2-0 which is as good a start as you can have! It beats last year when we were 1-1. So far, Ben has 5 touchdowns to 1 interception. I wish he didn't have the interception, but his first two games last season he had 0 touchdowns to 5 interceptions, so I'll take it. The one problem I had with the game was that it took until the second half to get a touchdown. We had to settle for 4 field goals in the first half (thanks Jeff!). So, we have to work on the red zone. We wore our throwback uniforms, no me gusta the gold helmet and the white pants. Watching it was so strange, it didn't even look like the Pittsburgh Steelers, more like a college team or something. Thank goodness they only have to wear those one more game, a Monday night one if I'm not mistaken. If they had worn the throwback jerseys with the normal black helmets and gold pants, it might have been better, but I'll never know.

Remember what I said about the Bungles playing the Browns and how everyone would be loving them so much it would border disturbing, well the hell with that. The CLEVELAND BROWNS embarrassed them by defeating the Bungles 51-45! As I was watching the Steelers game, I kept thinking that the score that popped up on the screen had to be wrong. A Pittsburgh fan said that they had a Bungles fan friend who actually said to them, "at least we put up more points against the Browns than the Steelers." What kind of lunacy is THAT? Just because we put up 34 and they put up 45 means nothing. The notable thing is that our defense held them to SEVEN points, while your non-existent counterpart let them put up FIFTY-ONE! Most people didn't think Cleveland could score 51 points unless you added up about 8 games worth. So now, at the moment, we sit alone at the top of the AFC North: Steelers (2-0), Browns (1-1), Bungles (1-1), Ravens (1-1). It's also kind of weird because the Steelers defeated the Browns, who defeated the Bungles, who defeated the Ravens. Things that make you go "hm." I'm so happy that the Bungles lost, now everybody can see for themselves how horribly overrated they are. Sure they have a great offense, but if you can let a team that lots of people said had the best shot at going 0-16 hang 51 on you, you got something that needs fixing. Now Pittsburgh goes on to the also undefeated San Francisco. I'm upset because I can't watch it, but I barely watched last weeks, I was too nervous, but I recorded it, I just have to label it. Here we go Steelers! Beat those Niners!

I found a site where I got another antenna and memory stick for my phone. It was on sale, the cord for $2.99 and the memory stick for $49; when I went out to look for those thing, I figured I would be spending anywhere from $75-$100, but this was a welcome change. I'm a little nervous about it, it ships from overseas, and it won't be here until next week. Another dodgy thing is that if you don't get the 2-3 day shipping ($20 s&h vs. $4.99), you can't track it. God, I hope this site is credible and I haven't been suckered into getting my identity stolen. Again.

It was so weird, after I bought that South Pacific: In Concert DVD, the original movie came on today. I tried watching it, it didn't really hold my attention much, and the color filters that came up every number was just annoying. They were so harsh and it hurt my eyes. But the movie came out in 1958, and they thought the technology back then was ground-breaking, nowadays, it's a bloody eyesore. I also wasn't really believing the actress that played Nellie. Her singing voice kind of irked me, it was high and bordering on squeaky. It also wasn't country. I know, I got spoiled listening to Reba singing it, but the character of Nellie Forbush is from Arkansas. She should have had an accent.

I hate this week. My mother had a car accident on Tuesday, it wasn't too bad, she says her back hurts and her neck is stiff. But she has the WHOLE week off. Tch. While it hasn't been as bad as she could be, it hasn't been as nice as it normally is. Like I was watching Pardon the Interruption and she said I was laughing too loud. What they said was really funny. Why couldn't she shut her door? And speaking of too loud, Ms. I-always-hear-your-telephone-conversations-because-you-have-no-concept-of-how-loud-YOUR-voice-is. Whatever, I guess I'll just have to be quiet whenever she's home, no laughing or anything, since she sucks all the good emotions out of a room anyway. Tch.

