Its all starting to make sense
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Cemetary- Act 1
Topic: My day today
Today was sort of an epephiny of a day. The day at work was not that good. I was sick most of the day. God made it possible for me to at least spend the first four hours of work on the computer system taking my tests. That helped allot.
But now on to more important things. For the past few weeks God has been showing me a few things that I was too dense to catch in all of my years as a christian. God has been putting things and more strongly PEOPLE in my life that has showed me some of the places in my life that I JUST WASNT GETTING IT. For example, as always there is Kim, Her humble acceptance of all people no matter where they are or who they are or what they are doing is one of the biggest helps to me I can have. Then there is my friend Jaime. Jaime is the type of person that before Jesus I would have kicked the crap out of and even up to a month or so ago I swore he was a pansy homo goth witch or something. Turns out he has a better understanding of what Jesus meant by LOVE THY NEIGHBOR than I do. He has been a christian for less time than me but has a gentle spirit that is very much a help for me. Then there is my friend Jess E. She has a way about her that just shows Jesus...But in a very real way. She simply believes and therefore acts like she believes. Then there is Wayno...He is a man that it seems that the world uses to wipe its butt on. But still, Wayno manages to preservere and always have a kind word for me no matter what tangent I am rambling on about. He , in doing this shows he is a Man of God. Then there is my buddy Paul who simply in his meek and kind way prays for me and just hopes that I get my head out of my butt and open my heart to what Jesus has in store for me.
Then last but not least is an unlikely person that isnt even a Christian I dont think. He is from Shri Lanka...whereever that is...But he is a thinker, and a man that is in search of harmony and peaceful cohabitation with all and everything around him....He is a very smart man and I could learn much from him by just observing.
It seems in all of this post I have neglected to mention what this great thing is that God has showed me. God has shown me the state of Modern American Christianity and has shown me it has come up wanting. We have left the commandments of Love your neighbor and perverted it into Love your neighbor if he is enough like you that he dont irritate or annoy you. Modern Christianity has traded Brotherhood and unity into a small celled self righteous terrorist organization that slanders and condemns everyone who does not share their self righteous Jihad if you will. I do not wish to be called a Christian anymore because of what that has become. Christian is just another word for self righteous judge. I wish to just be known as a Servant of Jesus Christ and nothing more. For in reality I am nothing more than a man who wants to love like Jesus loved and forgive like Jesus forgives. Beond that, in Me, Jim the man, there is nothing good nor worth mentioning.