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My tortured thoughts or Love

The confined inner chamber of LIFE (res)titu[de]

The lost souls of the damned
The hell that keeps alive
Thoughts of the one the lost
Forsaken Lost SOULS

My one Angel || ILLUminAte DARk|/|ess




These last few days have made a wonderous change on my life, my first real true love, I may still have to have the problems that live inside me, but now i got someone i got someone thats cares about Thee. My life of this (res)tit[ude] will finally make a break and finally might make me feel better, but now i wait and wait for her, for Nicole to see me one more.....



Nicole my one Angel


Nicole is everything I want and everything I crave
She's my angel she's my one true babe
I love her with all my heart
Here i lay crying
crying, and waiting for her never to depart
Angel is what she is to me
So what if she does drugs and weed...
I don't care she's all i want she's everything i need
Her eyes so bright and vibrant
but yet she always tries to hide them
Her hair like silk
her face so pure and sweet, like buttermilk
I wish I lived closer to this one true love of mine
I wish i could be there for her any time
This girl that I have loved for so long has finally made it here
she is with me she is so sweet and cute
I love this angel I love her with anything i can give
but it will be a while fore I may see her, fore she may come to live

Now I lay here with my blanket in my hand
smelling the sweet sweet smell of her hair as she lay on me
holding her hand and coressing her face
now all i have is this smell of her hair and the thoughts of this trace
wishing forever for her to be here instead of me crying
This is the angel I love the only one I will love till im dying
While I'm still here I want to do all I can
I want to hold her sweet soft delicate hand
She gave me my first kiss
I wish it could had lasted forever in this bliss
she hugged me, I hugged her
now i have to be the one to let her go to her father

Nicole is my angel, she is my light
I will love her every night
For I only wish I could see her
but right now she is in fear
Grounded for not telling where she was going
but I'm sorry it had to come to be
But all i want is my Angel
Nicole and Me......



Here we are today, looking out at all this decay. Yet we look at each other and ask, what if? Searching for the destitute that will leave us free. Our own lives in the hands of the children, yet we do not care about who we are. With the guilt and the sadness that lay within thee. Guilt in our minds and sight portraying to be bitter distortion, along with all that remain, what’s left in the unknown? How do we know they’re still alive, but with no well-being? Sadness evokes the animosity that portray in us. Allowing us to only see the hardship bitter self of all the remain. Starting to read in between the lines of trust and law, we become liars to our own self and do not cast out the sadness, but rather the happiness of that we are made from. While we look out at the ruins and the roads flowing of blood and dead carcasses, we turn away and do not care for all that we have brought to ourselves. We may not care; we may not despair, for all we know we don’t give a fuck about what we are. Yes that’s how many see us, not to care and to not wonder about why either. The happiness and the serenity may burrow within, but do we not mention it? Well what else do we have time for? Not many people know it but our time will be up as when the clock has struck. Many will be freaking out and running rampant in their own doubt…. but do we care? WE the citizens of what’s left of this place, do not care about anyone and let it not despair. Behind the crooked lies and bitter doubt, we do mention of a way out, but do not mention it to those who may corrupt us for all we’re worth. While we all look out, seeing the cities and noticing everyone running in doubt, they thought this would never happen again, they see now that they have contaminated us and left all rot. Children running on the broken glass and the blood running down the streets, while they know they’re contaminating themselves once more, noticing that we are here today. The martyrdom that we all so fear, is now rising from the pit and enveloping our existence with in it. We said it would never happen again, they said, “My fellow brother’s and sisters and great leaders, we will make it out we will find the key and unlock the greatness that we have all foreseen. We will find the plan, we have the plan….” Now those words lay far away and the great leaders are all unknown of even to themselves. We have a plan, we made a plan, we did the plan, now see where we stand? See what this place that we all used to have has embellished into being? Look out at the ways and the plans that may erupt from even the diligent of the very least. We may have a plan, but yet will it be the one that we will all be able to understand? Here we are today…here in this great day…. we will lead the way to and through the rest of the great redemption. Here…..we…are.. today

