Tonight, Tonight
Now Playing: Smashing Pumpkins'
OMFG!! IT'S HERE!! JUNE 4!! HARRY POTTER AND THE PRISONER OF AZKABAN IS IN THEATERS!!!! I'm going to see it in a couple of hours. I cannot wait. I have my outfit and stuff. Not the Gryffindor one I was going to pull together, I have a blue with silver designs halter top, a pair of jeans that are white on top and slowly become bluer (is that a word?) as they go down, and a pair of blue studded heels. It's Harry Fucking Potter! Of course I'm going to go all out.

I'll have to elaborate on my trip to Springfield later, but the abridged version of it was it was a total bust. Complete waste of time, effort, and MONEY!

I called Hot Topic, they aren't hiring anytime soon. Maybe in the mid-summer. Okay, whatever.

I have absolutely no reason to watch Raw for the next 7 weeks. They said that Shawn was suspended from arenas until Bad Blood, June 13, then, like I said yesterday, he'll be taking 6 weeks off after that. Ummm, he might pop up next Monday since it is the last Raw before the PPV, and there's a slight chance he'll make an apperance after Bad Blood, but I won't hold my breath. And Justin2004 is going to Cancun like next Thursday. I'm in for a boring next couple of weeks.

You know what? Fuck everything, I'm going to see Harry Potter tonight!! :D

As Elliot would say: "PEACE AND HARRY POTTER GREASE!!!!!!!"

I have to go do my hair now.

I'm phasing.

Just One More Night........
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Mariah Carey's "My All"
OMG!! Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban opens tomorrow night. I want to run around and scream like an idiot, but I just had a blueberry muffin, and I'm full. It was so good. I have been watching what I like to call Harry Potter Hype (HPH) for a little over a week. But there has been HPH on all week. On Monday, Daniel Radcliffe was on Regis & Kelly, but that was stupid. They are horrible hosts. Whenever they would ask him a question, they would talk over him. He barely spoke. Then on Tuesday, he was on CBS The Early Show. I didn't know it started at 7:00 in the morning, I missed the first hour, but it was okay, He didn't come on until like 20 minutes before the show went off. They had a really stupid story on before his. Some people lost a pet bird, and it returned four years later. Okay, maybe it wasn't 'stupid', but it was really hard for me to sit through. Last night, Wednesday, the A&E channel had J.K. Rowling's Biography special on at 8:00 pm, followed by Magic Touch to Harry Potter. It talked about the first two movies, the casting for the roles, and sneak peeks from the third movie. Today at 4:30 pm (less than a half hour from now!), The E! channel is doing a Behind the Scenes on it. Can't wait. HPH ROCKS!

I've also gotten into a bit of Harry Potter fanfic recently. I used to steer away from it, because it was/is loaded with inaccuracies, but I've found a couple that weren't half bad. One parallelled (sp?) the book Prisoner of Azkaban, but it was from Lupin's point of view. That was the only reason I found it somewhat interesting, since Remus John Lupin is my absolute favorite character. I don't know why, he just is. But this other one I've been reading this week, which is extremely long, is phenomenal. It does have it's flaws, as it is doing a darker side of what Lupin could have been doing during Goblet of Fire. There are many places that are completely wrong, but it is one helluva story. I'm almost done with it. I kind of want to print it, but when I transferred 7 out of the 10 parts to Microsoft Word, it was over 300 pages long! I think it was something like 326, I don't remember. That's a lot of ink. The only reason I wanted to print it out was because staring at a computer screen reading something that long for an enormous amount of time makes my eyes hurt. I might print it someday, and transfer it to a notebook. Hopefully I'd get the author's permission, or if I couldn't, I'd at least give them credit. I don't think I could have imagined such a story anyway.

Shawn wasn't on Raw. Raw's ratings did the lowest they have this year. Coincidence? They're blaming it on Memorial Day weekend.

Shawn will be missing for like six weeks after Bad Blood, because his wife is going to have a baby. That will be the worst six weeks of my life. Unless I get a job.

But that (getting a job) rant is for another time. Maybe tomorrow.

I'm phasing.

Nothing Much
I'm just waiting until 9:00 so I can watch the made for HBO movie "Something the Lord Made". It stars Alan Rickman! He is surely becoming my favorite actor. I can't wait to see him in the new "Harry Potter" movie this Friday. Not too much happened when my stepdad's family was up here. It was good to see them again. For some reason, I just don't ever have enough to say when I'm here, but when I'm at my other online journal, that is censored, I can go on and on and on. This is so weird.

