Losing My Sight, Losing My Mind, Wish Somebody Would Tell Me I'm Fine
Mood:  hug me
Raw last night was just all over the place. One minute, I'm ready to turn the channel and be done with the whole thing, the next minute I have to stick with it, because it's just so, so captivating. Triple H had me going last night, I'm still in shock that Shelton won. The match was really good, second to Shawn/Chris Benoit vs. Ric Flair/Batista, of course. But like I said, it was good, it had my emotions high and running, I hadn't felt like that bout a non-Shawn match in a long time. But the Shawn/Chris Benoit vs. Ric Flair/Batista match was NUTS!! I BELIEVED!!! I HATE WHEN WWE DOES THAT TO ME!! They WON the match, but then they reversed it because Ric Flair wasn't the legal man when Benoit pinned him. WTF EVER!! But then I remember that it's not in WWE history that they follow logic, so, [expletive deleted]! Oh yeah, Shawn is CRAZY!! When he and Benoit were beating the hell out of the ref, who keeps changing his name every week, he fell out in the ring and started spazzing for NO reason!! But I love him anyway. Man, I thought he was going heel in that match. THEY MADE ME CARE, GODDAMN THEM!

This weekend was uneventful, except for the fact that my mom is a psycopathic bitch. OMG! On Sunday, my parents were going to take my grandparents to church since they hadn't been in a while because they were both in and out the hospital for most of January and February, and were healing at home for most of March. Well, my grandma didn't want to go, so my mom got super pissed and came back home. Then, she took a nap, which she needed, but she was still in this mood. I just stayed out of her way until dinner. Then at dinner, she wanted to drink a root beer, okay, well the one I got out of the fridge had a warped top. Part of it was sticking up like it had been in the freezer for a bit. She started bitching about it, and I told her that I didn't put it in the freezer, then she's like, I DIDN'T SAY YOU DID! And I'm like, you need to calm down, then she asked my step-dad to push the top down and he bent the top of the can down, and root beer spilled all over the floor and the table. But I feel like some of this is my fault, I should have just handed her a fucking straw. At some point I told her that I'd call Barq's Root Beer company and complain. THEN, she had the AUDACITY to ask what the hell is my problem. SHE'S the one with the goddamn problem. I was just tip-toeing around her so I wouldn't piss her off even more. And I failed MISERABLY! I should have just eaten in my room or something.

Oh yeah, I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY CHANGED THE GODDAMN BACKLASH MAIN EVENT!! I LOATHE WHOEVER THOUGHT OF THAT!! THAT WAS THE WMXX MAIN EVENT, HBK/BENOIT WOULD JUST BE SOOOOOOOO MUCH BETTER!!

It was something else I had on my mind, but I forgot what it was, so I'll just say that I LOVE my Guns N' Roses CD, headphones, and THE HEARTBREAK KID, SHAWN MICHAELS.

I'm phasing!

So Violated
Mood:  hug me
Smackdown was HORRIBLE!! I had such high hopes for it. I had stopped watching it for a while, and it was building up steam and becoming more enjoyable, then they pull this crap on us. It just makes me want to beat someone upside the head with a lead pipe.

I don't know what else to say, that show just physically and emotionally drained me last night.

I'm phasing.

...And Justice For None
Mood:  sad
Marcus, if you read this before Thursday night, all I have to say is BAIT AND SWITCH!! They announced the new GM for Smackdown sometime yesterday on WWE's official website, not a spoiler, and I can't believe it... You will never guess without reading it. And you remember that MIDNIGHT deadline to finalize their drafts, all I will tell you is that Elmo is dead. I almost cried.

Now, I will rage for a moment against WWE: (&* &^^%& %^#$ &*^%% but then &&$&*(&*( &&%^%^&*&*( and *&(^$@#!$ &*&(*& (**( ^&**& $#@#$@#$$ and they have to call a doctor to pull the handle out again!!

On a good note, that Guns N' Roses CD is SO... I don't know what to say!! I'm so happy I got it, and my headphones are just HOT!!

I must weep for the future of WWE from what I've heard now, I'm so depressed.

I'm phasing.

BEST DAMN DAY EVER!!!! PERIOD!!!!
Mood:  a-ok
OMG!!! Life could not get any better right now!! It has somewhat ruled since 9:00 PM last night.

