Man It's Gonna Be A Long Ass Week
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Launchcast (again)
(Opening Launchcast music break: Spice Girls Goodbye, I love that song!) Well, the bright side is that I get paid this week, the bad news, I gotta find a new job. Man, I work for the cheapest, most ungrateful bitch. !No me gusta! My mum hates her too, so that's good. Ugh! I don't wanna think about last week. I got a week and a half left, so I'll just have to get through it.

I bought something off the internet. I bought a HP bag and a Grumpy blanket. (Launchcast music break: Sugar Ray Answer the Phone. Very underrated IMO.) It should get here sometime this week, I can't wait.

My granddad went into the hospital this week, too. He has a slipped disk. That sucks, but I'm sure he'll have a speedy recovery, but he has to learn to walk all over again. My mum, aunt Sharon, and I went and visited him yesterday. He's in the GU hospital. That is a long ass ride. But Georgetown is AWESOME!! Hell, I need to get some money and hang out there, it's expensive. My mum told me that this guy my dad used to work with owned a house there, and was gonna sell it to us dirt cheap. But he said no because he didn't wanna live in D.C. OMG! He's a total idiot!! There is a HUGE difference between D.C. and Georgetown, even though it's the same city. It's almost the same as the contrasts of New York City and the Hamptons. (Launchcast music break: Goo Goo Dolls Here is Gone. Another really great, yet underrated song, I think.)

Steelers are 12-1! YAAAAAY!! So are the Patriots. BOOOOOOOO!!! I was rooting hard for the Steelers, they played the Jets. Sorry Eric, but like I said, I cannot have the Patriots at the top of the AFC Conference. WHY CAN'T THEY JUST LOSE?!

Lately, I've been having a bit of trouble sleeping. I just keep thinking about work. Last night I had no trouble because I was on Benadryll (excellent). The kids voices are in my head. I don't like the older kids anymore. I don't like hate them, but they don't listen, they don't shut up. It's so stressful. And I miscalculated last time. At the Clinton center, there are 6 school age kids. My mum and I shared responsibility over them, at the Ft. Washington one, I have 12!! All by me onesy!! It was 13, but I can't deal with Chuckii, he's such a goddamn crybaby, so I send him to the other building! I told him to do his work, he said he didn't know how, and started to cry. Granted he's in kindergarten, but I'm there to help, I tried to tell him this, but, ugh! He'll also hit other people, and cry about it. (Launchcast music break: George Michael I Want Your Sex {Parts 1 & 2}.)

Well, that's it for me, I don't really want to bring up too much of what happened last week, it depresses me. I WISH THE KIDS WOULD GET OUT OF MY HEAD WHEN I TRY TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!

Man, it's gonna be a long ass week.

I'm phasing.

I Can't Find My Christmas Spirit
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Launchcast
It's gone. Or maybe it just hasn't arrived yet. I don't know. I used to be so hyped for Christmas, now, not so much. It also might be my mum as well. She's sick and now she's in this mood. I dunno, she's all pissy and bitchy. Whatever. My step-dad said that the blue van needs work done now, so he can't go to Alabama. My mum's on her own, I guess. It might just be better this way. I don't want to go, I'm sorry, but I just don't. Besides, I got bigger plans now. Since it's the Christmas season, my money is going everywhere, but I'm really trying to grind down and save so I can do something, or get something, like a driver's license.

I don't know if it's the fact that everyone's working, but the Christmas spirit is really thin in the air in our house. It's thin in the air, thin on the ground, basically just trim. (Launchcast music break: Guns N' Roses Don't Cry [Alt. Lyrics] God, I love this song! Best break-up-but-we-can-still-be-friends song EVER!!) I mean, we have our tree up, but no decorations, no lights outside, it just doesn't feel like Christmas over here. Maybe it'll come later or something, I remember last year it took Marcus a while to get into it. But I just feel so blah right now. Like I'm just here, and then that's it. Michael would get it.

Lately, I've just been thinking about my life. How do I change it? I have a job. One I don't like, but that's what a job is, if you like it, it's not work, no matter if you're getting paid. (Launchcast music break: Boyz II Men End of the Road!!! No one is allowed to talk when this song comes on!) But what can I do to get a move on with it. I have no clue. My life's always just kinda fallen into place.

I just don't know anymore!!! I guess I've got 19 more days to find some Christmas cheer.

I'm phasing.

It's Friday!!
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Launchcast
Opening Launchcast music break: November Rain!!! They gave me the twelve-and-a-half minute version yesterday. So very awesome!!

Well, it's Friday, and today, I got the reason I put up with it all, money! The next ones will be better, but I'll be so stressed, I won't be able to see straight to really love them.

