Disturbed
Mood:  don't ask
The internet has violated me. WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with people? Today, in less than 4 hours, I have found out more things about certain people then I ever should have known.

I can't believe what it said about Shawn!!! Even though I would totally understand why, I still can't believe it.

UGH.

I'm phasing.

In A Mood
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: *NSYNC
Not a bad mood, just a mood. More like a trip, if you will.

I was on this website, and they said that the Backstreet Boys were finishing up their new album or something, and it would be out in June. Then he posted that you could read the message at backstreetboys.com, it takes you to where you can read the message, BUT it's not the official website.

At this website, it has a bunch of links to other music acts' sites, and I went to *NSYNC's, that joint is BLAZIN'! When you first go to it, it's set up like a subway station! One thing I totally freaked out about was when the train doors open, there's a poster for Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix book! BOOST!! The best part is the Audio Jukebox. It has every song off of every CD they have EVER put out, including European versions of stuff. The Euro versions of I Want You Back and Tearin' Up My Heart kick SO much ass! I Want You Back is my jam!! I keep repeating it over and over. I never got *NSYNC's first CD. Maybe I will one day, but I'm not pressed.

DAMN!! I miss the years 1999-2001 so bad, those were some good times! I was so young, so carefree, was NEVER innocent! :P

Well, since nothing else much has happened today. And there is nothing I can say about Shawn that I haven't said already, so I'll have to wait for Monday night for him to do something for me to comment on. Maybe they'll say something about him on Confidential!

I'm phasing and jamming to *NSYNC!!

It's April??
Well, another month gone, and here we are, starting the fourth month of the new year, it always goes so fast.

It's Thursday, so I expect that Marcus and I will be sitting through another BRUTAL Smackdown. Man, last week's was so painful, I don't think I'll be able to stand this one if it's just as bad, or, godforbid, WORSE!

All I did today was work on my old website, it's not much, but I have to find a reason to care about something so it can have a purpose, but it's basically under construction. Maybe I can put up some of those song parodies that we have.

Marcus, you should really hit it up though, I added two more pages to the HBK photo album, the second page is the best I think. You can steal as many pics as you want.

Oh yeah, I added two more Shawn pics to my slideshow on this website as well. I'm just an obsessed little person.

Today kind of sucks though, it's all rainy and cold. It's the kind of day to sleep in, so I did until about 8:30. I was kind of upset I slept in so late, but I had a headache, so it wasn't too bad.

It's a very mellow day, so I'll go find something to do to shake it up.

Oh yeah, GNR's 'Greatest Hits' album was number 3 on the Billboard Charts, baby!! And Shawn Michaels is REALLY hot, but would be even HOTTER as a heel! Please turn before Backlash!

I'm phasing.

But Is Someday Soon Enough?
Mood:  down
This song has been on my brain since last night. I know it's about feuding lovers or something, but it relates to something I've been going through.

Someday - Nickelback

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables

I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when

Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)

[Solo]

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when

The internet is FULL of just a bunch of fucking haters! Why do they hate on Shawn so much? He's done things in his past he's ashamed of, we ALL have! Even though his little 'God Squad' thing is less than desired by me, I don't care. The fact of the matter is that he is still DAMN GOOD in that ring. Even though I am one, smarks piss me off.

I'm phasing.

Losing My Sight, Losing My Mind, Wish Somebody Would Tell Me I'm Fine
Mood:  hug me
Raw last night was just all over the place. One minute, I'm ready to turn the channel and be done with the whole thing, the next minute I have to stick with it, because it's just so, so captivating. Triple H had me going last night, I'm still in shock that Shelton won. The match was really good, second to Shawn/Chris Benoit vs. Ric Flair/Batista, of course. But like I said, it was good, it had my emotions high and running, I hadn't felt like that bout a non-Shawn match in a long time. But the Shawn/Chris Benoit vs. Ric Flair/Batista match was NUTS!! I BELIEVED!!! I HATE WHEN WWE DOES THAT TO ME!! They WON the match, but then they reversed it because Ric Flair wasn't the legal man when Benoit pinned him. WTF EVER!! But then I remember that it's not in WWE history that they follow logic, so, [expletive deleted]! Oh yeah, Shawn is CRAZY!! When he and Benoit were beating the hell out of the ref, who keeps changing his name every week, he fell out in the ring and started spazzing for NO reason!! But I love him anyway. Man, I thought he was going heel in that match. THEY MADE ME CARE, GODDAMN THEM!

This weekend was uneventful, except for the fact that my mom is a psycopathic bitch. OMG! On Sunday, my parents were going to take my grandparents to church since they hadn't been in a while because they were both in and out the hospital for most of January and February, and were healing at home for most of March. Well, my grandma didn't want to go, so my mom got super pissed and came back home. Then, she took a nap, which she needed, but she was still in this mood. I just stayed out of her way until dinner. Then at dinner, she wanted to drink a root beer, okay, well the one I got out of the fridge had a warped top. Part of it was sticking up like it had been in the freezer for a bit. She started bitching about it, and I told her that I didn't put it in the freezer, then she's like, I DIDN'T SAY YOU DID! And I'm like, you need to calm down, then she asked my step-dad to push the top down and he bent the top of the can down, and root beer spilled all over the floor and the table. But I feel like some of this is my fault, I should have just handed her a fucking straw. At some point I told her that I'd call Barq's Root Beer company and complain. THEN, she had the AUDACITY to ask what the hell is my problem. SHE'S the one with the goddamn problem. I was just tip-toeing around her so I wouldn't piss her off even more. And I failed MISERABLY! I should have just eaten in my room or something.

