An Injury To An Insult
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Shaggy's Angel
I got sick on Thursday, to make matters worse, I pulled my back out on the left side yesterday. Right before we had to go grocery shopping, for Thanksgiving. It was agony. But let's start off from where I left off.

Monday night's game was AWESOME!! I wasn't feeling too well, so I fell asleep in the third quarter somewhere, but what I saw was great. McNabb's 60 yard pass to get the first down was phenomenal. I didn't think he'd get it, but WOW! There was a lot of fuss over the opening skit, but anyone who is upset about that is nothing but an uptight wanker that needs someone to pull that stick out of their ass. I'm looking at you Tony Dungy. Anyway, Eagles stomped the Cowboys 49-21. Marcus didn't call, but I was dead tired anyway, so it was better like that.

Not a whole lot happened on Tuesday, nothing that I can remember. I talked to Lisa, it was her birthday yesterday, during Real World, it was a pretty good episode.

Lost was so good on Wednesday, it won't be on for two weeks because of Thanksgiving programs. Oh well, it was awesome, not as good as the Charlie episode, but was definitely interesting. I can't wait until they do an episode focused on Hurley a.k.a. Castaway Flounder.

Not much happened Thursday, I got sick and JASON called! I told him I was all pissed off. You know why I couldn't reach him, because his mobile has been turned off, so he has his brother's. Great. Then, he said that Robert abandoned them, so no one could pick me up. I asked how he got home, then he said, we had two cars with us, blah, blah, blah. Uh-huh. Then, I told him about this great invention called the mobile phone and what miraculous functions it has, like enabling one to talk to another person, especially in times of emergencies. He apologized, but you know what, fuck everyone! If you want something, you gotta get/do it yourself. Later that day, Marcus called, he was all like, "I'm home". And, I hate to be like this, but I was like, "So?" But I didn't say that of course, just thought it. It wasn't really much to talk about, but then he got some call on his mobile, and that was about it. I don't even think we talked for an hour. I don't know what's wrong with me, I just don't care about anything anymore, well, except football!! It's so great.

Friday, was my grandmother's birthday, it was also the day the plumber came to repair my shower. I did my hair, which looks horrible now, it's way too hot in my room at night. And, I baked my grandma a cake. We went over her house and stayed for a bit. My brother called my mum's mobile to report that he got robbed. He got his paycheck, cashed it, got some gas, then I think the bump/pickpocket thing happened to him. That is so sad.

Saturday was pretty cool. Except for the back going out thing, that sucked. My mum was watching Old School, on her own. It was nothing I talked her into. That movie was retarded. I missed the first 20 minutes, but it was great. My brother called, again, during it. He said that he got some money because his dad sent them some money for Nacion's birthday, back in October, and they just got it. It's not his dad's fault, it's just that Alabama's postal service is seriously fucked up. Then, we went shopping in our rented Nissan van. It's pretty sweet. See, our red Explorer was being stupid, and is in the shop, so until that's fixed we get the van. We got so much food, you'd think that we were having people coming over. See, we're a very anti-social family, and my mum dislikes her younger sister very much. As do I. We used to lie and say that we were going to Alabama for Thanksgiving.

Today, my back feels a lot better, hopefully tomorrow, it won't hurt at all. Steelers are 9-1! It was a close game against the Bengals, but they pulled it off, and the safety in the 4th quarter helped distance their lead nicely with a score of 19-14. Jags lost. To the Titans, but now that Steve McNair is back, I should have expected that, especially since the Jags don't have Byron Leftwich.

Oh yeah, I got paid on Friday!! My check was sweet, seeing I only worked 14 hours! When all these crazy hols are over with and stop cutting into my hours, I'll have crazy cash! But I'm going to blow about 100 of it on Tuesday, maybe. If my back is still hurting on Tuesday, then I'll just go get the Harry Potter DVD from Best Buy at Pentagon City, and wait until the next check to get the watch. I may do that anyway since I'm really lazy, and it would be wiser to put a little more money in the bank to secure the watch. But I can't wait to get my chubby hands on that DVD. Oh, I've heard that the extras on it are worth getting it, even though the feelings on the movie is mixed. Plus, it'll be one more movie with Alan Rickman! I am a sick, sick person.