OMG, why is it that almost every time Love Actually is on, Marcus calls? WHY?! He called Saturday when it premiered on HBO, he called Wednesday when I was watching it with Mum, and he called yesterday when I was chilling out trying to watch it. I asked Mum this question, and she said because it's love, actually. He's driving me mad, really. Especially since he called two days in a row. What else did we have to say to each other? And when he called yesterday, he did so while I was on the computer, listening to Launchcast, which was pretty damn hot. It gave me the live version of November Rain, Home Sweet Home again, Marcus called in the middle of Anniversary (all 9 minutes of that!!!), and Bad Medicine.

Tomorrow should be a good day. Finally, I'll get to see The Incredibles, and I'll buy Mum's gifts. Also, I'm really thinking of getting a shirt from T-Shirt Hell or this other website. And some Harry Potter stuff. One can never have enough.

Well, that's it for me today. Funny, isn't it, at first I was thinking that I wouldn't have anymore time to do this, now, I've written almost every day. Huh.

I'm phasing.

!No me gusta!
Now Playing: Launchcast
This other center blows. The younger kids are so bad, and I only had like seven of them. Thank god I got the older ones later. The older ones were a lot better, they were pretty cool. It's more of them then at the one in Clinton. At Clinton, it was only 7, here it's like 9. I know that's only a difference of two, but the way they were bouncing around, it felt like more. The one thing I hate is that for the past two days, I've been there so early. I was there a little before 2:00 yesterday, and I didn't have to be there until like 2:30, and today, I'm gonna be there like at 1:30. I know I have to adjust to my mother's schedule, but ugh! !No me gusta!

I'll probably have to write more later. All I'll say is that I talked to Marcus. It wasn't bad, but still, no me gusta.

Launchcast not so good today, but it's only been on for 15 minutes. But they did give me Big Tymers Get Your Roll On. Goddamn, that song is so bad, I love it.

I'm phasing.

Once Bitten, Twice Shy...No More?
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Launchcast
I wanted to post yesterday, but kinda ran out of time. Times are definitely a-changin' around here. I'll now be up to 20 hours a week at the daycare center. The bad thing is that I'll be at the other one, and not the one that Mum works at. I'll miss my little babies, but I'll get by. My checks are gonna be so awesome for the next little while.

I'm getting tired of all my acquaintances. Marcus, bless him, but he's working my nerves. I haven't talked to him in about a week and a half or two, but he's still pressing me. Like, he kinda freaked me out last Monday. I was getting ready for work, and he text-messaged me. All the message said was "what u doin", I thought it might be Mum playing around (Launchcast music break: OMFG!! Launchcast is playing Guns N' Roses again!!!!! Paradise City, live! F'N AWESOME!!!), and trying to figure out what was taking me so long, but then I checked the info, and it was Marcus. I texted (That's not a word, is it? Well, it is now) him back saying that I was getting ready, and he called. The connection was bad, and he was saying that he was bored. Now, I was finishing my hair, which was an accidental masterpiece, and in case you don't know, it's not a good thing to have a hot curler/pressing comb in your hand while on the phone, I've done this with Jason on a couple of occasions. But I don't know, it was just unsettling to me that he would call like that. Like 20 minutes later, I had to leave, and he kept saying that he was gonna leave his internship early and stuff. I was like, "Yeah, go, just make sure you get your hours." I've been in the situation where you're at a job, not working, just wasting the day away, so I could sympathize for that bit.The kicker for me was that on Saturday night, I got the same "what u doin" message again.

I have to make a new paragraph, because this is gonna be a bit long. Okay, the Friday after Thanksgiving, I got sick again. The whole cold thing with the phlegm and stuff, and a runny nose. Those cute, germy kids. The cold was in high gear on Friday and Saturday, I felt like crap. Saturday morning, I woke up at about 8:00 am, because my nose drained down to my chest, but it had to pass through my throat, and my throat hurt like hell, and it was really dry. Jason called at about 11:00, the only reason I stayed on the phone with him, for about an hour, is because I don't have to talk back to Jason. (Launchcast music break: MOTLEY CRUE HOME SWEET HOME!!!!!!!!!! AAAUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON???) Jason will just go on and on and on (this song is making it so I can't type anymore, so many errors being made), so all I had to do was just be like "uh-huh", "for real?", "when did that happen?", "then what?". Now, I know that I have to have the Marcus tie in, so here it is, I have to talk to Marcus. I like doing this, but I don't know why, but lately, even though he's been the friend I've talked to least lately, he's just bugging me endlessly. I can't explain it. Anyway, like I said, I was sick, but Saturday night, I felt better. Now, I found out something really, really extraordinary Saturday night. The Primetime HBO movie that night was Love Actually(more on this later, of course). To say I geeked out is a major understatement. I found this out at about 6:00-6:30, and could not contain my excitement, but then I had an afterthought: Marcus is gonna call tonight. I just had the overpowering feeling it was gonna happen. At 8:13 pm, I was just settling in to Love Actually, when my mobile goes off, and I get the "what u doin" message. But this time, I had an excuse, I said that I had been drifting in and out of sleep. Which is kinda true. I had been, a couple hours before. Then he texted me back saying he was bored. And? Well, I said I was sorry, but how am I supposed to help? The thing that really pissed me off is that I was right, and he called during something I was really looking forward to.

