Dear Goku,
How are things going in the Next Dimention? Do you miss me like I miss you? I missed you terribly. Gohan is feeling guilty about you dying. Bulma and the others also missed you very much even Vegita. Even thought, I think he just wants to take you to the Next Dimention himself.
I don't know if you know yet but I'm having a baby. Yes, a baby. I didn't really thought I can have another one when you died. I guess it's like a final gift from you to me. I remember back when we had Gohan, you were so excited and happy about it. Even though, you did scream when you saw the needle. I wish you can be here with me when I deliver this baby.
It's my fault that you died. I know Gohan blamed himself but it's my fault overall. I shouldn't try to be so persistent in Gohan not learning martial arts. Ever since you died, I kept on wondering what if I recognized Gohan's power before. What if I helped you train him instead of ramming his head into the books? How much stronger would he have become? Would you have lived through the Cell Games?
I realized now, if Piccolo haven't taken Gohan away and train him, you and the world would've died at the hands of Vegita. Every time I think back, I realize how powerful Gohan is and how powerful he could've been. Why didn't I see it before you died? Why didn't I have the same faith in my own son's abilities like you did? I'm his mother, I should've seen how strong he is.
I know that when you told me about the androids coming and Gohan's role, I didn't want him to train and fight only to die when he's still a little boy. I said that the safety of the world doesn't matter as much as Gohan's studies. But now, I wish I haven't said those words. I don't care about the world as long as Gohan and you are safe. I don't want to loose my baby. That's why I had Gohan study.
They say that parents often learn about parenting from raising their first child. That's true with us. I learned that the world is constantly in danger and unless we know how to defend ourselves, we don't stand a chance. So, this baby will be different. I will help him or her learn his Saiyan side. I will help him learn how to fight and defend himself like you would've. I will still have him study but maybe not as much as Gohan. I will not lose any more of my friends and family due to my stubbornness.
I will not fail this time.
Love,
Chi Chi
