Written by Jaimie
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
"Rose Dawson." The name had never meant the importance it contained until the second Iíd announced it. The importance of oneís last name didnít ring through my mind until that moment, either. The background of a being, or the rank of their title. Perhaps even the love one contains for another. And the instant Iíd applied it to my own first name was the very second Iíd changed my own existence.
There hadnít been a moment when he had strayed from the center of my mind, and not a second where guilt didnít sink into my heart. And the many times Iíd tried to erase our past from my being, my heart would instantaneously rewrite it for me. It was a book of our love. So I accepted it with every ounce of pride I had attained, though I left no pride for his soul. I never applied my love for him in any interaction I later acquired to others. But that didnít mean he wasnít always there. I never let go.
I was always looking for his love in every aspect of my life. And then I realized that the one thing I was looking for was the only thing I could not see. And it was then that I affixed his final wishes to my life. I couldnít change the love weíd created because I couldnít see it. And I did not wish it any other way. I never let go, even though I let another come almost as close as he had to my heart.
The other had been almost to the point of Jackís soul, but even as we grew old together, he never squarely got there. I had even tried to prevent it at times, even though I knew it couldnít ensue. Besides, Iíd found another because of Jack simply to fulfill his hopes for my life--the life he wished to live while in heaven with me. Everywhere I went I looked for him. Jack Dawson. My love.
"Donít agonize, Jack. I wonít ever let go," I whispered the words. My heart had never stopped reaching out to him. And I knew in heaven he'd always held a tight grasp to it. We'd both never let go. Both hearts went on, although they were both kept in separate areas. Both went on.