Now is the rant paragraph. Why do people call me when they're bored? WHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYY?? When did it become my job to remedy the boredom of all of my friends? I wish someone would have told me that was my occupation. Now, especially depening on what mood I'm in, the levels of which I can stand my friends is love to barely tolerate them, but goddamn, get a fucking hobby. Jason's always calling me, saying he's bored. You know how many video games you have? Play the goddamn things. Now I got Marcus calling me, saying the same thing. At the internship is one thing, but at home is quite another. I told him a long time ago he should bring a book to his internship. He said that it might look fishy to the people at the place he goes to. So what? If they ask about it, tell them that you ride the metro (which he does) (Launchcast music break: PUDDLE OF MUDD SHE HATES ME!! AWWWWWWWWWWWW SHIT, THIS IS GREAT!!!!), and you always have a book on you. Then tell them that if they have a problem with it, they should find something for you to do, since that's what you're there for. But when he's at home, saying he's bored, there's just no excuse. I recall a time, maybe about a year ago from now, he was laughing at my small DVD collection. Where as he had a huge one. At the time, I had about 9, and there were maybe like 12 in the entire house. This being said, why doesn't he watch them? I remember him telling me that he never watched the Hey Arnold DVD he bought. If you're so bored, watch that, just for the love of all things holy, find something to do. It's gonna be a really sad day if I ever permanently move to England (I so want to).

I have a theory why this happens. All these people who are bored, they are now young adults, aging from 18-22/23, all had people to entertain them as young children. I didn't. Jason had his brother, even though his brother was the dominant twin, he could drag Jason with all his friends and stuff. Marcus had Aaron from an early age. Now, Jason's brother and Aaron are gone. Both in the military. Conclusion: Jason and Marcus need someone to entertain them. I love Gypsy as much as the next musical lover, and of course I love the song Let Me Entertain You, but I'm just not the one. They both need girlfriends or something. The reason I can cope with boredom is because from the age of 0 to now, I've had me. There's an 8 1/2 year age gap between my brother and me, so it's not like I was playing with him. I'm always falling out with my friends, a pattern I have yet to break, so I'm not totally blameless, but I've always had a strong, vivid imagination. If I need shit to do, I'll put in a DVD, read a book, or I'll do my all time favorite thing to do: daydream. I'm an excellent daydreamer, I do it all the time.

But the bad thing is that all this calling me, is starting to make me back off. I'm starting to feel suffocated. One of the best things about being friends with Marcus is that he didn't bug me. But when you factor in new jobs and both of us giving up wrestling, compatible times for us to be on the phone are starting to become few and far in between.

Now, onto something not so complain-y: Love Actually. Wow. That move was... something. Totally unlike I thought it would be. But I loved it a whole bunch, and it's on right now, but I have a few minutes, because Alan Rickman doesn't appear until about 18 minutes in. I know, I'm a freak. (Launchcast music break: DEF LEPPARD POUR SOME SUGAR ON ME!!! I don't get it either, but when in Rome...) But the weird thing was that, like last Tuesday or Wednesday, I was just thinking about this movie. Bizarre. I was trying to figure out if it was coming to HBO or Showtime or something. Wow. But the Alan Rickman-fest was far from over. Almost at the end of Love Actually, I noticed my TV Guide just happened to opened to a page with Alan Rickman, dressed like an alien. I'm serious, on both parts. The magazine just happened to be open to that page, and Alan Rickman was dressed like an alien. It was an ad for the movie Galaxy Quest (Launchcast music break: Tony! Toni! Tone! It Never Rains In Southern California. OH. MY. GOD.), now, I remember this movie, but I recently found out he was in it. The bad part was that I had missed it for the night, because it aired opposite of Love Actually. The good part: It was on the next night. Twice. So awesome. Galaxy Quest was nuts, but the character Alan Rickman played in it, Alexander Dane, is exactly the way I pictured him in real life. Minus that thing he had to wear on his head. The thing was that the guy he played, Dane, played some alien, Dr. Lazarus, on an old Star Trek-type show. He was kinda like a Klingon or something. But when he was putting on his make-up, he just freaked out and said, "I won't say that bloody line again!" You kinda had to be there. The reason I say I can see him like this, is because the character was pigeon-holed into this character, and hated it. That's what I used to think his stance was on Harry Potter. But I've heard that he enjoys the role of Prof. Snape. Galaxy Quest comes on next Saturday, so I know what I'll be doing then. And I still won't be taking any phone calls.(Launchcast music break: BON JOVI BAD MEDICINE!!! HELLLLLZ YESSSSSS!!!)

