Fuel For My Thoughts
I really wonder how,
I left a world of misery,
Without a final bow.
My head is exploding with thoughts,
Some good, some bad,
Some of these thoughts,
I wish I never had.
Pain in all parts of my body,
I don't know why.
Pain so excruciating,
I have to fucking cry.
Lost in thought,
Of what, I wish I knew,
If this disease hadn't got the best of me,
I wouldn't be so fucking blue.
Going crazy,
Leaving everything behind,
I want to relapse,
No, I don't, I've changed my mind.
Want to let tears flow freely,
But I can't or should I say I won't,
Try to get close to me,
I'll push you away and say don't.
I've asked for nothing,
And you've given me everything in return,
Pull out my flag,
And let the fucker burn.
Changing for the better,
Leaving nothing behind,
I'll stay clean and sober,
Nothing'll change my mind.
Celeste Adame