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Along this road that we travel, we all wonder if we lived well. We go through our days and do all we can, but there are always the consequences that might lead to sadness. While we go through we do not know what’s going to happen or what we’re going to do. The people say they lead a healthy life, but yet you still have to have the concerns that all your well-being is for you. The consequences also pertain to the actions that you have lead. While going down this road the factors may be high for you to lead a great life, while yet the end is to come. It may not make sense while you’re still young and adapting to this new world, but we’re all still that young little child, wishing for a better way to live. We all want to make it to heaven, but as you can see not all of us can. The life that we lead will be the factor upon each and every single one of us. This may all be false for all I know, but its your choice, you can follow by what the little box in your living room tells you to do, or you can stand up to what’s right and follow through with all the nonsense. People say they care about one another, but it all is summed up into one word…money. Its all we thrive on, its ion our blood to want more and if you have not enough, then you must still to replenish that little voice inside you. Money will be our downfall, once it is gone…what is left when there’s nothing? The life that we go through will get to us in the end. Making the choices of being better and actually following through. You may lie to try to be free, but you will die and not breathe until you have what you crave. You had the time to repent your sins, but now you’re doing it all over again. The path that you chose in the past will form your well being of today. Going through with a corrupt and crooked mind, you will find yourself at the end of time. On the brink of destruction trying to bring back the serenity, you will try to escape this, but the life you lead has you plummeting into the martyrdom that will incarcerate you and not let you be. It’s you life, its your choice, all I’m doing is trying to help. Know of what you lead, for you may someday be the leader.

Up | Down | Top | Bottom You have The CHoice but not a right one.... The media and the government when not looking, can be the Satan in disguise…why do you think they want us to go by what they say, and to live by how they want their ways to be taken out….. To tell us who the enemy is, when really its US When will we learn to stop takin``g from the ones who strive on what little they have, to give us “more” They say, once a great day, someone will pay….. Why do we have to be the ones who take form other countries jus so our lousy dollar goes a bit further? Looking into the day , a another one will always say…I wonder if I will make it, I wonder if I will stay…… What do you see in a false future, a race of man kind that acts as savage beasts, taking what little one has…..and selling it so they may repeat their frenzy We may suffer from this….but what do we care? Looking into the eyes of our lost past and the great present The life extinction that we inhabit will be the fall of us People all running around on hands and knees. Looking up to the heavens to see the clouds dark as they resonate. Seeking out a fore teller wanting to know what wrong with US…seeing the hideous fiends as the walk this very ground. Moping, tear shed blood drawn eyes….looking for a new soul to pray on so they shall not die….. The cities will fall the rivers will expire as we all looking for something much higher Feeble frail and rotting. Our bones turning to dust, our outer shell burned and churned, lost are we to ourselves. Searching for the almighty to only find that one thing that we all worship…money.. We sell our souls for this so we may be happy but yet we have already sacrificed our “great” selves for the Judgment day…..only we are here only we are the ones who are going to decay……. Searching for our lost loved ones, only to find bits and pieces of their torn bodies. Crying wanting none of which is happening to ever had erupted, but its their fault we started this. Its their fault we are all here looking for something better when we know there is not one….. Searching…searching, searching plagued by our thoughts that we will be ok…… This is what I only have to say…We’re Dead, its hopeless, back out or be killed……


BeTween All The Truth and
all the lies, reading in between the lines can prove
and also hrt someone, but when the sacrificial truth
leaks out the outcome could be disasterous.....