Okay, something strange is going on. Launchcast must really want something to be giving me all this. I just broke in with the AWESOME stuff, but here's the list of good stuff they played in about an hour and half:
Guns N' Roses- Paradise City
Motley Crue- Home Sweet Home
Nelly/Kelly Rowland- Dilemma
Michael Jackson- Remember the Time (STFU, I like it!)
Puddle of Mudd- She Hates Me
Afroman- Crazy Rap
Elton John- I Want Love
Shaggy- Angel
Def Leppard- Pour Some Sugar On Me
Tony! Toni! Tone!- It Never Rains In Southern California
LL Cool J- Doin' It
Limp Bizkit- Break Stuff (It was editted, so that sucked)
Bon Jovi- Bad Medicine
Aerosmith- Amazing

The weird thing is that I had all of them downloaded on my computer before it crashed last year. Except the Afroman song, I have that CD, and LL Cool J, I love Doin' It, but I never downloaded it.

Well, that's it for me, this has been one hell of an entry, now with the new crazy work weeks ahead of me, I hope I'll be able to come on more often, I'll probably have to do it while listening to Elliot in the Morning.

I'm phasing.

P.S. Final Launchcast music break: JORDAN KNIGHT GIVE IT TO YOU!!! I MISS AND LOVE THE HELL OUT OF THIS SONG!!

It's Give-Thanksing Day
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Slither
It was a good day, but first, I need to recap the week.

Monday, I did not watch the abortion of a Monday Night Football game between the Patriots and Cheifs. Ugh. I can't remember what I did Monday evening, but at work was pretty cool.

Tuesday, I went out, just like I said I did, but I didn't put anything on my card. I decided to save up a bit more on it, and instead broke my 50 and spoiled myself. Of course I bought Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, I'll review that later, I also bought a Care Bear calendar for 2005, a Golden Snitch keychain, a Grumpy Bear keychain, one of those smart-ass-saying kechains, and a new pair of earings that are black dice with rinestones for the little markings on each side. The reason for all this is well, I don't know, it just felt good to do it. I needed a calendar, since I forgot to get one for this year, I was going to get the Chippendales one, but Kevin Cornell *drool* was only on the front, and not a month, so I couldn't look at him for at least 28 days, also, there was a suspicious lack of Harry Potter calendars; the Snitch keychain was 50% off; it's really hard to find crap with Grumpy on it, so it was one of those "right place, right time' kind of things; I love those smart-ass-saying kechains, and haven't gotten one in a long time; and I needed a new pair of earrings since I only always wear my silver hoops, that I still love, but I need a change. That's my goal for the newcoming year, change. Do other stuff, try something different, hopefully get to at least visit England, so I can at least get a feel of it, and not just do it and get totally in over my head. If I do visit Ashley, hopefully I'll schedule it around next November, so I can see Goblet of Fire over there. That would be so awesome!

Yesterday, Wednesday, I helped my step-dad with his homework (it was fractions, I couldn't resist), baked a cake, then washed and pressed my hair. I was very busy. The cake was just to get out of the way for today, and my mum better eat that cake, since she made such a bloody fuss over it.

Today was great. The annual Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade was pretty good, like always, but this year they got rid of the Blue from Blue's Clues balloon and instead opted for a stupid Sponge Bob Squarepants one. Ugh! The food was magnificent. We ate early, like a little before noon. Quarter of I believe it was. Then we went to visit Uncle Andy and Aunt Pat. Uncle Andy got sick like two days ago, and had to go to the hospital, but he's fine now. It was a nice way to spend a couple of hours. We used to do that all the time, but their house is usually so croweded with other people, and we, especially my mum and I, don't really dig that. It's great to be around a bunch of people some of the time, but all the time is just too much.

Oh yeah, Jason called today, also. Wanting nothing. As usual. Blimey, that's a bit frustrating, there I was, in the middle of doing my hair, and he's calling, not talking about anything. He was just like, "I called Robert, he's not doing anything, I called Antoin, he's not doing anything, I talked to Anthony, and him and Phil aren't doing anything". Really, great, I'm doing stuff. Then he got all ADD on the TV. He kept saying, "Are you watching *insert channel here*?" Then when I would turn to it, he'd be on something else. Then, he complained about being bored. I was like, hello, you have video games, play them. Then he mentioned that he copied some backyard wrestling game to his X-Box or PS2, I don't know what he has, but I didn't really care. Then I told him to watch the game. Are you ready? Brace yourself. Jason said, "There's no game on today." Wow. I couldn't handle it anymore. I was like, "What planet do you live on? Of course there's a game on today, there's football on EVERY Thanksgiving!" "Oh, I thought that was only Christmas." How am I supposed to deal with this level of stupidity? At some point or another, I either have to get smarter friends, or just become as thick as they are. But come on! The Detroit Lions play every Thanksgiving. My mum told me they said on TV that they've played every Thanksgiving since like the year 1934! You know, I started really getting into football because guys like it, I'm glad I don't fancy Jason, or else I'd be in trouble. Although, I wouldn't have to use football to get his attention, he fancies me a bit anyway.

