"Won't Back Down" by Fuel

YEAH!!!

I know what darkness means
(and the void you learned from me)
The isolation steams
(So I think it wants to bleed)
The echoes in my brain
(All the things you said to me)
You took my everything
Now I'm coming for you!!!!!

(Chorus)
I won't back down
I will not bow
I've come to bring you hell
I can’t forget
Things you did
I've come to bring you hell!!!!!

The shadows that you see
(In the places that you sleep)
Are memories of me
(Better pray your soul to keep)
The truth behind your eyes
(You know the thing you never see)
Your darkest little lies
I'm coming for you!!!!!

(Chorus Again)

All the scars that never heal
All the wounds that will not seal
I will not forget the day
These memories never fall

(Chorus Again)

I've come to bring you hell!!!!!

[New Years Day: "My Thoughts"]

~*Won't Back Down by Fuel, such a talented song, by a talented band. The song that kicked off so many explosive Wednesday Nights of Wild and the song that means so much. Look at the lyrics, look at the theme it provides. Ritchie Danko, Chris Raines, I think it sums up the last month and a half don't ya think?.....well you know what...I don't give a damn what you think. Ritchie Danko I'm sure you thought after witnessing me carried out on a stretcher at Hostile Intent, battered, bruised and injured that everything was done. Danko I know you thought that was I was out. I know you thought you got the job done and hell you did. You did EXACTLY what you said you were gonna do. You took me out and you took my tag team championship but everyone has a bad night...no? November 26, 2003 was a bad night, a night that ended the era of the Elite Impact Players. But now it's January 1st, New Years Day and it is a new day. A time of new beginnings and time to get back on track. For me the injury you caused me Danko was just as good as it was bad. Danko I can't stomach the fact that you injured the love of my life, Stacy Andretti. I love Stacy, I'd give my life for Stacy, she means that much to me. I'd do anything to see a smile on that beautiful face of hers. I'd do ANYTHING to put a smile on her, Danko I'd do ANYTHING. You might not understand what love is, and I didn't either before I met her but I now understand. I wanna spend every waking moment with Stacy, and honestly it hurts me inside to see her in a hospital. I'd rather see Stacy with me Danko. You took Stacy away from me. You took my life away from me. Without Stacy I'm nothing, without Stacy, there IS no Sean Andretti. If someone told me that Stacy was gonna go jump off a bridge, I'd be right there with her. If I wanna eat, I want Stacy to eat with me. If I want to train, I want Stacy to train with me and now that's not possible. I can never see a smile on Stacy again and because of that, I have no other reason to smile either. I have no other reason to be happy again. Stacy makes me happy, Stacy is my world and without her being by my side to defeat you is something that bothers me.

Danko you just don't know or understand what it feels like. How would you feel if you woke up Christmas Day and you had nobody to celebrate it with?...How would feel if you woke up and your wife wasn't laying next to you?...How would you feel if your wife never came home to you anymore?...Ritchie how would you feel if the ball dropped to start the New Year you never had anyone to kiss or to hold on to?...How would you feel if your wife was so far away it was hard to grasp?...How would you feel if you were in my shoes and had to watch the woman you'd give anything to make happy, suffer?...How would you feel if you could never feel or hear the very voice of your wife again. That's the way I feel. Danko the pain that I feel is the pain that will be inflicted on you. It's felt like forever since I've held my wife in her arms, it's felt like forever since I've heard the sound of her voice, it's felt like forever since Stacy has been happy and for that, I can't live with myself. I live for Stacy, Ritchie, she's the reason I get up every morning, Stacy's the reason why I haven't given up yet. When I'm down, Stacy is always there to lend a helping hand. It feels so right to be with Stacy, she's the perfect girl and since Hostile Intent it's felt like a emotional battle. I can't eat knowing that you Ritchie can still walk. I can't sleep knowing that my wife will never be one hundred percent again. It's hard to see my wife in the hospital, it sickens me, it burns a hole in my stomach to see her in the condition she's in. Stacy is everything to me, she makes me completely and without her I don't know where I'd be. Ritchie Danko, you just wouldn't understand. You don't know what love is, you wouldn't understand what love is. Love is what drew me and Stacy into marriage, and love is what is gonna take me to beat you. I'm doing this for me and for Stacy and why?...because I LOVE her and I'll fight for her. I'll die for her and Danko what you did, it just can't go unpunished. I'm gonna do this, Danko I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna fight for her, I'm gonna walk in and give it every fucking thing I've got. You see Ritchie, I'm gonna make sure you don't win, I wanna make you bleed, and I wanna put you where I was and that's in a wheelchair. I wanna make you suffer the way I'm suffering, I wanna make you bleed the way I bled in November and I'll make sure to do that. I'm back not only because I love Stacy but because I love the business and Danko you haven't crippled me, you've got made me stronger. A LOT stronger. Ritchie Rich, me, you and Chris Raines fight this Wednesday in a three way dance but nothing is on the line. For you there may not be, but for me, I have so much to fight for. I don't just want to win this match, I NEED to win this match. I NEED for Stacy to come back and I NEED for you Danko...to think of how much of a warzone this match will be. Danko a month and a half, I sat back and thought of ways to make you suffer, I sat back and listened to the bullshit you've said and you make a mockery of the situation well the games are over, I'm back and I'm here to put your fucking mockery and that mockery of a career...to sleep.

