Rose at Dawn's Messed up world
To those of you who have found your way to my page You might be wondering who I am. I am a mixed-up Witch. I find what I believe is in most religions. To name a few; Pagan, Wicca, Druidism, Indian and, believe it or not, even Christian.
To me, all religions are true.
I do not know if you can call me Wiccan or just a Witch. I am not sure myself.
I was raised with Baptist and other Christian religions. I was baptized twice when I was little and attended church as I saw fit. My Mom did not believe in forcing someone to do things that they did not want to do. She was very open-minded when it came to religion.
I have always been a loner and loved nature. I was 12 or 13 when I was sitting in church and felt the hand of God on my shoulder. You might think that I am crazy but that is the only way to explain it. In this church that I went to, I could feel God's presence all around me. I think that He put His hand on my shoulder so I would know his touch later, when I needed it.
About a year later, the pastor of the church left and the feeling was gone from the church. I stopped going and started turning to nature.
I have always lived in houses that you could call haunted, so I knew about spirits and things like that. I am part Cherokee so I wanted to get in touch with the Indian in me. I soon found a whole new world: The Spirit World.
When I graduated from high school and had more time on my hands, I started exploring sides of myself that I did not even know existed. I started becoming more spiritual in nature and let myself be guided by the Spirit World.
I got my first books a few years later and they explained a few things to me, mostly things that I had been doing for years.
My sister-in-law loaned me a couple of her books, about three or four years back, and introduced me to Wicca (before that I just called myself a Witch). I found with her books, the same as I did with mine, that I have been doing those things all my life.
Well, any way, the feeling that I get standing under the full moon is the feeling that I got while I was in church. So I know that God showed me to the path that he wanted me to take. Some people he takes down the Christian path and others he takes down Wiccan, Pagan, or other paths.
When I started out, I was pretty much alone. I really did not have anyone to ask until I was 21. That was my Dad's third wife. She is an Indian and taught me some things. One of the things that she taught me was that everything is alive. I can walk through the woods and feel the trees. I have walked along the beach and felt the water. Not just the fact that it is wet but I could feel something greater. It is hard to explain.
I don't know if my teachings are different from others but I tend to look at things different then everyone else. To me Magick is very serious and very real. I have seen things that make me have a very good respect for the good side of Magick. I have heard alot of people say that there is no evil, but I have seen it close up. So no matter what anyone else says to you, if you feel a certain way about something, go with your feelings.
I have walked with the Indian Spirits for many years. They have taught me a great many things. Mostly how to join with nature, and how to let the spirits guide me to where they want me to be.
Getting to know more about the spiritual side of life is more or less getting to know a side of yourself that you did not know was there. With me I do not just practice I live the craft, it is as much a part of me as I am a part of it.
I tried to give the craft up once for love. BIG MISTAKE!!! I wound up loosing a part of myself. It has taken me quite a while to find myself again. And now that I have, I know that this is my path in life.
To let your Spirit soar, with an eagle in flight is one of the best feelings that you could ever have.
If you have made it to the bottom of the page, pat yourself on the back. This is a little dry to read.