Okay, now onto my thoughts on the Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban DVD. Ahem. I really enjoyed it. A lot. No seriously, it was great. I think that over the past 4 months, my disappointment for the movie not living up to the book the way the first two did, helped me really begin to learn that one has got to separtate the movies from the books. They are two different mediums, full stop. Since I knew that so many things were changed, I really enjoyed watching it again. I still stand by my statement of the trio, and basically all the young students were becoming great actors. Especially Daniel Radcliffe. Wow, what a spectacular change. Since I've seen the movie in it's entirety twice in the past three days, I can elaborate on it more. Dan is just so much more believable in this film. He was no where near as bad as some people made him out to be in the first two, but he really stepped up his game in the third. He truly is Harry Potter. I don't know if it was because of the new director, or the fact that he's just really becoming used to all of this, whatever it was, he is really great. One of the things I missed the first time is the Weasley twins played by Oliver and James Phelps. They gave them some much needed film time. They came off very bookish, which is a great thing. They actually had lines in the movie, and were used for more than background. Nothing is perfect, one of my pet peeves about the movies is still there. Alfred Enoch, who plays Dean Thomas, still only gets one line in the movies, two if you count one he got in a deleted scene. I don't count when he says "oh god" after walking through a ghost (which is supposed to be very cold). There was some other boy, I heard he won a contest, or something, that got way more lines then Dean got. I was put off by this a bit. Also, I have accepted David Thewlis' portrayal of Remus J. Lupin in the film, but not in my imagination. I just can't do that, if you read the description of Lupin from the books, the movie image is not the first thing that comes to mind, but like I said, I've learned to separate the two mediums. And of course, I pulled a Dogma on the movies, and skipped only to the Alan Rickman parts. God, if that man isn't brilliant in that movie, I will never know what brilliance is. I have to use "brilliant" because "awesome" would never begin to describe the greatness that is Alan Rickman. He gets so wrapped up in his character that you really never once think of him as Alan Rickman, just as that character. God he's great.

Well, that's it for me, I'm probably going to watch Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban again, or find some other way to entertain myself.

I'm phasing.

An Injury To An Insult
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Shaggy's Angel
I got sick on Thursday, to make matters worse, I pulled my back out on the left side yesterday. Right before we had to go grocery shopping, for Thanksgiving. It was agony. But let's start off from where I left off.

Monday night's game was AWESOME!! I wasn't feeling too well, so I fell asleep in the third quarter somewhere, but what I saw was great. McNabb's 60 yard pass to get the first down was phenomenal. I didn't think he'd get it, but WOW! There was a lot of fuss over the opening skit, but anyone who is upset about that is nothing but an uptight wanker that needs someone to pull that stick out of their ass. I'm looking at you Tony Dungy. Anyway, Eagles stomped the Cowboys 49-21. Marcus didn't call, but I was dead tired anyway, so it was better like that.

Not a whole lot happened on Tuesday, nothing that I can remember. I talked to Lisa, it was her birthday yesterday, during Real World, it was a pretty good episode.

Lost was so good on Wednesday, it won't be on for two weeks because of Thanksgiving programs. Oh well, it was awesome, not as good as the Charlie episode, but was definitely interesting. I can't wait until they do an episode focused on Hurley a.k.a. Castaway Flounder.

Not much happened Thursday, I got sick and JASON called! I told him I was all pissed off. You know why I couldn't reach him, because his mobile has been turned off, so he has his brother's. Great. Then, he said that Robert abandoned them, so no one could pick me up. I asked how he got home, then he said, we had two cars with us, blah, blah, blah. Uh-huh. Then, I told him about this great invention called the mobile phone and what miraculous functions it has, like enabling one to talk to another person, especially in times of emergencies. He apologized, but you know what, fuck everyone! If you want something, you gotta get/do it yourself. Later that day, Marcus called, he was all like, "I'm home". And, I hate to be like this, but I was like, "So?" But I didn't say that of course, just thought it. It wasn't really much to talk about, but then he got some call on his mobile, and that was about it. I don't even think we talked for an hour. I don't know what's wrong with me, I just don't care about anything anymore, well, except football!! It's so great.