By the by, I have another "old is new" favorite song. Just in Time from the musical Bells are Ringing. It's gorgeous. I know I'm down on relationships, but if I were to ever get married and could have one person sing one song for the first dance as husband and wife, I think Michael Buble (his voice is insanely beautiful and rich, a total panty-melter) singing Just in Time could be a heavy favorite. I may post the lyrics next entry, but right now, I'm going to take a shower, shut myself in my room, and wait for tomorrow to come.

I just wanted to get that off my chest before I went spare. But of course...

It just looks so different.

I'm phasing.

Mood:  amorous

(Still rockin' out to Fall Out Boy Thnks Fr Th Mmrs) No offense to Jack Davenport, who is hot as balls, but why on earth did I want to leave this:

Mood:  irritated

He is here. HE is here. HE IS HERE! Ben is here, somewhere very close by, and I don’t know exactly where. He could be at the stadium. If he is, he is in Prince George’s county, 10 minutes down the street from where I graduated high school. The thing is I AM NOT THERE WITH HIM!!! This sucks SOOOOOOOOOO much!! According to my mother I should have tried harder with my father, but he was faking from the beginning. He said that he was only going to get one ticket and a parking pass. What am I supposed to do with that? I can’t drive. Tch, whatever, I am not stressing out about it. Even though I got a “Terrible Towel” last year and my “Ben Roethlisberger 7” handbag came by UPS yesterday and I can’t show these things off with my people. I am so sad right now. Sure, he’ll be here again next regular season, but those tickets are even harder to get. Whatever, I don’t care anymore.

On a bright side, Tony Stewart won at Watkins Glen road course last week, winning 3 out of the last 4 races, and has now climbed to the fourth spot in points! WAR TONY STEWART!!! He’s so awesome. Unfortunately, Jeff Gordon and Jimmie Johnson’s crew chiefs were suspended for the past 6 races and come back this week. If anything, I need a DNF from Gordon more than Johnson (although, if he wanted to hit a wall again, that is fine with me); just to close the gap some in the points lead. But Jimmie Johnson’s crew chief has been suspended twice in the past two seasons, which means he’s a total cheater. It’s not fair, but what can I do about fair. Hopefully Smoke turns to fire and captures a third Cup Championship, wishful thinking once again on my part. Tony starts practically in the back in the 35^th spot in tomorrow’s race, so he has his work cut out for him, but he likes to get hot at the right time, remember, it’s not how you start, it’s how you finish, and Tony is great at finishing high.

I also have another problem. It seems that some people take the Internet WAY too seriously. They act like there is a prize for getting the most "Best Answers" in Yahoo Answers. Do you know how many times I felt robbed because I didn't get a best answer? They need to get over it, it's a fucking website where people give their "opinions", rarely facts, and sometimes the Asker picks a best answer, sometimes they let it go to voting. The thing is this guy e-mailed me, saying I was using “voter influence” because the question was “What was the greatest record in sports?” and my answer was “Ben going 13-0 as a rookie starter.” So he TOOK THE TIME to look up my profile and see that most of my contacts on the site are Steelers’ fans and thinks I must have begged them to vote for me. Not even close to being true. I hate talking on the phone to people I actually know in real life, I’m not going to beg practically total strangers for something as petty as that. I did point out that if it were all about being a Steelers fan, then the Asker would have given me “Best Answer” anyway because he is one and he’s in my contact list. Then I told him that it is just a site on the Internet and he shouldn’t take it so seriously because it is not a life altering thing getting a “Best Answer.” Truth be told, I am cheating at it, I have 3 different accounts, but I’m still not begging other people. I did point out that I only got 3 votes (nobody voted for him, so he must have been jelly*) and I have more than 3 contacts and that if he’s so pressed about it, he could e-mail my contacts and ask if I do that. I have gotten a good portion of my “Best Answers” from going back and voting on them because, most of the time, people always go back and vote for their own answer anyway. And someone else could have gone to their contacts and said “Hey, vote for my answer so I can get 10 points.” You know what? I don’t fault them for that, I told all of my associates about the website and as far as I know, they haven’t signed up for it. If they had, and let me know about it, I would probably do the same thing. Then again, I might have only given them the name of one of my lesser known accounts so I could continue with the main account without having them know it was me. He needs to get a life in the worst way, he sounds like those WOW guys that were jelly of Leeroy Jenkins (so funny). I can't remember who said it, but I remember the quote, "complaining on the Internet has replaced baseball as America's past time." Too true.

