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It Always Seems Like I'm Angry
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Aerosmith Amazing
You know what pisses me off? When people call me, and not talk to me. That is so goddamn, annoyingly frustrating to me, I can't even see straight! It happened last night. I was watching AFI's 100 YEARS...100 SONGS with my mother, and since it was Tuesday, I was expecting my friend Lisa to call, because we always talk on the phone when we watch MTV's The Real World. She called at like 9:00, and I told her to call me back when the show started in an hour, because I really love musicals and shit like that, so I was really into the program that I was watching. Anyways, 10:00 rolls around, and I had to tear myself away from my show. And we're watching it, and I realized that she wasn't totally committed to the conversation. She was having an online, instant message conversation with some guy named Bret. And his last name wasn't 'Michaels', so I wasn't that interested. I just can't be on the computer and the phone at the
same time. That is so goddamn rude to the person on the other end! They wouldn't be getting my undivided attention. And then these people are calling me! UGH!! It's not like I'm calling them up, and disturbing them, they are calling me!! The stupidly, ironic part was that at the end of The Real World, she all of a sudden became real chatty and wanted to tell me about a previous episode I've never seen. And I'm like, dude, you didn't wanna talk all this time, but when I really want to get off the phone and watch something else, that I had been dying to see, now you have stuff to say. Whatever. I don't care anymore. I'm so lying, of course I do, because if I didn't, it wouldn't bother the piss out of me like it does. But I think the biggest thing is that, it's not only one certain person that does this, EVERYONE, EXCEPT ONE PERSON, I HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH OVER THE PHONE DOES THAT!! AND IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOO RUDE!!!

OMG! AFI's 100 YEARS...100 SONGS was a good show. Of course Somewhere Over the Rainbow was number one, but still, it was good. And I find it so sad that I don't have friends that like that kind of stuff. I don't have anyone to share it with, so I'm the only person who gets to experience it with me. But I already know how I feel about it!

On Monday, I actually didn't talk to Marcus during Raw. Jason called, and I just didn't end the conversation. If Marcus had text messaged or something, then I would have, but it was refreshing(?!), for a serious lack of a better term, to talk to someone else, and get their point of view. OH. MY. GOD. Jason, Jason, Jason. He is a total mark. He actually asked if Lita was really pregnant. This is so sad. Then when I said, of course not, it's only a story line, he said that the reason she said she was pregnant was because she wanted time off. The scariest thing is that he says all of this extremely stupid stuff, but he wants to be a wrestler. Granted, if he was like ten years old or something, but he's 21!! He's older than I am. There really are no words on how pathetic this is.

That's all for me, I was pissed about something else, but I can't remember it, so I'll be off.

I'm phasing.

I've Finally Had Satisfaction, In the Third Paragraph

Marcus got back from Cancun. He had a blast, I was so jealous of him!
Like I said, I'm getting a job, and I have to go there for myself. You know, I
bet it's cheaper like during winter. We'll see.

Today's Father's Day. I went out to dinner with mine, it was nothing special.
My father has never had a serious conversation with me for the almost twenty
years of my existence. Whatever, I don't care, I got a free meal out of it.
Yeah, I'm shallow, but what has he done for me that counts? Sure, I love
my stereo, but my stereo doesn't give me advice. And my class ring was nice,
too. Even though I didn't get it until like a year and a half after I graduated.
Plus, it has the wrong mascot and school colors. But we had ugly school colors,
so I'm not that upset about that. But really, like Elliot says, "Don't fuck
[bang] the prostitute halfway." It basically means, if you're going to do
something, don't half-ass it. So with this in mind, I'm taking him for all he
has.

I am absolutely mad about hair metal. It gets worse and worse every week. I
can't get enough of it, it's like crack to me. It's so addictive.
I feel like I need it to get through my day. OMG, on I think Friday night, I had
my fix! I was watching some VH1 show called Top 40 Rock Ballads, or
something like that. It was goooooooooooood! Then I heard Bon Jovi's
Lay Your Hands On Me. Then when I was going to sleep, I had the radio on
with my headphones, and I heard 3 songs that I really like, but have forgotten
what they were, I'll post it when I figure out what they were, I think Green Day
Brainstew was one of them. I know that's not hair metal, but I love that
song. Anyway, I remember being so happy when I went to sleep that night. I
literally felt full, like I had just eaten dinner or something, but instead of
food, it was happiness. It was fulfillment. It was satisfaction. And baby, there
is nothing like it. It was absolute euphoria. I can go on forever
describing exactly how wonderful it was. I had never felt like that before in my
life, but I have one more example: It was like knowing you crave a certain
drink, and always being thirsty for it, but you've only been given a sip of it
at a time if/when you taste it, and finally being able to drink an entire cup
full. I was quenched. Hmmmmm, I guess that's what it must feel like after you
have really good sex. Like I'd know. I'd give anything to always feel
like that.