Friday, was my grandmother's birthday, it was also the day the plumber came to repair my shower. I did my hair, which looks horrible now, it's way too hot in my room at night. And, I baked my grandma a cake. We went over her house and stayed for a bit. My brother called my mum's mobile to report that he got robbed. He got his paycheck, cashed it, got some gas, then I think the bump/pickpocket thing happened to him. That is so sad.

Saturday was pretty cool. Except for the back going out thing, that sucked. My mum was watching Old School, on her own. It was nothing I talked her into. That movie was retarded. I missed the first 20 minutes, but it was great. My brother called, again, during it. He said that he got some money because his dad sent them some money for Nacion's birthday, back in October, and they just got it. It's not his dad's fault, it's just that Alabama's postal service is seriously fucked up. Then, we went shopping in our rented Nissan van. It's pretty sweet. See, our red Explorer was being stupid, and is in the shop, so until that's fixed we get the van. We got so much food, you'd think that we were having people coming over. See, we're a very anti-social family, and my mum dislikes her younger sister very much. As do I. We used to lie and say that we were going to Alabama for Thanksgiving.

Today, my back feels a lot better, hopefully tomorrow, it won't hurt at all. Steelers are 9-1! It was a close game against the Bengals, but they pulled it off, and the safety in the 4th quarter helped distance their lead nicely with a score of 19-14. Jags lost. To the Titans, but now that Steve McNair is back, I should have expected that, especially since the Jags don't have Byron Leftwich.

Oh yeah, I got paid on Friday!! My check was sweet, seeing I only worked 14 hours! When all these crazy hols are over with and stop cutting into my hours, I'll have crazy cash! But I'm going to blow about 100 of it on Tuesday, maybe. If my back is still hurting on Tuesday, then I'll just go get the Harry Potter DVD from Best Buy at Pentagon City, and wait until the next check to get the watch. I may do that anyway since I'm really lazy, and it would be wiser to put a little more money in the bank to secure the watch. But I can't wait to get my chubby hands on that DVD. Oh, I've heard that the extras on it are worth getting it, even though the feelings on the movie is mixed. Plus, it'll be one more movie with Alan Rickman! I am a sick, sick person.

Well, that's it for me, I covered the whole week to the best of my knowledge. I only work 4 1/2 hours this week, I'm getting a new DVD, and it's Thanksgiving. Oooh, and, if I don't get the watch, I'll get a calendar! I'm leaning towards Chippendale's. God willing, it's gonna be a great week!

I'm phasing.

...But The Chorus Remains The Same
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Runaway Train
Did I see The Incredibles last night? Nooooo! Why?

Untrustworthy, undependable, unreliable, unpredictable, unstable, inconsistent, indecisive, erratic, fickle, capricious, flaky, wishy-washy, take-more-than-they-give, shitty-ass friends, whose sole purpose in life is just to use me for body count than just to hang out...

Sound familiar. Probably remember it from here. All I wanted was to see a fucking movie. Is that so much to ask? I guess so. I understand if something comes up, and it has to be postponed, but I didn't get a phone call or a fucking text message saying "We can't go". And I called around, Jason, stupid fuck, had his phone turned off or something, because everytime I called, I got some stupid message saying, "Due to the customers preferences, this phone cannot receive incoming calls". What the shit is that? I called Robert's house, and nobody was home, I had expected that, but you know, just to make sure they weren't there fucking around. Then, just as I was about to give up all hope, I remembered that Jason said that Antoin was coming with us. I called him and got him, and he said that he was at Marcus R.'s house waiting for them, and they kept calling there saying they were on their way. I told him if they call back, tell them to call me or something. Well, nothing happened I guess. I didn't get a phone call back or anything. So, I'm just sitting at home, with my hair all done, I had it in spiral Shirley Temple-like curls, with no where to go. Thank god I didn't want to get dressed until I had actually heard from them. By 9pm, my mum said just to give it up and if they call or show up, tell them I can't go out. Fine, but I still expected something, you know. I would send Jason a nasty e-mail, or something, but he's not even worth it. I wasn't even pissed off last night, just incredibly disappointed, you know. The worst part of it all: I blame no one but myself. How could I be so stupid? Wasn't this all supposed to stop when Jason's brother left? It was going to be fun again. It was supposed to come up bright lights, daffodils, lollipops, sunshine, Santa Claus, and roses, etc. (Yeah, I got Gypsy on my brain.)

It must be me. I guess I'm just this afterthought. If Jason has the audacity to call me sometime this week, saying some shit like, "Oh, you should have been there on Saturday, it was so fun, blah, blah, blah", I'm turning my fucking phone off. I truly am La Dimenticata.

