just life which is cool because he is my brother in law!
Amy: Amy can be nice sometimes.. But other than that she is a total jerk! She smokes, and does drugs.. And she hangs out with the wrong people, she hates my parents.. And as far as anyone else can tell, they hate her too.
Kevin:.. Lets just say that Kevin is kinda gross.. Not that I should know or anything.. But he has used condoms in his desk drawer, and Playboy magazines on his shelf.. He is cool though.. He gives me his leftover chips :) and lets me play his games.. But he also is my dad's favorite, because he doesn't do anything to get in trouble.. If I tell him stuff about dad, then the next thing I know.. Dad is talking to me about it.
Jordan: SPOILED BRAT!!!!!! But in his other life he is cute and nice.. Even though he plays with boys my age and guns and swords, and get everything he wants.. Anyway.. If I'm at the store with Jordan and my mom, and Jordan asks for something.. But if I'm not there, then he gets it. *whispers* He cries when I tap him on the shoulder!
Emily: She literally is a brat.. She was born before Beth and Michael were married. She is also spoiled, and can be a little*cough cough* annoying. She expects me to do whatever she wants, and she sleeps with the light on :(.
Ethan: What can I say for a two year old? He is cute.. But drools. He is sweet, but has the evilist side ever. He doesn't go to sleep when you put him in his crib.. Andif tou leave him there, then he will fling himself over the side.
Me: I don't fit in.. I am the middle child.. So I don't get much attention! I go to Tully's every weekend with my dad, and sometimes on "dates" with my mom. I am confused every time someone asks me a question.. And my life is too complicated to even start to explain.. But I'll try..
I have to go.. So later

~Complicated Girl