"Failure is not an option."

From past.....(Tuesday, October 28, 2003).....

::Well last night after hitting the lights, everything felt the same. My heart still pounding, the adrenaline still flowing and the confidence to get my first win still in my head. The late night hours were very hard on me. I couldn't sleep and we had to wake up at the crack of dawn to start our training. My night couldn't get any worse. Not only did I toss and turn all night there were a couple that had to make their "lovemaking" be heard. Not only did we hear it we felt it. The vibration on the walls and the ever growing moans and screams of "yeah, yeah and stop it". The couple in the other room were loud and rowdy and I thought that I was the only one they were disturbing but I was wrong. In fact they were disrupting the entire floor of its sleep and they almost had to get kicked out of the hotel. Meanwhile through all of this Sean slept like a baby. You know I just don't get how every week Sean can sleep so peacefully not knowing of the dangers that awaits him on every Wednesday. Before really going to bed and catching about an hour of sleep, Sean managed to call the room service for the wakeup at exactly 5 A.M. He figured the lazy hotel workers wouldn't do their job and wake us up and we soon found out that he was right. Me and Sean end up getting up at 5:30 A.M, get washed and cleaned up, packed up and checked out of the hotel. We were falling a little behind of the scheduled day and on time and we had to travel from the hotel that was in Oakland to my hometown of Sacremento. The energy and the adrenaline is still flowing through my veins and I'm hyped for this day and especially returning home to Sacremento. The drive there wasn't exactly the greatest but we kept each other company by playing games and having music to entertain our needs.::

::During the year Sean had his company World Heavyweight Wrestling open he established several training facilities all across America and there happened to be on in Sacremento. We arrived in Sac town at 10 O'Clock, did a few things to get used to and settled into the city and started the training at about noon where we met up Jeffery Archibald who we saw camping out in front. On our agenda were for Jeff and Sean to teach me some new maneuvers. Today they hoped to show me several high-flying moves and the move they were trying to teach me was Jeff's finisher called the Death Penalty. What it basically is, is a shooting star press and then on the way down change it into a leg drop. It's a hard move to accomplish but these men have faith in me. I have faith in me. After several tries and with sweat pouring down my body Sean decides that we should take a break.::

The Canadian Sensation: Stacy you've been a class act today and have been full of energy but I think we should take a short break.

Stacy Andretti: It sounds like a plan Sean. But what do I do until we start again?

The Canadian Sensation: There are cameras around, I think you know what to do.

::Actually I didn't. All Sean taught me was the fundamentals and the do's and don'ts of the wrestling world. Never once did he mention anything about cameras. Or did he?::

Stacy Andretti: Sean I don't know how to...

The Canadian Sensation: There you go doubting yourself again Stacy. Listen here, you've traveled with me for this long and you've been there through everything and you see what I do on and off the cameras. Stacy you have to have no fear in what you say and do. You don't have to be shy say whatever is in your heart and just let it flow.

::Maybe Sean was right maybe I should give it my all everytime I step out in front of the fans or everytime I see a camera. We only live one life right? I've never been a huge fan of this sport but I've seen a lot and I've heard a lot. Maybe I can do this. I got faith, I could do it.::

Stacy Andretti: Hmm...Sean you're right. I've never seen it that way but I'll make sure to take your advice starting now.

The Canadian Sensation: We'll be listening.

::So here it is. This is my time to shine. My time in the spotlight and my time to show everyone what it's like and how it feels to be me. I can't mess up this opportunity of a lifetime. I have to put my best foot forward and show the fans and everyone that I am the real deal and that I will become the CHZ Women's Champion. The Elite Impact Players have fought this battle while I watched on but now I put on my helmet, grab a bat and get ready to start swinging. Sean and Jeff left the ring where we were standing and they went to doing their own thing while I sat on the top rope thinking of what I wanted to do, What I wanted to say and how I was gonna say it. There were so many thoughts running through my head at once and I tried to flush the previous thoughts of the "what if's" and actually try to feel it. The cameras closed in on me sitting on the top rope with my hand in my lap, with my hair down. I flipped it back and turned my head to the right where the camera could only catch my right eye. At the corner of my left I could see Sean getting prepared to watch every word I say while Jeff went to the weight room. I swallow my pride and let out a sigh as Sean looks at me drinking his water anticipating when I'm going to start. More sweat starts to pour and my mouth opens but nothing can come out. Sean looks at me confused but then decides to give me a chance before he finally jumps in. Good thing he did.::

