I Got Nothing
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Launchcast
(Opening Launchcast music break: Brian McKnight One Last Cry) Man, I had so much fun last Saturday. It's taken me a week to recover. Well, no, I've just been really lazy this week. My mother's in a mood or something. It all started over a parking space. I think it might be because her birthday is on Thursday, and she's getting old. Whatever. My step-dad said she's beginning to get like my grandmother. Duh. Oh well, I got her birthday presents, and if she doesn't want them, then oh well.

But, let me talk about Saturday. Okay, Brian had to drop out for unknown reasons, so at first it was just Ashley, Lisa, and me. It was so good to just go and be silly. I really miss high school. Then, while we were at Greenbelt, we invited Phillip and Heather (the other bridesmaid). We met up with them at L'Enfant Plaza. Then we invited this guy named Chris, who reminds me so much of Amar, and we met him when we got to Springfield. (Launchcast music break: Marilyn Manson Sweet Dreams) Dude, I spent so much money, but I don't care, it was awesome. And Heather was so nice. I love her, if only she had gone to school with us. But something Ashley said kind of made me think. On the way to Springfield, she said something like, "See this trip worked out. Will you be ready next time I call you to go somewhere?" And the word 'spontaneous' was in there as well. The thing is that this was MY trip. You invited yourself and your other friends. I'm not mad, it was cool and all, but there was no spontaneity on my part. I had already planned to be out. But whatever. I guess all our trips will have to get together like that, or I'll have to buy a nice hat so I can just throw it over my head next time she calls.

I updated my music. I bought Green Day American Idiot, Maroon 5 Songs About Jane, The Chicago soundtrack, and Bon Jovi Crossroad. Very excellent selections I think. I know that I already had the Green Day album downloaded, but the guy forgot one track, or I maybe forgot to download it, I don't know, but I'm satisfied with it. I listened to the Maroon 5 one up until the eight track, Sunday Morning, so I have to give the rest of it ago soon. And I think that it's nice to be able to listen to I'll Be There For You without having to fire up the old computer, even though I can't look at photos of Ben-Ben without it. And I can listen to Lay Your Hands On Me without having to go to that Spanish site. (Launchcast music break: AC/DC You Shook Me All Night Long)

My Ben-Ben is going to visit troops in Afghanistan. If anything happens to him, I will hold Tom Brady and the NFL personally responsible. The news on him was scarce, my heart nearly jumped out of my chest when I saw his picture on the front page of the Steelers website.

He's so adorable. How could I not love him?

Oh yeah, the covers of the Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince were released on Tuesday (sweet). People are actually hating on the American cover, I think it's awesome! Oh well, you can't please everybody. Anyway, Mugglenet has a countdown clock you can put in your blog. I'll probably have to put it up every few entries so it can stay on the first page. So, here goes nothing:



I'm phasing.

Longest. Week. EVER!!!
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Launchcast
This week just seemed to drag on FOREVER!!! It just wouldn't end! And I hope I'm not getting sick, there's some mysterious disease floating around the center. Five kids went home with fevers. And this very "special" child had ringworm. And he kept wanting to hug me. Why the hell would someone send a child to school and daycare with fucking ringworm?! I absolutely cannot get sick! I must go out tomorrow. My mother is getting on my last nerve. But that's because we spend too much time together. We even work together, and while having money is good, working with your mother, than having two car rides with her is just madness. (Launchcast music break: Guns N' Roses Sweet Child O' Mine) Plus, I haven't seen Lisa since like right after my birthday, I haven't seen Brian since Fairmont's 2003 graduation almost 2 years ago, and Ashley has invited herself and I don't remember if I saw her at graduation or not. But it will be really nice to go out with people I haven't seen in a really long time. That aren't named Marcus.

I have really big news at the end of this, so I'll talk about the Marcus thing. Okay, like we talked last Thursday, for barely an hour, and he said he would call right back, and normally he will, but on that day he didn't. And I was annoyed because if I had known he wasn't going to call back, I could have finished what I had started much earlier and gone to bed, because I was really tired that day. But I don't know if he called yesterday, because I was on the phone with Lisa. It has something to do with the big news. But someone called the house at about 10:00 PM on Monday. I hope it wasn't Marcus, we haven't watched wrestling in so long, what would we have talked about. I don't know what it is that's aggravating me about him, but whatever.

