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MalICious Melancholy This is What i See......how i go through all this...
tell me what YOU see
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Filtered Thoughts



cares
i don't care if im depressing myself this is whats all built inside me trying to escape from thee but yet i try to send a message so the people who are not yet like me will never have to be im sorry im sorry for everything i think i should jus never talk to anyone and hide all my feelings and pursue with my dreams if i do the pain will be so unmerciful that once false move could send me far into a state at which i cannot break free this is what i have brought to me im sorry im sorry im sorry this is my cares, my dreams, my thoughts im watching the time drift by seeing a face of the unknown only to be frightened by all thats in me the potential to kill to take this pill that will make me ill but yet take me away from all of you and leave here and never be this is me this is me slowly drifting away ...finding a love that will never be.....

You have The CHoice but not a right one....
The media and the government when not looking, can be the Satan in disguise…why do you think they want us to go by what they say, and to live by how they want their ways to be taken out….. To tell us who the enemy is, when really its US When will we learn to stop takin``g from the ones who strive on what little they have, to give us “more” They say, once a great day, someone will pay….. Why do we have to be the ones who take form other countries jus so our lousy dollar goes a bit further? Looking into the day , a another one will always say…I wonder if I will make it, I wonder if I will stay…… What do you see in a false future, a race of man kind that acts as savage beasts, taking what little one has…..and selling it so they may repeat their frenzy We may suffer from this….but what do we care? Looking into the eyes of our lost past and the great present The life extinction that we inhabit will be the fall of us People all running around on hands and knees. Looking up to the heavens to see the clouds dark as they resonate. Seeking out a fore teller wanting to know what wrong with US…seeing the hideous fiends as the walk this very ground. Moping, tear shed blood drawn eyes….looking for a new soul to pray on so they shall not die….. The cities will fall the rivers will expire as we all looking for something much higher Feeble frail and rotting. Our bones turning to dust, our outer shell burned and churned, lost are we to ourselves. Searching for the almighty to only find that one thing that we all worship…money.. We sell our souls for this so we may be happy but yet we have already sacrificed our “great” selves for the Judgment day…..only we are here only we are the ones who are going to decay……. Searching for our lost loved ones, only to find bits and pieces of their torn bodies. Crying wanting none of which is happening to ever had erupted, but its their fault we started this. Its their fault we are all here looking for something better when we know there is not one….. Searching…searching, searching plagued by our thoughts that we will be ok…… This is what I only have to say…We’re Dead, its hopeless, back out or be killed……

FaLSe
could one of you do me a favor? tell me the defenition of life in your own words some say life is.... whatever you make of it. and what about love? love blows love is pain life just brings pain and misery and love.... love is ... crap well then u do agree with me I dont think there is any such thing as love. it's just made up to make people believe something yea a FUCKIN LIE hurt more my friends a few of which have killed them selves cuz of rejection i don't think thats love what do you think is love? some say love's only brought me and everyone i know PAIN! what's the point really, love or is this a false tale? maiming and killing your ownself thats what it is your life long dreams abolished we've realized the truth some blind faced mother fuckers think love and dreams are what people live for......umm sure love and dreams can be thrown away too I don't live for them. dreams just give you false hopes. dreams can hurt you and kill some think nobody has ever reached their dreams? dreams just make you believe to find out you're wrong! yes then got shot why reach a dream? there's nothing worth living for after you reach it you fall! it's like climbing up a ladder and falling down except you unfortunately dont' die. people think we need to go to therapy and get some antiderpressants or something.......WE FOUND OUT THE WHOLE TRUTH I'm not depressed! life is misery life is here to stay love is an accessory to a false truth love can hurt kill maim someones self therapists just try to steal your money! see now the people that look happy are hiding their real thoughts and feelings they're fuckin lying to themselves wake up is this the life intended for us? is this the way we want to live? well society the motherfuckin crooked faced liers think they have done something good? they jus want us to spend money love sucks life sucks dreams are just false hopes why try why care? see those fuckers want us to believe in the false truths you're gonna tell me you're not depresed? it gets you NO WHERE! I'm not going to therapy you're depressed all the time if you screw up and I'm not depressed you jus don't know it Ive just realized the truth about life fuck you wake up and smell the lies the burning flesh of one this is life? this is hell for the love do you have any fun ever you think you are but no you're not........

