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..why are you pushing me away
when you have asked me to stay..

 

i don't know where to began...
perhaps you are being bLind
for i sureLy ain't one of a KiNd
i can't take the fact you soon be mine
for there's no way to get you out my mind
something w/in you i can't describe
but it's onLy you whom i may confide
..Lost & confuse i don't know what to do..
but missing you is aLL there is i know how to do

 

4-1-1


dob:  the day my mommie gave birth to me

gender:  femaLe

schooL:  Orange Coast CoLLege

Location:  714, Santa Ana

phone #:  it's one of those ten digits

status:  -> s i n g L e <-

emaiL:  heLen92704@yahoo.com

 

[up-coming events]


*August*
08/25:  First Day of FaLL Semester
08/25:  Hieu V's Birthday
08/25:  Van M's Birthday
08/25:  Someone's Last Day
08/26:  Mommie's (Hanh N) Birthday
08/26:  Duy N's Birthday
08/26:  Nghia N's Birthday
08/27:  Ly N's Birthday
08/28:  Ngan L's Birthday
08/29:  My cousin's (Tiffany Uyen N) Birthday
08/29:  One Month, aye!!
08/31:  Diane T's Birthday
08/29-08/31:  Training Camp in San Dimas

September
09/05:  My out of state best friend's (Suong N) Birthday
09/06:  First Day of TNTT
09/13:  Tuyen Hua Du Truong
09/15:  French Restaurant
09/19-09/21:  St. Barbara FaLL CarnivaL
09/22:  My Dadda's (MichaeL T) Birthday
09/27:  First Day of Giao Ly
09/29:  Two Months, aye!!

October
10/03:  Nicky H's Birthday
10/07:  Chau Thanh The @ SB
10/11:  Ky Anh T's Birthday
10/14:  New LiL Cuzzie, Happy Birthday KimberLy Ngoc Vu

10/17-10/19:  DT/DP Camping @ San Mateo (postponed)
10/20-10/31:  Mid-term
10/22:  Grade Report Due
11/29:  Three Months, aye!!
10/31:  MeLinda N's Birthday
10/31:  Luyen N's Birthday

November
11/02:  Vi T's Birthday
11/07:  Chau Thanh The @ SB
11/07-11/09:  DT/DP Camping @ Santa Fe
11/18:  Appointment with ConseLor
11/22:  Four HT Navy Guys ReturnaL Party
11/29:  Picnic for TNTT
11/29:  Four Months, aye!!

December
12/02:  Music 100 ProtocoL
12/06:  Chi Yen N's Wedding
12/08:  Lan P's Birthday
12/08:  CaroL S' Birthday
12/08-12/14:  FaLL Semester FinaLs
12/12-12/14:  Nganh Thieu Lien Doan Camping
12/16:  ALex L's Birthday
12/19:  Nghia Si Christmas Party
12/20:  Terri Vu's Birthday
12/20:  Hiep P's Birthday
12/21:  25 Nam CeLebrating of Song Ngu Gio Ly VN
12/21:  HT Christmas Party
12/25:  Jesus' Birthday
12/25:  Thao V's Birthday
12/25:  Thomas N's Birthday
12/29:  Five Months, aye!!

 

 

January
01/07:  Trang T's Birthday
01/08:  My Brother's (Phi My T) Birthday

February
02/12:  Diem D's Birthday
02/14:  Jimmy N's Birthday
02/14:  Happy VaLentine's Day

March
03/15:  Truc T's Birthday
03/

ApriL
04/18:  Joseph N's Birthday
04/

May
05/11:  My Brother's (Tony T) Birthday
05

June
06/01:  Hung P's Birthday
06/10:  Vickie N's Birthday

JuLy
07/20:  My Brother's (Ho T) Birthday
07/20:  My Uncle's (Loc N) Birthday

 

 

: L y R i C s :

 

And I hope you are the one I share my Life with.

don't want to try, don't want to try...no more

Although I can't be with you tonight, you'LL know that my heart is by your side

I don't know if I can handLe you, but I don't mind as Long as I can have you in my Life.

aLL my Life, I pray for someone Like you

if I'm not made for you, then why does my heart teLL me that  I am?

