Deluded from my mind, tears will show my pain
Nothing left to lose, yet nothing let to gain

My world abruptly stops, as I hold my breath
Heart that was alive, now put to sudden death

Is God a sadist? Does he like to make me weep?
Climbing up a hill, but the hill is much too steep

What a choice to make, how could I decide
Block it from my memory, hide it from my mind

Act as if it's normal, putting on a show
Turn in all directions, I have no place to go

Or never looking back, turn and run away
Not knowing what to do, not knowing what to say

Never a chance to win, when winning is a must
One- I lose my love, Two- you lose my trust

Always get the bad, just expect the worst
Head up the the clouds, bubble had to burst

Confused about emotions, still not knowing why
Can't show how I feel, boys aren't allowed to cry

Feeling of betrayal, my heart has been abused
Nothing left to gain, Yet everything to lose