Love Pain Death
can I ask you a question? do you people enjoy you're life.........after being through hearbreaks.......tragedies.....deaths...... what do you think of your life? im not suicidal but my friends are I try to get them out of it they're in this thing called......oh whats it....oh yeah love to me love can hurt dismember someones self.......when ever used in the wrong way it can kill my friends have hurt them selves cause they have not one love......... I care for them and im sorry for how their FUCKIN life has treated them and I dont know what to do anymore these are my friends I don't want to abandon them........I live in this Unmerciful Hell at which i can't break out of Ill try to escape this place but I know inside me im already dead are you're lifes like that? some say yes some say no are you lost in happiness or life?.......life a lot of people are lost there I am too....life is something thats worth living for.......but you need to find it quick for you're reason ur here is taken from you life is sometimes happy but yet still sad and discraceful .......the deceptions.......sneak up on you and thrown u down harder then fore you even knew yourself......the lies the tragedies all add up at one point....and that time is when nothing NOT ONE FUCKIN THING MATTERS ANY MORE AT ALL.....nothing .......the sadness is here to stay but.........you will never find it you will lie to yourself........NOW WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU WANT TO LIFE TO YOURSELF?....huh give me a reason love is here......life is here.......sadness is here......happiness.....joy all that fuckin shit is destroyed when you fall for that one love of yours........you were lied to I stress to people enough to put all that fuckin shit behind them......never never never NEVER FUCKIN abandon the only one who knew you .......for some day they will be gone....... and you will still be here.........crying.....hurting your self .......over which you had the chance but guess what FUCKER you abandoned her.......now she is gone...... you attempt to find this portal a fragment of your lost love.........but get lost in all these lies that you have put onto your self no one no one NOT ONE FUCKIN soul on this planet has has ever lived up to the standards from that of which they were qualified for if this whole fuckin world was put together it would never even make on bit of the piece of the puzzle that is missing love.....love what is love my friends have been through it from what I have observed its jus pain HATE DECEPTION rejection........they strive to see if they perosn they love loves them.........they wait and wait....... maybe to get an answer.....or they lay there on their bed....dry tears pouring down their face.......blood escaping from their wounds yet.........they strive to get through another day with out comitting the tragedies of themself..... .......Im sorry about all this......Im jus stressing and trying to find out if you all know what love is? what is love? what do u think it is? ......all I want is the one angel who will make me "me" again.....and I have found her......yes I have......my love is here.....oh how I love her so......I love her

DarkNeSs
Darkness An aphobia is something I have grown up with....its as if im a flaw in my own life and yet proceed through all this to only be scared more then ever. The fear of complete darkness, and not knowing for that of which can leap out and grab me...pull me away into a place I have seen but yet care not to tell....this Hell....this place....scares the fuck out of me.........all my greatest fears all in this place built inside......I HATE IT...scared of things....no one could ever dream of such torment yet I have developed this.....the aphobias are what hurt me at times....Hydrophobia.. a fear for that of which I see everywhere.....anything that has to do with water...even a quick glimpse of this torment can change me in instant.....the fear of dying underwater......the fear of seeing a casket......innevitable.....that I'm seeing this horrible place no matter where I am....Arachnaphobia.....ever since I was little...I have been plagued by spiders every day when I woke up.....the first thing I would see.....this hairy....eightlegged...guivering..feurocious ....fiend...setting its eight eyes on me.....this torment I can't even bare to help myself out of.....since I have no clue what......it means to be scared of ghosts....I'll tell you why I fear those helpless, lost souls....when I was little, I watched a show with my mom entitled, "Ghosts Living or Fake?".....in this show I was completely scared of what was going on....but there was this one episode...to which I can still remember...this is how it started out....if you don't mind....a man had rented a room in a hotel...it was a fairly good sized room....and all....but when he started to go to bed...the window silently opened, letting in the freezing coldness of death....he thought a window could had been left open......that was when the radio turned on and started playing 20's music...that was when he knew something was weird ||OK IM LIKE FREAKING OUT NOW!||.....suddenly two eyes appeared on the tv screen looking at the man....he called for the quardsmen to his room....the guardsmen was bewildered by what he had cast his eyes on.....he turned on and off the tv....nothing happened....the womens eye's in the tv...were scanning the room.....suddenly the guardsmen pulled out the power cord on the tv...NOTHING happened.....so when ever I fall asleep or have that thought I try not to look at the tv, for I know it could get me......at times when ever I'm happy it will turn into bitterless rage.....and I go litteraly INSANE....smashing my head on the desk...quivering with fear....arms quivering......teeth chittering...hair standing up on end.....my voice lost....eyes set and directed to fear......happiness evicted from me.....the fears...the freezing coldness of death lurking behind me......fear is what is becoming of me.....making the sadness within me take over....seeing faces....of the dead.....their weary souls still lurking and searching.......while yet the dead haunt me in my thoughts.....but not in my house.....fear is built out of me.....this is what at times I think powers me.....this is the way I am.....this is what I am...but why am I like this?......why?.....fear of almost everything.......depression....sadness.....all set inside me......the Darkness....will come first for me.....that means if I'm talking to someone on MSN and the power goes out.....and no one is home.....my fears will release their greatest powers over me....the ghosts will come.....the unforgiven souls will get me.....they will take me away, torture me......kill me....the "one" who lives in the basement will get me with its blood shot eyes....horrifing laugh....will come get me......murder me.......the water will plague my mind...my greatest fears will all be released and set upon me....in the darkness....the only place I can not escape....the Hell that I know.....the hate will enrage me...hurt me....make me fall into a state of pain that so unbareable...that all my life as I know it will be set on pause or rewind......but during that time period....I will be gone...Killed...when all the time sets forth again....there will be no one in the chair for that of which I was sitting.....my room never even mine..... all and everything I know will be not here.......no one will even know who I was....I will be gone....the Darkness will add me to its lost collection......plague my mind with melancholy...bitterness will be all I taste.....hate and negativity will be all I see......all my "good" emotions will be taken from me and burned....in the darkness...this is where I will be...this will basically be...the last thing I see........