I don't know much, but I know I love you.

wouLd u trembLe, if I touched your Lips?

When I see you smiLing, I go oh Oh oh

 

 

| p o e t r i e s |


S T R O N G   W O M E N
A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape, but a woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape.
A strong woman isn't afraid of anything, but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear.
A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her, but a woman of strength gives the best of herself to everyone.
A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future.  A woman of strength realizes life's mistakes can also be God's blessings and capitalizes on them.
A strong woman walks sure footedly, but a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls.
A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face, but a woman of strength wears grace.
A strong woman has faith that she is not strong enough for the journey, but a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong.
-Unknown Author

 

SHUT IN WITH GOD
So many things I cannot do
That once were my delight,
From picnics on a sandy beach
To walks through for at night.
I cannot stroll along the street,
Nor through a shady grove
To seek the wild bird's nesting place
And nature's treasure-trove.
I cannot sail the restless sea,
Nor ramble through the hills,
Nor can I coast down snowy slopes
With heart-disturbing thrills.
So many things I cannot do
Since I am shut in at home,
"Shut in with God," and praise His name,
I do not need to roam-
For I can reach the throne of grace
While seated in my chair.
Because he has bestowed on us
The privilege of prayer.
And he has etched upon my heart
His promises to me,
Of peace and comfort better far
Than joys that used to be.
-Unknown Author

 

 

randomness


.:I'LL do anything for you, anything you ASKED me to:.

<No one toLd me, I was going to find you.>

[I'LL hoLd you in my arms and cover you with my desires.]

* s * t * a * r * s *

~crazie,  siLLie, funnie, wackie~

-KiNd oNe-

--sureLy, definiteLy, certainLy, absoLuteLy, positiveLy--

=aye aye aye=

"You know my style, I'LL do anything to make you smiLe."

(If you want me to, then I wiLL be here.  Through thick and thin, you know I am near.)
 

 

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comments through AIM
->from others to me<-


06/12...

@  (08:21:08 PM):  COME TO THE PARK WITH ME, I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL YOU

06/15...
@ (11:12:10 PM): yes you should cat toc va di tu luon
@ (11:12:11 PM): cho quen het may noi buon
@ (11:32:34 PM): ngu di ba noi
@ (11:35:40 PM): noi thiet nha you di tu di
@ (11:48:24 PM): neu gian thi me cho you hon lips me ne

06/18...
@ (12:21:46 AM): cause you r my best friend
@ (12:39:58 AM): I miss you Helen

06/28...
@ (12:15:00 PM): you seem to be a bit more jumpy ever since hs is out
@ (09:38:06 AM): i need to talk to u...
@ (11:47:08 AM): you gals are just so cute when you "lam nung"
@ (11:49:40 AM): funny girl

06/29...
@ (10:30:15 PM): mY wuN gOaL tO mAke hELEn fEeL oLD
@ (11:12:23: PM): i missed u a lot today helen

06/30...
@ (12:40:12 AM): waiting for u to greet me

07/07...
@ (11:35:31 PM): okay, can i have a request? since you didnt give me a birthday present can i have a wish from u?
@ (11:36:40 PM): can i have ur address?
@ (11:45:39 PM): because... i.. i miss you
@ (11:46:23 PM): i like talking to you, you make me feel good,i dont have to think a lot when im talking to you
@ (11:47:01 PM): i like talking to you, i do.
@ (11:47:15 PM): u might not know, but during those time u ignore me, i miss you a lot and i didnt eat a lot

07/08...
@ (12:02:37 AM): you may not know, and might think what i say is untrue, but meeting you has change my heart. it was somewhat torn but thanks to you, i manage to put it back together, this aint no bullshit. if someone goes for you i will compete with him for i do like you. but if you dont like me back there's nothing much i can do right? as long as your happy. you dont have to give me a chance yet since you dont understand me much... theres still lots of time... so take as many as you want for im a patient guy -wink- trust me, im perfect for you, im confidence of that too. =] ngu som di, good night, my little linh say sweet dream to you.
@ (10:19:30 PM): do you miss me like i miss you?
@ (10:22:12 PM): who is Billy T?