I'm Going Crazy!! Lotsa Stuff Happening!!
Mood:  caffeinated
OMG! I cannot wait until next Friday!! I'm super-siced for Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban! I have my "date" already and everything! I talked to him last night. He said he just broke up with is girlfriend, and has a restraining order against her. UH-HUH. I'm not gonna touch that. I have not been this excited about anything since Wrestlemania XX! I wanted to do up an outfit, but I doubt I'll have time. I have these jeans that have holes on the side, because they came with these strings, but they all broke and I had to pull them out. And I wanted to put like red and gold yarn, ribbon, etc. in them to show my support for Gryffindor!! I'm a Slytherin at heart, but I don't have any green or silver shirts, that I could wear during summer.

Raw was weird on Monday. Triple H and Shawn fought all over the building! The best one was when Trips attacked Shawn in Eric Bischoff's office, and they fell one Eric, and then they fell on Johnny Nitro!! It was AWESOME!! I listen to WAY too much Elliot in the Morning!

Ummmm, I stayed up until 1:00 in the morning to vote for Fantasia on American Idol, because my mother made me. But it was okay, I was gonna be up anyway, because Daniel Radcliffe was on Conan O'Brien. He's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cute, for a 14 year old. If only he were a few years older, or I was a few years younger, man! He did this weird thing with his arm where he put it flat on Conan's desk, and rotated it almost 360 degrees. I taped it, it was SICK!! He still is really cute, though.

We have familia coming up tomorrow. They live in Alabama, and it's like 8:05 pm here, so it's 7:05 there, and I guess they're leaving in about an hour. They're driving up and it's an 18 hour drive, plus it depends on how many pitstops they make, so we expect them sometime tomorrow afternoon. I'm not particularly excited, but whatever. My mother is more tolerant when there are guests, and all the focus of my shortcomings will go unnoticed.

Hot Topic still hasn't called, but I'm not gonna worry just yet. All I'm gonna do is wait and hope, but if I don't hear from them by next Tuesday, I'm going to lose all standards and apply at the Popeye's up the street, because money is money, and I need MONEY!!!!

I'm phasing.

Mi Primero Blog
This is my first time doing this, I don't feel like writing much, since I already poured my emotions into my written journal. If I feel like it later, I'll put up here.

EDIT 25/09/04: Everything dated before this are transfers from my old online journal.

Killing Time
Smackdown is on tonight, and I just don't know if I'm going to watch it or not. I'm not real pressed or anything.

I'm so bored, I'm waiting for The Simpsons to come on. 35 more minutes to go. All I'm doing is listening to I'll Be There For You, but the novelty of the song is starting to wear off. But I totally freak out if I hear it on the radio or television, but don't really pay attention to it when I'm on the computer. I'm so fickle like that. The same thing happened with November Rain. But I still love both songs to death.

I'm still waiting to hear from the Hot Topic people. I cannot do it justice to express in words how much I really want this job. The manager, Stephanie, said she had a few more interviews this week, and she would let me know probably in the next couple of weeks, but I'll just die if I don't get it.

*Takes deep, calming breaths and thinks only positive thoughts*

Well, that's it for me.

I'm phasing.

Doing Much Better Today
I'm doing so much better today. I trekked way out to Springfield Mall, it's almost an hour away on Metro, not even including the wait for the train when you change lines. I put in an application AND interviewed at Hot Topic! I really, really, REALLY want that job. The manager, Stephanie, said since it's summer, a lot of the people who work there are getting out of school and stuff, so I may only be part time. Then she said if they really like me, I could come aboard a full time, which would be excellent. Especially if I hang around till the fall, that way when everyone is going back to school, I'll be full time. I also put in applications at Lane Bryant, Claire's, FYE, and Suncoast. Any of those would be alright, but like I said, I want the Hot Topic job so bad.

Ummmm, Raw was pretty good last night. The Rock came back, and it was so shocking! He shaved his goatee, which is good, because he was looking like Coach on steroids. Just like I said, Shawn made himself known at the battle royal at the end of the show. He hopped in the ring and eliminated Triple H. Then he left through the crowd. I would have ripped his tank top off, but that's just me.

Well, that's all for me, cross your fingers and hope I get the Hot Topic job.

I'm phasing.

Meh...
I went out into the world, to look for work. Will update accordingly.

My effing head hurts. Maybe it's a hunger headache, and we have lasagna (sp?)! You don't need to be a 'rocket surgeon' to put that together!

I had the craziest dream last night. I dreamed I was in a helicopter, with AXL F'N ROSE! The hot Axl, not the strange looking one he is now. It was so weird. But it was cool.

I'm gonna grab a bite, take some Excedrin, and chill. Maybe Raw will be interesting tonight. Maybe Shawn will show up though he's 'suspended', suspensions in wrestling usually mean dick anyway, so whatever.

Why does everything suck nowadays?

I'm phasing.

So Very Angry
Mood:  irritated
Seven days ago, we were celebrating motherhood. Today, I want to super kick mine in the throat. It?s just a vicious cycle between us. Even though the disagreements have started to become few and far in between, when we?re there, it gets ugly. Somebody please tell me what getting a job has to do with not opening a door. I don?t know either.