Well, that's it for me, I covered the whole week to the best of my knowledge. I only work 4 1/2 hours this week, I'm getting a new DVD, and it's Thanksgiving. Oooh, and, if I don't get the watch, I'll get a calendar! I'm leaning towards Chippendale's. God willing, it's gonna be a great week!

I'm phasing.

...But The Chorus Remains The Same
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Runaway Train
Did I see The Incredibles last night? Nooooo! Why?

Untrustworthy, undependable, unreliable, unpredictable, unstable, inconsistent, indecisive, erratic, fickle, capricious, flaky, wishy-washy, take-more-than-they-give, shitty-ass friends, whose sole purpose in life is just to use me for body count than just to hang out...

Sound familiar. Probably remember it from here. All I wanted was to see a fucking movie. Is that so much to ask? I guess so. I understand if something comes up, and it has to be postponed, but I didn't get a phone call or a fucking text message saying "We can't go". And I called around, Jason, stupid fuck, had his phone turned off or something, because everytime I called, I got some stupid message saying, "Due to the customers preferences, this phone cannot receive incoming calls". What the shit is that? I called Robert's house, and nobody was home, I had expected that, but you know, just to make sure they weren't there fucking around. Then, just as I was about to give up all hope, I remembered that Jason said that Antoin was coming with us. I called him and got him, and he said that he was at Marcus R.'s house waiting for them, and they kept calling there saying they were on their way. I told him if they call back, tell them to call me or something. Well, nothing happened I guess. I didn't get a phone call back or anything. So, I'm just sitting at home, with my hair all done, I had it in spiral Shirley Temple-like curls, with no where to go. Thank god I didn't want to get dressed until I had actually heard from them. By 9pm, my mum said just to give it up and if they call or show up, tell them I can't go out. Fine, but I still expected something, you know. I would send Jason a nasty e-mail, or something, but he's not even worth it. I wasn't even pissed off last night, just incredibly disappointed, you know. The worst part of it all: I blame no one but myself. How could I be so stupid? Wasn't this all supposed to stop when Jason's brother left? It was going to be fun again. It was supposed to come up bright lights, daffodils, lollipops, sunshine, Santa Claus, and roses, etc. (Yeah, I got Gypsy on my brain.)

It must be me. I guess I'm just this afterthought. If Jason has the audacity to call me sometime this week, saying some shit like, "Oh, you should have been there on Saturday, it was so fun, blah, blah, blah", I'm turning my fucking phone off. I truly am La Dimenticata.

In better news, Steelers are 8-1! Yeah, that's right! I wish I could have seen that game today. Some of the Steelers and the Browns got into it before the game even started. Whoever was fighting got evicted though. Man, I bet it was awesome! The Browns were talking shit, saying they were gonna hurt Ben Roethlisberger. What the hell ever! If ya'll would focus more on your game half as much as you talked trash, the point gap may have been a bit smaller. My Jags tried to put me in the loony bin today. They went into over time. The first three quarters it was 17-0, then in the last quarter, they let the Lions get two touchdowns and a field goal. Thank the many dieties they got a touchdown in OT. I would have done my nut for sure if they had lost. I needed some good news today, after yesterday. Tomorrow is the big show! Eagles vs. Cowboys on MNF! Man, that should be great.

Our Explorer is in the shop, so I'll just be working for like an hour tomorrow. Oh well, it'll be better than nothing. I can't wait until I start making some real money, then I'll waste all on NFL merchandise.

I need a pick me up, so I'll do what always makes me feel better, eat chocolate, get under the covers, and watch something with Alan Rickman in it. Oh, while daydreaming about Michael Easton. Mmmmmmmmmm.

I'm phasing and forgotten.

A Change Would Do Me Good
Mood:  crushed out
Have I mentioned that I'm totally in lust with Michael Easton? OMG, I could just die anytime I see him. And he's been on like every episode of OLTL for the past few weeks, even though what happened yesterday was wrong! He dug up a dead body. Ugh! Man, they are totally breaking up John and Evangeline, that is so stupid! That stupid red head! And Cristian's coming back, you'd think she'd go with him, but noooooooooo. But John McBain is really hot. The close ups of his eyes do things to me...

