Another Day...
Well today in school sucked! I had black make-up crapy stuff running down my face on purpose. Nobody cared except the friggen guidence counsler piece of shit lady! Anyways she was like .... well you shouldn't do that to your-self your a very beautiful girl. I'm like that's bull! And then she was like well you need to dress like an actual girl and you need to start takeing showers. I was completely offended because I dress how I want to dress and NOBODY can change that. I happen to like how I dress. And alot that bitch knows I took a fucken shower before school even started today. God I hate her. And then now I have to go and see her every day. But guess what since she is being mean to me all this time I'm just going to be a bitch to her now also and is she don't like it... ha ha ha GOOD I COULD CARE LESS. Hm... well 4th perios sucks also. We have a boring teacher now. I wish I had the old one back but he went to East Ridge High and teaches 12th grade. And then I wish we had my old guidence councler Mrs. Hillsgrove back she understood me she was awesome! Anyways I had exactly 2 friends in school. But what makes me upset is that Jade one of them is moving to Kentucky and her last day is next thursday. But I will still get to talk to her and see her every once in a great while. And then there is Jay she's cool we connect because were just alike. And then the rest of the people in my school besides us three are preps well there is Atreyu and he is cool. But okay so thats 4 whopp dee doo! Um.... blah blah blah I guess that's my day...... welcome to it?

Another Day...
Well today in school sucked! I had black make-up crapy stuff running down my face on purpose. Nobody cared except the friggen guidence counsler piece of shit lady! Anyways she was like .... well you shouldn't do that to your-self your a very beautiful girl. I'm like that's bull! And then she was like well you need to dress like an actual girl and you need to start takeing showers. I was completely offended because I dress how I want to dress and NOBODY can change that. I happen to like how I dress. And alot that bitch knows I took a fucken shower before school even started today. God I hate her. And then now I have to go and see her every day. But guess what since she is being mean to me all this time I'm just going to be a bitch to her now also and is she don't like it... ha ha ha GOOD I COULD CARE LESS. Hm... well 4th perios sucks also. We have a boring teacher now. I wish I had the old one back but he went to East Ridge High and teaches 12th grade. And then I wish we had my old guidence councler Mrs. Hillsgrove back she understood me she was awesome! Anyways I had exactly 2 friends in school. But what makes me upset is that Jade one of them is moving to Kentucky and her last day is next thursday. But I will still get to talk to her and see her every once in a great while. And then there is Jay she's cool we connect because were just alike. And then the rest of the people in my school besides us three are preps well there is Atreyu and he is cool. But okay so thats 4 whopp dee doo! Um.... blah blah blah I guess that's my day...... welcome to it?

Well I loved Nick. I honestly and truely did. But I guess not everything ends up coming out the right way. And I guess my life really is just worthless. As of right now I wish I was dead... once again. But you know what? That's not going to happen so I can just forget about it. Today during history class.... we had a discussion on issues and what they were. So I got up and said I was a psycho and cutter. Now nobody will talk to me. Oh well boring life, boring me, I'm just an ugly loser with no life. But hey, don't feel bad for me! I deserve it! The funny thing is that I actually even carved Nicks name into my fucken leg last night!

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Lost In Silence
Lost In Silence

I sat there with so much despair
I thought I had nothing to loose
But then again, I guess I was wrong
As I sat there, it all became clear
That the world was spinning

That night my life almost ended
Untill someone came along and helped me
They saw the blood drip down my body
He laid there next to me, and cried
But I didn't say a word, I was to hurt

He wrapped his hands around my legs
And only asked, why i did it
I was so lost in silence I couldn't move
He laid there longer and held me tight
He begged me not to do it again

I was to lost in silence, I didn't hear a word
I could only see his lips move
And tears draw from his baby blue eyes, he knew I was dieing
I struggled so hard to tell him that I loved him, and I was sorry
From that night on we became the best of friends

I met Nick!
Well today, I woke up around 8:00 ish. And I took a shower, got dressed brushed my hair/teeth etc. Anyways then I called Nick to see if he was awake and ready to go. And then I had my uncle take me up to his house and we went to get him. On the way there and back I got a sunburn. :-( Anyways and then we arrived back home and I had to brsh my hair because it was messy. And then me and Nick went up to the clubhouse, we played pool for about an hour and thirty minutes. e decided to leave because the people in there ( Chris, Alyssa, different Chris, Jason, and some english people) got really annoying. So we came back to my house and "watched a movie" I annoyed him and sat on his lap and wouldn't lety him watch it. But, it was all good. After that we went into my room (NOTHING HAPPENED) I sat on him and he dropped me on the floor that's about it. So I just got back from takeing him home(I miss him already) Now I;m talking to Cassie, Angel, Chris, and yea. That's my day. Lol. Pretty exciting isn't it? Then again It beats sitting in the house doing nothing.

Loserville, That's where I'm at today
Well let's see.... today I woke up around 11:30 only because this dumb kid named Carlos came and knocked on my door like he was the swat team or something. I was sleeping on the couch. He woke me up and then I couldn't go back to sleep. So I decided to stay awake. Then my uncle like a dumbass that he is sat outside of the house in the sun. Now he is yelling at me because he is sunburnt and can't do anything. Then that stupid kid knocked on my door once again and I made my grandfather answer it and tell him I was dead. It was pretty funny actually. After all that non sense I took a bath and a shower. (Don't ask why because I don't know) It gave me something to do. I decided to get out before I got killed by lighting. And it leads me right back to here the computer. Because.... I have no life... So I guess.... welcome to it. Then after that I... put on my pajamas took my cell phone and went walking around outside. Everyone looked at me like I was crazy or something. But I don't care. I;m just a loser. And it's my life anyways....