Old Time's Sake

By: Stefani

Rated: NC17

Distribution: Please ask

Disclaimer: Don't own

Summary: After years of loneliness, Jeff returns to the door of his old lover.

It was late and the sky was dark. He knew he shouldn't have came, but once he got a thought, he had to go through with it or he would just climb up the wall. His feet seemed like weights, plastering him to the ground on the porch, even though he wanted to run so badly. After all… it had been years since they were together…. Shannon was over him. He should be over Shannon as well… he knew his former love had a new boyfriend, a real stud too, who he loved so much.

But Jeff couldn't get past their lust, more than lust, it was destiny damn it! They were meant for each other! The door finally opened, it was late after all, he probably woke poor Shannon. But there in the doorway, in a pair of loose jeans, bare-chested was Shannon. His blonde and black hair was loosely tied back with a rubber band and Jeff could see the silver stud he had convinced him to get so many years ago poking through Shannon's pink bud. His face was in a bit of a sleepy daze. If he hadn't been dosing he certainly had been wanting to.

Jeff swallowed the large lump in his throat as the two stared each other down. After the rough breakup they promised to be friends, but everyone knows that never works. It just made Jeff envious that he could be so close to him, but yet so very far away. To hear about how he moved on, his new life, his new relationship, it was too much for Jeff to handle. Too much for him to have to hear day in and day out and stay lost in the past, stuck in a pleasanter time.

"Can I come in?" He finally asked hoping he wouldn't regret this later. The only thing he'd regret after all was to get thrown on his ass. Just to taste Shannon's soft lips once more, to feel his tongue run down his chest, to toy with the cold loop pierced in his chest. To run his fingers through Shannon's gorgeous silk hair… it was all too much. Jeff hadn't been over to Shannon's in over a year, and it looked a bit different. Messier, he always had to clean up after his sloppy friend, some furniture was rearranged. He could still remember the day he had helped Shannon move in.

They were still together then. He had helped lug boxes in and set things up. He was the first to hold Shannon on the couch, first to make love to him in the new bed, first to kiss him on the front porch. Now of course, it had all been replaced by the new boy. By the new lucky man. They stared each other down for some time, Jeff having to avoid eye contact from breaking down and crying right in front of Shannon.

"Well…" Shannon said, "You didn't walk a mile here to tell me nothing." He said in a bit of an angry voice, at least it seemed so to Jeff. So bitter and annoyed. He knew he shouldn't have showed up like that. It wasn't right… he intruded… oh why couldn't he just find someone new.

There will never be anyone new. Jeff knew that for sure. His breathing was shaking, his hands were trembling. The nail polish on his fingers was chipped. He'd been picking at it sub-consciencely while considering his options. His beard was stumbles, which served as a remembrance of his inability to do the smallest tasks this morning.

"Well…" Jeff said feeling himself get choked up and tears start to well. As much as he promised himself he wouldn't cry, he knew he was going to. There was no stopping raw emotion and a broken heart. He found himself screaming internally to knock it off, but the yelling only seemed to make them fall faster. He put his hand up to shield them, while he felt Shannon's hand on his, pulling his shaky hand from his tearful face.

Shannon pulled his old lover close, letting Jeff cry on his shoulder as friends should do. Jeff found himself squeezing Shannon tightly and watching a small pool of sadness form on his friend's shoulder. Shannon rocked them back and form, whispering words to Jeff trying to calm him, but the sound of Shan's voice only made him cry harder.

"Let it out." Shannon whispered, holding the back of Jeff's head now. Jeff somehow managed to calm himself down a little, not wanting to release Shannon at all.

"How did it happen?" Jeff asked from the hiding place. Shannon didn't want to go there. Jeff hadn't been the only one to suffer. Why did he think Shannon looked so strong?

"I don't know Jeff… I know how it happened, I don't know how I allowed it to though." Shannon said softly, tears now flooding his own eyes. Jeff pulled up a little, staring down Shannon's remorse eyes. Knowing it was now or never, he slightly made his move, sucking Shannon's lips into his own, tasting their soft, vanilla flavor that he determined to be Chap Stick. The kiss was frozen for a moment as Shannon's hands reached up and cupped Jeff's cheeks in his hands, deepening the kiss. Jeff wished they could stay like this forever, it was so soft and gentle, so loving…

Both men felt the shock of love run through their blood as they stood, tear stained faces pressed together, their despondency dripping blending together through the intimate moment. Jeff knew what he wanted to say, and now, he hoped, would be the perfect time to impose the judgment on Shannon.

"Let me make love to you." Jeff asked looking at Shannon, "Just once, I'll never tell anyone… I just… one last time." Jeff said softly, once again avoiding Shannon's eyes. Shannon looked into Jeff's however, Jeff already preparing himself for rejection.

"Yes." Shannon said softly.

"Wh… What?" Jeff asked, shocked at the positive approach.

"Yes, I want you to love me." He replied, "Right here, right now." He followed it up with another breathtaking kiss, same gentleness as before, but a little more sensual. Jeff pressed his lips to Shannon's once again, softly kissing him back and down the hallway, shedding Shannon's belt someone along the way and running his fingers down his friend's sleek hips and soft flesh that lie beneath the thin material of his jeans. They stumbled over the mess in the bedroom, Jeff pushing Shannon down to the bed and kissing his flesh again, his tongue slowly running down Shannon's sweet torso leaving a trail of saliva. Licking his pink bud, he grabbed the cold metal ring in his teeth and tugging it, whimpers of pleasure coming from Shannon.