I (kinda) got a job. It's part time, I wouldn't be shocked if it got up to more hours, but it's better than nothing. Since my cousin never called back to me from the Hallmark job, (so much for family like Jason's, huh?) my mum said they needed extra help at the daycare she works at. I was nervous the first day on Monday, but Wednesday was a cinch. I learned a lot of their names, and some of those kids are soooooo adorable. Like Nandi, wow, she has these big brown eyes and really curly brown hair, she's so cute. And Kai is almost the same way, she's a bit older than Nandi, but she has really pretty brown eyes and long brown hair that she had in a plait down her back. Keith was so cute, too. And I know Bryce just because I said his name a million times on Wednesday alone. They're really funny, those kids were a trip. I'm almost anticipating seeing them on Monday. The one really good thing I like is that, I go from like 1:30-6:30, so I can still listen to Elliot in the Morning. I just have to tape OLTL on those days, but that's okay, because then I can just fast-forward through the commmercials.

I'm shocked at myself for the fact that I haven't mentioned that I have a two new must-watch shows. I normally don't like anything new, but I really dig these shows. Desparate Housewives and Lost are absolutely fan-fucking-tastic! They are so awesome, and the fact that I wanted to see those from the moment they first started advertising them is impressive. They're both so good, last week Lost was better than Desparate Housewives, but it got a bit trumped this week. But they're still really brilliant.

I actually have a prime-time schedule for almost everyday of the week:
Sunday- Desparate Housewives
Monday- Monday Night Football
Tuesday- Real World: Philadelphia
Wednesday- Lost
Thursday- ???
Friday- Joan of Arcadia, Degrassi (Season continues 26/11/04)
Saturday-???

I might just make Thursday DVD night or something, since my DVD collection will be getting a few new additions soon. Of course I'll be getting Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban on the 23rd, and in December, Disney is releasing a 2-disc set of Mary Poppins. I might get Spiderman 2, because that should be coming out real soon, but the thing is that like in February, they're going to release it with all this extra-extra bonus footage that they wanted to put in the movie, not just the deleted scenes. Just a way to get more money. And Disney is just as guilty, because they're putting out a new Pirates of the Carribean with third 'lost disc'. They ain't right!

Man, I can't wait until Saturday! I'm going to see The Incredibles! I wanted to see it last weekend, but I couldn't find anyone to go with. Then, Jason called me on Monday asking if I wanted to see it this weekend. Uh... how about HELL YES!! It looks really good, but I don't want to get my hopes up and have it disappoint me. Kind of like The Polar Express, animation-wise, it looks fucking BRILLIANT! But story-wise, it looks like a person might be bored to tears. That might be one to save until DVD or HBO.

Oh yes, I have a new hero. I still love my Jags(5-3), even though they lost to the fucking Houston Texans, but I may just break out some Black and Gold for Ben Roethlisberger and the Steelers!! They gave the Patriots their first (and sadly only, for now) loss! Then, the next weekend, they stomped the Eagles, the only undefeated team at the time their first and only loss last Sunday! Those are the best three teams in the NFL at this moment with 7-1 records. I like Donovan McNabb and the Eagles, but I'm becoming a "Big Ben" mark. If someone else could beat the Patriots, I'd love them too, but for now, it remains that the Steelers have the privilege and honor of doing so. But next Monday on Monday Night Football, that game should be AWESOME!! The Eagles vs. the Cowboys. Great. The Eagles are already pissed that their undefeated streak was broken, and they not only lost, but got fucking PUNISHED by the Steelers, they'll want to take it out on their next opponents. And Cowboys just suck, so they could use a good ass kicking!

That's it for me, I'll most likely say what I thought of The Incredibles this weekend.

Peace and Ben Roethlisberger grease!

I'm phasing.

