Oh What A Night!
Mood:  vegas lucky
Man, last night's race was off the charts. It started over 2 1/2 hours late, and didn't go off until 1:40 AM. But it was worth it, because, for the second week in a row, Tony Stewart emerged victorious!! How awesome is that? I mean, when I found out that he won the pole, I was like, "good for him, but the pole sitters rarely win." Then, he led, and broke the record, for leading the most laps in a 400 mile race. I was still non-plussed, I mean, back in February at the Daytona 500, he led the most laps, and still lost. But he won it last night, it was unbelievable. The only thing that would have made it better is that, on the last restart, with nine laps to go, Kasey Kahne and Dave Blaney were in the 3rd and 5th position, respectively. But when all was said and done, Kasey Kahne, who, by the by, is totally hot, finished 16th, and Dave Blaney finished a lap down in 27th. And I was so rooting for that Jack Daniel's 07 car, too. Blaney was having such a good night, I don't know what went wrong. Ah well, maybe another night.

In other sports news, Roger Federer went on to win his third consecutive Wimbledon title by beating Andy Roddick, another hottie, for the second year in a row. I was kind of pulling for Roddick, but I wanted Federer to repeat, especially since Rafael Nadal didn't make it.

All this talk about hot guys, I should do a list. Unfortunately, the order of the men on that list would shift around something terrible.

I don't have any Ben news, except that his grandfather just passed away, and that is just so sad. My condolences to him and his family.

But, like always, I try to end on an up note, so with that:

WAR TONY STEWART!!

Tomorrow is Independence Day here Stateside, YAY!! It gives us an excuse to blow shit up and say 'ooh' and 'ah' after it. Even though it's so bizarre, the purchase of fireworks is illegal in like 30 states, but you can't set them off in the entire country. How bass-ackwards is that? Still, going to see the fireworks display in the nation's capital is pretty cool. And since I probably won't be on here for a couple of days, I'll just say 'Happy Fourth' to all my fellow Yanks out there.

But leaving off with a 'WAR TONY STEWART' is always better!

I'm phasing.

Guess Who's Back?
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Launchcast
Yeah, I made it there and back again. The trip had it's ups and downs, and knowing me, I'll mostly remember the downs. In fact, I should start with those, that way it doesn't seem like such a downer. My brother was cool for like a day and a half, then he became the biggest bitch in the world. Ugh, I could have stayed home for that headache. (Launchcast music break: Rolling Stones Shine A Light. It's still a great feeling that I can listen to this song anytime I want to.) I don't even want to get into all the stupid stuff he complained about. And his girlfriend was complaining right there with him. She was cool for a couple days longer than him, but still. What the hell happened to Southern hospitality? And their bed? OMG, I might has well been sleeping on a rock with a sheet on it. I woke up every morning with my back hurting. (Launchcast music break: Bon Jovi Bad Medicine) All of my clothes came home smelling like smoke, but not as bad as my mother's. And we had McDonald's at least 4 days, don't ever want it again. Except Egg McMuffins and hash browns, so good.

Now, for the good stuff. CATO!!! Best. Store. EVER!!! I spent over $300. I have to clean out my closet for all the stuff I got. I am going to be too cute this summer! The only thing bad about it was that we went on Monday, then after that, I was like, "now what?" (Launchcast music break: AC/DC Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap, I LOVE this song!) My nephew was cool, it was his parents that need a good ass-kicking. For a 2 1/2 year old, he talks a lot, and you can understand most of what he's saying. Man, if they get him potty-trained, he'll be good to go. And last, but not least, Steak N' Shake. Best. Milkshakes. EVER! I know I do that a lot, but I'll be damned if I had left that state without going to that restaurant.

But, it's great to be home. My step-dad was sad, but I was ready to go. For me, after we visited people, which took a week, there was nothing to do down there. (Launchcast music break: Aqua Barbie Girl) Now, I have to find another job, hopefully it will go better, since having been so recently employed.

Before I go, of course, I missed my Ben-Ben SO much:

Kiss, kiss boo! (Launchcast music break: Akon Lonely, this is my new jam!)

(Launchcast music break: Shakira Objection {Tango}) Oh yeah, before I go, I gotta say WAR TONY STEWART!!! Winner of the Dodge/Save Mart 350 today! Finally, his first win of the season!

WAR TONY STEWART!!!

I'm phasing.