In better news, Steelers are 8-1! Yeah, that's right! I wish I could have seen that game today. Some of the Steelers and the Browns got into it before the game even started. Whoever was fighting got evicted though. Man, I bet it was awesome! The Browns were talking shit, saying they were gonna hurt Ben Roethlisberger. What the hell ever! If ya'll would focus more on your game half as much as you talked trash, the point gap may have been a bit smaller. My Jags tried to put me in the loony bin today. They went into over time. The first three quarters it was 17-0, then in the last quarter, they let the Lions get two touchdowns and a field goal. Thank the many dieties they got a touchdown in OT. I would have done my nut for sure if they had lost. I needed some good news today, after yesterday. Tomorrow is the big show! Eagles vs. Cowboys on MNF! Man, that should be great.

Our Explorer is in the shop, so I'll just be working for like an hour tomorrow. Oh well, it'll be better than nothing. I can't wait until I start making some real money, then I'll waste all on NFL merchandise.

I need a pick me up, so I'll do what always makes me feel better, eat chocolate, get under the covers, and watch something with Alan Rickman in it. Oh, while daydreaming about Michael Easton. Mmmmmmmmmm.

I'm phasing and forgotten.

A Change Would Do Me Good
Mood:  crushed out
Have I mentioned that I'm totally in lust with Michael Easton? OMG, I could just die anytime I see him. And he's been on like every episode of OLTL for the past few weeks, even though what happened yesterday was wrong! He dug up a dead body. Ugh! Man, they are totally breaking up John and Evangeline, that is so stupid! That stupid red head! And Cristian's coming back, you'd think she'd go with him, but noooooooooo. But John McBain is really hot. The close ups of his eyes do things to me...

I (kinda) got a job. It's part time, I wouldn't be shocked if it got up to more hours, but it's better than nothing. Since my cousin never called back to me from the Hallmark job, (so much for family like Jason's, huh?) my mum said they needed extra help at the daycare she works at. I was nervous the first day on Monday, but Wednesday was a cinch. I learned a lot of their names, and some of those kids are soooooo adorable. Like Nandi, wow, she has these big brown eyes and really curly brown hair, she's so cute. And Kai is almost the same way, she's a bit older than Nandi, but she has really pretty brown eyes and long brown hair that she had in a plait down her back. Keith was so cute, too. And I know Bryce just because I said his name a million times on Wednesday alone. They're really funny, those kids were a trip. I'm almost anticipating seeing them on Monday. The one really good thing I like is that, I go from like 1:30-6:30, so I can still listen to Elliot in the Morning. I just have to tape OLTL on those days, but that's okay, because then I can just fast-forward through the commmercials.

I'm shocked at myself for the fact that I haven't mentioned that I have a two new must-watch shows. I normally don't like anything new, but I really dig these shows. Desparate Housewives and Lost are absolutely fan-fucking-tastic! They are so awesome, and the fact that I wanted to see those from the moment they first started advertising them is impressive. They're both so good, last week Lost was better than Desparate Housewives, but it got a bit trumped this week. But they're still really brilliant.

I actually have a prime-time schedule for almost everyday of the week:
Sunday- Desparate Housewives
Monday- Monday Night Football
Tuesday- Real World: Philadelphia
Wednesday- Lost
Thursday- ???
Friday- Joan of Arcadia, Degrassi (Season continues 26/11/04)
Saturday-???

I might just make Thursday DVD night or something, since my DVD collection will be getting a few new additions soon. Of course I'll be getting Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban on the 23rd, and in December, Disney is releasing a 2-disc set of Mary Poppins. I might get Spiderman 2, because that should be coming out real soon, but the thing is that like in February, they're going to release it with all this extra-extra bonus footage that they wanted to put in the movie, not just the deleted scenes. Just a way to get more money. And Disney is just as guilty, because they're putting out a new Pirates of the Carribean with third 'lost disc'. They ain't right!

Man, I can't wait until Saturday! I'm going to see The Incredibles! I wanted to see it last weekend, but I couldn't find anyone to go with. Then, Jason called me on Monday asking if I wanted to see it this weekend. Uh... how about HELL YES!! It looks really good, but I don't want to get my hopes up and have it disappoint me. Kind of like The Polar Express, animation-wise, it looks fucking BRILLIANT! But story-wise, it looks like a person might be bored to tears. That might be one to save until DVD or HBO.

Oh yes, I have a new hero. I still love my Jags(5-3), even though they lost to the fucking Houston Texans, but I may just break out some Black and Gold for Ben Roethlisberger and the Steelers!! They gave the Patriots their first (and sadly only, for now) loss! Then, the next weekend, they stomped the Eagles, the only undefeated team at the time their first and only loss last Sunday! Those are the best three teams in the NFL at this moment with 7-1 records. I like Donovan McNabb and the Eagles, but I'm becoming a "Big Ben" mark. If someone else could beat the Patriots, I'd love them too, but for now, it remains that the Steelers have the privilege and honor of doing so. But next Monday on Monday Night Football, that game should be AWESOME!! The Eagles vs. the Cowboys. Great. The Eagles are already pissed that their undefeated streak was broken, and they not only lost, but got fucking PUNISHED by the Steelers, they'll want to take it out on their next opponents. And Cowboys just suck, so they could use a good ass kicking!

