Take My Pain Away
Mood:  irritated
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(Opening Launchcast music break: Guns N' Roses Welcome to the Jungle, indeed) Well, this looks like this is going to be a pissed off rant today. (Launchcast music break Bon Jovi I'll Be There For You, I've heard this song like 8 times in less than 12 hours, this is awesome!) It's something that had been eating me up since last week, but I haven't had time to put it up until now. Okay, now I didn't post all of it, but I bought my mum a bunch of stuff for her birthday last Thursday. And everything was cool until the next evening. She got all pissy that I drank her pink lemonade. God, that just makes me so angry. I do all this shit for her, just like Christmas, because I finally have money, and I spend it on her, but she gets upset over stupid shit. And it's not just the fact that she gets upset over stupid shit, it's that she holds a grudge and doesn't want to speak to you over it. God, she needs to grow the fuck up! She's 52 for fuck's sake!

See, like two weeks ago, whatever day the Friday after my trip out with Lisa and them happened, I was talking to Lisa on the phone about stuff like this. I was telling her how married people, or just people in relationships in general, argue over the stupidest stuff, like who forgot to turn the light off in the kitchen or who forgot to put the garage door down. And Lisa found this absolutely hysterical, but she doesn't know that it's so fucking true. (Launchcast music break: Poison Every Rose Has It's Thorn) Plus I realized that for just bit over two weeks, my mother has had a chip on her shoulder about a parking space and a lemonade. Dude, come on! I mean, this should be certifiable!

I think one of the things that really gets up my nose about it is that Lisa and I were talking about how you should never go to bed angry at a person, because you just feel really horrible and stuff. And it got me thinking that like while she was in Atlantic City (some friends took her for her birthday), what if something had happened to me, and she ended up feeling like a right ass because she was pissed off at me over a fucking lemonade. (Launchcast music break: Rolling Stones You Can't Always Get What You Want, I'm getting some good shit today, hope that doesn't jinx it!) It also made me think back to the Ashley/Phillip situation.

That's how the whole "married people/stupid arguments" came up. See, we were really trying to hammer out if this is a good idea, and, well, our conclusion came out to be sort of a "no". I mean, they already have so much against them. First of all, they are twenty years old. Ash turned in December and Phil I think in February. (Launchcast music break: Aerosmith Rag Doll) Next, marriage is hard enough. Not only will they have to deal with all the marriage crap, at a young age nonetheless, they'll have to deal with it, in a new country. Now, I'm trying my hardest to go to England, but see, I've done some type of research on it. I put in some sort of effort into learning something about a place that chances are, I may never see. That would suck so much. I didn't say at the time, but Ashley dragged us in and out of every book store looking for a kind of an American-British dictionary. I know a great website. I emailed her the link, I hope she got it, she can buy a book from it. When it all boils down to it, I'd be more ready to go than they are. But one of the biggest problems is that they haven't even told their parents! But here's where I'm on the fence. I'm not 100% sure, but I think that Ashley is an only child, or at least her mother's. Ashley is having a hard time making a decision on whether to tell her mother about this. On one side, I said she should. If her mother is against it, at least she has/had the option of going or not. But on the other side, I could see not even wanting to tell her. Looking at the beginning of this entry and in the archives, it's very obvious that my mother and I don't have the best relationship, and in like 80-85% of my daydreams when I marry Ben, or the flavor of my month, but I still love Ben (I had to throw that in), my mother isn't there. I don't see her being involved in my future. Not even a visit with my family. It's wrong, I know, but these are my fantasies. But getting back to the subject, I'm on the fence with this. If Ashley asked what would I do, I could only tell her that my answer would depend on how my mother and I were doing for that hour. (Launchcast music break: Eminem I'm Shady) And from what I've heard, Phil's father is just really scary. The conclusion that Lisa and I came to was that they may be getting married because they're scared that while there's an ocean between them, the other will find someone else. But that's just what we think, they could really in love, and think it could work. Lisa gave it less than two years. LOL! I said maybe a bit longer if a kid comes into play. (Launchcast music break: Spice Girls The Lady is a Vamp, one of my favorites!)

(Launchcast music break: AC/DC You Shook Me All Night Long)This weekend wasn't that bad, mostly because she was in another state four hours away. I got my step-dad out on the Metro. He enjoyed himself. I kept telling him that it wasn't hard, you just have to know where you want to go. He liked Pentagon City. While we were there, I got another DVD player. It's not as sexy as my old one, but what can you do. I also got Clerks X and Love Actually on DVD. Awesome additions to my growing collection. I have some quality stuff. Take that Marcus! He may have more DVDs than I do, but there's a better chance that I'll watch most of mine. The only ones I probably won't are the wrestling ones. But you never know, a really long, boring Sunday, like the one coming up, I could get desperate. (Launchcast music break: Boyz II Men Water Runs Dry)

I am really starting to fear for my sanity. I watched almost all of the race on Sunday. It was awesome! I was really into it, too. The end of it was jive nose to nose. I think it was also really great for me because finally, the Jack Daniel's 07 car finished top ten. So they were forced to show it a whole bunch. Normally, they hate on it, and never show but a split second of it. (Launchcast music break: Catherine Zeta-Jones Overture/All That Jazz) That car is so beautiful.

Classic.

I still dislike ABC Family. They are so stupid. Even though they took out the 9:30 Whose Line Is It Anyway?, it was the longest 30 minutes ever. They put some stupid show about getting married in Las Vegas in it's time slot. (Launchcast music break: Jordan Knight Give It To You) Why can't that show come on Tuesdays? A really awesome thing they did was that they finally, FINALLY showed the Whose Line? where they played "News Flash" where Colin was on the green screen! But after pining for it for so long, the one with Ryan is way funnier, which they showed the episode right before that one.

Someone also called last night like 9:45. That had better not been Marcus. OMG! Like I said on Wednesday, he called last Monday, we went out Tuesday, but then he called again last Thursday! That's three days out of a week. There was nothing left to say to him on Thursday. But the stupid thing was that I missed the phone last night, and I had been in the kitchen several times, each time telling myself to get the phone. I didn't really want to talk on it anyway.

(Final Launchcast music break: Lumidee Never Leave You {Uh Oooh, Uh Oooh}, I love the Uh Oooh song!) That'll be it for me I guess, I think the length of this one can only be rivaled by the one around the time when I first saw Love Actually. And I was irritated with Marcus around that time, as well. Coincidence?

I'm phasing, and apparently bitching.