I Love Ya Tomorrow, You're Only A Day Away
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Launchcast
Well, that's it, it's done, it's over! No more daycare! SWEET! And tomorrow, I go to Alabama. Meh. It's still very up and down for me, all I know is that when I get back, it'll be me and Elliot in the Morning, if only for a bit!

The graduation was better than expected, but the boss is such a dumb cow. When she was describing the kids, she would slip in negative stuff to say. Like for this one boy, she said that she sees him becoming a politician, because he can go one way, than another. Why would you say that? In front of his parents! That's not cute. Whatever, it's not my problem anymore. I'll miss the kids, but that is just too little money and appreciation for too long of hours.

Well, I've run out of things to say, but before I go, as always, I have to put up a Ben photo. I'm running out of good ones, this will have to do for a week:

I guess if I can have NASCAR, he can have golf.

Of course I'll put up any interesting happenings from the hol when I get back.

I'm phasing.

Six Days And Counting
Mood:  don't ask
I'm so stressed. I just started packing, and I have to get through this week. I was a little better until my mum just came in and wanted me to look some stuff up, and when she didn't find what she needed, well, her mood just spreads around. It's not my fault you don't know exactly what you're doing.

One more week at this stupid job, and then this stupid lady can kiss my ass goodbye (for good this time, hopefully). The day that I really just have to get through is Wednesday. Ms. Christian is taking that day off, and I'm a bit freaked for that, but a good thing is that it is Movie Day. Another good thing is that the children have been whittled down by like six or seven. Four are gone for the summer, two are on vacation until next week, and one will only be there sporadically.

When I get back from holiday, I'll have to really buckle down and look for a job. Anywhere. While I really did dislike the center, actually just the boss, I loved having money. It's so great! And in order to keep that rolling, I'll have to look everywhere that is accessible to me.

My time is winding down, so I'll just say that yesterday, I went to Pentagon City, and bought three CDs. I bought Oasis (What's The Story) Morning Glory? (the one with Wonderwall), The Rolling Stones Exile On Main St. (the one with Shine A Light!), and The Dan Band The Dan Band Live. Three very cool additions to my CD collection. I still couldn't find Soul Asylum anywhere. Well, I didn't look in like Sam Goody's or exclusive music stores like that. But I'd rather not find the CD than pay $17+ for what I can get at Best Buy, Target, and Wal-Mart for like $13.99. Oh yeah, also while I was at Best Buy, they had DC101 bumper stickers that you're supposed to stick on your car, and if they spot you and you mailed the back of the sticker to the station, you'll win a new car. But I knew my mother wouldn't want such an awesome sticker on her car, so I just put it on my CD wallet.

And of course, before I go, I'll upload a Ben-Ben picture. It'll be a long time before there will be another one.

That's so hot, but I'm debating with myself, it kind of looks like one of Ben's eyes are brown, and the other maybe blue/green. Whatever, it's still so sexy.

I'm phasing.

Memorial Day Weekend
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Launchcast
Wow, it's almost June. This year is going fast, but not as fast as last year. And I only have three more weeks at this stupid job. (Launchcast music break: Guns N' Roses Sweet Child 'O Mine) But the best news is that it's really like one full week. This week gets cut short because of Memorial Day and our field trip to the circus, then it will be the full week, then the week after that, that Friday the center will be closed when we have graduation for the ones going to kindergarten. I'll probably have to go in for the party, but whatever. Then, the next day, off the Alabama. I can't wait to leave that center behind.

On Tuesday, I ordered some shoes off the internet, and they came yesterday. They are so awesome! I got two pairs of Sketchers. One white/pink, the other white/blue. I'm not wearing them until I get on the plane, so they can keep their freshness. When I get my next check, this coming Friday, I'm ordering two shirts, then I'll be set. I'm trying to get some more pink in my wardrobe to match my shoes.

