Sick and Tired of It All
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Limp Bizkit "Break Stuff"
Here are the things I'm sick and tired of, just off the top of my head: Untrustworthy, undependable, unreliable, unpredictable, unstable, inconsistent, indecisive, erratic, fickle, capricious, flaky, wishy-washy, take-more-than-they-give, shitty-ass friends, whose sole purpose in life is just to use me for body count than just to hang out; being scared of failure; knowing that when I wake up tomorrow, that I will still be doing the same thing I did the day before: FUCKING NOTHING; the fact that I'm in TWO abusive relationships, and can't shake either one of them; being scared to drive; the wait for Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban movie; pop-ups; not being able to download music for free anymore; SMARKS (yeah, I know I'm one, but we are an annoying bunch when more than one is around); MARKS who think they are SMARKS (they are more annoying than smarks, believe it or not); people who have way too much money, and spend it on stupid shit, like spinning rims, and the fact if I had that much money, I'd invest, so I could have MORE money; having a bunch of cable channels, and there is never shit on them; haters who hate just to be hating; the fact that when I'm angry at a certain person, I can't ever just tell them that they are a major asshole, and they should go fuck themselves and stop bothering me, I keep the hurt inside, well, I tell everyone else, BUT that person; the fact that music SUCKS now, and will probably never be to my standards again; hypocrites; the feeling that I'm wasting the best years of my life; stupid people who don't wear their signs (inside joke); being angry; allowing other people to piss me off; people who call me, then NOT talk to me; the Atkins diet; not having a job and being broke; the fact that I don?t deal with reality; never being able to hear the whole song of Bon Jovi's I'll Be There For You(I've only heard it twice); Launch radio being more controlling on skipping and what songs they will play, and you have to pay a subscription for it to be unlimited (I wondered why they stopped playing GNR on my station, but they have a whole station dedicated to the 80s, and GNR is the picture they base the music on, MOTHERFUCK LAUNCH RADIO); not being skinny; being single; that lost and unsure feeling; Shawn Michaels screwing with my feelings EVERY week by not turning heel ( he STILL hasn't done it); and caring, in general.

Although, I suppose that turning heel in Canada would have just been too easy, and some wonder whether or not it would have carried over to the States. If the heel turn does not happen after his title match with Benoit in Phoenix in two weeks, I might just give up.

There are probably a lot more things I could be upset about, but I was just about to boil over with anger, and needed to siphon these thoughts out of my head.

I'm phasing and pissed the fuck off!

Backlash Rant and Rave
Mood:  incredulous
Yesterday was filled with so much emotion! All ranging from anger to disbelief. I know that is just a show, but I always get so caught up in it. Especially Shawn.

The evening started when my friends came 3 1/4 hours later than when they said they would. I was about to give them their props, because Backlash started at 8:00, and they were, supposedly coming to get me at 5:15. Well, two hours pass, and nothing. So I call, and I'm like, "Jason, where the hell is your brother?" And he's like, "We got into a knife fight, but he's on his way." Then I asked, "How long ago did he leave?" And Jason said 10 minutes ago. They live maybe a half hour away, depending on the traffic and the route you take. Jason's brother, Jarrett, didn't show up until 8:25. Oooooooh, I was SO angry. THEN, we were going to stop off at this girl named Francois' (sp?) house so they could drop pictures off, but Jarrett's girlfriend forgot them. It would be a 'thank god' moment, but NOOOOOOOOO! We had to go visit some other people that I didn't even know! So, then we didn't get to his house until like 9:15. But just to make matters worse, the people already at the house weren't even watching the fucking Pay-Per-View!! They didn't know who won the first two matches!! The sad fact is that Jason CLAIMS to be this HUGE wrestling fan, and had hopes to get into wrestling one day, and not only was he not watching the show, but he was a fucking mark when he was paying attention.
UGH! There's nothing worse than a mark who thinks they know EVERYTHING, and yet is still so marky at the same time!

Fuck those bamas, man, I'm so tired of it. That's it, I'm going to learn how to drive, so even if I have to go over there to see this stuff, I at least have my own ride. But if I'm driving, I'm going over Marcus's house.

FUCK THIS SHIT MAN!! I'VE HAD IT!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR JARRETT TO LEAVE THE COUNTRY!! IT'S ALWAYS HIM!! HE IS THE SOURCE OF ALL THE PROBLEMS, WHEN HE WASN'T HERE FOR WRESTLEMANIA XIX, WE HAD A BLAST! SURE THEY WERE LATE, BUT IT WAS FUN IN THE END!! BUT WITH HIM, IT'S NEVER FUN!! DAMN, MAY WILL NOT BE HERE SOON ENOUGH!!

SHAWN, DO YOU SEE WHAT I PUT UP WITH FOR YOU?!?!

