What did you really want? did you want to be the girl everyone said that you were? They all said"..such a pretty face.." but you knew they weren't being truthful, people have to say things like that, isn't that right? Behind your back, they were probably far more critical about you than you could ever be.
So you buried emotions you should have dealt with and set about "fixing" things yourself and you really messed it up and now you're stuck, aren't you? You shouldn't have expected so much of yourself, no one else does. So, I ask you again, what was it you really wanted?
I want to breathe again, I want to be happy again, I want to feel again and most of all I want to be me again. But you took me from myself and I despise you for that.
Did you think you didn't exist anymore? You do. You've just been loitering in the background, keeping quiet about it all. You let this happen and keep on happening.
So this is yourself giving up on yourself. Good luck, (you'll need it) I hope to see you again someday, the real you, and maybe you can forgive me for abandoning you.
All the best:
Michelle (myself)