They did the draft lottery on Raw last night, and Triple H went to SMACKDOWN!!! I couldn't believe it!! But then Shawn was all like, I want Chris Benoit's belt, but I'm not finished with this Triple H business either. I wanted to kill him. I was like, Shawn, why are you trying to leave me?? It was hard enough for me to WATCH Smackdown in the first place, even though I totally would for him. Shawn Michaels on Smackdown, just doesn't add up, see for yourself: Smackdown + Shawn Michaels = FUCKING WEIRD!! Math NEVER lies.

Then, today, I went out to the mall with my friend Marcus! OMG, it was so great! We went to Best Buy where I got Guns N' Roses Greatest Hits album and a new pair of headphones, he got the new Usher CD and 'The Rundown' DVD. I WOULD have gotten the Maroon 5 CD, but some other friends want to do stuff, and I probably would have been wiped out, even though I only have like $10 left anyway. Then we went to Borders, and I bought the Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them/Quidditch Through the Ages box set. It's really cool, especially the Fantastic... book, because they make it look like Harry owned it, and they write and stuff in it, and the Quidditch book looks like it's from the library! HP ROCKS!!! Then we walked the mall a bit, and had lunch, we had pizza. My one slice of pizza was HUGE!! It must have been Chicago style.

I must get a job soon, there was WAY too much other stuff I saw there that I REALLY want.

MY NEW HEADPHONES KICK 8 KINDS OF ASS!!

GNR IS THE SHIT!!

Oh yeah, EDGE IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHAWN MICHAELS + EDGE = OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Shawn is SO sexy.

I'm phasing.

Toxic
I need to ween myself off of Shawn, he's become my new drug. But I can't help it!! I need a dose of him at least once a day.

It's bloody cold over my house right now.

I just don't have that much to say, maybe something will happen somewhere between now and the next time I log in.

I'm phasing.

Post-Wrestlemania Depression
Mood:  blue
I know, it's almost been a week, but it was SO good! Wrestlemania is like New Year's for the wrestling world, and it just has me thinking, some stuff in paticular, some all over the place thoughts, but thinking none-the-less.

The thing I mostly think about is my future. I know what I want, I'm not sure how to get there, but the thing is, would I REALLY do ANYTHING to get it.

Like, say you really want to be famous, what if someone came along, saw potential in you, but said, I'll help out your career and make you rich and famous, but you have to drop your whole life, abandon all your friends, family, and other relationships, would you do it? It's something SO tempting, but it's asking to give up SO much.

I'm not sure what I would do in that situation. It's just been on my mind for a while, and I needed to write that down, to get it out of me.

I REALLY hope Shawn Michaels turns heel soon, then he would be mega-uber-hot!

I'm phasing.

WMXX Aftermath
Mood:  down
IT'S OVER, IT'S ALL OVER!! WHAT IS THERE FOR ME TO LOOK FORWARD TO NOW??!!

WMXX was so hot!! Even though my friends put on a repeat performance of tardiness, I missed the first match, which was John Cena vs. Big Show, Cena won, so it was cool.

Even though it was really cool, I wish I had watched it by myself instead of a room full of fucking marks! They just don't get the whole concept of it. Like the Eddie/Kurt match was good, but ALL they wanted were high spots and blood and stuff. I was like "HELLO!! It's called psycology! They're trying to tell a story!" They weren't interested in that so, whatever.

I myself LOVED it! The Goldberg/Brock match did get off to a slow started and there was a lot left to be desired, the crowd's chants, and stunners made up (mostly) for it. I didn't come home until 3:00 AM, and didn't go to sleep until after 5:00! It was a good night all together.

Raw was good too. There's going to be some shake-ups next week. They're going to mix up the rosters again, since Smackdown is so lacking.

Shawn Michaels is SO hot! I hope he turns heel.

I'm phasing.

WMXX Predictions
World Title Match
Triple H vs. Chris Benoit vs. Shawn Michaels

- Shawn or Benoit, that's a win-win situation, but I just don't want Trips to leave with it, because I'm sick of him being champ.

WWE Title Match
Eddie Guerrero vs. Kurt Angle

- Toss up. I LOVE Kurt Angle, but Eddie totally deserves to leave Wrestlemania with his belt.

Special Ref: Steve Austin
Brock Lesnar vs. Goldberg

- Don't really care. Brock sucks (little crybaby bitch), and have no paticular feelings about Goldberg at all.

WWE US Title Match
The Big Show vs. John Cena

- CENA RULES!! I have to know where he gets those old pump shoes from, I haven't seen those since I was like 8.

Playboy Evening Gown Match
Torrie Wilson & Sable vs. Stacy Keibler & Miss Jackie

- Filler, maybe if someone has to take a smoke or something, I'll go outside and hang with them. Maybe the pizza will be just getting there, it depends on what time this "match" comes on.