Stacy Andretti: Everything feels so new to me. The wrestling, the cameras, the glitz, the glamour and just everything about this lifestyle. It feels so unrealistic what I'm doing now...the training, the cameras, the autographs...the fans. Just a few months ago I was standing at ringside cheering the Elite Impact Players during this long fight to the top and now I'm in there with them trying to prove ourselves worthy. Just exactly why have I chosen this as my new lifestyle to live is the same way Sean has. I think this may be something in the long run I'll come to learn and love. Now it's my turn, my turn to prove and to show everyone what Stacy Andretti is made of. Jessica Lyger can second doubt and talk all she wants but I want this match, I want this win and I want it more than ever. Sometimes I do wonder where would my life be if I never decided to marry Sean, or tell him to train me. You see I don't worry about win, loss records like J Stevenson, Matt Scheffert and Sean does what I worry about is learning from my mistakes, improving them and changing what I did to make myself a better superstar. What I worry about is being the absolute best. What I want to be is the absolute best. As of now I haven't proven myself yet but I will. I will become the best, I will become the CHZ Women's Champion. Everyone has faith in me and I have faith in me. For Stacy Andretti...is...next!

::Those words were from the heart. I can do it, I can beat Jessica Lyger. I know I can and even though it might not happen it will eventually happen because I will make it happen. No one can put a stop to my future because I control my future. Jessica if I don't win, it won't be the last you see of me. All my second guessing is over, my fear and doubts are over and if not this Wednesday...your winning streak will be nothing but over. I look out of the corner of my eye to see Sean slowly making his way up to his feet. He slides in the ring and puts his hand on my shoulders. I look up at him with the fire still burning and I feel a tear run down my face. He wipes it away and he looks into my eyes and I look into his.::

The Canadian Sensation: Stacy I can see that this match means everything to you. Don't worry about what she says about you just go in and prove her wrong and whatever happens, happens. If you don't win you dust yourself off and get up again. You'll beat her Stacy because I know you will. You are impressive, you are all talent and Lyger is all mouth. She's cocky but she has every reason to be but after this week I want you to give her a less reason to be cocky, whether you win or lose. Give it everything you have and show...no...mercy.

Stacy Andretti: Well Sean, what about what she's been saying about you?

The Canadian Sensation: I'd rather quit CHZ before facing her, Jessica Lyger isn't worth my time and her stating that she can take on the guys in this federation and beating this is a big claim and call to make. I have more things to do with my time Stacy. Me and J Stevenson are trying to make history and be the best CHZ Tag Team Champions this world has ever seen and facing Jessica Lyger isn't gonna make us be that.

::I guess he made a point. Why would Sean Andretti a man who has silenced the critics over and over stoop to such a low level to face Jessica Lyger...a woman. That wouldn't make such sense. Sean is much more experienced and talented to even think of an idea such as that. But I guess anything for attention right? A noise was heard indicating that someone was coming into the facility. We all stopped what we were doing and turned our attention to the person entering and it was J Stevenson. He looked great and ready to train for his match against Sean. J moved towards the treadmill where Jeff Archibald continued his workout. Stevenson walked up to it and set his bag there. Then taking a deep breath he looked at Jeff and pressed a button on the treadmill that made it faster. Sean and I didn't understand where he was going with it so we watched on. He then pressed it again and it sped up more. Jeff couldn't keep up and fell. Stevenson nodded his head and turned to machine off. Archibald looked to have hit his lip and it began to bleed slightly. Jeff got up and walked towards J Stevenson and he looked ready for a fight.::

Jeff Archibald: Hey what the hell was that for?!

J Stevenson: Don't get mad at me Jeff I was helping you out.

Jeff Archibald: And how was that you moron to help me fall?

J Stevenson: I don't like your attitude Jeffery. Don't forget I'm the one who agreed to train your pathetic ass.

::At this time Sean couldn't bear to watch this and he left the ring to deal with this issue. I decided to follow him.::

The Canadian Sensation: You guys...cut this shit out. We're all Elite Impact Players here. J ever since Jeff has gotten here and we all agreed to train him you've treated him like nothing. J you've treated Jeff like he's second fiddle to us and he's not. We're all equal here and no more than that. I let Jeff in because he's fresh new talent. He can be the new breed of this faction when we're retired and he's still going. We can turn this guy around from a great competitor to an Elite competitor. I've done it with you J and I plan to do it with Jeff right here and with the talent, experience and knowledge of the ring in you...Stevenson, Scheffert and I. Jeff will sure to be an Elite competitior if not the greatest. But what I want you guys to do is to stop this and apologize. We don't need to have this shit in our own backyard...we already have enough problems in our front yard.