08/22:
@ (01:02:31 AM): my plan is to go out with you one day

09/04:
@ (01:30:25 AM): don't leave me

 

s t o r i e s

Love:
    
One day, I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise.  Ah the beauty of God's creation is beyond description.  As I watched, I praised God for His beautiful work.  As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence with me.  He asked me, "Do you love me?"
     I answered, "Of course, God!  You are my Lord and Savior!"
     Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still love Me?"
     I was perplexed.  I looked down upon my arms, legs, and the rest of my body and wondered how many things I wouldn't be able to do, the things that I took for granted.
     And I answered, "It would be tough, Lord, but I would still love You."
     Then the Lord said, "If you were blind, would you still love my creation?"
     How could I love something without being able to see it?  Then I thought of all the blind people in the world and how many of them still loved God and His creation.
     So I answered, "It's hard to think of it, but I would still love You."
     The Lord then asked me, "If you were deaf, would you still listen to My Word?"
     How could I listen to anything being deaf?  Then I understood, listening to God's words is not merely using our ears but the heart.
     I answered, "It would be tough, but I would still listen to Your words."
     The Lord then asked, "If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?"
     How could I praise without a voice?  Then it occurred to me:  God wants us to sing from our very heart and soul.  It never matters what we sound like, and praising God is not always with a song.  However, when we are persecuted, we give God praise with our words of thanks.
     So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise Your Name."
     And the Lord asked, "Do you really love Me?"
     With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, "Yes Lord!  I love You because You are the one and true God!"  I thought I had answered well, but...God asked, "Then why do you sin?"
     I answered, "...Because I'm only human.  I am not perfect."
     "Then why in times of peace do you stray the furthest?  Why only in times of trouble do you pray the earnest?"
     No answers but only tears.
     The Lord continued:  "Why only sing at fellowships and retreats?  Why seek ME only in times of worship?  Why ask things so selfishly?  Why ask things so unfaithfully?"
     I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.
     "You are blessed with life.  I made you not to throw this gift away.  I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away.  I have revealed My words to you, but you do not gain in knowledge.  I have spoken to you, but your ears were closed.  I have shown My blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away.  I have sent you servants, but you sat idly by as they were pushed away.  I have heard your prayers and I have answered them all."
     "DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME?"
     I could not answer, how could I?  I was embarrassed beyond belief.  I had no excuse, what could I say to this?
     When my heart had cried and the tears had flowed, I said, "Please forgive me Lord, I am unworthy to be Your child."
     The Lord answered, "That's My Grace, My child."
     I asked, "Then why do you continue to forgive me?  Why do you love me so?"
     The Lord answered, "Because you are My creation.  You are My child.  I will never abandon you.  When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you.  When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you.  When you are down, I will encourage you.  When you fall, I will raise you up.  When you are tire, I will carry you.  I will be with you 'til the end of days, and I will love you forever."
     Never had I cried so hard before.  How could I have been so cold?  How could I have hurt God as I had done?
     I asked God, "How much do You love me?"
     The Lord stretched out His arms, and I saw His nail-pierced hands.  I bowed down at the feet of Christ, my Savior.  and for the first time, I truly prayed.
-unknown author

 

Dear Friend,
     How are you?  I just had to send a not to tell you how much I care about you.  I saw you yesterday as you were talking with your friends.  I waited all day hoping you would want to talk to me too.  I gave you a sunset to close you day and a cool breeze to rest you -- and I waited.  You never came.  It hurt me -- but I still love you, because I am your friend.
     I saw you sleeping last night and longed to touch your brow so I spilled moonlight upon your face.  Again I waited, wanting to rush down so we could talk.  I have so many gifts for you!  You awoke and rushed off to work.  My tears were in the rain.
     If you would only listen to me!  I love you!  I try to tell you in blue skies and in the quiet green grass.  I whisper it in leaves on the trees, breathe it in colors of flowers, shout it to you in mountain streams, give the birds love songs to sing.  I clothe you with warm sunshine and perfume the air with nature scents.  My love for you is deeper than the ocean and bigger than the biggest need in your heart!
     Ask me!  Talk to me!  Please don't forget me!  I have so much to share with you.
     I won't hassle you any further, it's your decision.  I have chosen you and I will wait -- because I love you.
-Your friend:  Jesus

