Mood:  cheeky

Here we are still together
We are one
So much time wasted
Playing games with love

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
To keep our love alive
But baby it ain't over 'til it's over

How many times
Did we give up
But we always worked things out
And all my doubts and fears
Kept me wondering, yeah
If I'd always, always be in love

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
And kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
Baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
And kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
Baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
And kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over
Over, over, over.

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
To kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over
Over, over, over

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
Baby It ain't over 'til it's over

Okay, so maybe I jumped the gun a little. It's probably from just not seeing him for so long, but I have come to realize that I still might fancy Mr. Roethlisberger, slightly. It happened the other day when I was watching ESPNEWS; I was minding my own business when all of a sudden Ben popped up. He was on the red carpet at the ESPY Awards, ESPN's really stupid award show. I mean, why would I watch if you tell me who wins ahead of time. Except last year when the Steelers won in most of the categories. Then Ben's appearance was supposed to be a surprise, but ESPN doesn't even try to keep it a secret, they gave it away on Sports Center or Cold Pizza I can't remember which one. Any road, he looks better than ever, and the title of the song (as well as this entry) that's playing is SO APPROPRIATE! Because, baby it ain't over 'til it's over! That's why I've been feeling so guilty about supposedly falling out of love (lust?) with him; I wasn't out of it yet.

So where does that leave me with Jack Davenport? Well, I still think he's really gorgeous, but I only really have him as Admiral James Norrington in the Pirates of the Caribbean movies. Maybe I'll post photos of both of them, even though I've made my choice. Ah, this still sucks for him; it seems he never gets the girl.

I'm so glad that party is over, it was insane. I feel so sad for my step-dad, NOBODY from his family showed up for his party. Just saying "SHAME" just isn't bad enough, because that was really cruddy.

My brother didn't get on my nerves that badly this time. I think he was happier to be up here then when we go down there. I completely understand, because down there sucks.  His ex-girlfriend on the other hand is something else. She said that I need to come back to Alabama and stay for like a month. Yeah right, I'd be ready to go in about 2 days; just enough time for me to sleep of the jet-lag and be ready to head home. My mother was ready to kill her, because she's a total idiot. My nephew is a spoiled brat and they don't discipline him AT ALL! As soon as they got here, he kept running up and down the stairs, and they didn't yell at him to stop! Finally he fell down and hurt his pride more than his face and he wised up. Then, at the party, he ran around the whole time and I just wanted to beat him so bad. After the party, some how I pulled a muscle in my back, but I knew that I still had to drag them to the zoo. The next morning we had a breakfast held at a buffet place for us and some of the party attendants. My nephew, that bad little boy didn't eat anything. Now I understand that some people have picky eating habits, but this child has basically TOLD his parents he doesn't eat anything but specific frozen chicken nuggets (but he'll eat like McDonald's or Burger King's) and specific frozen pizza rolls (but he'll eat like two slices of plain Papa John's pizza). So they're up there BRIBING him to eat something by getting him M&M's, gummy bears, and a Rice Krispie Treat. Meanwhile, my cousin Stephanie's (who had 5 boys and is about 95 pounds soaking wet, yeah I'm jelly) youngest son (like 15 months old) was punishing his mother's omelet. Stephanie got up to do something, and he pulled it over to himself and just attacked it. It was hilarious! Then my brother's ex-girlfriend pointed out to her son that a baby was eating an omelet and they were bribing him with junk that any kid would kill to eat for breakfast. My mother wanted to kill her. My mum told her it was her (brother's ex-girlfriend) fault that he was like that. Then she (my brother's ex-girlfriend) tried to defend herself by saying that it wasn't her fault and he'd had his tonsils taken out (like over a year ago). I had to pat my mother on the hand and say that Golden Corral wasn't the appropriate place for this conversation. It was quite nice to see my mother angry with someone that wasn't me or my step-dad for a change.

Now where my back comes into play is that my nephew was being really evil that morning, I threatened him that I didn't have to take him to the zoo and I would be just as happy to go home and take a nap. Then my brother's ex-girlfriend said that I couldn't do that because they had promised him the trip and he had been looking forward to it. He is four years old, about to be five. It's high time he learned that you don't always get what you want in life and that everything has a consequence. Also his mother talks incessantly and never shuts up. Other than her talking and being at the mercy of someone barely out of diapers, she would be all right. I mean, she likes all that 80s music that I like, but I couldn't stay with them for a month; I'd pull my hair out.

Now for my nephew, the thing is he's a total sweetheart, and he's not really mean, he's just spoiled and NOBODY disciplines him back where he lives. He got worse when my brother's ex-girlfriend moved out of their apartment and back in with her parents. I don't know too much about her father, but her mother let him get away with everything. I mean, at the party, he had something (I can't remember if it was a cup or a noisemaker) and when he was done with it he just threw it on the ground. I told him off real quick. He did the same thing at our house and his mother said something like this isn't our dirty house and you just can't throw stuff on the ground. Now I know when a person doesn't have children, they say all this stuff they will and won't do, but I would at least try to instill some decency and common manners in my children. My parents think one summer with us will straighten him out. And it probably would, the only problem is he has to go home where he'll tell them what he won't damn do and if he stayed with us once a year (like every summer or something) we'd have to keep de-programming him until he caught on that he could act one way with us and one way with his parents and maternal grandparents. He would because he's not stupid; he'd catch on within a couple of years.

It was sad when my brother left, he cried because he missed up here so much. We all deduced after they left that if it weren't for his son, he would have stayed and he'd be crashing on our couch at this moment. The reason I keep doing the "ex-girlfriend" thing with the line through "ex" is because technically she is his ex-girlfriend (they broke up when she moved out), but she kept expecting my brother to ask her to move back in. HA! But she's a conniving little thing, she used their son to say stuff like "I miss my room", and she kept leaving little stuff when she'd bring my nephew over there, and eventually she never went back to her parents house. So she's really not his girlfriend again. I have no idea why she's pressed over him, but whatever. I know he's my brother, but he's not the most stand-up guy on earth, dating wise, he's actually a decent father; except his son doesn't listen to him.

WAR TONY STEWART! He got his first win (finally) of the season, the USG Sheetrock 400 in Chicago. It also didn't hurt that Jimmie Johnson hit a wall with 45 laps to go, while he was in second place behind Tony! It was a good day!

Well, I've got to get going, Elliot comes back tomorrow morning after being off since July 3^rd. He should be in a chipper mood seeing as our favorite driver won the race and our least favorite hit a wall. But before I go...

WAR TONY STEWART!!!

Jack is still so sexy!

The other title I had for this entry was the Beatle's Hello, Goodbye. Hello, hello. I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello. Dammit, he's still sexy!

I'm phasing.