Halloween is Here, And There's Nothing Scary On
Last night was kinda awesome, coming home from Olive Garden, the moon was orange. Damn, if I could have only taken a picture of it. I wonder what color it it tonight. Is an orange moon called a Harvest Moon, especially when close to or on Halloween, or is that something I saw on TV? I have no idea, but it was so awesome!

I actually enjoyed myself last night. If it weren't for Stacy's daughter Nikki, I would have died of sheer boredom. That girl is wild.

Last night, or early this morning, I had the scare of a lifetime. Well, mentally anyway. I was asleep, and I heard my mobile go off. Like at the very end of the song, and I got up to look and Amar's name was on the screen of the phone. I missed the call, and then I remember being in bed and my heart was pounding. I couldn't remember if that was real or a dream. And I had just drifted off to sleep, so I wasn't pressed to check. When I got up this morning, my phone verified that Amar, that moron, called my ass at 1:50 this morning. Granted it was only 12:50 where he was, but still. I might call that idiot later, there's something I have to ask him. It was really weird, because I was thinking about him yesterday.

I got through the door!! It took forever to find the key. As much as I respect JKR, the keys were so wrong. And they all looked exactly like the rest, so you didn't know whether you were using a different key or one you already tried. It was a great treat though, she gave the name for chapters 2, 6, and 14 from the next book. It should be very interesting. That book should really be close now if she's doing all that. But then again, I remember when she published the first paragraph (or two, can't remember) of Order of the Phoenix, and I don't remember how long it took her to release the book after that.

It was like Alan Rickman week over here. Last weekend, during the Scariest Places on Earth marathons, the FX channel showed Die Hard. On both days, that's weird. I think last Saturday, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets came on, again on Monday, and I think Thursday. Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves was on Tuesday, but I didn't watch it at 8:00, because My Fair Lady (so good) was on, but I watched some of it at 11:00. Last night, Something the Lord Made was on, I missed the first showing. And for good measure on Friday I put Dogma on, then Marcus called, so I stopped it, then when I got off the phone with him, I put it back on. I don't know if I can count Dogma, I mostly skip to the Alan Rickman parts of it. I know Robin Hood was on today, but I'm not sure if it's coming back on for a while, I should check on My Fair Lady, that movie's so awesome.

OMG, I was lunchin on Tuesday night though. I couldn't get through My Fair Lady without something going wrong, of course. Whenever I remind myself to do something, I always forget it, but it will come to me if I don't think anything of it. I told myself over and over to get the phone, because I knew Lisa would call, but I forgot to do it, so my mum had her phone off, and it woke up my step-dad. He missed it though. Then my mum got all pissed off at me, and ruined the rest of the film. I told her that I just forgot, it happens you know, and you'd think Ms. Senility Poster Child would get that. Then she says, "But you can't forget." Oh fuck off! I'll try harder, but one little mistake and they're ready to hang a dragon as an egg. That's two Tuesdays in a row something better has been on than The Real World: Philadelphia. Anyway, once My Fair Lady went off, I tried to watch Robin Hood. The non-Alan Rickman parts are soooooooooooo boring. And the ones with him are, uh, entertaining. He got some really good lines off in that movie. But I'll never be right again after hearing Alan Rickman, the guy who plays Professor SNAPE in the HARRY POTTER movies say: "You. My room. 10:30 tonight. You. 10:45... And bring a friend." My mind shut down for about 5 minutes. I know that I said the more different roles I see him in, the more I can disassociate with Snape, but dude that line just totally set that back. But that is a really, really funny line. Another blush inducing line was: "Do you mind Locksley? We've just been married." When the Sheriff was, uh, um, about to have his way with Maid Marian. God, I just turn red and get embarrassed thinking about that.

Well, I'm gonna find something to do, I'm getting bored. I'm starting to worry about myself and this Alan Rickman thing. I've said his name more in this entry than probably the rest of them put together. I know I don't fancy him, do I? No, because I'm mad about Michael Easton (stupid redhead gonna ruin everything). I don't know what this is, and besides, Alan Rickman (that name count just keeps going up) is only 2 years older than my father, who looked really old last night, by the by. So, he's old enough to be my old dad or my young granddad. I dunno, I just gotta get my brain straight, I'm so confused.