It all started yesterday. She called from somewhere, telling me she was on her way home with groceries. I was asking her a question when we got disconnected. Now, instead of going to the kitchen and waiting on her like I normally do, I stayed upstairs. This was my fault. You see, I got caught up doing something on the computer and completely forgot. I make mistakes. While I was doing my thing, I heard this pounding on the door, I jumped up and ran to open it, and EVIL ITSELF was on the other side. That was such a horrible look, you just don?t understand. So, she starts bitching about me not opening a door, and it?s hot outside (it wasn?t that hot), and she called, she?s had a long day and I?m doing nothing, blah blah blah. Yeah, so I?ve pissed her off for one day. She went to sleep and I stayed out of her way for the rest of the evening, until I saw a roach in the bathroom, and was trying to kill it and I woke her up. I was so paranoid last night, I didn?t sleep well at all, I just kept thinking about that bug. Now we?re up to this morning. So she comes in my room saying stuff about breakfast. I get up out of bed and go to the kitchen. We have no sausage. Hmmm. Okay, so I go to the basement to get bacon out of the freezer. It has to thaw out, of course, so I go upstairs to tell them this. She gets pissed about there not being any sausage saying she bought two packs last week. Hey, we didn?t have any milk last week, so I couldn?t eat cereal. So, bacon thaws, I put it in the pan, and I burnt the first four strips. I get upset when I do stuff like this because I can cook. So, I?m frying the rest of the bacon, and I discover that there are only three eggs in the house. I panic, because one would think they might be upset about this, then the phone rings. It?s Jason. While I?m on the phone, I tell them that we only have three eggs. She?s all like, whatever just scramble them. Then, she complains that she?s still hungry. I tell her that I?m cooking as fast as I can, then she says, just put the sausage on some bread and send it up. Nobody ever listens to me. I remind her there is no sausage. Anyway, she starts yelling down the stairs and stuff, she told me to get off the phone, and she storms down in the kitchen and just lays into me. She?s just like, ?I?m working, and you?re not, you didn?t open the door for me (SHE HAD A KEY GODDAMMIT!! FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS HOLY, SHE HAD A KEY!!! THAT?S WHAT THEY?RE FUCKING FOR, YOU OPEN DOORS WITH THEM!! DUH!!), and you sit up here and eat all my food, and if I have to work, everybody has to work!? Now, with the exception of the food thing, even though we didn?t have any food in the house anyway, I go back to my original question: What does getting a job have to do with not opening a door? I?m just as stumped as the next person.

Oh yeah, if she wants/needs someone to jump all over her when she comes in the door everyday, I suggest she gets a goddamn dog!

I'm phasing.

A Few Days Worth, All In One Post
Okay, my computer was acting up so badly this past weekend, that a certain Churrito lover would say, "Damn, it's being gay!" *so angry*

Quick recap of the past few days:

Saturday: Avoided the phone and my "friends" like the plague. Had night terrors and got very little sleep.

Sunday: Mother's Day. It was okay. My "friend" Jarret tried to contact me again, he called my cell phone, so I ignored it. Bless Caller ID. We hung up curtains in the living room, it's beautiful. Watched all 4 hours of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. I had pretty much guessed that the "bonus footage" was gonna be all the deleted scenes on the second disc from the DVD. Normally, I would be upset, but it is hard as hell to get to the deleted scenes, plus it was nice to see how seamlessly they fit in with the rest of the movie. THEY SHOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN CUT IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! I know that would have made the movie even longer, but it would have made more sense.

Monday: Wanted to kill my computer. Kept giving me errors everytime I went on the internet. I fixed it today (hope, hope). I cleaned the kitchen and the living room, it looks so nice. Jason called my cell phone two minutes before Raw, I ignored it again. Shawn Michaels was suspended from Raw last night. This deserves an entire *rant to itself. Plus, there is no reason for me to even watch Raw next Monday, but I have a feeling I will anyway.

Today: Step-dad made me tell him my views on religion. He was fair, but I still really hate talking about it to other people. Fixed the computer (hope, hope again) but my Windows Media Player still has been acting up for the past few days. And it knows I'm going through withdrawal from not hearing I'll Be There For You since Friday. Maybe I can fix it tomorrow.

*RANT TIME: *takes deep, calming breaths* Okay, I am dealing with the fact that some of the internet *rolls eyes* does not like Shawn Michaels. And I'm sort of fine with that. It's just that now, they are really, really starting to get on my nerves. Last week, when Triple H interfered with the end of the Shawn Michaels/Chris Benoit match, it was okay. He's just doing what the script called for. But when Shawn wants revenge, he ruins a good match. *Whispers under her breath, while rolling her eyes*: OMGSTFU! If you're going to hate on Shawn, that's fine, whatever, I don't care anymore; but at least be CONSISTENT about it! *Whispers under her breath, while rolling her eyes, again* stupidbloodysmarks!

That's it for me today.

I'm phasing.