Can you help your brothers and sisters once they have disintegrated in your very arms? While you are here, will you make it out? Enveloped in this very martyrdome you scream and run around in fear of all that is the lost need why do you have to be the little child scared of the new ways? Why do you have to give into temptation? when you lead in the masses you're the leader, when you lead in the mass of killing you're the parasite how can you become better once you are of the rotten and distorted embelishment? how can you answer your prayers when you say you're not sad? Evil is what lives within this mass of us, its not shown by physicalinality, but by the emotions that bare within our saddened and hopeless thoughts of trying to be better This game that we all play with ourselves is not the way that we were suppose to pertain by and follow, yet when you have money, you could care less and noy give a shit about anything, ANyThing but your selfish Self Violence is what lives within us, is what nurtures our very sadness our only weak spot, for not with it we feel empty along with all we say, we do not care along with all we say, we do not care along with all we say WE DO NOT CARE we have not one need we say we're ok we say we're not going to hurt or destroy look at the VIOLENCE laugh at our selves and bury ourselves within our lies and sin we give in we give in to the VIOLENCE We care NOT to be sad Only to be driven once more by the one thing we crave only to be driven by what we crave only to want what we crave only to want what we cannot mistake Should, could, give in, I, take, kill, betray, leave me, hear the screams, here the sadness cries through all the guilt stricken "mistakes" hear it all VIOLENCE going by what it says, going by what it commands going by all the flaws we attempt to repair our sadness Kill to survive, crave to feast off the poor to take and exterminate VioLence VIOLENCE VIOLENCE

Judgment Day



Sometime we will all perish....
but what do we have to cherish?



What was of us to thought we could play God?


Living within the seclusion of the bitterness of the outside, searching for the lost survivors of the great massacre. While in this place you search around with vial distaste of agony that was brought to you. The slaughter of the friends you once knew, grow dormant in your static encephalopathic mind. Blood running to your mind and securing it’s self within your sadness of the great madness. Lost and weary, hearing the screams and moans of the fucked up madness. While searching outside, the destitute leaves you feeble frail and wondering, why did “they” take them? While you’re left in this abyss that was secluded of the stygian beings that once used to exist. Now nothing and burning in the sky, lay what’s left of this sad great land.


The sky reeking of the flesh and burning bodies that inhabit this mechanized reproductionized nation. Buildings burning, while the helpless flee in fear of the inevitable, making dues with they secure. Glass shattering as the Armageddon abolishes the nation of its greatness and serenity. Asking yourself, why? What the fuck? How can we escape?

Lost are we to the gates of heaven, or closer to the realms of hell?

What was of us to have thought we could play God and become the great “Master,” that we all so desire and acquire? How could we have made “us” better? No one has any cares any more for each other, survival of the fittest. Kill all and kill the problem? How can you kill the factor, when you inhabit the problem? With the sinister thoughts of saying you could make this place better, lie within all of us.
A bitter fragment of this great puzzle that explodes every time we come across a problem. It crumbling in our fingertips, while we grow with the animosity in us. We cannot build the puzzle; we have already unlocked the gates to the eternal judgment. We have set forth our Judgment Day. How to overcome a problem that lurks in the distance that plays with our minds, deceiving us of our hopes and grace, what do we do? The buildings the buildings and the churches all-crumbling in the smoke and the horrific screams lunge out at us, denying ourselves of our dignity…what dignity? We may help each other, but deep down inside we have no friends.

We have no one who actually cares.


The unempathetic of our sadness plays with our minds. What are we to become at the end of time? Will wee seek fortune, or will we sacrifice ourselves for bitter distortion? How can we escape, when we are the plan? Making something from nothing takes.....

Nothing

Making us admit takes the sacrificial dilemma of escaping us to admit we’re wrong. The churches filling with gospel praise, only to be slaughtered of themselves and become another part of the “mega death.” Bodies strewn all over the ground in millions. Rotting corpses seeping blood onto the blackened streets. Blood and gas mixed with the flames, engulfing and being set ablaze. The vial stench of the rotting plagues through the city. Roads crumbling from the quakes and lives lost…….


Will we ever find a way out of this madness?
Or will we rot and kill because of our sadness?


What is left to be left?


Could there have been a way to make this never possible?
Could we have done something to avoid this obstacle?
How can we live free?
When the pain and sorrow burrow within thee.
Would there actually be happiness?
Or a quick crooked 5-minute bliss.
Could there be an answer to our problems?
Do we always have to acquire someone else to solve them?
Why do we kill to kill?
Is it something that makes us ill?
How could we overcome our fears?
When they are already here
What might we make of ourselves then?
Perhaps we could all be whole once again.
The sinisteristic thoughts plague our mind
They have killed it all, even mankind
Do we care about the loss of others?
Or the death and numbers
Questions lay within the soul
What have we done to become so old?
Many people survive on what little they have?
Look at us, what do we have?
The nation will lie burning
But perhaps we might be able to stop it, before the turning
Judgment Day will come
What’s left? What’s it to be done?