I didn’t feel like fooling with the Launchcast today, you can’t repeat like you can with You Tube and since it’s been ages I’ve been on there, it has loads of weird music I haven’t rated yet and it takes too long to weed through. Like with You Tube, I FINALLY found out who sings the other version of All I Want for Christmas Is You, that they played on the soft rock station EVERY year at Christmas, but NEVER said what her name was, some chick named Lisa Lane. Right now I’ve got Fall Out Fever and am treating it by listening to Thks Fr Th Mmrs (Thanks for the Memories) every 3 minutes and 22 seconds. I LOVE this song, the dance remix isn’t half bad, either. This was one of the CDs I was contemplating getting when I ended up buying the My Chemical Romance one. Not complaining though, Welcome to the Black Parade is a solid album.

That’s enough of me enjoying America’s new past time; I have to go sulk until the game starts tonight. GO STEELERS!!! I can’t wait for the regular season to start though, I’m so nervous about it, what if we lose every single game and the Browns have really improved and other stuff that will eat at me until the games are over? I just have to remember to take it one game at a time.

Before I go…

Mood:  chillin'

Wow, it feels like it’s really over. No more Harry Potter books. Well, that’s not totally true, J.K. Rowling said she would probably come out with an encyclopedia-type book; something that tells us what happened to ALL the characters that were left out of the epilogue, which was everyone except the main trio and some of the Weasleys. (Launchcast music break: Britney Spears Baby One More Time, oh hell yeah, these are back! Launchcast didn’t want to work when I first tried it again on this new computer, but it’s being nice today.) I’m not too sure how I feel, it was a decent story, but I don’t know. I felt it was predictable, but was it predictable because I feel like she didn’t try to do the shocking turn of a character being bad that you thought was good all this time; or was it because I (with the help of the fan sites) figured out everything with the help of all her clues and two plus two really equaled four. I really wanted this total swerve that I didn’t see coming, not saying that I figured out EVERYTHING before I opened the book, but lots of things like R.A.B. was Regulus and that Kreacher was the one who helped him get the locket horcrux from the lake and that she killed a Weasley twin, I just knew she would. (Launchcast music break: Train Drops of Jupiter) There were also some other things that people had figured out, but I just didn’t want to believe, like Harry being a horcrux. Come on, I know you’re not supposed to take a character’s word to be the gospel truth, but I would believe that it does take an immensely complicated spell to make one, but Voldemort accidently made Harry a horcrux. I’m a bit disappointed in that. (Launchcast music break: Guns N’ Roses Nightrain {Live}) I’m doing my reread at the moment; it took me over a week to digest and discuss the book before I could pick it up and read it again. I never got around to finishing that list “True and False” things for the book. I filled out as much of it as I could then kind of forgot in my excitement over the book. (Launchcast music break: Maroon 5 This Love)

(Launchcast music break: Jordan Knight Give It to You) Tony Stewart! OMG, I can’t say enough things about him, he won AGAIN, making it two times in a row (they were off last weekend, not complaining, I had a book to keep me company), plus he is only the third driver to have multiple wins at Indianapolis Motor Speedway! That’s right; he won in his backyard, twice out of the past three times at the Brickyard. He was so happy, I was so happy; it was such a great day. Also, Jimmie Johnson hit a wall, AGAIN, two races in a row. In the past two racing weeks, he’s dropped from 5^th to 9^th in the standings. This time, his car caught on fire and singed his eyelashes. It wasn’t as funny as it was unbelievable this time. Dude that is WEIRD, Tony winning twice in a row, Jimmy Johnson DNFs twice in a row; this also means that Tony has moved up from 7^th to 5^th in the Chase standings in the past two racing weeks. We’re nearing the end of the normal season and heading to the Chase, and Smoke is getting HOT! (Launchcast music break: Bon Jovi Lay Your Hands on Me)

Mood:  rushed

This title was something that came to me last night (or a few nights ago, whatever). It was just a couple of other things that are going on, and I forgot to put them in the previous entry.

