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Thorns and Smiles

The beginning-

Thorns and smiles

Trowa’s point of view- Trowa Barton thinks back to the last time he smiled. Probably when he saw HIM. The perfect person. The innocent laughing eyes and long beautiful hair...............but then, Trowa thought sourly. He found out this perfection will never think of him as….. a lover?

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Duo layed back in his seat. He stared up at the stars and sniffed in the breeze. Life was wonderful. Except for one thing: He loved another. He longed to hold HIM and murmur soft words into his ears at night, to hold him, and taste his lips which held sweet nectar.. ~Stop,~ Duo told himself. You'll never have him to yourself, that damn Quatre.....

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Trowa Shut his eyes and almost smiled. Until something bounced on him.

"Oh, Trowa, isn't it a wonderful day?" Quatre's annoying voice broke into his nice day. Trowa opened one eye. He could see HIM over there...by Hiro. Trowa could have almost cried as HE helped Hiro up, laughing. He got up, as if to walk over there, but stopped. As Quatre jumped on his back again, knocking them both over.

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Duo helped Hiro up. He spied a quick glance at HIM and quickly shied away. He was with Quatre, the one whom he knew Trowa loved. Dou was jealous, and he wanted to lie in Trowa's arms, to play with his bangs, to whisper and giggle with him and jump on his back like Quatre did. It wasn't fair, dammit! He loved HIM, and would give his life to save his love. It's not fair, I LOVE HIM, and I want to play with his bangs, and whisper words of love to HIM.

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Trowa hissed and dumped Quatre on the grass. Big tears welled up in Quatre's eyes.

"Trowa.........." Quatre whimpered. Trowa coldly turned his back, and watched. Duo's eyes met his..... and he thought he caught something. ~Stupid. Wishful thinking....~ he thought. He watched as Hiro smiled and tossed the ball to Duo. ~Damn Hiro!~

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Duo caught the ball and looked over to Trowa. He stood for a second and looked at his loves eyes. ~So beautiful, I love him, more than anything.~ A sharp voice entered Duo's thoughts.

"Duo, hurry up! Pass me the ball! Before I tackle you for it!"Hiro yelled. Duo shook his head. He threw the ball, and Hiro caught it. He looked back at Trowa who was now trying to calm Quatre's crying. ~I want him to calm MY crying...~ He thought, wistfully.

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Trowa watched Duo play with Hiro. He wanted to be where Hiro was. Trowa turned and walked, with Quatre hanging all over his arm.

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Hiro wrapped his arm around Duo's shoulder. Duo did the only thing he could: Let Hiro. If he resisted Hiro would find out, and then Trowa... He loved Trowa and loved anything Trowa said to him whether it was "Move," or "Good Morning." Anytime anything required Trowa to touch or hold him in anyway was precious to Duo, he cherished this. Hiro leaned in and blew in Duo's ear. Duo turned and smiled at Hiro. It was the only thing he could do. Duo wrapped his arm around Hiro's waste, and leaned his head on his shoulder. He wished that it were Trowa that were holding him. But, Trowa loved Quatre, and he did not love Duo, in Duo's eyes. He watched Trowa and saw how he worked with his lover.

Duo sighed. Wufei was up to his usual antics. Complaining that he hated living in a gay household. Duo had received the word "Kisama" many times. Luckily for Wufei, Hiro wasn't around. It wasn't that Duo no longer liked Hiro. But he LOVED Trowa. Without Trowa, he felt he would have dissolved into nothing a long time ago. Trowa was great. Duo loved when he now had solo missions with Trowa. Under his breath he would exclaim "Sugoi!" many times.

"Duo, what's wrong?" A voice entered his thoughts. He looked up to see Quatre, just standing there. Duo, seeing him as a rival decided to be cold.

"Nothing." He replied, closing his eyes and tilting his nose in the air.

"I noticed Wufei had been extra mean to you, so I was wondering if you were okay." Quatre said. Duo turned an eye to him.

"Well, sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me, at least not as much as a bullet." Duo said, remembering an old phrase he had learned.

"Hai, that's true. Sorry to bother your thoughts." Quatre said, getting up to leave Duo's room. Hiro asked Duo last night if he would move out with Hiro. Duo held off. To leave Trowa, that would hurt more than anything... But I can't tell Hiro that I love Trowa... What should I do? Ask Trowa. I'll tell him it's a friend of mine. Feeling satisfied with himself, Duo heaved himself off of the bed. He went downstairs to ask Trowa what his "friend" should do. Duo smiled to himself that Trowa and he would have a long conversation together.

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Trowa stared as Duo entered, and sat down. Both stared at each other.

"So, Trowa. I have this friend and h---uhh she likes this guy, but her current boyfriend likes her and uhhhh she wants to know what to do." Duo lamely finished. Trowa stared at Duo, a slight bit of shock showing in his eyes. ~Like, how I feel~

"I guess I'd tell h-her to tell her current boyfriend how h-she felt and uhhh...." Trowa trailed off and abruptly left the room. Quatre leaned on the door opposite Duo. Duo looked at Quatre.

"sooo......you and.......him?" Quatre asked. Duo stared, how did Quatre know? Quatre walked over, and slammed Duo into the wall. ~He's strong for a wimp.......~

"Listen. Leave. HIM. Alone. He's. Mine." Quatre hissed and left, running after Trowa.

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Trowa saw Duo running upstairs...... To Hiro. Trowa watched him go. Quatre suddenly appeared.