STyGIAÈ MePHiStoPhELeAn HE


Blood seeping through the dispirited sleign body at the front of your scarred leg.
Animosity retroflexioning to the sword and battle axe that you grasp. The Blood
transpiring from the sword, dead lifeless body melting away by the roaches and
locusts eating away at the body. After seeing the eyes of the dead sleign soul
ripped out, you kill and annihilate another victim and pierce the swords man’s
horse with your blood-splattered sword. You submerge the sword into his cold
blackened heart….. screaming in pain..HE…attempts to grab his dagger, but has
his arm slit off by your axe. Malicious melancholy in your eyes, face burnt and scarred, sweat turning to blood, blood turning to hate. Your fingers clenching the sword,
aimlessly whirling it around, killing and beheading every lost soul that engulfs after you.

Cuts and broken bones are at no point in your body. The reeking plague of death
and the rotting corpses strewn on the ground that flows with blood rich and thick
are all cluttered in mass piles. Last beginners attempt to kill you…a silent hard swing with your axe and their head clings together with your sword, causing them to fall
to the ground headless and weary of all that lay. His head plummets to the
ground, blood pools disperse from it, rolling end over end it stops at your feet.
Bodies, hordes of bodies cover the floor as a carpet flung and left to rot. The
court yard grows silent and eerie with no sound of betrayal. The heavens
absorbing all the lost souls that have been sleign, fires erupts from the black clouds,
smoke and screams plummet to the ground. Bodies with animals ripping away
from the tremendous cyclone of dispirited flesh and lifeless bodies, whirl in the air and scream with pain. The trees and the towns all being leveled to the ground and left
barren. The blackness seems to come to view, so you may see quite clearly now.

Arming yourself with a sword and mace, body armor set and armed, looking up at
the catastrophic scene to see HE, with hate in your heart and rage in your mind,
you know who this devilish creature is. Textures after textures of his skin
penetrate the tattered and torn sword that you so command. In his claws you see the lost
kings that were pronounced missing; now you see where they have enveloped into
being. His tail with three heads of the serpents that so command HE.
Grabbing your sword with the blade of it facing you, acting as a shield, you mumble a
silent prayer, then attack this fiend…. before you try to avenge the deaths of the
kings, his arms come swooping in knocking you end over end.

You discretely get up with out letting the fiend see you. Fires and screams
transpire out of his mouth, turning everything to ash. Running frantically and attempting
to dodge his attacks having him follow you around the floor. Seeing the
opportunity you tease the devil and have him shriek, throwing your burning sword of hate
into his reckless mouth, throwing your mace, whirling it around chanting. Luring
him into his death trap, smashing into the pedestals and walls that inhabit you
both. The fiend begins to fall, plummeting to the ground, while you lay in his
path, running frantically and gracefully escaping his tremendous smash into the
cement. The floor begins to quiver with fear and questioning hate. Transpiring
into a hole that lay wide and deep, suddenly the creature submerges his body into
the hole, crawling with what little life you have left in you, resting on a pedestal to
regain strength. Suddenly he grasps for your leg, pulling you into this dark hell
that lay below. Screaming with fear, thoughts of child hood memories and the
good things all race through your mind, darkened thoughts, slay your happiness.

You’re now here……..

Pulling you down into this place that reeks of the fallen betrayal of lost souls,
hideous creatures and abnormal fiends flying around drastically, the heat and
stench of burning bodies hits your senses, dead remains of incarcerated and
slaughtered corpses lay at your grasp and arm lengths away. Pulling you, ripping apart,
HE attempts to close your soul and let your body perish, but desists and lets you
plummet to the ground. Faster and faster your sight becomes a blur, your eyes
start smearing away in this hole that you fall. The fires and the stench of the
horrifying expirees lay far, but close to you. The heat melting away your skin with
each type of blood vessel popping in your body, you smash into the ground.
Buried far from any type of life form to notice where you lay. Buried deep in this pool of
rotten corpses and stygian beings, unconscious and lifeless, laying and drowning
in this pool, eyes slowly growing heavy, blackness melts away……. Waking up
with the stench of dead bodies, you attempt to get up, scouting the place around
you; looking for HE. Hopelessly gazing around looking for an exit out of
this GOD forsaken hell.