Okay, now for some better news, I did pretty good on my Backlash predictions. I went six out of seven. Technically it was eight matches, but I didn't know about one until I was there, because they didn't announce it. Let's rehash:

Chris Benoit vs. Triple H vs. Shawn Michaels- I said Chris was gonna retain! But I can't believe Shawn tapped. It was SHOCKING!

Randy Orton vs. Mick Foley- Yep, I said Randy was gonna win. It was kind of sick though, at one point, Randy had a shitload of thumbtacks stuck in his back, arms, and hands.

Victoria vs. Lita- I have to go on what they told me, they said Victoria won, and that was my pick.

Edge vs. Kane- Edge won, like I said. He cheated, but he won.

Chris Jericho vs. Christian & Trish Stratus- Again, this is something that they told me happened, but they said my pick, Jericho won, so whatever.

Tajiri vs. Jonathan Coachman- I can't believe Coach won. This is my only wrong pick, but there was interference, so I don't feel that bad.

Shelton Benjamin vs. Ric Flair- Shelt Money won, baby! It was a good match. I hope his push continues, I'll have to wait for Raw tonight to see.

La Resistance vs. Hurricane and Rosey- This match was not on the final card that I found posted on the internet, so I couldn't make a guess. If anyone cares, Hurricane/Rosey won.

Keep your fingers crossed that tonight is THE night that Shawn Michaels goes heel. He should turn heel, just for me, at least, considering EVERYTHING I went through last night, JUST...FOR...HIM!

I'm phasing, and still not as angry as I should be about the incedents in getting to Backlash!

Backlash
I'm going to see Backlash tonight!! I'll do my picks now cuz my ride is on it's way. By the by, that Chris Rock: Never Scared thing was underwhelming. Too much hype, maybe?


World Title Match
Chris Benoit vs. Triple H vs. Shawn Michaels

Benoit, go!! Shawn, go heel!! Trips, just go away!!

WWE Intercontinental Title Hardcore Match
Randy Orton vs. Mick Foley

Randy Orton. Should be one hell of a match though!

WWE Women's Title Match
Victoria vs. Lita

Victoria. She's cool, but she was better at being psycho!

Edge vs. Kane

Probably Edge.

Chris Jericho vs. Christian & Trish Stratus

Jericho.

Tajiri vs. Jonathan Coachman

If Coach wins, I will slap someone.

Shelton Benjamin vs. Ric Flair

Flair will probably put the newcomer, Shelt Money, over. And that will be great.

I'll share my experience tomorrow.

And, hopefully, Bret pix!

I'm phasing.

Just a Saturday Night
I'm gearing up for Chris Rock's new HBO special that comes on in about 15 minutes. I just have to say that I FINALLY found some Bret Michaels Pictures! Yeah!!!! I'll have to scour the net some more either tomorrow or next week for other ones. He is the ONLY guy I would ever consider stop liking Shawn for!

I'm phasing.

..................
This week has sucked man. Nothing happened. Well, I talked to a friend I hadn't heard from in a month, and he's leaving next month. He's in the Navy and stuff, I don't know where he's going, I think it's Cuba. Whatever.

He asked me if I wanted to go see Kill Bill Vol. 2 with them Saturday. Uh, no. I wasn't interested in the first one, so the second one doesn't strike my fancy either. They said they're going to watch the first one at his house, then go out to the movies. See, these people are the worst people to go to the movies with. EVER. They always go to the most out of the way places, where it's ALWAYS crowded. So that means that like, if we get there at 8:00, the 8:00 movies are sold out and we have to wait for the 10:00 showing or something. The places I go see movies, either with Marcus or by myself; it?s never sold out like that. Even on opening weekends. The only movies that might get that are Lord of the Rings, Star Wars, and maybe Harry Potter movies. But I only like the latter category, so I don?t usually worry. Another thing is that, these people that are going Saturday are like broke. Not too many of them have jobs, so you would think the smart thing to do would be seeing the matinees that are cheaper, but they?re not the sharpest knives in the drawer, so whatever again. But, I doubt I?ll go because Chris Rock has a new HBO special on this Saturday, and I must see it. I?ve been waiting for his stand up return ever since Bigger and Blacker in 1999. It should be off the Richter.

Nothing else special has really happened, I?m probably not going to see Backlash, and I?m not sure whether I?ll do a chatroom or just wait until Monday to find out, or if Marcus will call afterwards.

I?m phasing.

Just Lunchin
Mood:  cheeky
Last night was crazy! Man, Marcus and I were lunchin on the phone. Raw was nuts! I LOVE Shawn Michaels!! Even though I really don't care whether he or Chris Benoit wins, as long as it's not Trips, then I'll be happy. Just like the results of WMXX! But, I kinda want Benoit to keep it so his title reign will seem more credible. For for HEAVEN'S SAKE, turn HEEL SHAWN!!!

