I will say things in no order. I will say things in no stylistic way. There will be no spell check. There will be no begining middle and end. THIS IS WHERE MY MIND IS YOURS.

WHY DO PEOPLE LIE TO THEMSELVES? WHY DO THOSE THAT ARE M0RE KNOWLEDGEABLE ABOUT POP CULTURE THE MOST SECURE OF ALL PEOPLE? For example, my older brother. I start to feel a little nervous when their are long moments of silence in his car on the way to some place. But when my mom is driving me some place she often looks a little insecure, trying to make small talk. Now my goal is to make this so long people overlook things about themselves so they don't get mad at me. WHY DO I TYPE THIS? It sort of is like one of those movies with a mysterious character then someone stumbles upon their secrets and they become great friends because they're so honest about themselves. BLAH BLAH BLAH. My mom is such a hard working women. She sacrifies everything for me and my brother. Our school tuition combined is $32,000 a year. She isn't paid that much either. She spends nothing on herself. The only thing that she does for herself are group meditation classes, which are free. I cannot believe how hard she works. I know she is unhappy with her job, but she wants to keep it anyway because it's stable. I'm always encouraging her to something that makes her happy but she says she'll survive. My parents are divorced. I consider my mom and my brother my family. My dad is a little...well... My brother has always had problems with him. One day when me and him were visiting my dad's house we were deciding what to order from a chinese restraunt (i know mispelled). We had ordered to shirmp dishes last time we were there. One was the two flavored shirmp and probably the Garlic Shrimp. Johnathan (my brother) wanted Garlic Shrimp, and dad wanted Kung Pao shrimp. They argued, my dad being especially chilidish and selfish. I popped up and said "How about the Two-Flavored Shrimp?" Then my dad said "SHUT UP JORDAN!" My brother was outraged. They screamed at eachother, and I was crying. Eventually, my dad said to my brother, "Well maybe I'm just sick of cartering to your needs!" AND THAT'S WHEN IT ALL STARTED! A MOMENT WHICH HUNG FOREVER. ONE THAT CHANGED MY LIFE, AND MY FAMILY'S LIFE IN A HORRIBLE WAY. My brother stormed around the house, he said "Jordan, get your things we're leaving!" I was ready to leave. I WAS RIPE WITH ANGER TOWARDS MY FATHER. So I took my bag of things and headed for my brother's car. My dad shouted that he didn't care about Johnathan, but that I had to come back. My brother said to forget about him. And, actually, I walked back. I didn't care if he punished me, but even though my mom also is a disliker of my father, she would not approve of me leaving. He said I could eat dinner with my brother, but I would have to come back. So I ran back to the car, and he said he wouldn't drive me back. He encouraged me to come with him but I didn't. He was mad at me, but now he realizes I did what was right. To this day my father will not let my brother see him. He has numerous attempts to come through to him but he says that he will not see Johnathan untill he says that everything is his fault. He's never asked my opinon on, but he's being a fucking chilid. I CANNOT STAND IT. My realtionship with him is not so good either. He tapes sitcoms and gets mad at me if I watch them on my own. I've tried things, like I bring my guitar everytime to jam with him. But after about 30 mins of doing that, he says "C'mon, let's watch some sitcoms." I could teach him how to be a good dad, but I really shouldn't have to. He does not now what kids my age do. One time my friend Jake came over and he did not understand the concept of hanging out at the mall with "no defined purpose." But enough about him. Now I feel like talking about girl troubles. I have haven't been with a girl since 4th grade. But one day she broke up with me for no reason cause her "friends thought I was gay." I liked a few girls last year but just tried to be their friends. But then one of the girls I like turned out to be a major ho. She gave a 11 year old a handjob! At a party I was at tonight she wanted a fucking lapdance! New subject, must of the new girls coming to my school next year are snobby little valleygirls. I'm sure a few of the new girls are nice, my friend gave someone his number tonight, but I cannot see anything in anyone of them. Relationships do not last in 7th grade, why do people bother? It's not like anyone's doing anything sexual (well, except for the ho I was talking about). I've only liked one for almost the whole schoolyear. But slowly she has transformed into one of the rich snobby girls. I think I should just leave that behind. School realationships are not about love. They never have been. In fact, I feel stupid now for bringing it up. But the rules for this page are "No delete keys." What to say...um...I like to feel like I am higher then everyone else. Like one when of my friends was talking to a snobby girl at the party tonight. I said "Pfff...who needs them." "I'm bigger then that." But I'm really not. I feel the need to feel like people like me to. But I do give myself credit for somethings. Some of my friends take this whole Middle School Realationships thing seriously. He was all like "She is so beautiful and nice! I really love her. I'm going to be with her for the rest of my life!" No buddy, you aren't. No one in our grade is. God this is long, and no one's even gonna read it. I do how ever feel like this site has some credibillity now that I've written this. If anyone that's reading this sees themselves being mentioned here, please tell me you read it. I definatly want to talk it out with you. I've poured my soul into a period with a underline and I hope you've gotten something out of it. Now it's begining to sound like a closer. Well, I promised there'd be no end. Um...yeah. Yes. Bruce Springsteen must have a nice tea cup set.