Mood:
not sureThis is going to be a weird entry. I've wanted to update many times before, but my computer finally kicked the bucket. It'll turn on, but the desktop page looks all weird (safe-mode) and the cursor for the mouse won't show up, and you can't do much without that. Currently I'm on my mother's laptop, it's pretty cool, except it's an Apple (Mac), and some of the stuff is weird, but it can do WAY more stuff than that big P.O.S. ever could. The good news is that soon we'll HAVE to get a new computer because this laptop is property of the school county she works for, plus computers nowadays are only around $350-$400. That's not too shabby.
Some weeks ago, I hated my mother because she was a total hag. She said something that basically had me contemplating suicide, but I don't want to get too much into that. She's stressed because she's throwing my step-dad a 60th birthday party (surprise for now), and she keeps letting all the little things get to her. First it was the guest list, half the people she wanted to invite, and she didn't have their addresses. Not my fault that every time she gets a new address book, she won't fill it in. She spends every weekend in bed, then on Sunday night she wonder where the time has gone. (WTF?) Now, my step-dad's sister-in-law (we've known her and her husband (step-dad's brother) longer than my step-dad) is graduating from college or ministry school (something I don't care that much about) and she booked the same hall for her reception as we did my step-dad’s party, and that has sent her over the edge. Yes, my aunt sweats my mother, she always wants to be in charge, but my mother needs to let it go. She now wants to take my step-dad on some lunch cruise (the same one I went to for my prom) on the same day, just so they can be busy. I don’t know why my mother wants to be petty just because my aunt is. I see a lot of Hyacinth Bucket (pronounced Bouquet, LOL) in my mother. She thinks she’s better than she really is; wants to set the standard or an example for everyone else, but hates it when someone copies her. I guess you could say that about tons of people, myself included, but the difference is I don’t let that get to me. Everyone knows you booked the place first, and then they’ll know she’s unoriginal. It all comes out in the end.
The NFL Draft is tomorrow, and I can’t wait for it to be over with. I was going to attempt to watch it, but all the coverage it has been getting since before last season’s playoffs began, I’m sick of it already. That being said, neither of the two top quarterbacks really impress me, but I hate Brady Quinn more out of both of them. He’s so annoying, and he’s been on every sports network/show whining about how nobody loves him as much as JaMarcus Russell. He must have missed when his team inflated their wins by beating three service academies, North Carolina (2-9), Stanford (1-10), wow, that is a crucial schedule, then get straight gob smacked when they play a decent school (USC, Michigan). I’m not sure where I want him to go. Most people are saying Detroit or Cleveland, if he doesn’t drop the lower half of the top-10. Wherever he can have the most miserable career, I’m all for that. And both of those places I mentioned are pretty miserable, neither team has played in the Super Bowl.
There is something disturbingly wrong with me. Once again, the Steelers are coming to play the Redskins during the preseason, one week before my birthday; the strange thing is that I don’t want to go. I have no idea why, but I just don’t want to. I still love them, I still adore Ben, but for some reason, I just don’t have that urge to go, that thirst I needed quenched hasn’t occurred this time around. What’s wrong with me? It can’t be that rumor about Ben being engaged, I just heard that this past week. The schedule came out April 10, which was five days later than they originally promised. Bad form NFL. I can’t believe that was a little more than two weeks ago, it seems like the schedule’s been out for ages. If Ben was engaged, I don’t think I’d be too bad. Jealous as hell, yeah, whoever that lucky slag was, but I wouldn’t try to jump off that bridge that girl mentioned when she found out Troy was married. That was hilarious. I don’t even go to his message board (or the asylum, as I call it). I thought I was bad, those girls are absolute loonies. Plus, I don’t like when I see screen names like “mrs. bigben", “benismine”. It just rubs me the wrong way.
Lost (bestshowever) has been so flippin’ amazing lately. And, I heard that they are going to do the 24 thing and have it premiere in January 2008. While it would be torture waiting on next season, it will be so awesome to have all the episodes without interruption. Lots of people jumped off because of last season, but I stuck with it. Even Elliot said he wanted to get back into it because his wife said it was getting so good. I can’t wait for next week; Locke comes back and tries to get Sawyer to kill his dad. Most people think the reason Locke wants Sawyer to do it, is because Locke’s dad is the original Sawyer, and I’m inclined to agree. I didn’t mention that after every episode, I jump on the message boards; I’m such a dork. It’s just that Lost is so, so, SO very good.