Searching around on hands and knees frantically and growing scared. You run
into something, thick texture, warm surface…..looking up slowly with fear in your
eyes, you see him. Red eyes, and a rather crooked smile of hate. The locality at
which you lay seems to be a chamber of torment and destruction. The lost souls
that you have disrupted become fierce and start attacking you; the walls start to
grow with the horrifying sounds of hate and mourning. The fires of hell begin to
grow, lashing out at you, condemning you of what you did to the men in the
courtyard. Incisions of hate and hopelessness slash out at your broken body. The
floor starting to burn and break away, cracks and blood begin to form on the
surface at which you lay. Suddenly a shadow emerges from the room, running
away like a scared child lost in this big world, scared, crying, the horrifying
sounds of this fiend shatter the walls that incarcerate you. The shadow begins to disperse
henchmen from his inner self, laughing chaotically with swords and daggers,
crying, and feeling that you will die here. Slipping and rolling around, flailing
your arms, trying to get them to desist from the torture that you have inhabited
upon yourself. The horrifying sounds disperse, the creatures are gone, and the
room grows silent.

The walls starting to cry, plummeting to the ground; they shatter on the very place
that you lay. The floor begins to feel as if its spinning, only feeling, not
noticing. As you begin to twirl, your hands begin clutching the floor with fear, for
you know not where you’re going, but on the consequences of all that could
happen to you. While spinning you remember what you did to those lost souls that you
have decimated in the bloody battle that you had to raise. Sadly you feel yourself
lost and weary, while still clutching the floor that breaks away in particles
as you cry. The floor begins spinning miraculously faster; as you can tell, the hole
at which you were dragged into, is now shut and not mentionable of any type of
exit. The floor at which you lay, transforms into a cylinder like cone. You may
not notice this, but you can feel it; the heat is now dissipating and the climate at
which you are is now cold and starting to numb your bloody corpse of feeble and
frail bones.

Suddenly the platform restrains it’s self from going any further. You drag your
bloody corpse to the side of the platform to notice that this malignant spirit is
the one responsible for why you can’t leave this desecrating martyrdom. Feeling
the floor begin to plummet back to where you have attempted to escape, you start
to cry knowing that you’re going to die. Sadly you feel yourself being overcome
by a great spirit; for that of which cannot be spoken of; or to even be seen. This
imp grasps for your bloody torn body, as you try to move; he pierces right through
the platform and miraculously you move out of the way in an instant. Screaming
with fear, and the sound of him devilishly laughing at the torment that he places
upon you. The room grows foul, with the elixir of burning bodies. The blood
from the victims bleeds from the cracks in the walls and the platform at which you
lay. Your eyes growing closed, and the thoughts of giving up for the useless
tactics for trying to not die; flow through your head and bleed from your mind.

The fiend desists the brutal torture and disappears in the darkness, casting out
fireballs of retched sadness of having to let you perish. Your corpse of refuge and
confidence lay cold and lifeless on this platform at which you lay. Time passes by
shortly and you wake up to notice that the platform is spinning ever so faster, you
begin to fear the thoughts of what happened in the past race through your mind.
Here you are at the same place and the same location, but you’re now on a
platform shaped as a drill. Spinning insanely quick you feel vomit racing into your
throat, and try to spew it out, but mistakenly choke on it; causing you to convulse
in an uncontrollable state. Holding on for dear life as you being to spin, your eyes
beginning to burn from the vomit that has raced into your skull, causing you to
pass out. While unconscious, the floor starts cutting away bits and remnants of
dirt, roots, and rocks as you pass by. Digging into miles and miles of earth the
platform begins to slow as it cuts through the more gradual type of dirt.
Waking up after being struck on the head by a rock, you miraculously roll over onto your
bloody stomach.

