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I was pretty nervous the first time we kissed. Didn't know what to do really. I had dreamt about Ganis for so long but didn't know how to tell her how I truly felt. Then we became friends and it got even harder. We were good friends and all, but somehow I couldn't talk about my feelings. This caused a lot of arguments and fights. Stupid really.

We were at her house and I was staying the night. Nothing unusual. We've done it lots of times before. I sleep at her house or she sleeps at mine. The last couple of times we've stayed up and talked for quite some time. Both of us in the same bed. She'd wear her black pj trousers and a top. I love it when she wears a top. When I can see those gorgeous arms of hers. She's so sexy.

We sat on her bed, talking and goofing as we always do. Listened to a cd we both like. We'd also put candles all over the room. Those in aluminum cups. Next to her stereo, on her desk and on her night stand. The light from them made her naked skin look tanned. Shadows took form and changed shape. Made her look irrisistable. More than usual. I watched her in silence for a while until she said she thought it'd best if went to sleep. I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at the matress on the floor and let out a quiet "yeah". I sat up and begun to say something as I turned to face her. She caught me with an intense no-tongue-but-suck-on-lip kiss. I turned bright red. I wasn't prepared at all. I looked into her eyes and saw my own fright/confusion/relief reflect in them. Even need. Thoughts ran through my mind in, what seemed like, an eternity. I'd been scared to lose her if I told her my feelings. Now I got scared to lose her if I didn't. I leaned in and kissed her slow but hard. I'd waited for this for so long.
She responded with her arm around my waist pulling me closer. I always thought butterflies were for sappy or weak people. But I felt them. A whole swarm of them inside my chest and belly. I pushed the notion of her parents in a room down the hall out of my mind. All I wanted was her. Consequences of being caught? What's that?!

I pushed her down on her back with my own body and crawled on top of her without breaking the kiss. It was amazing. So … real. The feelings I had kept inside for so long appeared in each and every movement of our lips. Her black & purple striped socks made love to my dark grey. My "calf-lengthed" shorts seduced her black pj's while our t-shirts and tops couldn't get enough of eachother. She had a white one on. White makes such a sexy contrast to her dark hair. I dug my hands in her hair. I love her hair.

When the kissing slowed down I asked her how long she's been feeling like this for me. "Too long" she said. "Far too long. What about you?". I asked if she remembered the day we saw eachother in the hallway at school. "When you passed me with this freakish grin on your face!?! Only a month or so after I had transfered from the other school?!"

-But that was ages ago. She said surprised. -Why didn't you tell me?

I told her I was scared to lose her. That I'd rather be her friend and "see but not touch" than lose her and die of broken heart. It felt good to tell her. It really did.

We crawled under the duvet and snuggled up close and fell asleep.

D&G … G&D … wow.