On Thursday, Marcus called. At like 9:00. He was all like, "Long time, no hear." And I said that it'll be even longer, because I had to get up at 6:00 the next morning. So, it'll be a while before I talk to him. Even though I told him I talked to Lisa last Sunday. She's working at Slave Camp... er, Six Flags this summer. Sweet! She'll be there all flippin' day, so she'll be too tired to bug me. I am so anti. (Launchcast music break: Spice Girls Stop)

Now that there is no more Lost or Desperate Housewives, I haven't any idea what I'll do with myself. (Launchcast music break: Nickelback Someday) The Desperate Housewives season finale was pretty good. It answered a good portion of questions, but Lost... OH. MY. GOD. That show is off the chain! I keep trying to tell my mother that Lost = Best. Show. EVER! American Idol, not so much. The first 10 minutes of Lost were just too much. I can't believe that Artz just blew up. It was kind of obvious that he was going to die, but, just like the only thing Hurley could say, "Dude!" (Launchcast music break: Etta James At Last) I just know that next season, those shows should be so awesome. Cross fingers, because I thought the same thing with Joan of Arcadia, and I didn't make it too far into that shows sophomore season. But those two shows are way better than Joan of Arcadia. (Launchcast music break: AC/DC You Shook Me All Night Long)

I wanted to get out on Monday and go to Best Buy to get four more CDs, but I don't know. I might wait for the next check. (Launchcast music break: Aerosmith Love In An Elevator) I want GNR Appetite for Destruction, Oasis What's The Story Morning Glory?, Bowling for Soup A Hangover You Don't Deserve (75% want it), and the first Puddle of Mudd album (Maybe, not really sure, kind of on the 50% side). But I really have to get the first two before I go.

I just realized that seven years ago today, my favorite actor, Phil Hartman was murdered. I used to light a candle for him, I may do it today, but I didn't realize that it was going on after 7:00. Wow, where has this day gone. But I just can't believe that it's been seven years. SEVEN!! Seven years ago today, the world lost a great and underrated actor. And I haven't been the same since. I may watch his SNL DVD.

R.I.P. Old man.

Since that was kind of sad, I guess I can upload a Ben photo to lift my spirits. That site is such a godsend. (Launchcast music break: Lumidee Never Leave You {Uh Oooh, Uh Oooh}) Ben is so hot.

You can't say that doesn't look like his senior yearbook/prom photo.

(Launchcast music break: Poison Every Rose Has Its Thorn) After this entry, the Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince countdown was going to disappear, so I thought I'd put it up again.



Less than two months away! I'm too tired to be excited, but I'll get there, and I'll read that book in one day, or my eyes will fall out trying.

That's it for me, hope to post a couple more times before the trip.

I'm phasing.

Times Are Getting Hard For You Little Girl
Now Playing: Launchcast
Dude, I've been working my ass off lately. But I guess it'll be okay. The money is definitely better. (Launchcast music break: Poison Every Rose Has Its Thorn) I've also been shopping like my last day on earth is coming soon, but it's so nice to have money. It really is, I've been adding to my CD collection slowly, but it's coming along great. Last weekend I bought the Jimmy Eat World album with the song Pain on it. It's so great. It's a double CD, I haven't had time to listen to it all, but I'm sure I will. The second CD contains the demos of all the songs. They sound mostly the same, but like the lyrics will be different and stuff.

Last night it was storming like crazy, and all the lights went out around 8:30 and didn't come back on until 7:09 this morning. (Launchcast music break: Guns N' Roses Welcome to the Jungle. I was supposed to buy this album today, but they didn't have anymore.) It was pretty cool, except I missed most of the race last night. But Kasey Kahne won. I still would have liked to see it, but that's okay because there is more night racing next Saturday at the NASCAR Nextel All-Star Challenge! That should be great. (Launchcast music break: Bon Jovi Lay Your Hands On Me) I love me some night racing, it's so awesome. But I'm just so tired by the end of the race.

I talked to Lisa like on Wednesday or Thursday, I can't remember, and it wasn't for long. Anyway, she wanted my to come over on Saturday, yesterday, but I was like no way. She also asked when a good time for me to talk on the phone. But working at this place full time, the answer is never. (Launchcast music break: Jet Are You Gonna Be My Girl) I told her that like when you are there all day, you have to be up early, so you can't stay up late and talk, then when you get off at 6:30, or whenever the last parent shows up to get their child, I usually get hom at like 7:00, then I have to make time to try to eat, shower, get a little down time to relax (that's usually television) , then go back to bed. There is very little time for the phone. And you almost never feel like going out on the weekends because you're so tired. Even though I've been out for the past two weekends. But that was with my parents, so they'll drive, if I go out with friends, I have to get out on the Metro, and wait for them when in that time I could have almost been done with what I needed to do. (Launchcast music break: Foo Fighters Hero)

Man, next month I have to go to Alabama, but I don't want to. My parents made me buy my ticket on Friday. This is gonna suck. It's so boring down there. The only good thing down there is CATO, but after that there is no point. What am I going to do for a week without being online. Oh well.