As you open your eyes; you notice that there is a type of acrylic base to this floor;
that allows gazing right through it. You notice this place of perdition, growing
very faint as you begin to notice, that while you cut through the earth. She’s
repairing herself of the incision that you have made into her. Making it so no one can
ever find the purgatory that you have escaped from. You roll breathlessly back
over on your back to notice a white light. You are over come by joy; the
thoughts of you making it out of here are now high. You feel yourself being
rebuilt as you smile with pain inside. The mending of your beaten and selign
body; becomes to feel high in strength. The floor begins to slow as the floor
beings to slow. A quietness finally comes to mind as you feel yourself regenerated
with a thought of forgiveness, but yet also of pain and rage. Finally the drill
makes it to the “outer world” and you’re finally home. Gracious to step on the ground
and to see the sun setting in the horizon you look around with disgust in your
throat. Having an odd feeling, you walk around to notice if this is where your land
was struck and taken down. You gaze out at the castle to notice the retched mess
that you have caused, and see the townsmen all kneeling in front of it.

As you walk gazing at the castle still you notice; for this is not a castle, but a royal
church. You feel guilty about what you have done and kneel on the ground
and start to weep. Hearing the townsmen calling for your name with a rather
madness to their voice, you look to see them rampaging like a swarm of bees at
you. Running with a petrified mind, you dodge their weapons. Crying and
beginning to see that what is happening to you, was the same incident in the pit.
Screaming at you, remarking about how, they never wanted any of these mishaps to
happen, but now look at them. The savage beasts for that they are. Lunging out at you
swords drawn in their hands, pitchforks, bow and arrows, maces…they want you
to die and suffer the consequences of destroying their beloved sanctuary.

Running while looking back they attempt to hit you and miss. One of the men
throws their sword at you. The incision that has been brought to you, now lay
within you. The flourish of happiness reins no more. Now you cry and bleed on
the ground for what you have done. The swords man finishes the job by ejecting
the sword out of your heart and piercing through the skin of your neck. Ripping
off you head and lunging it through the air, you body plummets over
headless and lifeless, gone now. Your soul bleeds through the cracks of the barren
ground and meanders down back to the abyss.

Many men were tried that year in the century of the survival of the fittest. Many
had perished from their evil thoughts and callous crusades. A few made it out of
their ways; they were locked up and chained, beaten to death by their own
stupidity. Malnutrition and grotesque living quarters plummeted their hopes and dreams
to the ground, shattering them and killing them of their pride. Lost and still
searching for their refugee and looking out to killing another, that may be you or possibly
me…






Doors Locks and open Windows

Long ago off out in the country lived the Ives. Jake was only 2 when then most
god-awful henchmen from the stygian outer reaches, had erupted into the home at
which he lay. The night was of cold and solemn silence, the wind blowing across
the fields and leaping from house to house. Jakes father and mother were just
sitting down at the dinner table, when low behold, the door at which lay the farthest
across the room, burst open and in it stood a tall figure with an axe in his hand. He
summoned for Jake’s mother by name and commanded that she come to his
reaches at once. She screamed of fear at which was happening to her. Jake’s
father just sat there lifeless and unconscious, knowing that he can’t save her. The
same has happened to his mother in the past, years ago. Jake’s mother’s body just
floating and gliding across the table. Then she lay like a dead body in a peaceful
sleep. The dark figure lunged out at her delicate body and sliced, beat,
shattered, pronged, stabbed, and ripped her once so sweet body to mere remnants
and let her lay while the blood stay on the walls and across the faces of Jake and
his father, she lay.

The dark figure casts his way out of the home, and later after, Jake’s father comes
back to his senses and take’s his wife’s shreds and digs a grave next to the
home. Jake only at 2 had no idea why his daddy was taking his mother. Days
passed on and the cold night always came. Jake now at 6 asked his father when he
was going to start school. His father never told him about anything that night, but
he did say soon son. Jake now knowing the difference between right and wrong
was now starting the 1’st grade. He had known so much to not have to go to
kindergarten. Also he was homed schooled, his father never wanted him out of his
grasp.

Years passed and passed until his father called Jake down stairs and into the
kitchen. Jake, wondering what his father had to tell, ran down the stairs lunged across the
floor and arrived in the kitchen. There his father sat with guilt in his face. Jake ran
to his father and asked of the problem, his father turned away from him and put his
arms around Jake.

