Taken Advantage of No More!!
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: NIN- Closer
My head hurts. It's been hurting since last night, but last night was nuts. It involves prostitutes, severed friendships, and frizzy hair.

Like I stated before, Jarrett came back Thursday, a few days before he leaves for Cuba for 2 years. FINALLY!! I didn't really want to go, but Antoin and Jason were all like, you should come over, we're gonna go out and do stuff. I went for their sake. Plus, I hadn't seen a few people in a bit, and I wanted to. I was pressing my hair when Antoin called, and it looked great when they came and picked me up. The only thing is Jason has a really hot basement, so it's not a good place for my hair. When we got to the house, I said hey to everybody, and still being miffed at the whole Backlash Incedent, I breezed right passed him, and went into the room where they play video games. I was following Antoin out, when he cornered me, and I had to give him a hug, but I wasn't really into it, because I was interrogating Antoin about the Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans (He said they geeked!! ). Like 10 minutes after I arrive, Jarrett leaves with Shelby and her girlfriend. There were so many people there, I wasn't upset yet, I thought they were going to get more people or something. Later, while we were discussing the Presidential/Vice Presidential Debates, Jarrett calls and says he's getting tatoos with Shelby. WTF? Then, we got drawn into a video game tournament, which was okay, but I gave in to GNR and a game of 'Snake' on my mobile. I think Jarrett called again and was angry that everyone else is upset, and told Marcus R. that he was going to Jillian's (I think), and we could meet them up there, and if we didn't then eff us. Oooooooooooo, let the seething begin. I made myself known by saying fuck Jarrett with a lead pipe (only thing I could think of at the mo). Then, someone suggests a movie, okay, why not. But then they're like, call Jarrett and tell him, I was like hell no, I'm not having it, he does this every time, fuck him!! So, we're leaving the house, and we're in the van. Well, it took them ages to get in, so Jamie and I chatted, she's awesome! We finally get rolling, and who calls Jason? Jarrett. Oooooooooooo, I got choice words for him, but at that time we were all like, don't answer it. I took it upon myself to press the 'End Call' button on the phone. Then, he called right back, I was ready, at first I was like, no I'm not, but then I was like, no I can do this, he needs to be put in his place, so I tell Jason to answer it, and I just let go. I screamed obsenities at him. I basically said that it's unfair that you do this all the time to us. You get us all at your mother's house, and abandon us to do god knows what, and has the FUCKING AUDACITY to be ANGRY at US!!! If I ever see him again, no matter whether he tries to be nice to me, or wants to kill me, I'm telling him he's already dead to me. Decent people don't do shit like this. This is what I was telling Marcus when he asked what my deal was with him, he has no consideration for the people he calls 'friends'. He has a "the more the merrier" type of mind frame, you know, like if I had this much fun doing something with 3 of my friends, it will be so much better with 13 of them. And that is not the case, unless it's laser tag, but even then we've had problems. He would ask why I would never bring Marcus around them. THIS IS FUCKING WHY!!!!! I don't like to put people I really do like being around in situations where they'll end up hating me or questioning why they are friends with me. I don't like people being pissed off at me. And the fact he gets upset when people are angry. He always tries to go on the defensive like, I'm trying to please everybody at once. The fucking STOP!! No one is asking you to. It is we who always bend over backwards for him. Hell, his own brother called in sick to spend the day with him, and lost money. Then after I yell at him, he calls back, and Jason tells him that was me, I hope he was surprised, then lets Jarret guilt-trip him with the whole brotherly bond stuff: Come on. He lost fucking money! That he could have used to put toward something to make him happy, even for five minutes. The thing is, and I didn't say this last night, but I suspect that Jarrett has chosen us over Jason PLENTY of times. And did Jason do that? I doubt it, he might have been angry, but I doubt he ever tried the "you're choosing your friend over your own brother". Well, that's the way life is, doll. You gotta get used to that. I had never felt sorrier for Jason then at that moment. He called this morning and I asked if he had to put up with much bitching, but he said not a lot.

After all that, I should make a new paragraph. There didn't seem like a good break, but I was just letting my emotions pour over the keyboard.

Then we dropped Jason back over his house, and went to the movies. We saw Friday Night Lights. I liked it, not loved, but something I would watch again. After that, we went to K Street. We went to see prostitutes. I have no idea why I went, but you only live once. We only saw three, there were like a bunch of police around, and that was my night. I'm sure there is a lot I've left out, partially to anger, but it was a life-altering night. I have broken off a relationship with someone I have known for four years. I know, that's not a long time to some people, but from the ages of 16-20, it's a bit of a major thing. The only weird thing is that, I'm still okay with everyone else. And I met them all through Jarrett. But, I did know Jason first. So, I may be an ex-Renegade, or I may not be, but whatever I am to him, I don't give a fuck because for the first time in my life, I got really angry, and I let it out on the person I was angry at, and it felt really, really good.

By the by, I learned late in the evening that we were all over there to sign a shirt for Jarrett. Hmph! I GOT SOMETHING TO SIGN ON HIS GODDAMN SHIRT!! FUCKING BASTARD!! From this point on, Jarrett will be known as "Jason's Brother". And if anyone thinks I'm lying, it works on She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.

This entry was supposed to be about something else, but when shit like this happens to you, you just gotta let it out. Hopefully I'll get the intended one for today up tomorrow. Or at least Tuesday, but I'm not making any promises.

I'm phasing and choking.