My Inner Self
The Boy
I walked behind you in the hall today.
You glanced at me, but like always,
u didnt see me.
If only there was a way for you to notice me.
Why can't u look at me instead of through me?
I wish you could see me...
and not someone invisible.
I heard someone ask you about your girl, and
I got so depressed... thinking you had someone.
Then I cheered up when you said you didn't.
I know it's not going to be long...
you're too wonderful to be single.
You dont know how much I want to be next.
I can only wish and pray...
that you'll notice me one day.
I'm Sorry
You say you love me,
but you hurt me and
make me cry.
You say you'd never hurt me
but you hit me
and bruised my skin.
You say you'll be ther for me,
but you lie, cheat, and
play with my heart.
You say you need me
but you abuse me and
threaten to kill me.
You say I'm the most important
but you bring home strange women, and
lock me in my room.
I'm sorry daddy, but
I can't take it anymore,
It will all end tonight.
While you're out, at the bar,
It'll be over with a quick cut
of a cold steel blade.
I know it'll make a mess
so I'll do it in the bathroom
so I don't stain the rugs.
It won't hurt much,
since I took a bottle of pain killers
before I started writing this.
Tell Sissy I love her,
and she can have my toys,
and even my favorite dolly.
Make sure you tell Roxy,
my wonderful new puppy,
that I love her too.
Please remember to feed her
so she stays healthy
and grows up big and strong.
I really hope I go to Heaven
but if I don't,
it will be okay.
I really want to go to heaven
since i know mommy will be waiting
for me at the gates.
I'll tell her that you love her
and are sorry for hurting her,
I'll even tell her you didn't mean to.
I really am sorry Daddy
but I have to go now
even though u hurt me so much,
I still love you.
Life
Tears from Death
Death from Life
Life to Love
Love turned to Fears
Fears unleashed
Sadness of Death
and Tears born
for Life to
Suffer all Eternity
How Could You
You told me you loved me
and I thought we’d be together
forever and through all eternity.
We fell in love, and met in silence.
You knew I was with someone else,
but I thought you understood
how I felt about you.
I told you I loved you,
and how much I wanted to be with you.
I couldn’t take hiding behind lies anymore,
so I told him it was over
and I wanted to be with someone else.
You’re the only one I wanted,
I dreamed of, I needed, I loved,
I belonged to, I felt part of, I was close to.
Happiness filled me and surrounded every part of me.
I was finally going to be all yours,
I couldn’t wait to tell you,
I finally told you, and
you said that you were sorry.
You let your ex back into your life.
I couldn’t believe you, how dare you
play with my mind and heart,
twisting my love and soul.
My heart filled with anger and rage
I started to cry and ask why
my body began to trembe and shake
as I threw myself onto my bed.
I buried my head under a pillow,
and cried for over an hour.
I now know it’s my fault,
I guess I did it to myself,
The right thing came too late.
How can life be so cold and depressing?
So mean, confusing, hateful even.
I want it go back to how it was…
How you said " I love you, kitten",
and I’d snuggle in your arms, and,
you would kiss my nose.
I miss that almost as much
as I miss you.. I miss everything.
I’ll always love you, my sweet prince.