Ashley is PREGNANT!!! She has just thrown away the rest of her twenties. This sucks so much, the one person that I actually don’t mind going out with (especially since she lives so far away and only comes home once or twice a year) is now going to be saddled down with a kid. I know I’m being selfish, but goddamn it, this isn’t fair. Now, more than EVER, I guess I need to find a new friend.

Another thing about Ashley, she was the only friend I had that read the Harry Potter books. Speaking of which, the seventh and last book is due to come out on Saturday. I’m really excited, yet kind of sad about it. I mean, on one hand we’ll finally have all the answers; on the other hand, it’s over. There will be nothing Harry Potter related to really eagerly await. Sure there are the films, but since you’ve read the book, you already know what’s going to happen. Some guy got his book TODAY! He is so lucky. Why didn't that happen to me? I wouldn’t even go on the Internet and spoil people. Okay, maybe a bit, but nothing major.

Mood:  cheeky

Here we are still together
We are one
So much time wasted
Playing games with love

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
To keep our love alive
But baby it ain't over 'til it's over

How many times
Did we give up
But we always worked things out
And all my doubts and fears
Kept me wondering, yeah
If I'd always, always be in love

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
And kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
Baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
And kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
Baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
And kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over
Over, over, over.

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
To kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over
Over, over, over

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
Baby It ain't over 'til it's over

Okay, so maybe I jumped the gun a little. It's probably from just not seeing him for so long, but I have come to realize that I still might fancy Mr. Roethlisberger, slightly. It happened the other day when I was watching ESPNEWS; I was minding my own business when all of a sudden Ben popped up. He was on the red carpet at the ESPY Awards, ESPN's really stupid award show. I mean, why would I watch if you tell me who wins ahead of time. Except last year when the Steelers won in most of the categories. Then Ben's appearance was supposed to be a surprise, but ESPN doesn't even try to keep it a secret, they gave it away on Sports Center or Cold Pizza I can't remember which one. Any road, he looks better than ever, and the title of the song (as well as this entry) that's playing is SO APPROPRIATE! Because, baby it ain't over 'til it's over! That's why I've been feeling so guilty about supposedly falling out of love (lust?) with him; I wasn't out of it yet.

So where does that leave me with Jack Davenport? Well, I still think he's really gorgeous, but I only really have him as Admiral James Norrington in the Pirates of the Caribbean movies. Maybe I'll post photos of both of them, even though I've made my choice. Ah, this still sucks for him; it seems he never gets the girl.

I'm so glad that party is over, it was insane. I feel so sad for my step-dad, NOBODY from his family showed up for his party. Just saying "SHAME" just isn't bad enough, because that was really cruddy.