Jeff Archibald: I'm down with that.

J Stevenson: Yeah...I guess I'm in.

::They both smiled and shook hands as Sean looked on but I was focused on other things. J Stevenson and Jeff Archibald went to do their own thing as I pulled Sean to the side.::

Stacy Andretti: Sean?

The Canadian Sensation: Yeah, Stacy what's the problem?

Stacy Andretti: How do you think I did, with, with...the cameras?

The Canadian Sensation: Absolutely Perfect.

::With Sean saying that, it really made me feel great and confident going into Wild tommorrow. Jessica Lyger you better be ready because I'm gonna demonstrate what a real woman is made of.::

To Present....(Tuesday, November 11, 2003).....

::So once again here we are. The night before Wednesday Night Wild goes to air in front of the national public and once again I come up on the short end of the stick. Once again I faced Jessica Lyger and lost. I believed in myself that I'd get the job done and I wanted it more than ever but I failed. But being apart of this group the saying is...failure is not an option and losing to Jessica Lyger twice is not a fact I can live with. Jessica Lyger you probably think I'm give up fighting you but no I'm not. Even though you have Melanie at Hostile Intent, I'm gonna be a thorn in your side and I'm gonna take you down and defeat you whether it's this week, next week, or next month. I want this and I get what I want. I'm gonna eventually beat you whether your Women's Champ or not and why?...because I'm focused, I'm ready and I'm prepared. This week I face Nina and Jessica Lyger but there is nothing on the line. But for me, it is. Being 0 and 2 isn't much of a confidence builder but after this week I plan to raise my confidence and gain faith because faith is what got me here and faith is what is gonna get me to stay.::

::Today has been a peaceful day but a day nonetheless. So far it has gone good in Seattle, Washington. We did a little sight seeing and I picked up some souvenirs like I always do. I decided to get away from everything by taking a walk in the park. It's just such a nice warm day today. Something that Seattle isn't known for. It's about 65 degrees but it's a warm 65 degrees. The leaves are turning red and orange, the birds are flying and chirping and the people are out to enjoy it all before old man winter begins his damage. As for me, I'm doing nothing. Just enjoying the fresh air and feeding the birds. Sean couldn't be here to enjoy the weather with me because he went to do a house show with J Stevenson but he doesn't know what he's missing. While feeding the birds some bread I see several cameras around me but it isn't anything to get worried about because I know who they are. They are CHZ cameras. I guess they found out where I was and are so anxious to get a piece of me. They want Stacy Andretti, they'll have her but again this won't be easy.::

Stacy Andretti: So here I am. Sitting in a park, feeding birds with a camera pointed at me while I sit here and talk to each and every one of our fans. But really what is there to talk about? The same old stuff I've been saying for the last few weeks? No, instead there really isn't anything to talk about except my match tommorrow night against Nina and Jessica Lyger. You see last week I faced Jessica Lyger alone and I lost. This week I face her and Nina. But what exactly has changed from then and now?...a whole lot and more because I did what I said I was gonna do. I said I would give it all I had and I did even though I lost again. 0 and 2 is not impressive to the eyes of many and one of those eyes are mine. Jessica Lyger I believe you are 11 and 0 and you're still going strong but you see I'm different than everyone else. I don't care about numbers. Numbers doesn't play a factor when you're getting beat up and numbers really doesn't play a factor anywhere. But this week Jessica you think that the numbers are stacked on you when I'll prove tommorrow that the odds and numbers will be stacked against you. And why?...because like I said before I went over our match Lyger. I saw my mistakes and I believe I've improved on them and now tommorrow night will be my time to show you that I am a better superstar. To show you and Nina that I am the better woman...and I've always have. I want and strive to be the absolute best in the women's division and if it means to defeat either Nina or Jessica Lyger then I'll do it. I'll do anything to be the best the business has seen and I'll work hard to prove to you Lyger that I'm not the one to second guess or to play with. Jessica I'm gonna be the thorn in your side, and I won't go away...not now...not ever until I get what I want and be what I want and that's a champion. I want to be the CHZ Women's Champion and your all that stands in my way of being it and it's about time you move away because I...Stacy Andretti am NEXT!!!!!

::It was short, simple and to the point but they were meaningful words. I will get what I want and I'll do anything for it. Being the best is in our blood and I will make sure to keep up with tradition. Tonight, the week after that and until my body tells me to quit. Until then you'll see me and for Nina and Jessica you will see me too. In the ring and at Wild so be ready.::