"The Enigma" Chris Raines. The wild card of this match up but a guy who's been on a little bit of a role lately. You know something 'bout that?.....I just don't give a shit. The odds of you winning is as a flip of a coin. Chris Raines don't get it mistaken I don't have any personal hatred against you but you'll be in the ring along with me and you'll be looking for that win also so I have to kick your ass. Hey man...don't blame me...it's strictly business. If I end up pinning you and winning the match, don't get mad at me because you were in my way and it's strictly business. It's apart of the job my friend, you like it, hate it or do somethin' about it. I'm a businessman Raines and I take care of things with class. The bloodbath was a message, a warning, I knew I was stepping on your toes to get to Danko, that's why I striked you first. But once again, it was STRICTLY business. I meant no harm by it but if you want to make things personal and take things a step further I am willing to do that, but just be aware of your actions Chris. I have no problems with you, we're both in this match for two reasons, to end Danko's career and to win a match but do NOT be surprised if I strike first and why?...because for the 4th time...it was strictly...business.~*

[Christmas Eve: New York City]

~*It felt good to get back to New York City. Especially with CHZ being in town and my history with Madison Square Garden. The world's most famous arena was also famous with me and it also felt so great to be walking again, I could finally put the crutches and the wheelchair away and I finally got the 2 words I've been waiting for the last month to hear...your cleared. I received those words on the 21st and since then I've been able to walk. It felt great to walk to again but it would be even better if I could just walk with my wife. Stacy's road to recovery is going pretty slow but she is able to talk so I guess I can be thankful for that. I'm gonna feel pretty lonely this year for Christmas, usually me and Stacy share hot chocolate under the fireplace and keep each other warm until we get tired and fall asleep. This year will feel completely different, I will be back to my old self but Stacy will still be at the Chicago Medical Center getting medical attention.

Anyway, back to the topic. It feels great to be in the big apple again but I can't show up at the Garden. The news about me walking is a complete secret. Nobody knows I can walk again and I can't wait to see the look on Danko's face when unveil my little surprise. So here we are Christmas Eve, me, Jeffery Archibald and his new found girlfriend Kimberly are heading to Macy's. I'm not one for shopping, especially on a day such as Christmas Eve but Jeffery insisted we'd go for something for Kim. Ever since meeting this girl this guy has gone completely weird, he's always smiling for some reason and always wants to stay up until 5 in the morning. Don't get me wrong, Kim is a wonderful girl and she's got a lot going for her but Jeff needs to realize that if it continues he won't be able to be half the competitor that I am. If anyone asked me, I say the guy is whipped or in love...whatever it is. Ah, so anyway here we are, we decided to get off the subway after taking a ride to 42nd Street and Times Square. The ride wasn't long and we could've walked but New Yorkers aren't the talking type so we all agreed to take the subway. After exiting the crowded station we took a picture in front of the store. Jeff took a picture with Kim first, I took a picture with Kim and then me and Jeff took a picture together. Macy's didn't look that bad, they took good care of the store and it seemed like they loved Christmas a little too much. I got sick and I missed my wife, I wish she could've been here to see the beautiful sights of New York City. There's something about the hot dog filled air, the blocks and blocks of traffic and the tall buildings that just grabs me. I just don't know or can explain what is it about New York City but I just love it. So many sights to see, so little time to do it.