I have a new favorite song!! It's called For Once In My Life and it's sung by Harry Connick, Jr. I think Stevie Wonder wrote it because I've heard like eleventy million covers of it, but his version dates back the furthest. Harry Conhick Jr.'s version pretty cool. DAMN, I wish I could download music again.

I wish I could find some GOOD pix of Bret Michaels on the net, but that seems next to impossible.

I'm phasing.

Free Floating Hostility, Part 2
Mood:  irritated
I had a pretty uninteresting weekend, didn't do anything Easter, we were trying to go to Target, but it was closed, so we went today.

I'm pretty pissed off right now, my mom gets on my last nerves I swear to every god on this planet she does. Like I had to type a letter for my step-dad, and I had to print it THREE FUCKING TIMES, man! The sad fact is that ANY time I have to type something for them, I end up printing it over and over and OVER!! This time I SWORE I would save my ink, I had her look at it BEFORE I printed it. Well, the first time, my step-dad didn't sign in the right place, so had to print it again, this time I added some extra space between the closing and the name on the letter. That was WAY too much space, so then I print it a THIRD fucking time, that was okay. But the THING that pisses me off the most is that my mom bitches and complains and acts like she's a fucking expert on this shit. Then I'm like, "YOU FUCKING DO IT THEN!!!!"

On Friday night, my friend Jason called me, and we were talking about wrestling. And he had asked me a question, then I gave him my answer, and I asked him something, and I noticed that the phone was silent. Then, I heard this noise. THIS MOTHERFUCKER FELL ASLEEP ON THE PHONE!! Oh, I was LIVID!! We weren't even on the phone for ten minutes. And it's not like it was 3:00 in the morning, no it was like 9:00. And another thing, HE called ME!!! It's not like I called him and disturbed his nap or something. BLOODY HELL, that put me in a right state. But you know the WORST part of all of this, it is the fact that I put up with it. Oh, I hung the phone up when I realized he was sleeping, but this kind of shit happens to me ALL the bloody time! I have "friends" that call ME, and ignore me. At one time I was like, "Am I that horrible or boring that I have to be ignored when people call me?" I used to blame myself, but I realized it's not my fault. These people are disturbing ME!! I'm not going to name names, besides, there are only two people on this site that know any of my "friends" that do this, but FUCK THEM!! I'm so SICK of this shit. It's getting old. Sure, I put up with it so I could have a place to watch Wrestlemania, but you know what, that was LAST month. I'm going to start hanging up on these people.

So, my final thoughts are FUCK my "friends" who call me, only to ignore me, and if there is ANYONE out there who does this, FUCK YOU TOO!!

I'm phasing.

More Nothing
Goddamn, this has been an uneventful week for me. This sucks so bad.

The only thing entertaining about this week is that on my local rock station, DC101, they had their 2nd Annual Easter Keg Hunt. Man, I wish I was 21, I would have SO done it! What they did was they put out 101 beer kegs, painted like easter eggs, around the Baltimore, D.C., and Richmond areas, and everywhere in between. I'll tell you what, if I was 21 and my brother still lived up here, we would have FUCKING OWNED that thing. We wouldn't even hunt for them, we'd follow people and wait for them to do stupid stuff like go get gas and leave the car unlocked and just rough it, it happened last year. That's totally legal in the game, you can steal them from other people! As Elliot would say, "That's AWESOME!" You have to know for that to be funny.

They had some funny ass stories about last year's hunt, like this girl called in and said that they had seen a keg on the opposite side of the road they were driving down, and they were just about to make an illegal left hand turn, when an ambulance came up the street with it's siren and lights on, and the people in the ambulance snatched the keg up. That is so messed up, it's hilarious!! And today, this guy said he found one, and instead of taking it home or something, this IDIOT went into a restaurant to get something to eat, and when he got back out there, it was gone. I was like, FUCKING DUH!! The game is ruthless, of course somebody's gonna steal it!! Dumbass!

I have a new love, I still love Shawn, but there's someone else as well. :P

I'm phasing.

Stuck In My Head, Driving Me Mad
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU!!
Since I don't have anything to say, I'll just post my new (old) favorite song. It's been stuck in my head for DAYS!!

I'll Be There For You- Bon Jovi

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love is suicide
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance girl

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
Well I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your Valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

*I wasn't there when you were happy
And I wasn't there when you were down
Didn't mean to miss your birthday baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for ...

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you ...

*That part always makes me cry! :P

I'm phasing.

Disturbed
Mood:  don't ask
The internet has violated me. WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with people? Today, in less than 4 hours, I have found out more things about certain people then I ever should have known.

I can't believe what it said about Shawn!!! Even though I would totally understand why, I still can't believe it.

UGH.

I'm phasing.