Oh yeah, I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY CHANGED THE GODDAMN BACKLASH MAIN EVENT!! I LOATHE WHOEVER THOUGHT OF THAT!! THAT WAS THE WMXX MAIN EVENT, HBK/BENOIT WOULD JUST BE SOOOOOOOO MUCH BETTER!!

It was something else I had on my mind, but I forgot what it was, so I'll just say that I LOVE my Guns N' Roses CD, headphones, and THE HEARTBREAK KID, SHAWN MICHAELS.

I'm phasing!

So Violated
Mood:  hug me
Smackdown was HORRIBLE!! I had such high hopes for it. I had stopped watching it for a while, and it was building up steam and becoming more enjoyable, then they pull this crap on us. It just makes me want to beat someone upside the head with a lead pipe.

I don't know what else to say, that show just physically and emotionally drained me last night.

I'm phasing.

...And Justice For None
Mood:  sad
Marcus, if you read this before Thursday night, all I have to say is BAIT AND SWITCH!! They announced the new GM for Smackdown sometime yesterday on WWE's official website, not a spoiler, and I can't believe it... You will never guess without reading it. And you remember that MIDNIGHT deadline to finalize their drafts, all I will tell you is that Elmo is dead. I almost cried.

Now, I will rage for a moment against WWE: (&* &^^%& %^#$ &*^%% but then &&$&*(&*( &&%^%^&*&*( and *&(^$@#!$ &*&(*& (**( ^&**& $#@#$@#$$ and they have to call a doctor to pull the handle out again!!

On a good note, that Guns N' Roses CD is SO... I don't know what to say!! I'm so happy I got it, and my headphones are just HOT!!

I must weep for the future of WWE from what I've heard now, I'm so depressed.

I'm phasing.

BEST DAMN DAY EVER!!!! PERIOD!!!!
Mood:  a-ok
OMG!!! Life could not get any better right now!! It has somewhat ruled since 9:00 PM last night.

They did the draft lottery on Raw last night, and Triple H went to SMACKDOWN!!! I couldn't believe it!! But then Shawn was all like, I want Chris Benoit's belt, but I'm not finished with this Triple H business either. I wanted to kill him. I was like, Shawn, why are you trying to leave me?? It was hard enough for me to WATCH Smackdown in the first place, even though I totally would for him. Shawn Michaels on Smackdown, just doesn't add up, see for yourself: Smackdown + Shawn Michaels = FUCKING WEIRD!! Math NEVER lies.

Then, today, I went out to the mall with my friend Marcus! OMG, it was so great! We went to Best Buy where I got Guns N' Roses Greatest Hits album and a new pair of headphones, he got the new Usher CD and 'The Rundown' DVD. I WOULD have gotten the Maroon 5 CD, but some other friends want to do stuff, and I probably would have been wiped out, even though I only have like $10 left anyway. Then we went to Borders, and I bought the Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them/Quidditch Through the Ages box set. It's really cool, especially the Fantastic... book, because they make it look like Harry owned it, and they write and stuff in it, and the Quidditch book looks like it's from the library! HP ROCKS!!! Then we walked the mall a bit, and had lunch, we had pizza. My one slice of pizza was HUGE!! It must have been Chicago style.

I must get a job soon, there was WAY too much other stuff I saw there that I REALLY want.

MY NEW HEADPHONES KICK 8 KINDS OF ASS!!

GNR IS THE SHIT!!

Oh yeah, EDGE IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHAWN MICHAELS + EDGE = OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Shawn is SO sexy.

I'm phasing.

Toxic
I need to ween myself off of Shawn, he's become my new drug. But I can't help it!! I need a dose of him at least once a day.

It's bloody cold over my house right now.

I just don't have that much to say, maybe something will happen somewhere between now and the next time I log in.

I'm phasing.

Post-Wrestlemania Depression
Mood:  blue
I know, it's almost been a week, but it was SO good! Wrestlemania is like New Year's for the wrestling world, and it just has me thinking, some stuff in paticular, some all over the place thoughts, but thinking none-the-less.

The thing I mostly think about is my future. I know what I want, I'm not sure how to get there, but the thing is, would I REALLY do ANYTHING to get it.

Like, say you really want to be famous, what if someone came along, saw potential in you, but said, I'll help out your career and make you rich and famous, but you have to drop your whole life, abandon all your friends, family, and other relationships, would you do it? It's something SO tempting, but it's asking to give up SO much.

I'm not sure what I would do in that situation. It's just been on my mind for a while, and I needed to write that down, to get it out of me.

I REALLY hope Shawn Michaels turns heel soon, then he would be mega-uber-hot!

I'm phasing.