Okay, here's the big news. Ashley called yesterday and told me she was getting married. Wow. And she said I'm a bridesmaid. Normally I would have tried to get out of that, but she and Phillip don't have any money, so this is about the be the cheapest, most ghetto wedding. And I think that it's gonna be AWESOME!! I mean, I won't be wearing some ugly dress, the most she can ask for is that all three of the bridesmaids (me, Lisa, and some other girl) wear the same color. (Launchcast music break: Rolling Stones Brown Sugar. How did they make a song about me so many years before I was born? ) I also told her that she better register at Target or something, because we are some broke mofos. Shit, half the guest list will still be a teenager. I told her that her silverware is going to be those plastic ones people use on picnics. (Launchcast music break: Eminem Till I Collapse)

Alright, I got to go, Degrassi comes on in 10. And I have to take another shower today because I have the Black Plague or something from this center.

I'm phasing.

I Said I'd Be Back!
Mood:  party time!
Now Playing: DC101
Go Ben-Ben,
It's your birthday,
We gon' party like it's your birthday,
We gon' sip Bacardi like it's your birthday!

Happy 23rd Birthday Ben-Ben!!

Another special birthday shout-out goes to Yahoo! I had no idea it was 10 years old.

Is it football season yet?

I'm phasing.

Meh
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: I'll Be There For You
Man, I can't wait for Saturday. This weekend sucked and went by too fast. But it would have been better if my DVD player worked.

Work was okay. On Friday, there were only 12 children there, and today there were like 14. That is very awesome. I hope it snows like 8+ inches so the center is closed.

Something in my life is not right anymore. Last night I watched the Academy Awards. That is terrible!! I never watch award shows, but last night was good. Jamie Foxx won, even though I wanted Don Cheadle to win. But that was heavily Elliot influenced.

I'm getting that old unsettled feeling again. I get it every once in a while. It's this feeling like something is going to happen, I don't know what it is, but it's going to shake up my life, relationship wise. I mean like with my friends and stuff. I'm going to start shying away from Marcus and begin gravitating towards someone else. It might be Lisa, or it might not be. I have no idea, but it will happen soon. I mean, the thing with Marcus is that like, I don't know we're not clicking together anymore. Our common ground is thinning out. It used to be wrestling was just about everything, and then the other stuff fell into place. Now it's like totally different. Whatever.

On Friday, I talked to Lisa for a hot minute, until my Benadryll had me loopy. We were coming up with the most ghetto names we could possibly find. We actually came up with some really good ones. And while I highly doubt anyone reads this, I must not post them just in case anyone does. But a funny revelation came about on Friday. Okay, Lisa is involved with all this boy drama, which I would kill to have a fraction of, she told me about the guy I used to fancy in high school. I was absolutely mad about him. It seems that he became her knight in shining armor and helped her out in a situation with some of her boy drama. Anyways, he gave her a ride home, and I don't know if this discussion came up on the ride home or before they left school, but she said that the topic of me came up. Oh goody! I don't know the exact things they discussed, but I do know that he said that he would have dated me in high school if I hadn't been all up on him screaming yeah. But see, I already knew this. My thing is, when I finally calmed down in the 12th grade, I was much more relaxed around him, why didn't he ask? I mean, I knew he liked me. Everyone knew it. And the final nail in the coffin for me was when he got upset that I went to prom without him. One of the greatest/saddest moments ever for me. God, if we could have just gotten over all the BS, we could have been over and done by now. I hate having my "what ifs". I have too many of those, and then to actually hear this just makes you want to pull your hair out. Oh well, I can always use this on my road to him. Whoever the hell that is. But I know who I'd like it to be...

I gotta jet, my 3 hour block of Whose Line Is It Anyway? starts in like 5 minutes. I'm starting to really be addicted to that show again.

I'll try to show up Wednesday, even if it's only one line.

I'm phasing.