I don't want to end on a down note, so I saved the best for last. Ben finally got a picture gallery up at his website. And what a gallery! Awesome could not even begin to describe those yummy pictures. (Launchcast music break: Train Something More) He's got some shots with him in uniform, and with his dog Zeus, and some other ones that are just, oh god they are so hot. I can't really put into words, and they say that a picture is worth a thousand, so...

It's wrong to want to lick the screen, isn't it?

(Launchcast music break: Immature Please Don't Go) I'll go steal, um save the other pictures when I have more time, but all this means that the Ben-Ben photos are back. And hotter then ever. I wish the last music break had been AC/DC Back In Black, because that suits that picture so well.

I'm phasing.

It's Been A Long Week
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Backstreet Boys
Shut up! I needed a change of pace, so I put some really old, non-threatening music. Sometimes I miss being 15.

The reason I'm down is because I'm sick. It is allergy season, and it's kicking my ass right now. Also, I worked all day at the center all week. And I am so dead tired that it's not even funny. Even though I am about to get crazy paid, this career is just not for me. If you work full time in child care, you have no life. You can't spend time with friends because you are there extremely early in the morning, when the parents drop their kids off before they have to get to work, to late in the evening when the parents get off of work. And some of them take their sweet ass time to get there. They need to realize that there are days when we'd like to be home before the sun sets. Then, when the day is finally over, all you want to do is eat something, bathe, and go to bed at a reasonable time, because you have to be up early and do it all over again the next day. And on the weekends, all you want to do is sleep and rest up for the long, long week ahead. But my check is going to be so awesome this week.

The reason I've been there all day is because this lady was supposed to come sometime and check the center over. But she didn't, and I have to do it all over again on Monday. While I would like to thank this woman for the serious boost in my pay, still this bitch better come on Monday, because I miss my sleep. And Elliot. If it weren't for the little kids, I'd bring a radio and turn him on. Oh well, that's one of life's sacrifices. Maybe with this check, I can open a savings account and get some interest on it.

Today, my grandfather went in the hospital. The same one that went in right before this past Christmas. He was complaining of dizzy spells, and his wife, my step-grandmother (I wanted to emphasize this, just to show I'm not related to her) wouldn't take him to the hospital! And they live almost an hour away, because some parts of D.C. are very difficult to get through, so my parents had to go. But they didn't get there in time, so they had an ambulance take him. Now, he's getting a blood transfusion. This beeping sucks. He's so awesome too. I'll be really blown if anything happens to him. His wife is so mean, she never liked any of his kids anyway. What the hell is wrong with people?

The only reason I didn't go was because I was resting with these really bad allergies. Obviously I'm better now, but earlier it was unbearable.

I just want my granddaddy to be okay.

I'm phasing and sneezing.

A Not So Negative Update
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Elliot In The Morning
I was reading some of my past postings yesterday, and I realized that a better title for the Sunday, April 3 entry would have been I Keep Setting Myself Up, And They Keep Knocking Me Down. Hindsight, 20/20, yeah.

I've had a pretty good week this week. It's been pretty decent. Plus the fact no one has really pissed me off this week. Been avoiding the phone like a tax collector.

Dude, 5 kids got some mysterious virus at the center this week. Three of them got sick just yesterday. Hopefully, if any other student got sick, it was last night and their parents had to deal with it. And maybe there will be way less kids today.

I put in my resume and cover letter to work for the Washington Nationals. Anything other than the center. I hope I get something. There are probably more openings.

I'm shocked I hadn't said anything, probably because I've been so upset at everything/everyone lately, but I changed my 21st birthday wish. It was Vegas/Atlantic City to go gambling, but now, it's something better. The Pittsburgh Steelers are coming to play the Washington Redskins for a preseason game on August 26, 2005. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, BABY!!! I was on Ticketmaster yesterday, and tickets aren't on sale yet. No NFL preseason tickets are on sale yet, but I will be trying to check up on this on a weekly basis. I can't wait. That is way better than drinking my ass off. Even though it's so perfect that my 21st birthday will fall on a Friday. I only hope that I still love Ben. But I am jonesing for football so bad, there's a really good chance that I will want Ben/football so bad, I'd give up swearing.

I think one of the best things to happen to me this week was yesterday, Elliot did not go off until after 11:00. It was so great, and as of this moment, they are just now going off and it's a quarter of eleven. I love this show.