That's it for me, I'll most likely say what I thought of The Incredibles this weekend.

Peace and Ben Roethlisberger grease!

I'm phasing.

Halloween is Here, And There's Nothing Scary On
Last night was kinda awesome, coming home from Olive Garden, the moon was orange. Damn, if I could have only taken a picture of it. I wonder what color it it tonight. Is an orange moon called a Harvest Moon, especially when close to or on Halloween, or is that something I saw on TV? I have no idea, but it was so awesome!

I actually enjoyed myself last night. If it weren't for Stacy's daughter Nikki, I would have died of sheer boredom. That girl is wild.

Last night, or early this morning, I had the scare of a lifetime. Well, mentally anyway. I was asleep, and I heard my mobile go off. Like at the very end of the song, and I got up to look and Amar's name was on the screen of the phone. I missed the call, and then I remember being in bed and my heart was pounding. I couldn't remember if that was real or a dream. And I had just drifted off to sleep, so I wasn't pressed to check. When I got up this morning, my phone verified that Amar, that moron, called my ass at 1:50 this morning. Granted it was only 12:50 where he was, but still. I might call that idiot later, there's something I have to ask him. It was really weird, because I was thinking about him yesterday.

I got through the door!! It took forever to find the key. As much as I respect JKR, the keys were so wrong. And they all looked exactly like the rest, so you didn't know whether you were using a different key or one you already tried. It was a great treat though, she gave the name for chapters 2, 6, and 14 from the next book. It should be very interesting. That book should really be close now if she's doing all that. But then again, I remember when she published the first paragraph (or two, can't remember) of Order of the Phoenix, and I don't remember how long it took her to release the book after that.

It was like Alan Rickman week over here. Last weekend, during the Scariest Places on Earth marathons, the FX channel showed Die Hard. On both days, that's weird. I think last Saturday, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets came on, again on Monday, and I think Thursday. Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves was on Tuesday, but I didn't watch it at 8:00, because My Fair Lady (so good) was on, but I watched some of it at 11:00. Last night, Something the Lord Made was on, I missed the first showing. And for good measure on Friday I put Dogma on, then Marcus called, so I stopped it, then when I got off the phone with him, I put it back on. I don't know if I can count Dogma, I mostly skip to the Alan Rickman parts of it. I know Robin Hood was on today, but I'm not sure if it's coming back on for a while, I should check on My Fair Lady, that movie's so awesome.

OMG, I was lunchin on Tuesday night though. I couldn't get through My Fair Lady without something going wrong, of course. Whenever I remind myself to do something, I always forget it, but it will come to me if I don't think anything of it. I told myself over and over to get the phone, because I knew Lisa would call, but I forgot to do it, so my mum had her phone off, and it woke up my step-dad. He missed it though. Then my mum got all pissed off at me, and ruined the rest of the film. I told her that I just forgot, it happens you know, and you'd think Ms. Senility Poster Child would get that. Then she says, "But you can't forget." Oh fuck off! I'll try harder, but one little mistake and they're ready to hang a dragon as an egg. That's two Tuesdays in a row something better has been on than The Real World: Philadelphia. Anyway, once My Fair Lady went off, I tried to watch Robin Hood. The non-Alan Rickman parts are soooooooooooo boring. And the ones with him are, uh, entertaining. He got some really good lines off in that movie. But I'll never be right again after hearing Alan Rickman, the guy who plays Professor SNAPE in the HARRY POTTER movies say: "You. My room. 10:30 tonight. You. 10:45... And bring a friend." My mind shut down for about 5 minutes. I know that I said the more different roles I see him in, the more I can disassociate with Snape, but dude that line just totally set that back. But that is a really, really funny line. Another blush inducing line was: "Do you mind Locksley? We've just been married." When the Sheriff was, uh, um, about to have his way with Maid Marian. God, I just turn red and get embarrassed thinking about that.

Well, I'm gonna find something to do, I'm getting bored. I'm starting to worry about myself and this Alan Rickman thing. I've said his name more in this entry than probably the rest of them put together. I know I don't fancy him, do I? No, because I'm mad about Michael Easton (stupid redhead gonna ruin everything). I don't know what this is, and besides, Alan Rickman (that name count just keeps going up) is only 2 years older than my father, who looked really old last night, by the by. So, he's old enough to be my old dad or my young granddad. I dunno, I just gotta get my brain straight, I'm so confused.

I'm phasing.