Turmoil

I don't know what to do

I don't know what to say, Yet I do know why I feel this way I'm drifting in a sea on endless waves of confusion Wishing I could end this strange delusion
Drifting further out to sea Away from the Father that I know loves me I see myself adrift yet no one can pull me in How far must I fall Before I get up again?
I see my sin surround me I feel the heartache of those I love Yet stop this I cannot Without intervention from above
Take my freewill Lord, Do with me as you may I know that I am sinning That I have gone astray
Take these desires from me Though with out friends here I'll be Only those unseen faces That lift my arms for me
Thank you for those friends Even though we've never met For all that I'll have left will be on the internet
My family will surround me though I turn away Trying hard to help me If only I'd let them be
This turmoil is within me not outside for all to see Hidden deep within my soul Crying hard to become whole

@jwb 6/30/02