 

DO YOU HAVE TIME?
     God will get our attention one way or another...
     The Master called my name one day because He needed someone to go...
     I said, "Lord, in my spare time, between school, spending time with my husband, working from eight to six, and trying to coordinate a program for my community to help our children to do better, I will help you look.  See, I know I can't go right now because I have so much to do."
     He said, "Well, where shall I find such a person?  I thought I saw your name on my list of available people."
     "Well Lord, that was the prayer that I prayed last year, but since then, things have changed."
     He said, "Like what?"
     "Well, I'm working on my PhD, and I'm needed by so many people.  Besides, my husband is always wanting something done, and on top of that, my community EXPECTS me to help and give to them so..."
     "Well, seeing that you're busy, I'll let you go, but we will talk again, if YOU have some time."
     I went on through the days, the weeks, and the months completing my task as always.  One evening, while studying for my comp exams, I received a call from the hospital concerning my husband.  He had been in a terrible accident and was in critical condition.  I dropped everything and ran to the hospital, where I found my husband hanging on for dear life.
     I immediately begin to pray, "Lord, don't take him now, I can't bare it."  But my prayer echoed off the wall and returned into mine own ear.  Next morning, I left the hospital tired and weary, and walked in the door of my classroom just in time to begin my comps.  As the professors begin asking me questions, I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out.
     In my mind, I begin praying, praying hard, but my prayer echoed again and I found myself upset at God because he was no where to be found.  I could not explain to them what was happening.
     After leaving from my exams, I called into work because I was so distraught at all that was going on.  I explained to my supervisor what had happened and she demanded that I take some time off.
     After visiting my husband in the hospital that evening, I went home and fell into a sunken state crying and despairing.  Just then I heard someone calling my name.
     "Lord, is that YOU?"
     "Well...yes, it is.  Do YOU have some time?  I wanted to see if I could just talk..."
     Instead of waiting to hear His questions, I lashed out in anger and resentment.  "How is it that when I needed YOU today, YOU couldn't be found and last night...I cried and cried but all I heard were echoes from the walls.  My husband is dying, I'm flunking out of school, I may not have a job and YOU can just sit and say YOU want to talk?"
     The Lord interrupted me in my foolish speaking.  "My child, I was busy, out looking for someone to go and tell others about me when you cried.  By the time I came to answer, you had moved on to something else.  So, I decided to let your husband rest,  and keep you home for a few days.  That way MAYBE you would get in touch with ME, if YOU had some time.  For you see, before your husband, your school, or your job needs you, I NEED YOU.  And if all these things take you away from ME, I have to almost take them away from YOU, in order to get a moment."
     I calmed down and began to cry.  For I remembered my prayer of wanting to go and do for the Lord.
     He said, "I just wanted to re-check with you if you knew of ANYONE that I could send to e a witness for Me and tell others about ME...anyone at all?"
     With tears in my eyes and feeling so unworthy, I said, "Lord, send me, I'll go."
     God should never have to ask us if we have some time.  When He died on the cross, He put aside everything to insure us eternal life.  We should be more than GRATEFUL to do service for the Lord, to witness, and to tell ANYONE we can about Jesus.  Don't let your "things,"  WHATEVER they may be, get you so tied up that God has to become a meeting time in your yearly planner.  He had more than enough time for us.  The least we could do is have time for him.
-unknown author

 