The time read 3:30 and we could see that it was starting to dark. Not a lot but not a little. As expected there were lots of people looking in the store and as I expected Jeff and Kim wouldn't stop with their mushy shit. They did it at Times Square, on the train ride and now they are doing it in front of all these people at Macy's. Some people were looking, some just didn't pay them any attention. At this point I couldn't take it take it anymore so I broke 'em up.~*

Jeff Archibald: Hey Sean, what the hell was that for?

The Canadian Sensation: Look man I'm tired of you doing that, so just STOP it!!!!!

Jeff Archibald: Doing what man, It's not my fault I'm in love with Kim here.

The Canadian Sensation: Well if that's the case, get a fucking room...you're upsetting me.

Jeff Archibald: What's wrong Sean, you've been uneasy since we left the hotel.

The Canadian Sensation: You've been making out with Kim since we left the fucking hotel , you haven't took your eyes off her yet and look you're still staring at her.

~*At this point I really missed my wife and people were still looking at this. Jeff and Kim once again made out but Kim stopped and whispered something into his ear. Jeff then stopped after realizing that I was upset.~*

Jeff Archibald: Sorry Sean, I totally forgot about you and your wife. It's just that I can't take my eyes off of Kim here, she's just the greatest thing that's happened to me.

The Canadian Sensation: Yeah well, no problem. Just get the shit you wanted to get and let's get out of here. You got these New Yorkers staring at me. I'm not even supposed to be here, Jeff you know the plan. I'm heading to Chicago and then Toronto for Revelation. Ritchie Danko isn't know what the hell hit him.

Jeff Archibald: Danko has been all you've had your eyes on lately man but I don't blame ya, if someone to put their hands on Kim the way Ritchie did, I'd swear Sean.....I'd kill 'em. I swear to God I would kill them.

Kimberly: Well that's sweet of you, but let's hurry this up.

Jeff Archibald: Right...let's go.

~*Finally she sees things my way, whatever the hell Jeff has in store for her I'm sure she'll be happy. Jeff must feel like the luckiest guy in the world, and I don't blame him but the damn guy is getting on my nerves with his shit, he better stop 'cause if he does it again I'm gonna send the poor bastard through that side window. So, moving on we begin to look around the store at teddy bears, jewelry, women's clothes and finally I find something that draws my attention. Santa Clause. Yeah that's right...weird ain't it? I saw the guy sitting in a section of Macy's getting celebrated by a whole group of children. These children kept saying gimme this, gimme that and it made me sick. What happened to the saying "take what you can get"?...These children were so damn greedy, it seemed like they wanted everything. The line was long, maybe longer then the lines for CHZ tickets and every single kid said gimme. Santa...gimme this or Santa gimme that. These kids were so blind, it was amazing looking at the kids with smiles on their faces thinking that they were gonna get everything they asked for. They know they haven't been good, none of those kids were good. I could see the devil in each and every one of them besides the normal runny nose/water eyes that normal 5 year olds have. I knew I had to do something, anything so that these kids would shut up. Anything so that this one kid would stop pulling on his mom's leg begging when is it gonna be his turn to sit on Santa's lap. Anything so that this kid would stop crying and throwing a tantrum. I do to something and I knew what it was.....spoil.....Christmas.