"Oh yes." He whispered, pulling Jeff's head down to his belly button where Jeff sucked the circle up and pulled Shannon's jeans down over his slender hips. Shannon arched his back to assist in getting the fabric off as Jeff's warm hands fell down his legs to his toes, where he sucked each small toe into his mouth, kissing the ends and working his way back up, rubbing Shannon's inner thighs, getting yet more whimpers from the younger man.

"Oh Jeff." He added while his boxers were slowly removed, his semi-hard cock jutting out proudly and looking magnificent in the dim light. Jeff kissed the tip, tasting the salty essence he would always associate to Shannon. As he started to suck him, Shannon's hands found Jeff's hair and tugged him around arching his hips and begging Jeff to enter him.

Jeff brought his tongue down over Shannon's balls and to his entrance. A bottle of lube got tossed over as Jeff looked up wildly. He quickly undressed himself, stripping his articles off slowly and seductively and trying to get his full moneys wroth, in a sense. He was hard as a rock and dripping. As he went back to Shannon, he spread the lube around the outer layer of Shannon's soft, vulnerable ass and coated his finger and cock. As a finger teased Shannon, driving him up the wall, he slowly pushed it in to a very VERY tight ass. A long groan came from Shannon as Jeff got his full digit it, wiggling around and pushing further and further, until he hit the spot that could drive the man insane.

He was greeted by a loud shriek and a beg for more, which he did, fingering him loosely, but keeping him a bit tight for his cock. Jeff kissed him again and pushed Shannon's legs back, Shannon holding them, giving Jeff a full amount of room. Jeff kissed each tender cheek before getting on his knees and placing the head of his cock at Shannon's tight entrance.

As he pushed the head in, he could hear Shannon's gasps and shrieks of immense enjoyment. He made his way in slowly, taking his time to make this as nice as possible for Shannon. Once he got himself in, he tucked over and in-between Shannon's legs to sought his lips out and kiss them again, moving his hips to get a little motion going. He seized his lips in quick grabs, letting go quickly, sucking at his neck and regaining balance to run his hands over his hair.

"Jeff, come on…" Shannon breathed heavily. Jeff moved back from the kisses that he cold both give and receive all night, to slowly start to glide in and out of Shannon. His ass was hot and tight around his cock. He thrust in and out, keeping his eyes staring into Shannon's old ones, just like he always had when hey made love. With every push and every push back, he thought of a different time they did it, but that first time in this bed sticking in his mind.

The powerful night of loving, the long dawn of cuddling, the next day of holding, and then that night they'd start the whole ordeal over, christening every room in the small ranch. But this bed… this signified it all. The start of their relationship so long ago. And it was the end of the relationship…. It held their whole love in it. Everything he ever felt was embedded here forever, and Jeff could feel it, as they loved that night. The powerful desire and never dying affection for this man.

Shannon was whimpering below him, Jeff lost in fulfilling Shannon's need to the best of his ability, giving it his all so to speak.

"I love you." He said, the words a blur of tears as he continued, "I love you so much." Shannon was way in too deep to respond to it, but just panted and cried. The room was spinning, Jeff was dizzy, his heart was in control, his amiable pounds seemingly going faster, though they felt a hundred times slower. One last memory flashed in his mind as he felt his powerful orgasm shoot off, Shannon crying out and responding be releasing his seed Jeff coming to am abrupt halt as he filled Shannon with his love.

It seemed to be forever before Jeff came out, laying beside the sweaty and delirious man. He kissed him softly again, pushing his hair from his face and laying lip to lip with him.

"I love you too." Shannon said gently kissing Jeff, "I made a terrible mistake."

Another memory shot through Jeff's head… the last time in the bed. They were laying just like this though the room was neater and they weren't so sweaty and sticky. Shannon was wearing some cologne Jeff had made just for him, he was in the shorts Jeff had bought him, the dye in his hair Jeff had bought him.

"We should see other people."

Smash. Jeff felt his heart hammered and broke into a hundred pieces that night, a pain so strong that no medication could heal, no alcohol could fuzz over, no drug could subside for. Years and years and he still hadn't gotten over it. His poetry became near suicidal and depressing, his once happy face had faded to a grimmer man's. And now Shannon thinks he made a mistake.

"I think you did too." Jeff whispered back, his emerald pools attached below. Shannon held Jeff's face in his hands.

"I don't know how we can go on though." Shannon said. Jeff gave him a look of disbelief.

"Break it off with him." He said not comprehending that he just suggested Shannon dump the man he had been with for 3 years to be with Jeff. Shannon sighed, more tears dripping as he held up his right hand, a gold band on his ring finger. An engagement ring. Once again, in this bed, this house, this man had destroyed him. Jeff was ready to cry out in protest and sob, holding Shannon and begging him to never let him go. But he didn't.

Shannon put his finger on Jeff's mouth and wiggled the band loose, holding it up for Jeff to see. He gave it a quick flick and it landed perfectly in the trashcan, Shannon holding his hand out to Jeff who kissed it and held it to his heart. Jeff reached out and grabbed Shannon again, this time he was holding him tight and he'd never let him go.

"What am I going to tell him?" Shannon said from Jeff's chest.

"Does it matter?" Jeff said rocking them and kissing Shannon lightly.

"No… I guess it doesn't." Shannon said reaching up and catching Jeff's lips.

"I love you." He said, "And this time I'm not loosing you again."