Despair


BY: Gigs

The following was written for my 21st birthday. It's dedicated to Dare in that she reminded me I had it last night when she shared her 19th Birthday with me. We all have days like this and it sucks when it was SUPPOSED to be a special day. But we survive. That's the good news...or is it?



Here I sit
Alone in the room, by my window
watching the rain
cars passing on the street
people running by
there's music playing 
the chimes are ringing
The lamplight is pale, soft
yellowed with age.

My brain's in agony
I wish I could scream or cry
But I sit silent
and my eyes wander
My friend's are off being merry
busy with their own little worlds
of which again I've been refused 
a part.

They've forgotten me!
I'm jealous.  I'm angry.
I'm hurt.

The coffee's cold.
My heart is dead.