Just Muddling Through
Mood:  cool
Wow. I don’t believe it. 2-5. This should have not happened. Just when you think it’s gonna get back on track, something else comes a long and throws a wrench in the plans. When the Steelers played Kansas City, Ben proved that he’s still the man to beat. The following week, when they played in Atlanta, he proved that he’s still the man to beat. Or just give a bloody concussion. It’s always him, isn’t it? The messed up thing is that he was so fucking awesome in the game, and then when he went down, Charlie Batch was so fucking awesome in the game! Their stats combined for 20/35, 344 yards, 5 touchdowns, and ZERO interceptions. Michael Vick threw 4 TDs and 2 INTs; he would have a career day against us. But we still fucking lost. Bloody fumbles, it’s gonna kill us. I had never been so angry after a loss then the one to the Falcons. The fact that three defenders crushed Ben, two had blatant helmet-to-helmet on him, and one of them had the audacity to talk shit. Oh no. I’m already out for blood on the Falcons’ team, but when I heard that, sirens and whistles went off in my head. It’s bloody personal and official now. I hate the Atlanta Falcons. They are the NFC equivalent to the New England Patriots. And I hope they never win a goddamn Super Bowl with their running back who takes snaps.

Then we lost to the Oakland fuck Raiders. I still think that Ben shouldn’t have played, I mean, two concussions in a four month span is terrible. He was obviously seeing things that weren’t really there since he threw four more interceptions, bringing his TD/INT ratio to 6/11. That is not mexcellent. And we have Denver coming up; no good is coming our way anytime soon. I feel so terrible for Ben. I really do, the media is taking shots at him, but the fans are the absolute worst. The man brought us to the AFC Conference game in his first two seasons, and gave us a Super Bowl win in his second season becoming the youngest Super Bowl winning quarterback EVER! Then he takes a face-plant on a car. The fact that Ben is even on a football field and not being pushed around in a wheelchair with a nurse wiping drool off of his chin (and I’d be extremely jealous of the nurse) is absolutely mind-boggling. It’s his third season. He’s gonna have some off games. Although I had hoped they wouldn’t all come so close together, but if you call yourself a Pittsburgh Steelers fan, you have to stand by him. I mean, he might have shaved five years off of his career already with the motorcycle accident, and we could be robbed of seeing him at his best level. Or, we could be at a slight bump in the road of a long and possibly great career. No one knows for sure, but everyone is acting so ridiculous. My one hope for Ben, that I haven’t gotten yet and I would hope that this is a goal for him as well, is for Ben to start 16 games in the regular NFL season healthy. And maybe some of them probable, with a thumb. I miss those days.

Tony Stewart is so inappropriate. He won, again this past Sunday. That means that out of the seven races in the Chase so far, he’s won two, and has had I think at least four top five finishes. If only he could have qualified for the Chase, he would be in such great shape to take the Cup again. I still hope Jimmie Johnson spins out and/or hits a wall in at least two out of the next three races. He cannot win. If he wins the cup, that means the Patriots will probably win the Super Bowl again, and this will have become worst season ever. And they’ll play the Falcons in the game. But I doubt that because the Bears crush this season. Totally crush.

I’m all alone; all by myself, there is no one here besides me. And that’s the way I like it. I haven’t talked to anybody in so long. And it’s so great. Well, last night I did read an e-mail from Lisa about how come she can’t ever reach me. That’s because that for the past two weeks, she keeps calling during Lost (best show ever). I’m not gonna talk on the phone during Lost. I should just send her my bloody schedule and it’ll show that I just don’t really have the time. Not that I’m working or anything, but if she’s still in school and working, our hours just won’t be compatible. Like I don’t know what time she gets off, but from 5:00 – 6:30, I’m doing dinner. I’m cooking just so I can feed my mother when she walks through the door. Then I usually try to take a shower by 8:00, so I can watch all my shows. And lately, for some unknown reason, I have been breaking out in hives every fucking night. So I take medication for that, and it causes drowsiness within two to three hours, so I’m going to bed by the latest midnight. When am I going to talk to her? I can’t do it while I’m cooking, if I get distracted, I’ll mess it up. And I really don’t like to talk on the phone while I’m eating. It’s rude to both parties. You hear people chewing in your ear on one end, and someone is disturbing your dinner on the other. And I think that talking on the phone while watching your shows you’re obsessed about it just so irksome. It gets right under my skin. When I saw her name come up during Lost twice, it was so hard to not answer the phone, “WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?!” But some people might find that offensive. Plus, I just hate talking on the phone. I just don’t have anything to say to these people.

Typical conversation goes like this:
Them- Hey.
Me- Hey.
Them- Haven’t heard from you in a while, what have you been up to?
Me- Nothing.
Them- You’re not working?
Me- No.
Them- So what have you been doing?
Me- Stuff for my mom.
Them- Oh. Well maybe we can get together some time soon.
Me- Maybe, but I doubt it.
Them- Why not?
Me- I’m broke, so I can’t spend money.
Them- Oh. Well, talk to you later.
Me- Okay. Bye.

Lisa’s might be longer. I might talk about Ben and football stuff. But I know she doesn’t really care because she doesn’t watch football. In all honesty, I’m just done with it. I’m really never going to go out with them, because I can be miserable all by my damn self. My whole point is you’re supposed to want to be with your friends, not dread it because they can’t ever get their shit right. People are so inappropriate.

Now I have to talk about Lost (best show ever). It is very inappropriate. They killed off Mr. Eko. The only survivor left from the tail section of the plane crash is Bernard, and I haven’t seen him or his wife, Rose, this season other than that, Lost is so good. I’m gonna be in trouble after this week, it goes on hiatus until next year, but the next episode looks to be awesome as balls. What am I going to do with myself without this show? And no, the answer isn’t talk on the phone. I’ll figure something out.

Oh yeah, I have a new TV schedule now, so here it goes.

Sunday: Football
Monday: Football/Law & Order marathon (if I hate the teams playing or it’s a boring game)
Tuesday: Law & Order: Special Victims Unit
Wednesday: Lost (best show ever)
Thursday: Ugly Betty (hysterical)
Friday: Law & Order
Saturday: College Football

That rocks. Well I’ll start to wrap it up. My thoughts I leave with are Clear Channel sucks so much ass and holy crap, it’s November.

Oh and my new favorite song Snow Patrol Chasing Cars.

If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

You know for who I would.

Tell the haters to piss off, Ben. Remember what you got: a ring and THE trophy. The haters: Not so much.

I’m phasing.