FoRSAkEn
Love will it ever be for me? love with this be the end of me? Love love love love? this is how life has treated me? online relationships...a game a false fortelling love? whats the point? when you're despised by all but accepted by a few is this what i have been sent and have to do? love may be for a few but for me it will never be i can not live a false life, this is not true im lying to myself and killing my insides having thought of what is there only to find that im not that, one that, one person, that one "kind" if this is the way i have to live then i choose to seek a new way but yet the path and everything is starting to decay from my memory how will I ever get back? how will i be able to find my self again? this is the end this is the last but yet im not going to give up i will strive and hold my grasp a lie is not the way to live a life if you want to live a live and be told you're loved then so be it? i don't know anymore how i could have been so disobediant but yet im sorry for all i have lied to and i don't know what to do this is the way, this is my way, this is the only way that i know im sorry my forsaken mind has yet one thought how could i had been so stupid to you and myself? this is all i know........sorry

love devine
i always think what would happen if you loved someone so that they only glanced at you then left.....what would you feel like if you believed in them and they said they'd catch you when you fell.......but you fell alright you fell into the ground and there's the person talking to someone else while your lying on your back on the ground.....what would you think of that then? what would have done to prevent yourself from falling into the ground?.....maybe you could of never got with them.....i don't know.......but why did you in the first place?......why did u give your heart to someone only to have them walk all over it and spit on it.........how would you had delt with finding all the flaws out before you got with this person?..........maybe you might have been caught and slowly set down on the ground........not falling on your back and shattering your memories........why would this person that you trusted be so inconsiderate about themselves and not caring wheather they caught you or not?........im sorry for all the people that have been in this before.......im sorry about how you have been treated and how you could had overcome this but yet insisted that they were the one.......this is how love is supposed to be?...........i don't think so........love should be where the person that you care about cares more or the same as you do.......you should always care for eachother and help them out of unrelenting...or tough situations........you should never abandon them.........never let them fall into the ground.......you should always be there.........never to let them slip away from you.......they should have no fear or questions about if you don't catch them.........they will never be sad.......they will always be happy.......or well at least thats what im told and have noticed.......but the other parts of love are very hard to escape..........if you get in another relationship and you're still with someone.......don't....... don't fuckin......go out with another person........you should love the one that you were first with and never to leave them........ this is how love has treated us...this is the way we people still live today......love divine........