I had to show these children that everything they see isn't real, that there is NOT a fat man behind that little fake white goatee and that there isn't a fat man...period. There is no such thing as a Santa Clause...or a Kris Kringle or whatever the hell these kids thought. I had to shatter their dreams. ANYTHING to shut them up, I had to shatter it, something was telling me to. Something was telling me to spoil their christmas...to tell the kids that Santa wasn't real and that it's psychically impossible for a 400 pound man to fit through a small chimney. Hell if Saddam could barely fit, I knew that Santa couldn't fit. Maybe instead of a cover to cover the whole he hid in, he could've gotten Santa to be there to cover it. Nobody would know, they wouldn't care either, they wouldn't see that someone was trapped, they'd see that there's a fat man...stuck and singing Christmas Carols and they'd laugh. Laugh because it's funny. It's funny to see people beat up, it's fun to beat people up, I should know...I DO IT EVERY WEEK!!!!! There was no turning back. I was gonna do it, I was gonna spoil their Christmas and why...because those damn kids deserved it. How was I gonna do it?.....the way every kid dreamed of.

So I finally decided to walk away and skip everyone in line and just when I was gonna spoil their little surprises, Kim grabs me by my shoulder and swings me around.~*

Kimberly: Sean, what are you doing?

The Canadian Sensation: I'm gonna do what's right, something I've been wanting to do for the longest.

Kimberly: Like what?

The Canadian Sensation: You...don't worry about that. Shouldn't you be with Jeff?

Kimberly: Well, we were gonna grab something to eat and then leave.

The Canadian Sensation: So go do that, I know where you'll be.

Kimberly: Alright, don't do anything stupid alright?

The Canadian Sensation: Yeah...whatever. I have a job to do here.

Kimberly: Bye.

~*Well okay, maybe I was pretty mean to Kim but hey I had a motive and she was in the way of it, there were more of these bratty children coming in with their stuck up parents, some of them had Toys R Us bags, some from stores I've heard from, some from stores I never knew existed. I figured I had to get rid of her, I knew what they were gonna go do. Just eat and make out even more, I couldn't witness that again or ever but I did wonder what Jeff got her. Maybe I should drop this idea and buy Stacy something.....hmmm.....nah.

Kimberly meets up with Jeff and they begin to walk away as I wave so she doesn't get suspicious of my plans. They leave and it's right back to work. Any more of these screaming and yelling and these impatient parents screaming at me and I'll snap. I'll snap and I'll kill them. I'll kill them all. I'll send them to the streets of New York City. I'll send these tree hugging sons of bitches through every single of these windows. I'll seperate their insides and let them all hang from their lungs...they can't mess with me...they assholes can't touch me...I'm immortal!!!!! Do they know who they are screaming at?...Do they know who they are trying to push around?...I'm a former CHZ Tag Team Champion a hall of famer in the making. They can't do this, I won't let them. I won't let them get to me...no way...no how. Any parent or child that touches me, feels my wrath. I have a goal to get done here, I do it and I leave no harm done. That little elf keeps eyeing me and I'm starting not to like it, I hate elves. I hate midgets. I hate Santa. I hate everyone. But I miss her. I miss Stacy. I love her. She's everything, she's my world, why did this have to happen. Why does things have to be so fucking difficult, why am I talking to myself?...Am I crazy?...No I'm not crazy...Sean Andretti isn't crazy...it's these impatient New York City pricks that are impatient. These morons with their reality tv and their pop music. They think they are the shit. NOW I GOT IT!!!!! That's why I'm doing this.....I'm doing it to burst everyone's bubble. I don't care who I piss off, you don't like it and you touch me...your ass is mine. This is America, I got Freedom of Speech and I'll use it. I'll use it right now. Hey you fucking elf come here!!!!!~*

~*Lashing out in pure hatred Sean Andretti screams out loud with women and children looking at him like he's crazy. Everyone stares at him and he looks down and he looks at the christmas elf helping the children and he kicks it. The elf flies to a back wall and Sean Andretti gives out an evil laugh. He yowls as if it's a full moon and looks at the kids. Some parents call their children back to their arms and some people run away. The Canadian Sensation laughs menacingly and a local Macy's Security Officer walks up to Sean and taps his shoulder.~*

Security Officer: Excuse me sir but what is your problem?