"Hey, Trowa....." Quatre said, giggling. Trowa didn't say a thing.. ~Duo...........gomen.~

Duo ran upstairs and into his/Hiro's room. Hiro was waiting. He pounced on Duo and began .........'taking' off his clothes. Duo protested greatly. The door was still open......

Trowa heard a *thump* and a 'hey!' from Duo's room. He walked up the same stairs......and saw Duo, and Hiro. It looked as if some brown haired nude guy was attacking Duo. He angrily turned and ran outside, hot tears pouring down his cheeks.

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"Hiro..." there was a muffled cry as Duo was pushed on the floor. There was nothing Duo could do but kick the door closed. He was going to be so tired that night...

Trowa felt angry. Angry he couldn't have Duo, angry that Hiro had such influence over Duo, angry that he hadn't noticed Duo until a while ago. He watched him so closely. He knew everything about Duo. Weight, height, favorite color, birthday, his hobbies, everything. And now, Hiro had him. ~Well, I know another thing~ he thought, with a small smirk, ~to get what you want from him you have to be forceful.~ With that he felt a pounce. He turned to see Quatre. He knew what Quatre wanted. ~Well, he thought., ~might as well get this over with....~ He let Quatre lead them to their room with several glares from Wufei along the way.

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Duo walked downstairs, yawning. Hiro followed, grinning. Wufei, next to them murmured something about 'justice'. Quatre and Trowa weren't there.

"ummmmm." Quatre stood there. Red eyes and blinking. Everyone turned and looked at him.

"Has anyone seen Trowa-chan?" Duo felt his blood boil at QUATRE calling Trowa that.

"No."

"iie."

"no."

Quatre sighed. Duo narrowed his eyes.

"So, where is he, Quatre?" Duo asked. Quatre met his eyes and looked away.

"Mission."

"...." Hiro was wordless.

"After Catherine. Said he was fine to do it alone. I think it was a trap. We......we.......'said our goodbyes' and he left early this morning g. I guess all of us are just a convenient F**K." Quatre said bitterly.

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Duo looked down. ~So, he's gone. I miss him already.~ Duo felt like crying.

"His own fault for going off alone." Hiro said, with a calm look. Duo nearly jumped on him and drove daggers through his throat. Qautre took that role.

"How can you say that? What about Trowa?" Qautre said, nearly screaming.

"Well, if he needs help he'll call." Wufei said casually. Duo just looked down. A plate of eggs was shoved in front of him. Duo had merely put on a long shirt and underwear that morning, he had woken up to find Hiro, surprisingly still asleep and still in the house. Both were naked. Duo still felt tired and he wanted to cry himself to sleep. Hiro had only pulled on a pair of briefs. Wufei hated things like this. This men being paired together. It was wrong. Duo just sat. He felt tired from the night before, but now he was using every ounce of strength to stop from sobbing. He had pulled his hair into a low ponytail instead of braiding it. Hiro loved running his hands through Duo's hair. Duo liked it too. Hiro yawned.

He leaned over to Duo and whispered:"I wish every night was like last night. You were amazing." Duo felt different now. Before Hiro, he had his virginity. He lost it to Hiro. He had liked girls before he met Hiro. But now he loved Trowa. He excused himself from the table. He ran to his room. Hiro followed. He pushed aside with his foot discarded clothing and er, some other things not necessary to mention. He sat down next to Duo and undid his hair. He stroked Duo's hair. "Tired too? That was a hard night. Very hard. I'm surprised Wufei didn't complain. He usually does. But last night was unbelievable." Duo had snored off by now.

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Duo woke, feeling refreshed and ready at whatever the day had to throw at him. Except, Quatre. Quatre was sobbing at Duo. Both of the boys looked at each other and knew exactly why they were........ On speaking terms.

"Duo. He uhhhhhh said to tell you 'gomen' and that an old clown with patched feelings is at the fallen girl. Whatever that means." Quatre said, mad at Duo. Duo, who Trowa had eyes for. Duo blinked. ~Old clown, fallen, girl.~ Duo gave a shout and ran downstairs, in his PJ's.

"DUO! I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH........INJUSTICE MEN AND .......YOU.....COULD AT......LEAST DRESS!" Wufei yelled.

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Duo gasped. "Gee Wufei, didn't know you felt that way...." Duo looked at the spatula in Wufei's hands. On his scantily clad bottom and naked legs that _could_ hurt. "Gee, gotta go." Duo rushed upstairs to take a hot shower. When he got out, Hiro was waiting for him. "Hey Hiro. Gotta get dressed. Wu-man downstairs has a mean spatula, and on me it could hurt. More than being hit by you." He rushed to his drawers, pulled out all he would need, and quickly got dressed. "I'm going to the supermarket!" Duo yelled. There was an ahem behind him. He turned around to see Hiro standing there. Hiro tapped his cheek. Duo rushed over, gave a peck and left. 'Now to start looking for Trowa, no Quatre, no Wufei, I don't have to hide my feelings from Hiro.' Luckily, the perfect soldier didn't have much knowledge in love so he didn't know Duo loved Trowa. 'I'll tell him only if I know Trowa loves me as much as I love him, which I doubt... Where are you, my perfection?'

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Duo grinned and ran off towards town. Trowa was bound to be there. Skipping along he was in town and on the road to the circus. The street was ruined. Chunks of pavement everywhere and the street was cracked and torn. People eyed him with suspicion. The circus was just up ahead. Was. Only the remains of a circus tent were all that was left of the bright colorful troupe.

"Catherine? Trowa?" He called. A dirty Catherine stood by the ruined tent. He ran over to her. "Catherine?"