Losing My Sight, Losing My Mind, Wish Somebody Would Tell Me I'm Fine
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: DC 101
I've used that title before, but the last time, I was really upset about something. This time, it's more like really weird things are happening.

For example: I've already touched on that I used to despise football, and now I'm addicted to it. And I've also bought a TV show on DVD. But I think what happened yesterday tops them all. I watched Daytona 500. I know, I know, it's just that Elliot is always hyping it, and there wasn't dick on yesterday, like all Sundays, so I just thought I'd give it a go. It was kinda okay. What am I talking about? I was so into it, it was scary. Plus they had some AWESOME crashes in it. I've started to think of all my interests in life, and I think I may need to get a psychiatric evaluation.

The worst thing happened on Friday. My DVD player broke. How will I watch Bullshit? Among other things. I have to get a better job, there's a bunch of other crap I need to buy.

I guess a balance to Friday, is that on Tuesday and Wednesday, I talked to Lisa, and we're trying to get a trip together to go to the mall. We're looking for something very specific, that I need. I sort of can't wait, I'm a bit nervous, but I'm sure it will be worth it. Lisa also got Brian involved. I'm kind of embarrassed, but he was really cool about it, so that's okay. It most likely will happen the first weekend in March. I'm counting the days, you have no idea how badly I need this. Let's just say that it will help me with my Ben problem.

Speaking of my favorite person, I've seen him a lot this past week. The NFL Network had a making of the Tomorrow commercial. And of course, I taped it. It was so funny. I was cracking up for 30 minutes straight. Of course they had Ben at the end of it. He's so funny. When he was getting his makeup on, he said, "I'm going to Hollywood and become the next American Idol." Don't quit your day job, boo. He was so cute, too. He was walking along the beach and... There's just no way to finish this sentence, except maybe that I felt that I should have been walking hand in hand with him.

By the by, that big ass picture in my last entry is my new desktop. I love turning on my computer. It turns me on at the same time. Yeah, I'm having major issues. And I spell issues R-O-E-T-H-L-I-S-B-E-R-G-E-R!

I'm phasing.

Quid Pro Quo
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Maroon 5
They need a "horny" emoticon. I don't have much time, but I will say that this may be Ben's "O" face:

But here's the picture that gets mine:



That is huge!

I'm phasing.

That's Bullsh*t!
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Launchcast
(Opening Launchcast music break: Poison Something to Believe In) Penn & Teller: Bullshit is so AWESOME!! One of the best parts was that it arrived on Wednesday! I was so surprised. I had planned on like watching it on Friday and Saturday if it had arrived on Friday, but I just couldn't help myself and dove into it right away. But I wouldn't have been able to watch it like I would have wanted to on Friday because Marcus called. And I had just talked to him the day before! (Launchcast music break: Elton John Sorry Seems to Be The Hardest Word) I know, I've gotten better at talking to Marcus without getting annoyed, but we talked Thursday night, until like 1:00 AM! There was really nothing else to talk about the next day. And there was really nothing on television, so the topics of conversation were a bit scant.

Anyway, getting back to my favorite show that is not Lost or Desperate Housewives, Penn & Teller: Bullshit was just so great. I watched the second season first, since I had seen the first one. It was great. Man, I can't wait until the third season starts, even though I don't have Showtime, but the sooner it starts, the sooner it will be on DVD. It's kind of funny, I noticed that Bullshit gets renewed one season at a time. Now, I try not to just totally believe everything, but I try to weigh the little bit of facts that P&T give, but it's really hard not to side with them when on most subjects they can give facts and the people their opposed to can't. I think the most important thing about this show to me is to think for myself and not to believe anything someone tells me. Like when Marcus saw Fahrenheit 9/11, he took it for just about 100% truth. Now, I'm not even interested in seeing it, even though we have it somewhere around here on bootleg DVD, and if you really dislike George W. Bush, then you'll want to believe it, but come on, you have to realize that somewhere in the movie, some of the "facts" in the movie are half-truths. The funny thing is that Marcus was trying his hardest to sell me on Fahrenheit 9/11, and I feigned belief, but I didn't have the heart to say, "Are you sure? Isn't there a way that Michael Moore couldn't have lied and edited it to suit his opinion?" But I just didn't have the balls. Ah well, fuck me.

