Mood:  rushed

I have been so busy, it's not even funny. I've barely had time to come on the computer at all, let alone to update. As I start this, Tuesday, December 18, 2007, 9:35 PM (**there's some editing to make things more relevant and updated, and will be dated and marked with double asterisks, since the majority was typed at the aforementioned date- Sunday, December 23, 2007**), I wouldn't be shocked if it took me until New Year's to post it. Well, hopefully not, because I want to post before Sunday, but looking at my hectic upcoming schedule, oy. (Launchcast music break: Disney's "Beauty and the Beast" Human Again)

Let's start why it's been so insane around here: After my step-dad's heart attack, they put him on a heart monitor that he wore for about 8 days, then they noticed that he kind of had another episode with his heart and a doctor (not his, but another one in the same practice) put him in the hospital immediately after his appointment. He let us come back home and get some clothes for him. After we checked in the hospital, his doctor was there and said that he didn't need to be there, but he was almost at stroke level and they need to thin his blood and bring his blood pressure down; but he still came home the same day. Then there is all this rubbish I'm doing for my mother and her school work while I'm trying to find some Christmas cheer by cleaning up the house and stuff, but it just feels like I'm fighting a losing battle. And I have been operating on little sleep when I have to stay up late to do something for her school, but then I have to get up early to go to a doctor's appointment. I have been so exhausted. (Launchcast music break: "Singin' In the Rain" Would You?)

I mean, this week alone, I was up until almost 2 AM Sunday night/Monday morning coloring and cutting stuff out for examples for the children, had to be up at 5:45 AM to go to a doctor's appointment, came home, had a rough nap (woke up like every half-hour for about 4 hours), did a bunch of school paper work, cleaned up the kitchen, and cooked dinner. (Launchcast music break: Sean Kingston Me Love) Today, Tuesday, was a bit lighter, but not really, I had to wrap all the gifts for her children (my neck and back are so sore), did laundry, cleaned a bit of the dining room, and did more paper work. Tomorrow, I have to bake cupcakes, fix the chicken, finish wrapping the gifts for other people we already have at the house, wash and press my hair, more paper work, and, if I find the time, vacuum. Thursday I have to go to another doctor's appointment with my step-dad, bring the cupcakes to school, stay the rest of the day, then try and finish the last minute Christmas shopping, then come home and wrap the gifts that go to the principal and janitors. Friday, I'm going try to finish cleaning the house (at least the living room/dining room), mop the kitchen, clean out that window thing (although I might move that to Wednesday, because Friday is trash day and I want as much stuff gone as possible, because our other trash day is Tuesday, but that's Christmas and they won't be running), vacuum (if I don't get to it Wednesday), unwrap the portable picture/mp3 type thingy we got my mother, upload pictures of her grandson, and re-wrap it, and I was going to try to clean my room, good luck with that. (Launchcast music break: Motley Crue Dr. Feelgood)

Seeing all of this stuff written out, I may drop dead by Saturday. Heaven help me. (Launchcast music break: "42nd Street" 42nd Street; not the original cast version, this one is 9 1/2 minutes long, I haven't heard the first one so I don't know if it's this long)

(Launchcast music break: Jack Johnson Good People) It also didn't brighten my mood seeing the Steelers drop 2 games in a row. One to "that team" and the other to the Jaguars. At home even, we were undefeated at home all year until then, and our last two games are on the road, which we have an abysmal 2-4 record on the road. Thanks loser schedule makers, I wasn't happy about this in March, and I'm terrified about it now. I can't even say that we'll be okay because our last two opponents are crappy teams (and they are) because all year Pittsburgh has lost to crappy teams on the road, except in the state of Ohio. There is a real possibility that the Browns could win the AFC North, and the Steelers may MISS the post-season. They have to get themselves together, I mean, this is the first time all season that we've lost two games in a row, and while the Rams game (which I just realized is Thursday) freaks me out, the fact that the last game in Baltimore (who have become the team to lose to the previously winless Dolphins, I bet Jim Rome is PISSED) practically scares the piss out of me. Pardon my language, but they are imploding like the Giants do every season (which they are right on track with; poor Shockey, he broke his leg and his ankle in that last game, he's still really hot, but they started their annual suck-fest before Jeremy got injured). (Launchcast music break: Bing Crosby/Andrews Sisters Here Comes Santa Claus; this version is my favorite) **UPDATE- The Steelers won the AFC North because they beat the Rams (but Willie broke his leg and is out for the rest of the year; no es bueno ) and the Browns lost to the Bungles, not too shabby for a team that was supposed to finish third behind the Ratbirds and Bungles because the 2006-interception-prone Ben was the real Ben, and we had a rookie head coach, and our defense wouldn't be anything without Joey Porter, and other stupid excuses they came up with to doubt Pittsburgh. But the defense is starting to struggle, it just shows how important it is to have our front 3 healthy, we lost Aaron Smith a few weeks ago, and for some reason the rest of them forgot how to tackle. And the Giants had a decent game today, more due to the Bills blowing a lead, having special teams issues (know what that's like), and general falling apart today, because Eli was terrible, he had 2 picks and no touchdowns. We all know who was the best QB in that draft! - December 23, 2007** (Launchcast music break: "La Cage Aux Folles" I Am What I Am; wow, I LOVE this song!)