This is an eye witness account which happened in the City of New York, on a cold day in December...
     A little boy about 10 years old was standing before a shoe store on Broadway, barefooted, peering through the window, and shivering with cold.  A lady approached the boy and said, "My little fellow, why are you looking so earnestly in that window?"
     "I was asking God to give me a pair of shoes," was the boy's reply.
     The lady took him by the hand and went into the store, asked the clerk to get half a dozen pairs of socks for the boy.  She then asked if he could give her a basin of water and a towel, and he replied:  "Certainly," and quickly brought them to her.  She took the little fellow to the back part of the store and, removing her gloves, knelt down, washed his little feet and dried them with a towel.
     By this time, the clerk had returned with the socks.  Placing a pair upon the boy's feet, she purchased him a pair of shoes, and tying up the remaining pairs of socks, gave them to him.  She patted him on the head and said, "No doubt, my little fellow, you feel more comfortable now?"
     As she turned to go, the astonished lad caught her by the hand and looking up in her face with tears in his eyes, asked, "Are you God's wife?"
     In our daily routine of life, have you ever had the opportunity to be able to reach out and touch someone in need and haven't done it?  Who knows, maybe someone will ask you the same question as this little boy asked this blessed lady, and maybe, you can show them that Jesus lives in you!

 

REFINING PROCESS:
     Some time ago, a group of women met in a certain city to read the Scriptures and make them the subject of conservation.
     While reading the third chapter of Malachi, they came upon a remarkable expression in the third verse:  "And He shall sit as a refiner and purifier of silver."
     One woman's opinion was that it was intended to convey the view of the sanctifying influence of the grace of Christ.  Then she proposed to visit a silversmith and report to the others what he said on the subject. She went accordingly and without telling the object of her errand, begged to know the process of refining silver, which he fully described to her.
     "But Sir," she said, "do you sit while the work of refining is going on?"  "Oh yes, Madam," replied the silversmith.  "I must sit with my eye steadily fixed on the furnace, for if the time necessary for refining is exceeded in the slightest degree, the silver will be injured."
     The woman at once saw the beauty and comfort of the expression, "He shall sit as a refiner and purifier of silver."  Christ sees it needful to put His children into a furnace; His eyes is steadily intent on the work of purifying, and His wisdom and love are both engaged in the best manner for them.  Their trials do not come at random:  "The very hairs of your head are all numbered."
     As the woman was leaving the shop, the silversmith called her back and said he had still further to mention, that he only knows when the process of purifying is complete by seeing his own image reflected in the silver.
     Beautiful example!  When Christ shall see His own image in His people, His work of purifying will be accomplished.
     Well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill.  In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"
     Hands started going up.
     He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you, but first, let me do this."  He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up.
     He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
     Still the hands were up in the air.
     "Well," he replied, "What if I do this?"
     And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.  He picked it up now crumpled and dirty.  "Now who still wants it?"
     Still the hands went into the air.
     "My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson.  No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.  It was still worth $20.  Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.  We feel as though we are worthless.
     But no matter what happened, or what will happen, you will never lose your value in God's eyes.  To Him, dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to Him.
     Psalm 17:8 states that God will keep us, "as the apple of His eyes."
     THOUGHT:  The worth of our lives come not in what we do or who we are, but WHOSE WE ARE!  You are special - Don't ever forget it!

 

UNFORGETTABLE EVENT
     One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.  His name was Kyle.  It looked like he was carrying all of his books.  I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?  He must really be a nerd."
     I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friend tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.  As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.  They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.  He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes.  My heart went out to him.  So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eyes.  As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks.  They really should get lives."  He looked at me and said, "Hey, thanks!"  There was a big smile on his face.  It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.
     I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.  As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.  He said he had gone to private school before now.  I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.
     We talked all the way home, and I carried his books.  He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.  I asked him if he wanted to play football on Saturday with my friends and I.  He said yes.  We hung all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him.  And my friends thought of the same of him.
     Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.  I stopped him and said, "Damn boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!"  He just laughed and handed me half the books.
     Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.  When we were seniors, we began to think about college.  Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke.  I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.  He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship.  Kyle was valedictorian of our class.  I teased him all the time about being a nerd.  He had to prepare a speech for graduation.  I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak.
     Graduation day, I saw Kyle.  He looked great.  He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.  He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.  He had more dates that me and all the girls love him!  Boy, sometimes I was jealous.  Today was one of those days.
     I could see that he was nervous about his speech.  So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"  He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.  "Thanks," he said.
     As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began.  "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.  Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends.  I am here to tell you all of that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.  I am going to tell you a story."
     I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.  He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.  He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.  He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.  "Thankfully, I was saved.  My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."  I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.  I saw his Mom and Dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.  Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.
     Never underestimate the power of your actions.  With one small gesture, you can change a person's life.  For better or for worse.  God puts us all in each other's lives to impact one another in some way.  Look for God in others.