~*A nearby witness comes over and trys to explain it all but Sean Andretti lifts his head up and puts his hand in the witness' face.~*

The Canadian Sensation: I need no help, I want no fucking help. YOU HEAR ME?!.....NO FUCKING HELP...AT ALL!!!!! I have a mission, a motive and I must fulfill it. I was sent here for a reason.

~*These people didn't understand that throughout it all I was sent here for a reason. I was put on this earth for a reason, a reason that after 22 years I couldn't figure it out. I needed some to lean on, someone to cry on. Stacy was that woman and now she's gone...so where do I turn, who do I cry on?...I'm in New York City and she's in Chicago. I feel trapped. I told these men that I didn't need help but indeed I did. I needed help, I WANTED HELP!!!!! All this over one man.~*

Security Officer: Sorry sir but what is this reason?

The Canadian Sensation: It's them.

~*I pointed to the elf, then at Santa Clause with a child in his hand and on his lap. The security officer and the bystander looked confused and laughed but they didn't understand. Nobody understands. Nobody understands me. Nobody understands the man behind the mask. Nobody understands Sean Andretti and there is only one person that did and once again...it was Stacy. So they laughed and they laughed some more and I stared at them in the face as dead serious as I could be.~*

Security Officer: So sir, you're meaning to tell me your reason for doing that is Santa Clause?...you've gotta be kidding me.

The Canadian Sensation: Rent a cop.....you just don't get it. You just don't understand. These kids, this fucking store music, that guy sitting in the chair...it's fake. It's ALL fake. Christmas is fake. Christmas is a gimmick that you bastards make money off of. You make money off of sitting on your ass and checking chicks out.

Security Officer: I.....

The Canadian Sensation: Shut up when I'm talking. Don't lie. I saw you. I saw you check out Kim. You're guilty, you're lucky I don't go tell her. I know you like her but you can't get her number. You're jealous, you're just like everyone else. You're just a little piece of shit, making money off of a plastic badge. I hate you. I hate Christmas. I hate Macy's and I hate Santa. Now I have a goal and you and your fake gun WON'T stop me.

~*I said what I had to say to the officer and I moved on. My next target was the guy sitting in the chair and that was Santa. The bastard looked scared as can be. I sat on his lap, most likely breaking his quads with my weight. He tried to hold me up and trying to catch his breath he said these words.~*

Santa Clause: Sir, your hurting my leg. You can't fit.

The Canadian Sensation: What?.....I'm don't speak fraud language. But what did you say...repeat that?!

Santa Clause: You can't fit on me, get off.

The Canadian Sensation: Heh, isn't that what Ms. Kringle says about this time every year?...Listen you fucking fraud, let's cut the shit. We know you aren't real.

~*I gave this guy the rundown and I knew I was hurting him but it took anything I had to send him out the damn window. I was gonna do what every child wanted to do when they were little but never had the balls to. I was gonna do it, I felt it coming on and then some kid pulled on my leg so I looked down.~*

The Canadian Sensation: What do you want?

Some kid: Please, please don't hurt Santa I want my gifts this year. I've been a really good boy.

The Canadian Sensation: Is that what you want little boy?

Some kid: Yes sir.

The Canadian Sensation: Do you wanna be in that wall over there like that elf?

Some kid: No, mister.

The Canadian Sensation: So then.....FUCK OFF!!!!!

~*Is that all these little kids cared about?...Was toys the only thing on their mind?...Is Christmas all about giving and receiving?...I never got toys for christmas, we always went out and did work. Santa always skipped my house, that fraud always skipped my house. How was it so hard to visit a little home in Montreal, Canada huh?...was the snowstorms too much for the guy?...He should've been used to it. If anything Montreal, Quebec should've been the FIRST place he dropped the presents at. But instead he never did, he always skipped us, everyone's always forgetting about us. We always had to suffer, me and my two brothers always had to suffer without getting gifts. Was it because we are Canadians?...Is Santa American?....it doesn't matter because there is one thing I know that Santa is...and he's a fraud. Sean Andretti isn't a fraud. I don't like frauds. I was gonna get my retribution. Christmas Eve marked the day The Canadian Stole Christmas.