WWE Women's Title Match
Victoria vs. Molly Holly

- I don't know how Molly will look without hair, so she might win, although I heard some SICK alternatives to her agreement.

World Tag Team Titles Match
Booker T & RVD vs. The Dudley Boyz vs. Mark Jindrak & Garrison Cade vs. La Resistance

- I dunno, the Dudleyz, I guess.

WWE Tag Team Titles Match
Scotty 2 Hotty & Rikishi vs. The APA vs. The Basham Brothers vs. The World's Greatest Tag Team

- It would be cool if The World's Greatest Tag Team won.

WWE Cruiserweight Title Match
Cruiserweight Open

- Rumors flying that Jeff Hardy is coming back for this. Take that for what it is.

The Rock & Mick Foley vs. Ric Flair, Randy Orton, & Batista

- I want Evolution to win, just because Ric Flair is THE MAN!!

Chris Jericho vs. Christian

- I had said that Trish turns on Jericho, if that happens, it would be funny.

Kane vs. The Undertaker

- Doesn't matter, just as long as it's TWISTED!! But 'Taker probably will because he's got this undefeated at 'Mania streak.

I'm phasing.

Best Day...Maybe Not EVER, But Damn Close
OMG!!!! Last night to this morning just TOTALLY REEKED OF AWESOMENESS!! Maroon 5 was on Jay Leno, and I recorded their live performance of This Love! It was HOT!! Then, I tried to lay down, and go to sleep, but my mind was racing, for reasons unknown. So, I turned on the radio, and the Baltimore station was playing GNR's cover of Live and Let Die. It chilled me out for some reason, and I went to sleep.

This morning, I beat my alarm clock by more than an hour and woke up at 7:something. Pretty uneventful until about 9:45 when I turned to the DC station. And OMG!! SR-71 was on there!! I almost screamed, then they PLAYED Axl Rose live in the studio. OMG! I was SO happy, and I just sang it at the top of my lungs, the people next door are probably so tired of me. Then I heard GNR You Could Be Mine, but I turned it off early because Maroon 5's This Love video was on. Somewhere, either before You Could Be Mine or after it, I heard one of my favorite love songs from the 80's, At This Moment by Billy Vera and the Beaters. I LOVE that song. What a great way to start a day!! At least for me it is.

Me, being the obsessive HBK fan I am, CANNOT shake that DVD! I watch some part of it everyday. My faves are two of his promos on the second disc. I know the first one by heart, and most of the second one. The second one is where I got my new quote "Because I'm the man, and I can" from, it's right before the first ever Hell In A Cell match between Shawn Michaels and the Undertaker.

That's pretty much it for me, I hope everyone else's day is as good as mine is.

I'm phasing.

The Second Longest Week...EVER
Man, I can't believe it's only Wednesday! I just want Sunday to get here, but I don't. It's ALL in the anticipation of things. Raw was kind of blah (except for the HBK part), but I don't care, I'm still siced for WMXX! Last night Spike TV aired a special hosted by THE MAN, Ric Flair. It had the Top Ten Greatest Wrestlemania Matches. Shawn was featured on 3 of them, they had the Ladder Match with Razor Ramon, his (then) last match against Stone Cold, I wanna see that match SO bad, it's not on his DVD! :( AND they had his Iron Man Match against Bret Hart at #1, which I knew it would be. Well, actually, I thought it was going to be Hulk Hogan vs. Andre the Giant from WMIII, but that wasn't on there, but I figured it was one or the other.

Today, I was cleaning out my junk drawer, which everyone should have at least one, I have two, and I found some letters from my old best friend in there. WOW!! It brought back some crazy memories. We were silly, I kind of miss him, but time and distance got the better of us. Plus there was some stupid fight at the end, there always is, but by the time I went back to apologize, it was just too late.

Since that was such a downer, I forgot to post on Monday that I was so sublimely happy on Sunday night. I was flipping through the radio stations and when I got to the D.C. Rock station I caught the end of my favorite SR-71 song Axl Rose, THEN when I turned to the Baltimore Rock station, who should be on there but Axl himself, I think it was the song Sweet Child O' Mine. If I had heard Maroon 5's This Love after it, I would have DIED! :D The best part about that is, before I had only heard the song Axl Rose on the Baltimore station, because they're from around the way, but NOW it's on the D.C. station, MAYBE it's their new single, off of a new album. I don't know, but a girl can hope!! I haven't heard the song since, but I keep scanning the radio, and will not rest until I find it!!

I'm phasing.