(RE)[fle]ction
my face is torn off worn away yet depressions glides through the rest of my body as if im controlled by hate and kill all that stand in my way to redeem my self and set forth a new goal and not have it be demolished by hate and greed....to try and set my self free from all that has been built up inside me and yet this will never be.....the reflection of my worn off smile slips into a state and laughs at me rhetoric questions fill my mind falling down from the harsh pain throbbing in my head....my hands bleeding dying away......my eyes cold harsh.......unknown....my face burnt with fear sadness imprinted in my face greed slipping into my mind...killing.....the harsh sounds of the people laughing at me telling me i will never be.....this is the end this is the end this is when ill come back and get you motherfuckers and hope you never met a lost fallen soul such as me....slithering into my mind a being pointing tell me to follow what it commands......i destroy this rabid beast and set forth on my mission.....the knife in my hand the seringe in my arm.....the bullet holes in my chest the burns of lies creeping down and burrowing in me.....the face of revenge smiles at me in the mirror....the wrecklessness is forming around me........the psychopathic daze daze.......the fear of running away.....fire in my eyes....hate in my heart.........suicidal thoughts plague my mind.......jus to see nothing behind these impure needs.......the mirror how it laughs at me......the sudden harsh sound of glass breaking into the ground as i destroy the mirror........glass shards in my hands....pieces burrowing in me blood seeps through the wounds and hardens........hatered on my face.......chaotic smile......black image.......jesturing laugh......ice picker in my hand........glass shards falling to the ground........peace seizes to exist......happiness is erased from my memory.......fire dancing around me.....people laughing at me.........i raise the axe to end all the annoiance.....turn around to see everything being erased.......being erased from my memory........i wake up to see myself in the mirror.......how could someone such as me be filled with such thoughts of this?.......as i turn..... my reflection laughs at me and smiles develishly behind me i turn around to see myself...sadness in my eyes......cold face......fingers trembling......this is my reflection that casts back to me.........

this is how i feel at times and others..........worse

Wonder
what is this new feeling in me?...waht is this miraculous light i see before me?......what is this new being that has come to me with such an illuminate glow?........is it happiness? from what i am told yes it is.......happiness eh?.....a feeling that renews my soul.....makes me see the better side of the harsh reality......i can finally face all my fears once again and throw them away from me.....and pursue my life long dreams......i can pick myself off the ground finally.....this light brightens up all the dark morbid things around me.....to see through them and finally discover that these beings could have been me but no......i found the light .....i found the way im suppose to pursue........not to get detoured by temptaton that builds up inside me.......this feeling is so miraculous.....that there should not even be name for happiness......to me it should be known as excentric....i see myself in the mirror...for the first time im not depressed or sadened by all that is around me.....im actually smiling and laughing joyously once again.........my heart not filling with pain but a new type of presence....my soul finally glowing.....not dimmed out and decomissioned.....happiness eh? well this is a feeling that i hope never to leave my mind or my body......my fingers warm and not cut and frozen.....my face pure and white.....not torn off burnt away......this is something that no one can buy or ever replace with anything......happiness is what you feel and have that you enjoy and this is something that is never leaving me.....this wonderous presence is finally here to stay never to leave me or be cast away.....happiness this is what it has all come to be for the first time.....replacing all the glass shards that have fallen onto the ground and gluing them back in place......to see my wonderous face my whole body once more......this is happiness this is the way to live this is the way to be......all the stories that i have told you before none of them can compete with something such as thee......this is life this is life this i the way life should be.....Life....Happiness.....Dreams......Hope.....joy.......all finally burrow in me......to make me see i can help someone such as me......

GueSS
you claim like you know me you claim you know my weaknessess you claim that you know my existence ....you know how i feel.................how i hurt ..........how i see things...........you claim...you know everything.......this whole issue about living doesn't even effect your listening........you claim you can see through my eyes.........you can see my fears .....my....happiness.......how can you see such.....emotions.. ...and thoughts.........when you are not even me?..... how the fuck can you see things my way....how can you think like me? ...how can you do everything that i do?..............you're not a twin of me.... your basically a stranger who puts more lives in danger......guess what..... you're wrong..........you can't see any fuckin thing i see...... you can't feel my greed........you can't see my fears.......my lost childhood... you can't see anything...........you can't even see good......you're lying to me.... you told me everything was going to be jus fine..........evereything was going to be... normal.....well fucker looks like you're wrong........i still feel the pain....i still feel that sadness taking over me..............and yet you claim you knew everything?...........how could i had been so stupid......to believe a lier like you?.....how could i had stooped to your stupidity?.........why did i have to believe you?.......now im hurting because i listened to you....im feeling all the feelings that will never leave me.........and yet you're nothing........to me......you're jus an insignifact soul who's messed up too many lives.........who has spread many lies..........who will make anything a demise......i feel sick that i listened to you.........that you actually had the nerve to care for me and say that you can see what i see.............this......this........im too sick right now to even look at you..........to even be with you.......you brought this upon your self......now go leave me and never return.......never be a part of me........never talk to me..........jus go away.......go on with your journey of fucking up people's lives............for some day these fucker's and i will get you and make your life more miserable then you made us believe..........this is your last life.........this is your great demise.......