Before I jet, I have to say that I have a few new favorite songs that I can't
get enough of. One is new and the other two are old. The first one is Hoobastank
The Reason. At first I couldn't stand this song, it was (is) so
overplayed. But then, I kept always catching the tail end of it, and little by
little, it grew on me. But when I hear it, it makes me think of my friend
Michael. We had some stupid falling out, and I wish I could correct it, but I
don't know where he is or what happened to him.

The second of my favorite songs is Soul Asylum Runaway Train. LOVE.
IT. The lyrics are so beautiful. I know exactly how that feels. Well, I
would if I could break from this monotony that is my life. I hope I can runaway
and never come back.

The third is Great White's cover of the Ian Hunter song Once Bitten, Twice
Shy. That is my new jam, considering it's like 13 years old or something.
LOL. I can definitely relate to the title. That's why I don't have
anybody, love interest wise. I'm scared of getting hurt, so I keep my defenses
up. Plus, it's a really great song to sing along with.

You know, I really wish I had a friend to like most of the shit I
like. It would be too awesome if I actually had someone to gush about
Harry Potter and hair metal with. Oh well.

I'm phasing.

Just So Bored

I'm bored, bored, bored, bored!

For some reason, I'm still not used to this place. I still like my old online journal, but I gotta be strong, I can make this place just as good, if not better.

Every time I want to say something, I never remember to come here and type it. I'm such a space cadet.

My friend Marcus (Justin2004 for my Degrassi friends) is in Cancun right now, god is he lucky! It's been a really boring week without him, even though last night wasn't too bad. I stayed up until 1:00 AM, on the phone with my friend Lisa. I hadn't planned on staying up that late, but it was a good conversation.

I've been trying to win these Raw tickets on the radio. I seriously doubt I'll get them, but if I don't then I'm just not going. I'm flat broke, and the radio is giving away good seats. On Monday, fifth row, Tuesday, fourth row, etc. On Friday, it's front row! I so want those. The only reason I'm not hard pressed to go is because Shawn won't be there. He might, but I seriously doubt it. This fucking sucks, the time that WWE Raw finally comes to DC, during the summer, Shawn's not coming. This is karma or something. But, if I did get the tickets, I would totally take Marcus. He's my best wrestling buddy, besides, he's done so much for me, I owe him. Even if the tickets were free, still that's something. Especially seats that good. But I'm probably not going to get them. Oh well.

I'm bored. I'm ready for a job. I think I really am, but no one is hiring for the summer. My best bet is to keep up contact with Hot Topic, and put the hard sell on towards the end of the summer when everyone else is starting school again. I really want to work there.

Raw was so stupid on Monday. And the fact that Marcus wasn't here made it like a million times worse. I didn't watch most of it. I watched the beginning for Shawn, and after that, I was like, "Fuck this, I can't sit through this!" I saw bits and pieces of it, and most of what I saw was dumb. A pregnancy angle? OMG, you have got to be kidding me! *sigh* I've already stated before that now there is no reason for me to be watching this stuff for the summer.

I went back to my Yahoo messenger on Sunday so I could see WWE PPV Bad Blood for free. Man, that was so much fun. I forgot how cool it was. I stayed in that chatroom for the whole 3 hours. I made a couple of new buddies and stuff. My computer doesn't seem to like Yahoo messenger though, every time I upgrade it, my computer starts acting funny. If you have Yahoo messenger, and your computer can handle it, I suggest you do the upgrade, it's really cool.

Well, that's it for me, I have to print some programs for my mom's school's pre-school graduation.

I'm phasing.

Grrrrrrrrrrrr

My other online journal has pissed me off. It deleted a total kick ass entry because it said I used profanity!! Everyone else on that site does, but because it's me, they get rid of it. That is complete rubbish! I wouldn't even say the whole word if it was really bad like 'shit' or 'fuck', I would use asterisks to replace some of the letters. But the stupid thing is that I have much worse entries than the one they deleted. Especially the ones where I rant on about my mother. Whatever.

So now I'm going to put all my efforts into this one. Hmm.

It feels really weird doing this, my other locker was so wonderful. You could put up a slideshow and it showed the other members you had stuff in common with. I guess this is just starting all over again. It might take me a mo' to get used to this.

I'm phasing.

The Walls Are Closing In On Me
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe?