I'm phasing.

All Hallow's Eve Approaches
Mood:  chillin'
13 Days of Halloween on ABC Family has been great so far. On Saturday and Sunday, they had a four hour marathon on Scariest Places on Earth. It was awesome. These people went in Dracula's castle. I thought they were so stupid, but at least they had no idea where they were going, because next year a family willingly wanted to go in there. WTF is wrong with people. And the fact that they did that shit at night too, like around midnight, and they kept putting bags over their heads and putting them in various rooms of the castle, fuck no, that would not be me. But it's such a great show.

Last Friday, I think it was, I had the weirdest experience. I was watching the Arena Rock channel, and it was so amazing. I got 5 songs in a row that I loved. Whenever one song was finishing, I'd be like, "Please play something else I like," but then I'd try to put the thought out of my head, because I knew the channel would stop playing them. At first I heard Rebel Yell, by Billy Idol, and that was okay. Then Amazing by Aerosmith came on, and I was like, wow two songs, after that was BON JOVI's BAD MEDICINE!!! I was freaking out at this point because I've gotten three in a row before, but nowhere nearly as hard when POISON's TALK DIRTY TO ME came on. After that I was like, okay, where else can we go from here. Although, in the back of my mind I did want to hear Great White's Once Bitten, Twice Shy, but that's okay that I didn't get that, because I got QUIET RIOT's CUM ON FEEL THE NOIZE!!! I could have died. It was so unexpectant. I was subliminally happy. Man, it was just too AWESOME!! The only bad thing about that is, I wish they would announce what they're gonna play next, then I could have taped that. But live and let live for them. They could have not played that at all. But I was rocking out like it was no one's business.

I meant to put that up before, but I forgot Friday, and like I said Saturday and Sunday were spent watching ABC Family.

My Jags are 5-2! WE BEAT THE COLTS!! YEAH!! WE'RE ON TOP OF OUR DIVISION AGAIN!! YAY!! And Jason was all hating, talking about, "Of course you can't beat the Colts!" STFU!! It's too bad that Miami finally won a game, because then I could tell him that his team can't beat anybody. Oh well, but you know, numbers speak for themselves. Tell me, who's better, 5-2 vs. 1-6? I thought so. If only somebody could STOMP the Patriots I would be so happy! They fucking suck, I wish everybody would stop sweating them and Tom Brady. I hope he sprains his wrist or something. I don't want to wish something terrible on him, because if it happens, I might feel bad. I just want them to LOSE. BADLY.

On OLTL, OMG, that show is gonna be the death of me. John and Evangeline are so happy, but that stupid red head just keeps messing everything up. But someone's coming back that could shake things up. Unfortunately, I think Evie's gonna get lost in the shuffle and John is going to try to win over the evil red-headed cunt.

"Cunt" is my new favorite word. I don't see what the big deal about it is, but if it's as huge as people make it out to be, I'm gonna love it. The biggest one I know is Ashlee Simpson. God I hate her. More so than She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. I just won't say her name now because it's habit, and it would sound weird if I started saying it again. But Ashlee Simpson needs to just drop off of the face of the earth. She needs to realize that the only reason she has a career is because her sister is a fucking idiot. But I kind of like Jessica, even though I hear the clock's ticking very loudly.

That's it for me, I have to start dinner soon.

I'm phasing.

Meh...
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: LAY YOUR HANDS ON ME!
My throat hurts. I'm not sure if it has something to do with me yelling on Saturday night.

I stumbled upon this website yesterday. I was looking for lyrics, and I found a lyrics website, and it has a feature where if you press the "listen" icon, it can search a site and you can listen to the song. It's AWESOME!! I listened to Runaway Train once, it wouldn't work after that. But yesterday, I listened to Sublime's Santeria over and over, and today I'm doing the same with Lay Your Hands On Me. The only way this could be better is if I could download, but like the Stones' said, "You can't always get what you want". But if I can find a way to download any of those three songs for free, with out getting a shitload of spyware on my PC, then I'm so there.