His father cried, “Son, I’m sorry about me never telling you about what
happened that night far long ago.”

Jake looked at him with question, “ What do you mean dad?” “Are you
talking about that night?”

Jakes father looked at him with amazement, “ Jake, you remember that long ago?”

Jake replied, “ Why yes dad, I remember the whole incident, but who and why did it happen?”

His father looked at him, “Well son every year “The Sorter” comes to a home of deep and solemn serenity.”

Jake looking at him with confusion speaks but nothing comes out.
Jakes father trying to explain the factor better, “You see son, your mother was of great
fortune to the unknown. She was taken and by that factor which leads me to why.
The Sorter comes every time of a new beginning of a new year of a new lifetime
not known to man.”


Jake now lost in the abyss at what his father just said, looks at him
with concern. He speaks, “Why does he have to take my mommy? What is she to
him and I’m hungry.”

Jakes father speaks with concern, “Jake, you need to do this for now on,
lock I repeat, lock all the windows, doors and locks.”

Jake looks at him with amazement, “Why do I need to lock all those things
you said?”

His father yells, “IF YOU DON’T LOCK THEM, YOUR MOTHER WILL
KILL YOU BECAUSE SHE WANTS YOU TO BE WITH HER AT HER SIDE
ON HER KILLING CRUSADE.”


Jake’s face of question turns into sadness and disgust of what his
mother commands of him to do for her. Jake leaves the room and on the way up
the stairs he notices his mother in the mirror looking at him, sadly he knows of
what his mother wants and he looks at the mirror with depressed, lost solemn eyes.
He gets up the stairs and notices that the windows in his room are unlocked.
While running to his room a ghost like figure appears outside his window, it
attempts to open the window and take him, but he knows of this fiend and knows
what will happen if he lets his deceased mother into his room. Lunging over the
bed he slams the locks on the windows and trips over something on the floor.
Panting heavily on the floor he lays there trembling and shaking muttering to
himself that he will never turn him self over to the dark and deceased mother that
he once had.

He awakes in the morning to notice that his father is yelling for him, he weakly
gets up and staggers to the door wondering for what it is that his father requests
him for. Running down the stairs he notices that the mirror that once use to be is
now shattered and his father standing next to it with such disgust.

“Jake, did you break this mirror!?” Jake’s father looking at him with anger.
“No, dad I never even touched it…. I saw mom last night though….” Jake starting
to turn away from his father’s face, hears his dad speak.
“You…you.. you saw your mother last night?” Jake’s father looking at him with
slight happiness and inquiry.
“Yes I saw her in the mirror and she looked at me with this like, uhh uhh, like she
wanted to kill me but yet I could see that she was sad.”
“Jake, how long did you look at the mirror?”
“Only for about a few seconds, then I went up to my room…” Jake’s voice
starting to fade.
“Jake, did you see you mother outside your windows?” Jake’s father starting to
grow paranoid.
“Yes I did see her, she was trying to lift up the windows and try to get in, but I
managed to jump across my bed and hit both locks with just one attempt.” Jake
starting to cry as he explains how he made it so his mother couldn’t get in his
room.
“Jake I’m sorry to tell you this, but…your mother, she is…well lets see…” Jake’s
father beginning to grow sad in the eyes, he tries to explain what’s
happening.
“Dad what is she trying to do?”
“…. Well she is trying to take you away from me and join her…”
“I’m still not sure on what you’re saying…” Jake’s eyes starting to grow sad and
teary.
“Jake, she is trying to kill you…and make you become part of her lost torment…”
“Dad why would mom want to kill me?” Jake starting to cry
“She took an oath when she had you, she will never let you out of her grasp for
very long.” Jake’s dad walks away and leaves Jake there with sadness and inquiry.

Jake lies there with sadness, but yet with question on his face. In his mind he
wonders why does his mother want him to die? He sadly walks back up to his
room and staggers to his bed noticing that his mother is sadly waiting outside his
window with tears in her torn out eyes which is now replace with an illuminate
light, for almost as if she were an angel. Jake notices her outside, but just looks at
her with tears in his eyes and sadness on his face. He looks away from her figure at
staggers to his bed. Unwrapping the sheets he gets into bed and slowly and sadly
falls asleep.

