Mood:
irritatedNow Playing: Launchcast
Yeah, it's really starting to get to me. Why haven't I learned my lesson yet? Do I need someone to break down my front door and beat me with a blunt objects while yelling that my friends are stupid gits, with absolutely no redeeming qualities whatsoever. But I can use this to my advantage. I can start to phase them out, big time.
I know, I know, I said that I would have just put my foot down and said no. But I talked to Jason, today! And it was still on. But whatever. I hope they enjoy their loser non-sport. Wrestling is so 2000-2002. It's time to let it go. I know that I'm all into NASCAR now, and it has the redneck stigma, but it's more mainstream than wrestling could have ever hoped to be. Hundreds of thousands of people go to see it, week in and week out. Wrestling can't even sell out a 20,000 arena anymore. Unless it's Wrestle Mania.
And I just have no one to bitch to about this. God, I need new friends in the worst way. I'm at my wit's end, I just don't know what to do anymore. And the thing it with friends, is that you really can't just end the relationship, like a boyfriend or girlfriend. Most of the time, people just tend to drift apart. Except I feel like I'm on a lily pad in a stagnant pond while everyone else is on a raft, going down a river headed towards the ocean. (Launchcast music break: Marilyn Manson Sweet Dreams/Hell Outro. Some of them want to use you, some of them want to get used by you, some of them want to abuse you, some of them want to be abused by you. Hmm, how eerily appropriate.) It would be pretty sweet whenever the next time any of these people called, I could say, "I think we need to start being friends with other people." I can't really say that though. Because in reality, nobody ever gave the "let's see other people" speech without already having someone else in mind.
I just finished watching Desperate Housewives. Great eppy! To think I wanted to miss this for some gay-ass fake sport. What the hell is wrong with me? It's not really fair for me to blame wrestling, it's just that anything associated with them is pissing me off. The previews for Lost are looking good though.
There really wasn't any specific reason for this entry. I guess I just needed to vent, and see in writing what my mind told me all day. Why did I get my hopes up? Why did I trust them? Why do I let them get under my skin like this? I have no clue. Some people would call me stupid, and they're probably right. But I hope others would think that I like to have some sort of hope that there is good in all people. But I'm starting to go the way of the former. I'm a complete idiot, who needs to get her life together. They are screaming to be left behind anyway. There's a reason that most people don't keep their high school friends. This has to be one of them. (Final Launchcast music break: Spice Girls Lady Is a Vamp. Thank you very much)
I'm phasing.