I told Marcus and Lisa about what happened on Saturday. So I guess now, it's over. I can stop saying the name that does nothing but cause me grief.

It's so weird, now that I have a way to listen to Lay Your Hands On Me, the novelty is wearing off, but it's still a great song. It has a long ass intro though. At first I thought it was the wrong song. Ooooooo, but I get chills when Jon finally sings the opening lines of:

Lay your hands on me
Lay your hands on me
Lay your hands on me

Lay your hands on me
Lay your hands on me
Lay your hands on me

I know whose hands I'd like laid on me.

I had so much to say, but I forgot it all, so I'll go. I'm starting to get cold and need to find some socks without holes in them.

I'm phasing.

Taken Advantage of No More!!
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: NIN- Closer
My head hurts. It's been hurting since last night, but last night was nuts. It involves prostitutes, severed friendships, and frizzy hair.

Like I stated before, Jarrett came back Thursday, a few days before he leaves for Cuba for 2 years. FINALLY!! I didn't really want to go, but Antoin and Jason were all like, you should come over, we're gonna go out and do stuff. I went for their sake. Plus, I hadn't seen a few people in a bit, and I wanted to. I was pressing my hair when Antoin called, and it looked great when they came and picked me up. The only thing is Jason has a really hot basement, so it's not a good place for my hair. When we got to the house, I said hey to everybody, and still being miffed at the whole Backlash Incedent, I breezed right passed him, and went into the room where they play video games. I was following Antoin out, when he cornered me, and I had to give him a hug, but I wasn't really into it, because I was interrogating Antoin about the Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans (He said they geeked!! ). Like 10 minutes after I arrive, Jarrett leaves with Shelby and her girlfriend. There were so many people there, I wasn't upset yet, I thought they were going to get more people or something. Later, while we were discussing the Presidential/Vice Presidential Debates, Jarrett calls and says he's getting tatoos with Shelby. WTF? Then, we got drawn into a video game tournament, which was okay, but I gave in to GNR and a game of 'Snake' on my mobile. I think Jarrett called again and was angry that everyone else is upset, and told Marcus R. that he was going to Jillian's (I think), and we could meet them up there, and if we didn't then eff us. Oooooooooooo, let the seething begin. I made myself known by saying fuck Jarrett with a lead pipe (only thing I could think of at the mo). Then, someone suggests a movie, okay, why not. But then they're like, call Jarrett and tell him, I was like hell no, I'm not having it, he does this every time, fuck him!! So, we're leaving the house, and we're in the van. Well, it took them ages to get in, so Jamie and I chatted, she's awesome! We finally get rolling, and who calls Jason? Jarrett. Oooooooooooo, I got choice words for him, but at that time we were all like, don't answer it. I took it upon myself to press the 'End Call' button on the phone. Then, he called right back, I was ready, at first I was like, no I'm not, but then I was like, no I can do this, he needs to be put in his place, so I tell Jason to answer it, and I just let go. I screamed obsenities at him. I basically said that it's unfair that you do this all the time to us. You get us all at your mother's house, and abandon us to do god knows what, and has the FUCKING AUDACITY to be ANGRY at US!!! If I ever see him again, no matter whether he tries to be nice to me, or wants to kill me, I'm telling him he's already dead to me. Decent people don't do shit like this. This is what I was telling Marcus when he asked what my deal was with him, he has no consideration for the people he calls 'friends'. He has a "the more the merrier" type of mind frame, you know, like if I had this much fun doing something with 3 of my friends, it will be so much better with 13 of them. And that is not the case, unless it's laser tag, but even then we've had problems. He would ask why I would never bring Marcus around them. THIS IS FUCKING WHY!!!!! I don't like to put people I really do like being around in situations where they'll end up hating me or questioning why they are friends with me. I don't like people being pissed off at me. And the fact he gets upset when people are angry. He always tries to go on the defensive like, I'm trying to please everybody at once. The fucking STOP!! No one is asking you to. It is we who always bend over backwards for him. Hell, his own brother called in sick to spend the day with him, and lost money. Then after I yell at him, he calls back, and Jason tells him that was me, I hope he was surprised, then lets Jarret guilt-trip him with the whole brotherly bond stuff: Come on. He lost fucking money! That he could have used to put toward something to make him happy, even for five minutes. The thing is, and I didn't say this last night, but I suspect that Jarrett has chosen us over Jason PLENTY of times. And did Jason do that? I doubt it, he might have been angry, but I doubt he ever tried the "you're choosing your friend over your own brother". Well, that's the way life is, doll. You gotta get used to that. I had never felt sorrier for Jason then at that moment. He called this morning and I asked if he had to put up with much bitching, but he said not a lot.