 

Be Blessed
     The man whispered, "God, speak to me," and a meadowlark sang.  But the man did not hear.
     So the man yelled, "God, speak to me," and the thunder rolled across the sky.  But the man did not listen.
     The man looked around and said, "God let me see you."  And a star shined brightly.  But the man did not notice.
     And the man shouted, "God show me a miracle," and a life was born.  But the man did not know.
     The man cried out in despair, "Touch me God, and let me know you are here," whereupon, God reached down and touched the man.  But the man brushed the butterfly away and walked on.
     Don't miss out on a blessing because it isn't packaged the way that you expect.

 

When We Worry...
     You've been on my mind and heart.  I see you struggling, worrying and sweating, crying and running, at a furious pace.  You're trying to move that mountain by yourself again, huh?
     God asks that we cast all our cares on Him because He cares.  Think about what your worrying says to God when you refuse to give things over to Him.
     When you worry about money, you're telling Him He is unable to provide for His children.  Although He has riches beyond belief in Heaven, He is too stingy to share them with you.
     When you worry no one understands you, you're telling Him although He has been with you since before you were formed in the womb, and has carved you into the palm of His hand, He doesn't know you.  When you worry whether you will have enough food, you're telling Him that although He rained down bread from Heaven in the desert to feed His children, you are the one He's forgotten.
     When you worry your enemies will have victory over you, you're telling God although He has given you spiritual battle gear to defend yourself, despite His track record of being a giant slayer, Red Sea divider, lion's mouth closer and a furnace cooler, He can't handle your co-worker, your neighbor or a former friend.
     When you worry your children have decided to follow the world instead of your example, healing is impossible, you're telling Him this world controls your fate.  You're saying prayer time Him with merely something to pass the time.  You're saying although He raised the dead, made a virgin conceive, opened the womb of a woman well past eighty, healed a 12 year issue of blood, made the blind see and the lame walk, He can't help you.
     When you worry you won't be able to do enough to earn forgiveness, you're telling Him "that's ok Lord, no need for Your Son to die.  I can earn my own forgiveness."  Let's just act like Jesus never died, and tell Him never mind, He doesn't need to go to the cross.
     When you worry no one will love you, that you'll be lonely for the rest of your life, you're telling Him that His love is insufficient.  He couldn't possibly love you enough to ward away loneliness.  You're saying although He has promised life more abundantly, He was lying.  Despite the fact He started off saying that it is not good that we be alone, He's changed His mind.
     When you worry and refuse to give the problem over to Him, you're telling Him although He could create the world He can't handle what's going on in your world, so you will.  You are saying He won't work things out, obstacles cannot be overcome, mountains cannot be climbed, healing cannot occur, what is lost will not be found, joy does not come in the morning, He is not the God of a second chance, the promised land has been swallowed up by the desert, you have discovered the height, depth and width of His love and found it to fall short of your needs.
     Think about all you're saying to the one who loves you the most and who has all power.  Really think about it.  Then open you hands and release what you've been holding.  Bow down on your knees and ask forgiveness for doubting Him.  Walk away with a peaceful heart noting the footsteps going before you making the crooked places straight.  He will provide food in the wilderness and cause water to spring forth in the desert.
     Stand in a stream with waters around your ankles.  The waters that pass by you at that moment will never be there again.  So it is with the past.  Let it go!