He wakes up in the afternoon to notice that the sun is now in front of his window.
Which means its time to go to church with his father.
His father yells up the stairs, “Jake get up and get dressed, you got 15 minutes.”
Jake runs to his dresser and changes and throws his dirty clothes on the floor. He checks
to make sure the windows are tightly secured, because he will not be getting home
till midnight hours.

. He runs down the stairs watching through the window to see the sun casting a ray of
bright light across the meadow. Running around the house, Jake checks and locks
all the windows so his mother’s dispirited self may not come in. Walking out the
door he locks it behind him, and gets in the car with his dad. Jake growing
paranoid of searching for any lost remains or any sign of his mother’s spirit.

Driving into town Jake notices his girlfriend walking on the sidewalk.
“Jake, aint that your girlfriend?” asked his father.

Shyly Jake replies, “Yes dad that’s my girl, I wonder why she is walking to church?”

Jakes father exclaims, “Why don’t I pick her up?”

Looking out the window at his darling angel he notices her looking at him and
waves. Finally after all the questions racing through his mind he asks his dad if he will pull over.


Driving down the road Jake asks his girlfriend if she wants to sit with him in
the balcony or in the pews. She explains to him where she would most likely to sit,
and Jake looks confused. Jake’s father paying direct attention to the road notices an
ice spot, veering out of its path, he calmly goes back to driving. Jake notices a
semi approaching from about a quarter mile down, and notices he’s bookin’
“Dad why did you veer left back there?” Asks Jake with a thought of why.
“There was an ice patch in the road and I veered away from it so I wouldn’t slip into the ditch or lose control.”

“Uhhh…dad…. there’s a semi approaching the ice spot and he’s not slowing down!” yelled Jake.

Jake asks his girlfriend if she will take a look see at what he’s looking at barreling down the road.

As soon as his girl friend looks, the semi truck starts swerving uncontrollably and
the trailer on it begins to start veering from left to right in a very chaotic way. Jake
notices the driver is panicking trying to hold his load and his rig from rolling over.
The semi begins to start tilting from side to side, while the trailer just starts
dangling and trying to hold on. The semi makes a hard left, then a right, then a left,
then a right, the driver doing all he can to hold on to the load misses his
opportunity to redeem his fault.

“DAD, THAT SEMI TRUCK IS ROLLING END OVER END AND THE
TRIALER IS COMING THIS WAY!” screamed Jake in horror.
His dad looked out his mirror, as soon as he did a rupture of fire sprang from the
semi truck and blew clouds of debris in the air. The trailer slammed right into the
rig and miraculously jumped over the semi and flew through the air. Jake saw a 2 ton
trailer spilling its load all over the road flying over the freeway and plummeting
into a near by tanker. The sound, the smell, the sight, sent Jake’s mind into warp
speed and questions racing to his head faster then a landfall.

Driving and veering out of the way of the wrecked and mangled load
that was spilt, Jake’s father notices that the tanker is about to engulf and blow.
Slamming his foot on the accelerator he speeds down the freeway, buzzing by cops
and other motorists. When his father comes to a stop light 3 miles 4 miles down the
road, at the exact instance when Jake’s father slams on the brakes, the tanker
explodes leaving a fire of smoke and debris falling to the ground. Jake out of
breath from the excitement now notices that when his dad hit the gas; he flew into
the back of the seat into his girlfriend’s arms.
“…Dad…. what just happened?” asked Jake
Jake’s girlfriend explains to him the whole thing. Looking into his eyes she can
see confusion but yet paranoia. Jake faints and falls back asleep in his girlfriend
arms once again.
Arriving at the church finally Jake gets up and notices his girlfriend caressing his
face. His dad looks at him, “Have a nice sleep son?”
Weary and questioning he gestures he’s ok and ready to go to church.
He walks with his girlfriend up to the doors and almost faints from all the
excitement that has happened in such little time. His girlfriend grabs for him
before he collapses on the ground.