After all that, I should make a new paragraph. There didn't seem like a good break, but I was just letting my emotions pour over the keyboard.

Then we dropped Jason back over his house, and went to the movies. We saw Friday Night Lights. I liked it, not loved, but something I would watch again. After that, we went to K Street. We went to see prostitutes. I have no idea why I went, but you only live once. We only saw three, there were like a bunch of police around, and that was my night. I'm sure there is a lot I've left out, partially to anger, but it was a life-altering night. I have broken off a relationship with someone I have known for four years. I know, that's not a long time to some people, but from the ages of 16-20, it's a bit of a major thing. The only weird thing is that, I'm still okay with everyone else. And I met them all through Jarrett. But, I did know Jason first. So, I may be an ex-Renegade, or I may not be, but whatever I am to him, I don't give a fuck because for the first time in my life, I got really angry, and I let it out on the person I was angry at, and it felt really, really good.

By the by, I learned late in the evening that we were all over there to sign a shirt for Jarrett. Hmph! I GOT SOMETHING TO SIGN ON HIS GODDAMN SHIRT!! FUCKING BASTARD!! From this point on, Jarrett will be known as "Jason's Brother". And if anyone thinks I'm lying, it works on She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.

This entry was supposed to be about something else, but when shit like this happens to you, you just gotta let it out. Hopefully I'll get the intended one for today up tomorrow. Or at least Tuesday, but I'm not making any promises.

I'm phasing and choking.

Epidemic
Mood:  special
Man, I went out today, and when I got back, both my parents were home, ill. My mum said she had chills and stuff, and my step-dad hurt his back yesterday, and came home early today. Yeah, I need a job because my parents are all broke up.

I went to Springfield Mall with Jason and Antoin today. It was cool, my feet hurt because I wore boots instead of trainers, oy, when will I learn my lesson. I GOT ALADDIN!!!!! I'm going to try not to spend too much time on the net today, cuz I wanna watch it!

I also bought a box of Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans! I persuaded Antoin to get some. He tasted some on the train, thinking they were faking, but he was WRONG!! He tasted Black Pepper, Dirt, Green Apple, Toasted Marshmellow, Buttered Popcorn, Spinach, Tuti-Fruiti, and Vomit! That is so AWESOME!! He made me taste the Toasted Marshmellow, it was really good. I only bought a box just to have it, I don't know when (if) my curiosity will give in and I'll have a taste. I don't even like Jelly Beans, but these are a must have!

Jason, Marcus R., and Antoin reminded me that Jarrett comes home sometime this week. Damn.

On the plus side, like my feet hurting, I had a really great hair day! I can't believe I actually went out somewhere, for a few hours, plus there was a wind factor, and came home with a decent head of hair. That's awesome.

Marcus and I have given up on wrestling. And when you know that Shawn Michaels can't do anything for me, then it's time to just pack it in. We barely turned to it last night, and at 10:30, I taped That's Entertainment parts II & III. I would have gotten all 3 parts, but I had no idea that part one was on. I was a bit miffed at that. It was really cool, I can't wait to watch the third part, I watched the second one when I was taping.

I missed OLTL today, so I'll catch it tonight, I hope it was good, I need my Michael Easton fix.

I'm phasing.

It's October! Yay!
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: Runaway Train (In My Head)
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I HEARD RUNAWAY TRAIN TODAY!! YES!YES!YES! IT WAS AWESOME!!!

I'm lunchin, I know, but I love that song, it's so great. I just don't understand how it gets played on the "Arena Rock" channel, it's a little after that time, but whatever, it's a really great song.

