I've said things to people that I shouldn't have. I've let my stubborness ruin so many things in my life. I've been pig headed and dumb. Basically I've been the epitome of a man. So to anyone that I've offended, I'm sorry.

No one has to accept this apology. Hell, even if you do, I might never know. Regardless, for some it may be too little, too late. I've given it a try though. Thats all I feel I can do.

There have been events in my life that have left me unhappy, such as the death of my father. The fact that I dwell upon these is not so wrong. The fact that I let them shape me is not so wrong. The fact that I let them control events that they have nothing to do is whats wrong. I have always been a little too emotional for my own good. So I am sorry to everyone that I have been callous and crass to because of these painful events. I had no reason to lash and am sorry.

There have been people that I have not given the fair chance they deserve. There are others that I was to rude to after I gave them the chance. I am sorry to all you for being close-minded. I refused to see the forest for the trees. I looked at what I wanted and ignored everything else. For that, I am sorry.

Would I change my past? It would depend. There are certain events that I would love to change. There are others that I would not touch. When it comes down to it though, no, I would not change anything. These events have shaped me into the man that I am becoming. I have done things that I am ashamed of, but alas, what's done is done. I can't take it back. I am intrigued by what has come, and can't wait for the future. Its kind of a sick fascination but oh well. Whats to come is to come and I accept it. I am not gonna promise to change or even to not repeat mistakes. I can only promise to try. I hope that you all can forgive me but if not, the attempt was made, and I regret that I can do nothing but try. Goodbye and goodnight all. (Please direct this to anyone i may have offended. (Meaning anyone who knows or may know me)).

(I am in a healthy state of mind and just wish to make peace with everyone. I am not going anywhere anytime soon. I have too much to do. I am not contemplating anything out of the ordinary. I just feel remorse for bad decisions I have made.)