That Eddie Izzard show, The Riches is pretty good. Some episodes are better than ever, but hopefully it gets a really fair shot and comes back for a second season. Eddie is kind of hot in it. I was surprised because I’d ever only seen him with his makeup on. Either way, I would totally snog him. Sometimes when I watch the show, I wish that he would at least have his eye shadow on; he has really pale eyes, and the eye shadow brings them out.
NASCAR is just screwing Tony Stewart. He’s seventh in the points standing, but he’s had at least 2 victories taken away from him by mysterious cautions. The one during last week’s race was a bit dodgy, but the one where he lost to Jimmie Johnson (how I loathe him, it’s bordering on New England quarterback hate) was just wrong. Jimmie Johnson’s crew chief said over the radio that Jimmie would need a caution pit stop in X amount of laps, and it freaking happened. Not because of a crash, but for some “debris.” Similarly, last week, they had like 7 cautions for the whole race, and only one of them was a crash, the rest were debris. The weird thing was the commentators said “we’ll show it to you, if we can find it.” What does that mean? You should be able to find it, someone thought they saw something, right? Or is it mystery debris. I’m looking forward to Smoke just kicking all kinds of ass, and hopefully he captures a 3rd Championship. And I am so sick of all these bloody Hendrick cars winning.
I kind of miss Ashley, but of course she has not left without a bunch of drama. Turns out, Phil was cheating on her. Hold up, I specifically remember her banging a couple of dudes while she was in England a few years ago. She says she still “loves” Phil. Whatever.
Lisa called me a few weeks ago and said that sometime next year, she wanted to move out, get a place with Rem and Luna. She and Luna invited me. When they asked me this, it was right after my mother was being a hag, so I was leaning towards yes. Now that I’ve had time to think about it, I’m going the other way. Even if I got a job, and saved enough, I still would rather live with people I don’t really know, it’s too much wishful thinking I could get a place by myself, than them, when I leave home. First problem is Mike. Lisa said he wasn’t moving in because of his “anger issues.” RED FLAG NUMBER ONE! Why can’t she leave him? She said he’s going to anger management, but honestly, I would think that I was too young to have a crazy ass boyfriend. Whatever, her problem not mine. If I moved in with her, then it would be my problem. Sure, he wouldn’t be living there, but he would be visiting a goddamn lot. Once a week is too much. I hated that I saw him three times in March, could you imagine if I saw him all the time, when I got home from work, when I was leaving to go somewhere, or (god forbid) he came over early and I slept in and that was one of the first things I saw? Ugh. Then it’s just some other stuff, like I’d probably share a room with Lisa. What if she can’t sleep in the cold? What if one of us snores? Plus the place would have to be near a Metro Station, or a reliable bus stop that runs on the weekends until a decent hour, since Rem is the only one with a car. It was thoughtful of them to include me, but knowing me, I hate talking on the phone with these people more than a few times a year, and really only want to go out with them about twice a year. I can’t see myself living with them for long without wanting to move out just as soon.
My favorite songs now are The Killers Read My Mind, My Chemical Romance Famous Last Words, Gym Class Heroes Cupid's Chokehold, and Three Days Grace Pain. I love those songs, I'm thinking of picking up the My Chemical Romance, The Killers, and/or Three Days Grace CD's.
Wow, this was extremely long, so I’ll be going now, a new Law & Order is on tonight. It looks pretty good, but before I go, a couple of photos.
We’re celebrating our 75th anniversary! We even get a mascot this season, I wonder if there will be a contest to name him, I don’t have any clever names. I don’t know if I like the throwback jerseys, but give it time, they might grow on me.
That picture is very Brett Favre-ish to me, it also means that Mini-Camp is here! Then there will be another one over Mother’s Day weekend, then hopefully NOTHING HAPPENS IN JUNE!!! He knows what I’m talking about, I don’t want to hear from him in June.
I'm phasing.