Lost was amazing this week. They lied when they said a major character was dying, unless they mean before the season ends, because Ethan was a secondary character. Lots of people were complaining that it wasn't right that Charlie killed him. WTFEver! That was great. In fact, I don't think the death was cruel enough. It's just a fictional show, so I can have thoughts like that. I think the fuss is that Charlie killed him before Ethan had a chance to say anything. But I don't think that he would have said why he kidnapped Claire, who by the by, has amnesia, so she doesn't remember anything before the crash. (Launchcast music break: Motley Crue Home Sweet Home*) When they set up the ambush to capture Ethan, at first I thought it wasn't going to work, because that mofo is inhuman. He's abnormally strong and fast. But Dr. Jack kicked his ass! I kept yelling kick him in the head, but that's when Charlie showed up and shot him. But someone lied. They said that this week, we would have found out why Charlie kidnapped Claire. The only thing anyone knows is that it mostly has something to do with her unborn baby. I can only hope that Desperate Housewives can be as entertaining, because Lost kicked it's ass last time.

*Motley Crue shot a new video for Home Sweet Home. It was alright, I can only hope that it means that at least VH1 will start playing the video. They changed the piano outro a bit. I was kind of miffed at it, but whatever, it's still great.

Well, I don't really have anything to say about Ben because I haven't heard anything about him. I know, it sucks, and after tomorrow, the Pro Bowl, football season is officially over. What am I going to do with myself?

I'm phasing.

Tomorrow, We're ALL Undefeated Again
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Launchcast
Best. Commercial. EVER!!!! Ever? Forever ever?! FOREVER EVER!!! It was so sad at first, I didn't even see it on Sunday. Then I was listening to Dirt yesterday morning, and Diane saw it, and I was SO BLOWN!! But today, the NFL Network website decided to finally put it up. It is nuts. At this time, you can only stream it, but hopefully I'll be able to download it. Also, at 12:30 PM, the NFL Network is showing some of the Super Bowl commercials, then I can record it. Ben is SO cute in it. He only says one word, and that's "Joe"! (Launchcast music break: Guns N' Roses You Could Be Mine! This song never gets old.) Ben was really sad in it, because he didn't make it to the big game. But Joe Montana is the biggest bama ever. He was so funny! This reggae band started singing Tomorrow, and he said, "That's my jam!" I was rolling. That is too funny.

That was the worst Super Bowl. Stupid Patriots. And what the hell was up with the Eagles? T.O. was the only one on the team that looked like he showed up to play. And he broke his leg 6 1/2 weeks earlier. And the offense made way too many mistakes. But just like the ad said, "Tomorrow, We're ALL Undefeated Again". Man, I can't wait for next football season.

Yesterday, I did something really good, but I kind of thought I would never do. I had kind of told myself that I would never buy a TV show on DVD, but when I found out a certain show came out with there second season, I just had to. My absolute, most favorite show on Showtime, Penn & Teller-Bullsh*t's second season has come out on DVD!! I had seen the first season, but before I had a chance to see the second one, we got rid of all our movie channels except for HBO and Encore. (Launchcast music break: Limp Bizkit Faith. Some covers suck, but this one was AWESOME!! It's just about everything a cover should be.)You have no idea how much I loved this show. I ordered the two first seasons off of Amazon yesterday. It's due to come Friday, Saturday, or Monday. Hope for Friday. (Launchcast music break: Bon Jovi Bad Medicine. I've noticed they play this a lot when I'm doing my blog.)

I gotta jet, it's almost 12:10, and there's a couple of things I gotta do before I get off before 12:30. But before I go, I have to upload my new favorite picture of Ben. It's better than the fashion show one. It's the one where he got his 2004 Pepsi NFL Rookie of the Year Award. Even though the "O" face one is hard to top, he's just too good looking in this photo. I even bit and got rid of my Grumpy Bear Desktop and switched it to this.

I'm phasing.

Short and etc.
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: DC101
Man, I'm spent. I'm so tired, and I've got one day left. This week has been so hectic, and it's not over yet. I still have to visit my granddad tomorrow and the Super Bowl is on Sunday. S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D!

