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(Opening Launchcast music break: Guns N' Roses Mr. Brownstone)I have a couple predicaments that I've gotten myself into. Just this week! I'm not sure which one to do first. I guess I could do the Jason one. Okay, so Wrestle Mania 21 (they quit using the roman numerals) is this weekend, and like earlier this month, Jason invited me to go. See, I kind of gave up on professional wrestling last September, so there's no reason for me to go. (Launchcast music break: George Michael One More Try, it's been a hot minute since they played this.) But Jason said that I should go because everyone else was there, and they hadn't seen me since October, except for Phil, but that doesn't count. Anyway, I was kind of up for it until like last week. I didn't get any NASCAR on Sunday, maybe because it was Easter, I don't know, I can only confirm this next year if there's a pattern. And Desperate Housewives is finally back. So is Lost tonight, I'm so very happy! Back to what I was saying, like I said as the date approaches, I find myself a bit more apprehensive to go. I mean, okay, Jason's birthday was last Wednesday, and Antoin, Keith, and him were supposed to go out to Springfield to go play laser tag. Which is stupid because you can't play laser tag with 3 people. The least you can maybe have is like 8 or 10. Then, Antoin told him to forget it and postpone it until April 3, Wrestlemaina since everyone was going to be over there for it anyway. Going back to the archives, it is evident that they have a history of tardiness and all that jazz. (Launchcast music break: Holy God! Rolling Stones Shine a Light! I love this song more than You Can't Always Get What You Want and Brown Sugar combined. I felt this song from the first time I heard it.) This is getting long, but it will all come together in the end. Right, so this upcoming Sunday is also Daylight Savings Time, and we "spring" forward and lose an hour. (Launchcast music break: AC/DC Back In Black) So, going to Springfield is like an hour, then it being Sunday, the trains are going to run like every 12 minutes, so we have to factor that in, everyone is going to show up an hour late due to DST plus the late they were already going to be. It's going to be hell. Even if they manage a decent time, they're still going to be late for Wrestle Mania. They have a history of it. Or at least with me they do. The past two years I've watched it with them, I've never seen the first 40-60 minutes of it. So now, I have to weigh my options.
On one hand, I had no plans on going to Springfield with them because I don't have any money. Like in bill form, so I couldn't pay for Metro fare or laser tag. So with that, I'd be waiting at home, for hours, waiting for someone to pick me up, for something I'm not pressed to see. It's really only one match, Shawn Michaels vs. Kurt Angle, it's so like WWE to have my dream match when I've given up on this sport. But I'm not that fussed to see this match, because if I was really dying to see it, I'd download it off the internet. You just have to know where to go. Like I said, I'd be waiting at home, for these people who'll be late, for something I don't care about, in a hot basement, with people who I really should start to phase out of my life. But if I stay home, I get the Food City 500 and Desperate Housewives. Plus I'd be at home, so I could eat whatever/whenever I want, I could come on to the internet if I felt like it, and I wouldn't be stressed out to hell and back over people who will most likely be late for their own bloody funerals. I'm leaning towards the latter. (Launchcast music break: Aerosmith Dream On)
And it matters not one bit at the fact that the race doesn't start until 12:30, which means it should be off by at least 5:30. But fooling around with these people would still make me miss Desperate Housewives.
Now, I guess my other problem is Marcus and Lisa. (Launchcast music break: Jessica Simpson I Wanna Love You Forever. This was back when I used to be able to stand her. But she's way better than her sister, that stupid c*nt.) Okay, one "friend" calls me too much, and the other keeps saying stupid, inconsiderate things to me. There is no relief. I've no one else to turn to. This blows. Marcus called, again, on Monday! It was so gay. I had taken a Benadryll at like 8:30, I was planning on washing dishes and brushing my teeth between 9:30-10:00, so I could drift off into my drug-induced slumber. But, no, someone is always messing up my plans. It never ends.(Launchcast music break: Bon Jovi Livin' On a Prayer, Live) I made sure I talked to absolutely no one yesterday. I used my mobile and the house phone to vote for American Idol. I know, I'm usually not that pressed, but I needed to keep the line busy. And anytime I got through, starting at like 9:58, I would just not hang up, so if anyone tried to call right back, they would keep getting the busy signal. Now, the trouble with Lisa is the things she keeps saying. She could say them in better ways. Like, a couple of years ago, I got super pissed off at her when she told me that if I didn't go back to school, I'd end up a single mother of three, trying to go back and get my education on, while trying to balance family, job, and school. To say I was horrified and disgusted at the fact that someone I had come to know as my best friend could label me as a statistic, especially that one, is a gross understatement. She said the same thing last Tuesday, except, thank the deities, she left out the kids part. (Launchcast music break: Boyz II Men End of the Road) My take on higher education is that if you know, or have a general idea of the field that you want a career in, then it is absolutely helpful, and I 100% agree with it. But, then you have people like me, who have no idea what the hell they want out of life, and college wasn't helping. It was a colossal waste of time, and money. That my mother reminds me of. Constantly. I mean, like, she's always talking about this guy who's like majoring in General Studies. WTF is that? What does that help? I mean, maybe you'll stumble on your future that you'll be happy with, but it seems unlikely. My two closest associates are not looking too good in my eyes, which leaves me with the question of, "who do I turn to?" (Launchcast music break: Radiohead Creep)
I guess, to me, this all ties in with my title, Before The Parade Passes By. One of my biggest fears in life was that everyone was going to move on without me, and lately, that seems to be what's happening. If something HUGE, I mean of enormous proportions does not happen to me this year, I might as well just give up on life, and just see if I can muddle through some how. Sometimes I think that all my friends, or whatever they should be called, don't have all these problems, and that it's really me. (Launchcast music break: Matchbox Twenty Disease) I don't know anymore, I guess I just need sometime to myself, where no one is around to just grate my nerves to death, for a nice, significant amount of time to somehow set a goal for myself. Just as long as it happens before that metaphorical parade passes me by.
Before the parade passes by
Before it goes on, and only I'm left
Before the parade passes by
I've gotta get in step while there's still time left
I'm ready to move out in front
Life without life has no reason or rhyme left
With the rest of them
With the best of them
I wanna hold my head up high
I need a goal again
I need a drive again
I wanna feel my heart coming alive again
Before the parade passes by...
Before the parade passes by
I've gotta go and taste Saturday's high life
Before the parade passes by
I've gotta get some life back into my life
I'm ready to move out in front
I've had enough of just passing by life
With the rest of them
With the best of them
I can hold my head up high
For I've got a goal again
I've got a drive again
I wanna feel my heart coming alive again
Before the parade passes by
I'm phasing.