[re]VEN(ge)
the sweet taste of blood after bashing someone's head in the...ground .the sounds of all witnesses...coming, jus like a vulture swooping down for the attack, the horrific screaming as you flee from the beings....the people clawing at you...pulling you back to hurt yourself....the cries of seeing their loved one laying on the ground...lifeless...cold...blood seeping through the cracks of their torn head....bat laying beside them...head smashed into the ground...glass seeping through the cracks....people punching you...yelling... pulling you throwing you back into the blood....fire in their eyes....tears falling on the ground....yelling...telling you to die and never be again ....to take you and destroy you...make them feel how all your loved ones would feel.....struggling to get though all this chaos you notice a gap....like a white light at the end of the tunnel...you attempt...to move...but are kicked in the side blood pouring out of your tattered and torn body....the malicious...thoughts of killing and trying to get back up and redeem your self...all drift away...like the wind blowing a bag in the air.....your dreams of being what you wanted are also taken with your thoughts....everything that once used to be you has now vanised and you're left.....you're there jus lying....on the ground......the vultures swooping down on your dead lifeless body....execration is of no more.....your life is gone.....your heart punctured with a shread of glass....your eyes torn out....your mouth cut and bruised.......your face burnt...and ...you're...nothing now......no one cares about you....your tragedy doesn't effect them...they have no care for you...........not even your loved ones.....your body...with maggots crawling in your eyes....snakes slithering through your mouth...spiders in your arms....rats feasting off your face.....flies feeding off your organs........this is what you have become...this is you....you attempted revenge...you tried to get back at the person for hurting you....now...you're praying....for nothing.....you're......gone....



These are THINGS tHAT I sEe TELL me WHAT you THINk
the great...LAST STAnD......




Belief
¡¦..the forgotten sadness comes again¡¦.
The horrifying cries plague your mind
The unforgettable tragedies hurt you more¡¦¡¦the beloved
child that you once were¡¦¡¦.the happiness¡¦has been
abolished the life the meanings are all gone from you
they¡¯re never coming back¡¦.this may be what you have
to live with this may be the way you have to be¡¦¡¦.who
would want to live like this who would want to
be?...i know I wouldn¡¯t I don¡¯t like to see the
people have to put up with this have to have all this
brought to them¡¦..who would want to have
this?......would you¡¦..?


Thoughts

The thoughts have finally sprung upon me¡¦¡¦the thoughts
I having someone all wither away¡¦all disipate and
leave my thoughts¡¦¡¦the thoughts of all this the
thoughts of nothing¡¦¡¦.the empty torment has finally
sprung its wrath upon me¡¦..make me want to kill to
love¡¦..makes me want¡¦.to destroy all that stand in my
way¡¦.I WANT THESE FUCKERS TO KNOW HOW I FEEL I WANT
THEM TO FEEL LIKE ME!.....the loneliness¡¦..why is
this¡¦¡¦.why did I have to be brought up this way¡¦¡¦.I
can stand to live this but at times I feel like I jus
want to fall down and die and leave no one sad¡¦..i
know this might be sad¡¦¡¦..but do I care



Confined

Being locked away in this place¡¦..cold dark sad place¡¦¡¦the trees growing hatred in their leaves¡¦..the roses turning into thorn bushes¡¦¡¦the grass turning to ash¡¦.. the hill sides fade away¡¦..the sound of laughing escapes but dissipates in my hands¡¦..the door in front of me laughing¡¦..confining me¡¦.holding me back from my lost child hood¡¦I growing farther and farther away from myself¡¦.my door black¡¦cold steel¡¦.bullet holes of escape¡¦blood from myself clawing¡¦.trying to leave this place¡¦¡¦¡¦confined¡¦..lost¡¦.this door still sits there¡¦.I have tried many times to break it down or to even crack it open to see myself¡¦¡¦the door keeps me here¡¦.confined¡¦.

Numb

Freezing in the spot of direction¡¦.confused in the hideous choices I have taken¡¦¡¦scared of what is to come¡¦..fear¡¦of losing it all¡¦..fear of being the one lost¡¦.malicious thoughts¡¦..heartbroken tragedies¡¦..hate driven lunatics¡¦.schitzophrenic psycho attack¡¦.numb¡¦.this does not make any sense nor does a lot of things I reveal¡¦..but this¡¦..a thing that comes once in a while when I may be happy¡¦..this is what it feels like to be me¡¦¡¦..