If you are into individual awards, and I am when it comes to a certain quarterback, they announced who made the Pro-Bowl today and my Snookie made it (yes, he has earned another nauseatingly, saccharine dripping nickname from me ). I'm so happy for Ben, now go and fake a hangnail or something so you don't actually have to go. The Pro-Bowl is such a joke; everybody wants to be named to go (it's like an honor or something, and the bonus in their checks don't hurt, either), but nobody wants to play. They should make it flag-football, or a competition or something. I believe I've said this before, but I wouldn't be upset if they just got rid of it. It's not like baseball's All-Star game, that is actually important because it decides home-field advantage between the AL and NL during the World Series, whereas the Super Bowl is played on a neutral site. Other Steelers named to the Pro-Bowl: Willie Parker, Alan Faneca, James Harrison, and Troy Polamalu. I feel Alan and Troy got in because they always get in, they haven't really been great this season, Troy has been injured, so that might get him the benefit of the doubt. Eh, whatever, in the end it is nothing but a popularity contest. Another individual accolade Ben has is that he had broken Terry Bradshaw's record for touchdowns in a single season. Terry's was 28, and Ben now has 29 on the season, and still only 11 interceptions. It might have been a bigger deal if we'd won that last game, but, as Helio Castronoves says, "it is what it is." (Launchcast music break: No Doubt Bathwater) **UPDATE- After the Rams game, Ben now has 32 touchdowns on the season, to still just 11 interceptions, and achieved his second game with a perfect passer rating of the season (according to my research, he is the only quarterback to have two "perfect" games in the same season), giving him 3 for his career; a feat that is only matched by Peyton Manning. YAY, Snookie! The only bad record he's achieved this season is that he's the second most sacked quarterback in the league and I think is second in team history for one season, that sucks. The O-line has been really awful this season, but look at what Ben has done in spite of it, and he still THANKS them after every game and said that he was taking them to Hawaii when he goes to the Pro-Bowl! He's a stand-up guy, what else can I say about him?- December 23, 2007** (Launchcast music break: Whitney Houston I'm Your Baby Tonight)

I have just received word that Ashley is engaged (again). For those keeping score for these past few years, she has been through one engagement with her high school boyfriend because they were frightened by separation due to the fact she was in the military and was being sent to England, she cheated on said boyfriend numerous times, got pissed off when he had a girlfriend, got knocked up by some other military guy, has a miscarriage, and finally is going to marry some "old white guy" (her words, not mine). Whatever. One interesting note is that she said she would see him for Christmas. I wonder if this means she's not coming home anymore. If so, there's one lie I don't have to tell, although I think I had decided on the truth seeing how I misread the e-mail. Looking at my itinerary for the next few days, I may not reply until after Christmas, and if she is coming home, she may not even see it. I'm actually too tired to care anymore. "It is what it is." Hm, I may have found a new catch phrase. (Launchcast music break: "Sweet Charity" If My Friends Could See Me Now)

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By the By, the Tony Reali thing? Fin. Yeah. I don't want to go into details, but it has run it's course. I still watch the show and stuff, but not the same way, not even the way I did before I fancied him. "It is what it is." (Launchcast music break: INXS Need You Tonight)

Well, it's two days before Christmas and all I want for Christmas is Ben Roethlisberger. All Ben Roethlisberger wants is an Offensive Line. Well, I'd settle for a new life, but those are kind of hard to wrap. (Launchcast music break: "A Chorus Line" One {Finale})

I should mention that for the past few weeks I have been tearing up Launchcast (which I may officially have change to Yahoo! Music from now on), for some reason I decided to look up all the show tunes that I love and rated them and most of them are on there. It's so flipping awesome! If they would only play Holier Than Thou from Nunsense, I'd be set, that's my new favorite song. (Launchcast music break: Radiohead Creep)

HERE WE GO STEELERS, BEAT THOSE RATBIRDS!!!!

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!! (Or, so no one is offended, Happy Christma-kwanz-akkah!)

I totally want to rock him hard this Christmas! (Launchcast music break: TLC Red Light Special)

This is from training camp 2 years ago. I wish he'd grow his hair out again, it's so cute. (Launchcast music break: "Bells Are Ringing" Just In Time)

I'm phasing.