Harder To Breathe Maroon 5

WELL IS THERE?! I feel like everyone is pulling me from a bunch of different sides. We want this, we want that, and everybody wants what they want now! Can bitch get few days notice? Damn. I gotta escape. I just need to get away from everyone I know. Well, Justin2004 is going to Cancun (so lucky, so jealous), so that's cool. Plus, he's not the annoying one. I just wish I could disappear, you know, like one minute I'm here, the next, just gone until my head is clear and it's the right time for me to reappear.

"The whole fucking world's against us, dude, swear to God." (JayJason Mewes, Dogma)

I swear, next time someone just calls me up and asks what I'm doing that day, I'm going off. I need to, but then I get all upset because they'll say/think I have an attitude problem or that I'm being stuck up. But you know, I'm starting to just not care anymore. Really, I'm not. I used to be this very shallow person and stuff, and I kind of miss her. She didn't care, she was very happy with being just surface. I've let too many people below the surface. I used to act like I belonged in the movie Clueless, which is my favorite movie by the way. I miss being ignorantly happy.

"You know, just because people are clique-y and snotty is no reason not to like them." Quinn Morgendorffer, Daria

"You know, just because people are clique-y and snotty is no reason not to like them.
...Or hate them." Jane Lane & Daria Morgendorffer, Daria

I don't know why I keep doing quotes.

Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe?
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe?
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe?
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe?
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe?
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe?

I guess not.

I'm phasing.

I Don't Think There Will Be A Post-Azkaban Depression
Is there a Prisoner of Azkaban backlash? There are Harry Potter fans that are just trashing this movie. Some of it is kind of funny. I know I sort of side with them, and I'm biased, but I can't believe there are other fans that said this was the 'best movie EVER'. Please! It's far from it, and I loved the first two movies. People said that Chris Columbus was too faithful to the first two books. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS BEING TOO FAITHFUL!!!!! Where as this time, if you don't read the book, you don't know what's going on. I had to explain to some people a few things.

My friend, Degrasschick told me what happened when she went to the movies yesterday with our friend Ashley and a bunch of other people. I'm glad I didn't go. Even though they went and saw Harry Potter, my experience would have been ruined by the making out of two certain people.

I feel I'm still recovering from Friday night. Like I was tired and sore all day yesterday. I'm so happy that I finally saw the rest of the VH1's 100 Most Metal Moments or whatever it was called. That was so tight! And there was PLENTY of Bret Michaels (mmmmmm) and Sebastian Bach (he's so funny). I think Elliot dislikes Sebastian Bach, but I've never met him, so I really can't side with Elliot on this.

I finally finished that Lupin fanfic, the ending was weird, but then I found out it has a sequel. I'm on the second part of that. I think it's seven all together, and then there's a third story that kind of goes along with the second. Not a sequel to it, it's like what's going on with a character who's in jail during it and it said it's about his trial or something. The sequel is a bit harder to read than the first one, but I'm doing my best to get through it.

Raw comes on tomorrow, and I don't care. This summer is going to suck!

I'm phasing.

Now What's There To Look Forward To?
Last night was so much fun. See? I said that once Jarett left, it would be fun again. They came like a quarter to nine, then we set off for Arrundel Mills. We got there at like 10 something, but everything was sold out, so we had to see the 12:10 showing. I didn't get home until 4:00. I came in with the newspaper.

The movie itself was okay. Just okay. It's weird, I would have loved it so much more if I had never read the book, but on the other hand, they did not explain a bunch of stuff, so I wouldn't have known what the hell was going on without the book. That's bass ackwards! The things they got right were outstanding! The dementors were absolutely sick! There was more Alan Rickman (Snape), which is always a good thing. The main trio, Harry, Ron, and Hermione (Daniel Radcliffe, Rupert Grint, and Emma Watson respectively) are becoming great actors! They fit the parts so well. The only thing is, I wish they would stop giving Hermione (Emma) everyone else's lines. I know it's not her fault, but it's a bit annoying. In Chamber of Secrets she had lines said by Dumbledore and Ron in the book. And the Dumbledore line wasn't even from Chamber of Secrets, it was supposed to be in Sorcerer's Stone. Oh well, like I said, I don't blame her. They also didn't explain who Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot, and Prongs were. I'm kind of glad I read the spoilers. If I hadn't, I would have been pissed at the ending. But it was a good movie, and I'm sure that DVD will kick all kinds of ass. I wish I could have seen it with some Harry Potter fanatics, instead of just the people that like the movies. It would have been funnier that way. But I had a blast anyway. We almost got locked in the mall! The place where we parked was on the other side of the theater. So we were just about to walk all the way back to theater, but we found one of those emergency exits. I'm just thankful that we didn't set off any alarms.