Disturbed

A have grown over the years finding out when I was raised¡¦¡¦everything that I do now¡¦.was done by someone else¡¦..even talking¡¦.was done by someone else¡¦I have grown to hate this but yet I find it¡¦.hard to hate the one you love and cared for¡¦¡¦now since I have grown life is different¡¦.I¡¯m disturbed of making my own decisions¡¦¡¦.someone else did that for me¡¦.now I¡¯m here¡¦..I¡¯m disturbed¡¦..I may not reveal it to the naked eye¡¦..but deep down inside¡¦..I¡¯m screaming¡¦.I¡¯m crying¡¦.I¡¯m doing all I can for appreciation¡¦to fit in¡¦.this may not be right but yet this is what it has come to be¡¦¡¦


MY Girl

after having the best night of your life, the love of your life, sitting right next to you, telling you how she cares and that she loves you.....her parents liking you and...the feeling that this is the right girl for you......her parents pull over to drop you off...your girl holds your hand...looking into her soft sweet delicate eyes....such an angel as her could never be replaced....giving her a kiss good night, and telling her you love her....letting go of the soft smooth hand...seeing her driving away then...watching the van driving into the the distance.....waiting there crying and feeling sad that you had to let her go home....wiping away the tears from your sadened face....feeling at least happy that you now have an angel......suddenly you hear a crash and loud explosion come from the distance....the sound of breaking glass...and tires screeching.....running to the scene to see.....thoughts of who was injured race through your head.....when you see the scene your heart feels as if its ripped out of you and burnt....seeing your angel there lying there......her parents minor injured, you run to the door to reveal blood on your angels delicate face, cuts and bruises on her arms and face.....her parents getting out of the wreckage...you grasping for your angel...pulling her bruised body out of the van....the paramedics rushing to the scene....seeing your angel being set on a stretcher....holding her hand kissing her bruised face....seeing the ambluance doors shut...you screaming at the ambulance...but cannot hear yourself over the cries and screaming.......seeing the amublance disappear in the distance....running back home to get your parents to drive you to the hospital.....you feeling and hearing all the sadened thoughts...taking over you.....seeing the wreckage as you drive past...seeing the vehicles a blaze.....only caring about that one thing...."my girl"....reaching the hospital...you leap out of the car not caring that it was still going.....running into the hospital...running directly into the door....smashing into this not knowing that this door was broken....getting back up.....running to see where your angel is.....to find her room next to you feeling happy but yet sadened by fear....running over to her seeing your angel bandaged up and ivs and wires in her once soft delicate body...which has now turned into a cut and bruised outer layer....holding her delicate hand seeing her....weakened eyes crying....feeling her arms trembling......suddenly she speaks......I......Love.....you....then seeing her eyes close shut and her arms stop throbbing...her breathing seizes to exist.....holding her in your arms crying.....crying....the angel that you once had....now gone and cold.....her lifeless body sitting there...still....your angel gone......your dreams and your thougths shattered......but knowing some day....sometime when you pass you will be with her...happy and joyed once again....the angel that you once had will be there loving and kissing you.....seeing these thoughts... you kiss her and tell her you love her too and that you will always love her......she was "my girl" she will be with me where ever i go.....<


Destruction

The world, what a wonderful place. People all happy and joyous about being who they are. Lives greeting another life, teaching them that everything is going to be all right. Friends and family celebrating holidays together, laughing and sarcastically carrying on. Homes and shelters all having a soul to depend on, money and fortune is not of the thoughts and cares. No disarray and melancholy is ever spoken or even greedily mistaken. Lives of the world all are happy to be here and let nothing ever hurt them, or so they thought...

In their memories, they had known of others that lived to die. The world felt that it had rid themselves of the evildoers. Not realizing the evildoers were actually them. Super power only has one agenda, and that is to hold the trump card of fear lest any other nation would share the same capability. To be in this elite group, you must have a demented outlook that nothing can ever go wrong, because those who fear you wish you dead.

They said, “it would never happen again.”…but it did. The land of rape and honey had become a cesspool of beggars and thieves. Those who tried to live their life with out being effected by the economic instability; withheld to the belief that things would get better again. As history repeats itself, that after an economic collapse, the only way to pull out is to create a “boogieman.” Using the collective conscience of the world on the side of profit and to restore economic stimuli, blood must be spilled.

The world experienced the roaring 20’s, followed by the dismal 30’s and problem solved produced December 7, 1941… They said, “It would never happen again.” By having a chance to share time with those who are still alive today we understand now that this was not a surprise, but a solution. All in the need of prosperity and economic stimuli.