I've also gotten the courage to lurk around football boards again. I just have to stay away from the main page where they talk about that team that I really can't stand. While I was on The Official Super Bowl Site, I learned some good news. Last year, they had a bunch of football players sing Tomorrow, as in next football season is only a day away, and all that jazz. Anyway, they're going to do it again this year, and guess who's going to be in it? That's right, Ben-Ben's gonna SING!! This is going to be too funny! I'll try to tape it, I mean, they have to play it at least a million times on the NFL Network during the off season. The Steelers season got cut short, and Ben is still everywhere. It's a good thing.

Ben got his 2004 Pepsi NFL Rookie of the Year Award! I'll have to put his photo up for that next entry, because I have a great one this time!

Is this his "O" face?!

Yeah, I need help.

I'm phasing.

Oh, Where Do I Go Now?
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: American Idiot Album
The American Idiot album is so awesome! I think my favorite songs from it, other than the title track and Boulevard of Broken Dreams, which are the singles so far, are Jesus of Suburbia: IV. Dearly Beloved, Extraordinary Girl, Letterbomb, Wake Me Up When September Ends, Homecoming: III. Nobody Likes You & V. We're Coming Home Again. But the album itself is really solid. I actually like it better then Contraband. I've always kind of like Green Day. The songs Jesus of Suburbia and Homecoming are 9 minute songs that are split up into 5 different parts, so that's why I had to put my favorite parts of the songs. That sounds so weird, but it's kind of interesting. I do think that my favorite song of the entire album is Wake Me Up When September Ends. I think it's about Billie Joe's dad who died when he was younger. While I may not be able to really identify with it, it's really a powerful song. Letterbomb and Homecoming: III. Nobody Likes You get honorable mention because there's a line in the song that goes:

Nobody likes you,
Everyone left you,
There all out without you,
Having fun.

Well, if that doesn't hit it home, nothing else will. It was so weird when I first listened to Letterbomb, it comes before Homecoming on the album. It was like that Killing Me Softly song when they sing: Strumming my pain with his fingers, singing my life with his words. I guess the only difference now is that when they're out without me, it's most likely that I turned them down first, but I can't deny that was how it always used to be.

Yesterday, I actually watched Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers. Oh. My. God. That movie was long as hell! It wasn't bad, but I fell asleep both times I watched it. I'll give it the benefit of the doubt, I did wake up a 6:30 yesterday morning and that was the only down time I got. But, the second time it came on, I only fell asleep after I got to where I came in the first time it was on, so I didn't feel that bad. Maybe I'll catch it again. Who knows, one day, I might even buy the trilogy on DVD. Oh yeah, Lisa said that Orlando Bloom was all hot in that movie, I don't think so! He was way hotter in Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl. But for some reason, she can't sit through that movie. She said that she saw some of it while she was at Dawn's house, but thought it was boring. WTF EVER!! Pirates was AWESOME!! Dominic Monaghan was okay in it. I say "okay" because I didn't recognize him, but I remembered his name was "Merry" so I waited until someone said it. But of course he's so hot on Lost as Charlie. Man, I miss Lost. 10 MORE DAYS!! And 14 days until Desperate Housewives.

That last episode of Desperate Housewives wasn't that good. Well, that's what I thought at first, but then I let it sink in, and it wasn't bad. It just wasn't nearly as AWESOME as Lost. They found Claire, then decided they needed a two-week break. That is so WRONG!!

I got my job back. She got desperate. Stupid cow. Now, I'll have more money. I can get that long sleeve "Big Ben" shirt, and that hat.

I downloaded that commercial that Ben's in. It's so awesome! I'm still a bit unclear about what it's selling. I think it's really tight outfits that athletes wear. Whatever, he's really hot in it. And he has on a really tight shirt. What's there for me to really get?

Man, I can't wait for summer, TRAINING CAMP BEGINS!!! Screw the Super Bowl! Let's get on with next season. How am I supposed to go like 6 months without this:

He makes me want to buy a vowel, and it's OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I'm so special.

I'm phasing.