I'm phasing.

Just Let Me Be, Please?
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Elliot In The Morning
That irritated mood just won't go away.

I wanted to get on yesterday, but I just didn't have time. I washed my hair, watched the race, went grocery shopping, finished watching the race, and pressed my hair. I did come on the net, but I still didn't have time to update.

Dude, I know I keep complaining about my friends, and right now it'll be no different. OMFG!! Okay, Lisa called like on Thursday, I think. And I couldn't get out of it, but the conversation was okay. She told me about this "new" place that you can download music. I think it's called Limewire or something. It sounds familiar. But the thing is that I'm not downloading jack anymore. One, the RIAA is still trying to bust people for it, and two, even if you can get away with downloading, most music sharing programs are filled with spy-ware. This was cool and all, she wanted me to come over to her house to download and burn, but yesterday just kind of killed that. I know it's gonna sound stupid, but I'm pissed off because she called during Desperate Housewives. That is one of my two shows, man, you don't DO THAT! She called right when it went to it's first commercial, lucky for her, and wanted me to get on the computer. I had to cut her off and say, "No, I can't. Desperate Housewives is on." "Just get on for a little bit." Then I just lied and said that my mother was on it, which she sort of was, but I put on Windows Media Player, so it could save the screen and not shut itself off. The thing that is just irking me to death is that I don't bother people when they have their thing. Whatever the hell it is. When I say my show is on, I'm not doing anything, if it's not of the utmost urgency, the answer will always be no. I don't call them whenever their gay-ass WB shows are on. And it's not like it was a rerun, but a NEW show. And there are only four more left before summer hiatus. She better be lucky I was just as confused as I was angry. The only person on the phone should have been my grandmother.

And she was real lucky that it wasn't a new episode of Lost, or I would have hit the roof. If the incident had happened during a new episode of Lost, I would have said, "Hell no, Lost is on", and hung up the phone. I'm sorry if I hurt feelings or whatever, but it just wasn't that important to me at the moment. Plus, I'm trying to go a new way with my music. I'm trying to buy more Cd's, and there is no reason for me to download because I can't burn.

I need new friends so bad.

I'm phasing.

Going Under
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Launchcast
Well, it's a week later, and Spineless hasn't called. That's the new name I gave Jason. I unconsciously ripped it from Elliot, but it just fit so perfectly. The only thing I can say is that he better be thankful that I'm not obsessed with wrestling like this time last year, or else he would just be making things worse for him, making me stew for this amount of time. I even wrote out a nice little, and surprisingly non-profanity laced statement I want to say to him. The worst thing I say is that he needs to grow a set of balls. I was talking to Marcus, I know, but I was desperate to tell someone, and he had it so right. I'm an adult, if you have to call and say that nobody is able to pick me up, that's okay. I might be upset a little, but at the end of the day, I'll have respect for you.

I'm not going to put the speech up until it's all said and done, you know, there maybe a few things I add, change, and/or remove (doubtful). But one of my favorite lines in it is that I'm going to remind Spineless that I was the only one of his friends that called him and wished him a happy birthday. He told me this. He said that kind of upset him, especially when Antoin had called him earlier that day and told him that they were going to move laser tag to the WM21 date, and to go ahead and go to work. Antoin did not wish him a happy birthday at all, he only called to change plans. And this is that thanks I get.

The race today was pretty awesome, until Tony Stewart had a bad pit stop, and it just went downhill for him from there. At one point after that, his right front tire fell off and he was rolling on three! It would have been so cool if Tony hadn't been so close to winning. I was so blown, I know Elliot's going to be depressed tomorrow. They were so awesome this week. It was great having them back! One day, I think it was Wednesday or Thursday, they didn't go off until 10:45. Elliot was like, "Dude, is it quarter to eleven? The Power Lunch starts in 15 minutes!" LOL.

Real quick like, I've been boycotting Lisa for like 2 weeks straight. I keep the phones tied up on Tuesdays by using the house phone to vote on American Idol, and I turn the ringer on my cell phone off. I almost had to talk to her last night. The phone rang, I screamed, "I'M NOT HERE!" But my step-dad picked up the phone in the basement at the same time my mum picked it up, so she tried to give it to me, but then I mimed the "I'm sleep" thing to her. I'm so terrible.

I gotta go, my pinkie is KILLING me. I need to get it looked at.

I'm phasing.