My brother didn't get on my nerves that badly this time. I think he was happier to be up here then when we go down there. I completely understand, because down there sucks.  His ex-girlfriend on the other hand is something else. She said that I need to come back to Alabama and stay for like a month. Yeah right, I'd be ready to go in about 2 days; just enough time for me to sleep of the jet-lag and be ready to head home. My mother was ready to kill her, because she's a total idiot. My nephew is a spoiled brat and they don't discipline him AT ALL! As soon as they got here, he kept running up and down the stairs, and they didn't yell at him to stop! Finally he fell down and hurt his pride more than his face and he wised up. Then, at the party, he ran around the whole time and I just wanted to beat him so bad. After the party, some how I pulled a muscle in my back, but I knew that I still had to drag them to the zoo. The next morning we had a breakfast held at a buffet place for us and some of the party attendants. My nephew, that bad little boy didn't eat anything. Now I understand that some people have picky eating habits, but this child has basically TOLD his parents he doesn't eat anything but specific frozen chicken nuggets (but he'll eat like McDonald's or Burger King's) and specific frozen pizza rolls (but he'll eat like two slices of plain Papa John's pizza). So they're up there BRIBING him to eat something by getting him M&M's, gummy bears, and a Rice Krispie Treat. Meanwhile, my cousin Stephanie's (who had 5 boys and is about 95 pounds soaking wet, yeah I'm jelly) youngest son (like 15 months old) was punishing his mother's omelet. Stephanie got up to do something, and he pulled it over to himself and just attacked it. It was hilarious! Then my brother's ex-girlfriend pointed out to her son that a baby was eating an omelet and they were bribing him with junk that any kid would kill to eat for breakfast. My mother wanted to kill her. My mum told her it was her (brother's ex-girlfriend) fault that he was like that. Then she (my brother's ex-girlfriend) tried to defend herself by saying that it wasn't her fault and he'd had his tonsils taken out (like over a year ago). I had to pat my mother on the hand and say that Golden Corral wasn't the appropriate place for this conversation. It was quite nice to see my mother angry with someone that wasn't me or my step-dad for a change.

Now where my back comes into play is that my nephew was being really evil that morning, I threatened him that I didn't have to take him to the zoo and I would be just as happy to go home and take a nap. Then my brother's ex-girlfriend said that I couldn't do that because they had promised him the trip and he had been looking forward to it. He is four years old, about to be five. It's high time he learned that you don't always get what you want in life and that everything has a consequence. Also his mother talks incessantly and never shuts up. Other than her talking and being at the mercy of someone barely out of diapers, she would be all right. I mean, she likes all that 80s music that I like, but I couldn't stay with them for a month; I'd pull my hair out.

Now for my nephew, the thing is he's a total sweetheart, and he's not really mean, he's just spoiled and NOBODY disciplines him back where he lives. He got worse when my brother's ex-girlfriend moved out of their apartment and back in with her parents. I don't know too much about her father, but her mother let him get away with everything. I mean, at the party, he had something (I can't remember if it was a cup or a noisemaker) and when he was done with it he just threw it on the ground. I told him off real quick. He did the same thing at our house and his mother said something like this isn't our dirty house and you just can't throw stuff on the ground. Now I know when a person doesn't have children, they say all this stuff they will and won't do, but I would at least try to instill some decency and common manners in my children. My parents think one summer with us will straighten him out. And it probably would, the only problem is he has to go home where he'll tell them what he won't damn do and if he stayed with us once a year (like every summer or something) we'd have to keep de-programming him until he caught on that he could act one way with us and one way with his parents and maternal grandparents. He would because he's not stupid; he'd catch on within a couple of years.

It was sad when my brother left, he cried because he missed up here so much. We all deduced after they left that if it weren't for his son, he would have stayed and he'd be crashing on our couch at this moment. The reason I keep doing the "ex-girlfriend" thing with the line through "ex" is because technically she is his ex-girlfriend (they broke up when she moved out), but she kept expecting my brother to ask her to move back in. HA! But she's a conniving little thing, she used their son to say stuff like "I miss my room", and she kept leaving little stuff when she'd bring my nephew over there, and eventually she never went back to her parents house. So she's really not his girlfriend again. I have no idea why she's pressed over him, but whatever. I know he's my brother, but he's not the most stand-up guy on earth, dating wise, he's actually a decent father; except his son doesn't listen to him.

WAR TONY STEWART! He got his first win (finally) of the season, the USG Sheetrock 400 in Chicago. It also didn't hurt that Jimmie Johnson hit a wall with 45 laps to go, while he was in second place behind Tony! It was a good day!

Well, I've got to get going, Elliot comes back tomorrow morning after being off since July 3^rd. He should be in a chipper mood seeing as our favorite driver won the race and our least favorite hit a wall. But before I go...

WAR TONY STEWART!!!

Jack is still so sexy!

The other title I had for this entry was the Beatle's Hello, Goodbye. Hello, hello. I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello. Dammit, he's still sexy!

I'm phasing.