The World-Wide-Web…A.K.A “The Internet” was actually a device created for use of a tool to rebuild the world after the nuclear holocaust. EMP’s will be the downfall that will cause a disruption to what we consider “condition-normal.” It will happen by a twinkling of an eye, vehicles will stop, factories will shut down, knowledge will disappear from the screen, and the world will be over come by an eerie silence. Those of the powers that be will have the only inclination of what they are about to do. Once again it will be declared an attack from evildoers. However it will be a systematic plan to convince those who are powerless to give up all they once owned, in return for their soul; their bellies shall be full. The Dark One awaits…

The lives of the living recognize that something is not right and desist to even mess with it. Too happy to not care about what’s going on. The stocks and all the belongings to the people are all being taken away and abolished from their grasp. People beginning to hate one another over the most idiotic occurrences. People are starting to stop talking to each other and follow by what they see on TV. The president is bewildered by what has arisen in office. The neighboring countries and provinces are warning him of the inevitable, and what will happen if he doesn't stop doing all that’s disappointing everyone. The ones that used to follow him and go by what he said, are now being lead by a false prophet. Lies and hatred are billowing in the lives of the people. Watching the money just drift away in the air and burn in the sky, the Amerikan Flag being burned by every veteran and Amerikan. A disarray of happiness is now burned and suffering through the pain.

“Many wars are erupting around the world, the armies of the almighty, that were once powerful and feared had become broken down soldiers, with their lives all seared. Their faces have witnessed many dead, for the people of the protest that were once lead. Blood fills the air with a stench and a vial, as Satan’s minions and He begin to smile. The earth is shaking, the seas are roaring, the people who remain wake up to witness the destitute and those who are mourning. The soul collector is gathering his till, doing Satan’s bidding, he is doing mankinds will. God and his army are nowhere near to be found, for as the bones of the dying lye heaped up in a pile and ash on the ground.”

Helpless lives perishing under the rubble, burnt dreams left for dead. This is what the world has come to in the end. Children searching for their parents underneath the billowing smoke, choking on their last breath, grasping for freedom and a way out of the array of chaos, children dying in the arms of another. The unbearable stench of death rotting plagues the freshness that once used to be. The hideous caskets of burned and rotting flesh cover the ground. Flies and maggots crawling through the eyes and souls of the dead. Blood spewing from the mouths of the grieving, lost in this destructive path. Lives are lost in the melancholy, people burned and scared, brutally tortured and slaughtered.

The world actually used to be a somewhat happy, prosperous, relevant place. Now people are here crawling on hands and knees, scraping up body parts of their loved ones and life. Holding them tight, their skin evapotrating in their grasp, lost screams and hatred are now everywhere to be found. Praying for someone to make all the chaos stop and desist the mundane and callous torture. Shot in the head without warning, lives of the innocent perish, melting away from the minds of the lost. Cries for help are at no point relieved, lost underneath all the gunfire and lost forever. The sky a hellish array of gases and lost souls all fleeing this once so great full land. The sun being covered up like a blanket underneath the smoke and burning buildings. Vehicles being struck by missiles and hardened thoughts of happiness are flipped over by the magnitude of the explosions.

Helpless lives all perishing in this frenzy of pain. Piercing shots of mustard gas and tear bombs hit the crowd, rioting victims and helpless lives are killed and brutally beaten by the nightsticks and shot in the heart from the torture. Tanks abruptly killing the lives of the innocent. Buildings of the lives that have been lost, are now rubble, blowing in the wind, a new dream is lost. People of the same kind fighting each other, killing the helpless victims, murdering their own. Mushroom clouds are dissipating in the distance, after the shockwaves have leveled the houses and the once so great cities down to rubble.

Lives of the ones that are left, die from the radiation. The final and last straw is broken, the last day that we all lived, the last day we were "here." President allowing the last and final nuke to be set off, and the “Dead Hand” returning fire. Disadvantageous he is killed by an unknown gunman, a madman lead by the Antichrist. The nukes soar through the air, fumes and debris fall from the death machine and plummets to the ground, killing all that's in sight.

Now the days have turned from all bright to no future in sight. Darkened lost souls seeking revenge only to die once more. The gunfire, the burnings, and the chaos fill the air, no sound is too proud to even make it to a concerned ear. Lives are lost the cities the capitals, provinces, states, countries, are all now down to the ground. The waterways, lakes and streams are poisoned with fear and feed from the mass extinction. The moon portraying a sea of blood from the failed and lost attempts to kill the lives of another. The earth is now licking her wounds. Life will now start over again lead by the Dark One and peace shall fill the land. The lives of the Nation all seizes to exist, destruction has taken this planet, this home to all of us as if it were abduction.

