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Fifth Step

Many

Hollow Eyes

Empty Soul

Dawn

Test

Free

New Start

Arthur


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FIFTH STEP

I'm here alone
No-one can stand by me on this
The fifth step is acceptance
I will arrive there
but not just yet
It won't leave me some time to think
It won't answer my questions itself
and it won't get better
Acceptance is the only choice I'm allowed
So I will reach there.


 

MANY


Many people live in a silent world
Many in a world of darkness
some see life from a moving chair
some from wherever their head falls
Some of them would give anything
to see a world like we do
to listen to the world like we can
Many people could see the world
but they shut their eyes
Many people could listen to the world
but they shrug it into background sound
Many wish for a few more years
yet so many end their lives themselves
you can watch the world go by
or you can hide under the table
there you used to make a base
a fort which no-one could penetrate
As a child always safe hidden there
You can see no-one and people pretend
they can't see you there
How many want to live as that child?



HOLLOW EYES

Hollow Eyes
Looking at the world with no glaze
looking without emotion
......watching
watching the movement
watching from behind the eyes
watching laughter
and hearing only an echo
watching as I could do forever
watching, knowing that soon
I shall have to return to the body
so that I don't take them with me
or lose myself completely.


 

EMPTY SOUL

How can I stand before you
An empty soul
and see your face fall
when you see where I am
how can I avoid dealing with it
when I keep falling apart
How can I do this to you
when you need your concentration
How can I not do this to you
I hate seeing you in pain
the pain you suffer as you see it in me
I don't know what to do.



DAWN

Darkness spotted with stars
slowly gets light to blue
all that is wrong
speckled with happy thoughts
slowly we can look at the lighter side
we can see the sun through the clouds
as long as we look in the day
at night you can only look on a clear night
to avoid finding yourself nowhere
nothing above
nothing around
just the darkness of the world
that you've tried to hide from for so long.


TEST

This is only a test
It's always a test...at the moment
To know if I can do it
Detach a little further
It's not so hard
They worry now
Soon they'll worry less
then not at all
and it the silence of it all
maybe it won't be a test
Maybe I'll finally be free
free from the pain of today
free from the pain of yesterday
but better still
free from the pain of the future
I won't have any of this horror
because I won't have anything
but this
This is only a test.



FREE

Free from the pain of the future
Free from the promise of tomorrow
Free from any happiness that could be ahead
Free from the pain those I know will go through after this
Free from the wonders of someone who may
Condemning myself to nowhere
Condemning myself to something
that might be worse
Condemning myself to never find out
if love would've found me
Condemning myself to go
to put tears in the eyes of those I love
Condemning my body
to come down with my mind
Condemning myself to never see if it'll change.


NEW START

It surrounds the girl and laughs
The ink on the paper standing out
the white of the paper even more so
she looks around herself
and surveys so many years of her life
all in the lines around her
all in the gaps
She stands up and leaves the room
leaves the years
leaves the ink
leaves the gaps
finds a new room
some new pens
a fresh pad
a new floor
a fresh space in her head
and sits down to begin anew.

 

ARTHUR

As my list of things to do gets longer,
I look at my reasons,
Anger, sadness and a longing for normality,
Knowing this is it,
Normality,
The swelling grows and creeps down,
infecting and dissolving with a quiet evil,
adding bricks to my walls of hurdles,
A grin lies where it does so often now,
with a desperate attempt at ignorance,
as climbing each hurdle gets harder and harder,
the grin becomes more and more fixed,
I'll cope, I know I will,
But at times, you slip down a few bricks.

 

 

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