I slept until almost 1:00 today. My side hurts, because I was just so tired that I plopped down on my bed and went to sleep. I almost didn't brush my teeth I was so tired, but that's out of the question, because I treasure them so much, especially after two years in braces and like 5 left to go with a retainer. Like 20 minutes after I woke up, my friend Ashely called and asked me to go to the movies. I was like dude, I almost just got in. Plus, I'M BROKE BITCH!! Sorry, had to throw in the Dave Chapelle reference. I offered her to come with us on Friday night, plus I'm not the kind of person that you can call up and say, let's do something today. I need almost a week of planning at least.

That's it for me today, my head hurts. There will probably be a 'Post Azkaban Depression' entry.

I'm phasing.

Tonight, Tonight
Now Playing: Smashing Pumpkins'
OMFG!! IT'S HERE!! JUNE 4!! HARRY POTTER AND THE PRISONER OF AZKABAN IS IN THEATERS!!!! I'm going to see it in a couple of hours. I cannot wait. I have my outfit and stuff. Not the Gryffindor one I was going to pull together, I have a blue with silver designs halter top, a pair of jeans that are white on top and slowly become bluer (is that a word?) as they go down, and a pair of blue studded heels. It's Harry Fucking Potter! Of course I'm going to go all out.

I'll have to elaborate on my trip to Springfield later, but the abridged version of it was it was a total bust. Complete waste of time, effort, and MONEY!

I called Hot Topic, they aren't hiring anytime soon. Maybe in the mid-summer. Okay, whatever.

I have absolutely no reason to watch Raw for the next 7 weeks. They said that Shawn was suspended from arenas until Bad Blood, June 13, then, like I said yesterday, he'll be taking 6 weeks off after that. Ummm, he might pop up next Monday since it is the last Raw before the PPV, and there's a slight chance he'll make an apperance after Bad Blood, but I won't hold my breath. And Justin2004 is going to Cancun like next Thursday. I'm in for a boring next couple of weeks.

You know what? Fuck everything, I'm going to see Harry Potter tonight!! :D

As Elliot would say: "PEACE AND HARRY POTTER GREASE!!!!!!!"

I have to go do my hair now.

I'm phasing.

Just One More Night........
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Mariah Carey's "My All"
OMG!! Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban opens tomorrow night. I want to run around and scream like an idiot, but I just had a blueberry muffin, and I'm full. It was so good. I have been watching what I like to call Harry Potter Hype (HPH) for a little over a week. But there has been HPH on all week. On Monday, Daniel Radcliffe was on Regis & Kelly, but that was stupid. They are horrible hosts. Whenever they would ask him a question, they would talk over him. He barely spoke. Then on Tuesday, he was on CBS The Early Show. I didn't know it started at 7:00 in the morning, I missed the first hour, but it was okay, He didn't come on until like 20 minutes before the show went off. They had a really stupid story on before his. Some people lost a pet bird, and it returned four years later. Okay, maybe it wasn't 'stupid', but it was really hard for me to sit through. Last night, Wednesday, the A&E channel had J.K. Rowling's Biography special on at 8:00 pm, followed by Magic Touch to Harry Potter. It talked about the first two movies, the casting for the roles, and sneak peeks from the third movie. Today at 4:30 pm (less than a half hour from now!), The E! channel is doing a Behind the Scenes on it. Can't wait. HPH ROCKS!

I've also gotten into a bit of Harry Potter fanfic recently. I used to steer away from it, because it was/is loaded with inaccuracies, but I've found a couple that weren't half bad. One parallelled (sp?) the book Prisoner of Azkaban, but it was from Lupin's point of view. That was the only reason I found it somewhat interesting, since Remus John Lupin is my absolute favorite character. I don't know why, he just is. But this other one I've been reading this week, which is extremely long, is phenomenal. It does have it's flaws, as it is doing a darker side of what Lupin could have been doing during Goblet of Fire. There are many places that are completely wrong, but it is one helluva story. I'm almost done with it. I kind of want to print it, but when I transferred 7 out of the 10 parts to Microsoft Word, it was over 300 pages long! I think it was something like 326, I don't remember. That's a lot of ink. The only reason I wanted to print it out was because staring at a computer screen reading something that long for an enormous amount of time makes my eyes hurt. I might print it someday, and transfer it to a notebook. Hopefully I'd get the author's permission, or if I couldn't, I'd at least give them credit. I don't think I could have imagined such a story anyway.

Shawn wasn't on Raw. Raw's ratings did the lowest they have this year. Coincidence? They're blaming it on Memorial Day weekend.

Shawn will be missing for like six weeks after Bad Blood, because his wife is going to have a baby. That will be the worst six weeks of my life. Unless I get a job.

But that (getting a job) rant is for another time. Maybe tomorrow.

I'm phasing.