Embrace

To hold the one that you care about to not let the innocent perish…to feel free of all the lost causes…too many lives yet today have not found out about this and desist to care about these systematical beings….plight and well being…feeling the rest of the colony losing because of their false prophets and money greedy fortune tellers….going to a new person after slaughtering and demolishing their dreams…the morphine of bloody knuckles and sour words…kills….false tellers of the future bring this nation down….they predicate with what you already know….lost in this array of inverted twists of normal and false…these people claiming they can help us, only to steal our money and make us believe in a false telling….varying laws of callousness pursue with great redemption and lost torture…to let them all fade away, to not give a shit about their thoughts and their embrace….letting them load you down false fortune and not give a shit about you…lost in the alleys and dark morbid creatures summoning for you, trying to at least destroy your kind of being the lost life of life…to redeem this…their gone….embrace…

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Reaching out, trying to tenacity something, clawing at the disarray that has submerged you in this drastic sphere….feeling the warmth of an unknown, trying to pull you out of the hate and misery….slipping and falling into your hell…..feeling their selves plummeting in to the elixir that reeks of death….morbid creatures with rabid eyes spotter the very surroundings you bare to grasp……day retroflexioning to night…the creatures all come out…. Swarms of the Stygian fiends feast off the others morphine shots of Mephistophelian slit your skin…obtund the very outer stratum of your body…choreography of melancholy poise in your path…the one warmth that endeavored to pull you out…is now resting on the nadir of the animosity that derives from the unascertained….her body once so white now burdened, rock cold… painted with fear…. Eyes sewn shut… body dispirited and shredded…looking up to see the heavens black with clouds circling the firmament…ice transpires from the clouds…impacting and shredding the very locality you systematize…the situs once where you were conceited at is now strayed…only you are forsaken…the ice incision marooned you in this dire…oubliette…hexed to never have any of your signification…except to expire….


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||eye OF ChaØs||

Life may be this new way of living, but how many people can actually transpire out the virtues and the serenity to actually be happy once again?….how would life of had changed if all there was is mass destruction and homicidal refuges running around insanely in this nation that we all love and care for…..what would life be like if you had to kill to stay alive, you had to hurt your self to make it through another day…how would your perception and mind change if you had to live this life, if you had to be the one slaughtered and left for dead. Life actually used to be what we all called “normal” back then…..now we’re on hands and knees crying, bleeding in our insides….our outer shell dissipating from what life has given us…our shield of trust and happiness is now laying on your side burning, crying for a way to actually be part of you once more….your hands bleeding with glass shards and slivers of guilt transpire through your broken and torn body……the refuges running around….crooked smiles…hideous faces looking into your darkened lost soul….trying to escape this place that you live…..the stench of burning bodies and rotting corpses being eaten by their own kind….cannibals ripping and tearing on the outer layers of the bodies that lay dead and cold…..blood flying everywhere….tears and hope are now evaporating….the life that has been given to you to carry out and live…laughs at your face and turns your face black and burns your eyes with such illuminate darkness…..this will be your way of life in this new age and hopefully you can make it through all the sorrow and hardship of having to feel this animosity towards all of your loved one….you may have to kill to strive and be alive, but not free….freedom is of no fact anymore…we’re all lab rats in this huge world….we may have brains but we trade our souls in for money… to plennish our hunger….we look to the Dark One for answers….away “temporarily” out of this hell that we all live in….many souls and lost lives will lurk in the shadows and abrupt any mysterious creature that comes to be….feeding off their organs and ripping their eyes out….bashing their bodies……slaughtering their dreams…….eyes and ears torn off…….attaching your parts of your body to themselves…becoming the lost you…..many people in this nation are like that…the stygian fiends all find a way to make it so they can live…even though they are already dead……clouds of depression and astonishment plague the minds of the lab rats that we are….confusing us of what is real and what is fiction…..our may souls have to live by what were told….no freedom….we may say we have it but yet…we’re too scared to even bring up the fact…knowing that we might as very well die……buildings collapsing…families living in poverty…broken homes and false foretelling…..creating lives of distrust and disbelief…asking is there away out of this….children running around… cancerous victims and rabid children suffer for being different…suffer for being abnormal…..families living in their own little words…insanely going crazier each day….one by one the family members are taken away…by their curiosity and questions…..wondering how come we can’t be free…the houses and buildings one by one being destroyed…..making way for a better “people” evicting the ones that used to grieve and suffer pain…no money no cares…..people killing another for nourishment…poor victims being introduced to the end never to have a beginning only to have an end………….


Stygian.....the bringer of Darkness...HOpes FALL.. Depression...Suicidal RamPAGe....HomiCIdal refuges