It's October 1, that means there are only 30 more days until Halloween! YAY! I LOVE Halloween. The best bit is that the ABC Family channel brought back 13 Days of Halloween. They took it away from me last year. I guess/hope people complained. 13 Days of Halloween is the best. My favorite stuff is when they go to real places that are believed to be haunted. It's always some really creepy kid that narrates the show. I also liked when they would send families into infamous haunted places, like I think they sent one into Dracula's castle, or whomever Dracula is based on. I wouldn't go on that show. Maybe if I could go with someone, but most of the time, they make you split up, and you're exploring some haunted place all by your onesy. Not cool.

Also, next Tuesday, Aladdin comes out on DVD. I can't wait until I drag Marcus out so we can get it. I'm trying to get my favorite four Disney cartoons on DVD. I have Beauty and the Beast and The Lion King. I'll get Aladdin sometime next week, then all I have to do is wait for The Little Mermaid. I didn't really like Pocahontas, so I won't be waiting for that. Whenever we go out, I'm also gonna start looking for Christmas presents, my other favorite holiday. I can't wait until ABC Family does 25 Days of Christmas, that's almost better than 13 Days of Halloween.

I STILL NEED A JOB, I STILL WANT A JOB, I NEED MONEY!!

I was really depressed on Tuesday after I put up my last entry, but once again, I wrote it down on paper, and I felt better. But I may post it, it was a really good emotional thing for me. God, there were tears and everything.

Oh yeah, my step-dad's in Alabama! I feel comfortable around the house again. WHOOOOOOOO!! LET IT ALL HANG OUT NOW!! But, my mum wants to go to Alabama for Christmas. There's got to be a way to get out of that.

I'm phasing.

Runaway Train
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Runaway Train
I LOVE this song! Runaway Train Soul Asylum

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

And everything seems cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
A little out of touch, little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Runaway train (Never comin' back)
Runaway train (Tearin' up the track)
Runaway train (Burnin' in my veins)
Runaway, but it always seems the same

It just got stuck in my head because someone used it in a story at FF.net. It was really cute. It had Snape as Harry's father, but a lot of people tend to really like that so, whatever. When reading fan fiction, you have to suspend your beliefs a bit.

OMG! I had this dream on Sunday morning, that I must put up here before I forget it. I dreamed about Michael Easton. It was really weird. It had him, and they guys who play Antonio and Tico. Antonio was like this secret agent or something, and he kept getting blown up. I remember twice where he should have just been dead, both of them had to do with boats. The first one he was on a yacht, coming up on another one, and everyone just started to open fire on one another, and the yacht with the bad guys on it exploded, and the second yacht caught fire as well and exploded, too. Then the second time Antonio was underwater next to a boat, and that one exploded. Oh yeah, for some reason, all of the boats had a bunch girls in bikinis on them. I guess they're all dead, too. Anyway, then the dream skipped to John McBain's(drool) office, and he was talking to Antonio. Then, all of a sudden, Tico burst through the door and either shot Antonio at point-blank range, or slit his throat. I can't remember. WHY DIDN'T I PUT THIS UP HERE ON SUNDAY WHEN IT WAS FRESH IN MY MIND?! Then, the dream cut to Tico and John in a car driving, and Tico was threatining John about something, probably saying not to tell anyone he killed Antonio, when the car broke down. While they were waiting on the side of the road, two teen-agers (like 13/14) showed up on bikes and said that Tico owed them some money for doing something for him. While Tico was distracted, John made his break by dismantling one of the bikes by making it a unicycle (yeah, extremely strange, but it's a dream, and they rarely if ever make sense) and rolling down a hill full of trees and stuff with the unicycle. Then a car stopped at the bottom of the hill (it seemed like it was waiting for him, hmmmm?), and just as he jumped in the passenger seat and the car sped off, I woke up. I heard someone come up the stairs. I was so blown! John (Michael Easton) looked SOOOOOOOOOOO HOT! Right after he was finished falling down the hill full of trees, his face was all dirty and stuff.

I'm phasing.