So I did it, I finally did it. I exposed Santa Clause in front of everyone...in front of the parents and in front of their little greedy children. It felt great. It felt as if it was burden but I got it done. I did what every little child was dying to do. I yanked that "beard" off of the face of Santa Clause and told all their little kids that Santa wasn't real. I told them the truth. They needed to hear the truth. Doesn't the truth set you free?...If so why were so many pissed?...Why were so many children crying?...Why were so many parents shocked?...You know why?...because they can't handle the truth. They are just as bad as their little children, they deserve to die. To rot in hell, It felt great and nobody could've taken that moment away from me. It was about time the truth be let out, the years and years of this bullshit be ended and people's dreams be shattered. I shattered their dreams. Now these children will NEVER sleep. These parents will NEVER be able to live with themselves. I spoke my mind, I did my job, I got it done, I used my freedom of speech and I destroyed a little kids life. I spoiled his Christmas but I don't care because I let them know. I told all of them that if they had a problem then to meet me at the 34th Street Station. Suckers...like I'm really gonna show up there. Do they really think I'm gonna show up?...Do they really think I have time to bother with their shit?...I shattered their dreams now they wanna take their frustration out on me. You know what...I love it. What I did is EXACTLY what Danko did...he shattered my life...my dreams and I'm gonna do that to him. That same hatred these people have and wanna take out on me is what I wanna do to Ritchie. I told those people to take their damn opinions and shove it because I didn't care and the pain I inflict on Danko I'm also...not gonna care.

After finally setting myself free I had to leave, to catch a smoke?...nah...smoking is for idiots. I had to find Jeff and Kimberly. This is a huge city but it wasn't hard to look for them, they were in a nearby restaurant sharing spaghetti and tongues with each other. I knew that that was gonna happen. These two can't keep themselves off of each other, I think I'm starting to believe that Jeff really does love Kim. I see it in his eyes, I see it in hers. The love is there and I feel it but once again I couldn't witness this kissing scene so I broke it up.~*

Jeff Archibald: Sean, what the hell is your problem?

The Canadian Sensation: C'mon let's go, grab your shit and let's go. We gotta leave. We gotta leave the city....hurry up.......NOW!!!!!

Kimberly: Slow down, Sean what'd you this time?

The Canadian Sensation: Don't worry about it, there are angry parents...angry children and an angry Santa. We gotta leave, they don't know I'm in here...hurry it up.

Jeff Archibald: You've always gotta make an ass out of yourself don't ya?.....All I wanted to spend a day with my lovely girlfriend and now we've got New Yorkers up our ass. Sean you know what just go. You leave, you go to Chicago by yourself and you call Keyser and you tell him that you're there.

The Canadian Sensation: Why am I calling that bastard?

Jeff Archibald: Because you're on the Soze Zone...next week, I set that up for you. I tried this week but Lucifer was the guest. So thank me.

The Canadian Sensation: THANK YOU?! Thank you for what?...you know how much I hate that Hungarian Immigrant. You know I can't stand him, let alone be on his show.

Jeff Archibald: Calm down...everything will be fine.

The Canadian Sensation: No it won't Jeff, I'm going to Chicago but it was to spend time with my wife not do an interview with an ingrate.

Jeff Archibald: Sean...the interview is on January 4th. It's a Sunday, the Soze Zone is always on a Sunday. You have plenty time to go to Chicago and spend time with your wife while she's in the hospital. You have until Tuesday. That's when we form that little "surprise" for Ritchie Danko. After that...we head up to Toronto.

The Canadian Sensation: So you've got everything planned eh?

Jeff Archibald: That's why I'm here. I'm your manager aren't I?

The Canadian Sensation: Fine...fine...have it your way but at Revelation when I know Helms will give me my match Ritchie Danko will be a dead man. You hear me Jeff?...A DEAD MAN!!!!!

Jeff Archibald: Of course he will...now leave. You're interrupting time with me and my lady.

~*I dashed out the door and run down another block or so...then hailed a cab to my hotel. Next Stop.....Chicago, Illnois.~*

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