"All that is needed for evil to triumph is that good men and women do nothing."
A Letter to America
With all the finger pointing, name calling, double talk and fighting that goes on between our nation's political parties and politicians little has been, or is being done to protect this nation’s greatest natural resource-our children.
Whatever happened to rolling our sleeves up and getting the job done, together as a community, a city, a state, a government?
American children are dying, minute by minute, hour by hour and day by day, at the hands of predators, and our laws allow these individuals to repeatedly seek out new victims. As a youth my family and I were victims of abuse. For close to five years, we were at the mercy of a sadistic sexual predator and I was his favorite toy. I wish it were possible to convey the all encompassing destructive force and empty pain that this leaves one with. By the age of fifteen the streets were my home and for 25 years I was a heroin and PCP addict. I have lived the jails, the prisons (on the main line) and after years of being in-an out of the county and state systems I ended up in "D" quad CMC east, Mental Health Quad in Ca.
My purpose for doing what I do is to challenge each and every person who reads this to insist that the laws that actually protect and aid these life destroyers, be changed. No person should have the right or the freedom, to use, abuse, rob and steal, a person's money, their life and or their soul. Yet most of our elected officials, in their refusal to respond to these issues, proves that they neither have the courage nor the personal fortitude it takes to tackle these issues head-on. This web page is not for revenge. I look at my life and my damage and I don't want this or worse to happen to anybody else and it's apparent that nothing will get done until our elected officials receive both letters and phone calls, from all walks of life.
Then, and when American children are recognized as individuals with rights that are honored and protected. When they are provided with safe environments at home and at school, so that they can learn and grow and mature, when this happens our youth will grow up in confidence knowing both their strengths and weakness’. Self destructive behavior, fear, shame and guilt will not govern their lives. Contact your elected officials and follow up the communication until you receive results. They count on you giving up and going away. Make the difference and take a stand, the youth of America deserve this!
If what happened to me was an isolated occurrence this page would not be. The past is the past and nothing can be done to change it. But it isn't and it continues today. Lives are at this very moment being both distorted and destroyed. That is why I do this. I do not understand how a society that claims, "In God we trust" can allow this to continue, try contemplating Matthew 18:5-10. I do this for the ones who are alone, the fearful, the hurting, the isolated, and the voiceless. When children no longer have to fear for their safety we will all be able to say, "We have done our best."
I believe, and statistics show that 3 out 4 predators were once victims themselves. That does not excuse such actions; however, it should give each of us greater insight as to the need to stop the repeated victimization of youth.
After you as a person
came to understand who you were sexually in your wants and needs don't you seek fulfillment? Do you ever day-dream about being with that special someone? Maybe, even plan it? If the line has been crossed and you're best is the destruction and humiliation of another human being; being guided with piranha style instincts, always searching. How do you rehabilitate? That's even if rehabilitation is truly desired. Lets be honest, stop and think for a moment, could you in your lifetime never again experience what gives you your greatest satisfaction and gratification sexually?
Did you say vampire ?
Sex offenders are registering as homeless
Like the fabled vampire
they go back
keeping an eye-out
The youth of our country should continue to have the
right to see the faces they
should be aware of.
should continue to have the right
to know who to protect their children from.
Below are links
to the web-pages of registered sex offenders
National Sex Offender Public Website (NSOPW)
The faces of Registered sex offenders.
A CALL FOR HELP
A call goes to the public and authorities
Beyond Missing is a helpmate to The
U.S. House of Representatives
State officials address search.
The spark of light
It was not a ploy for attention as I told no one of my intention but in March 2003, at the age of 50 and after being clean from heroin for years, I tried to commit suicide. On that day I got up and called an individual who I knew was strung-out on the drug. I arraigned to meet that person after placing my order and I bought one gram of Mexican brown. I went home and wrote letters to different people to explain that I could no longer deal with my issues and that the pain and darkness in my core was too great for me. I was tired; it had been 50 long years of hell with no hope for peace with-in me.
I had tried what I thought was everything, relationships (with both sex's), organized religion, Christianity also known as un-organized religion, 12 step programs, psychiatrists, psychologists, counseling, psychotropic drugs and I still found myself in such agony and desperation that all I wanted was to die. I just could not deal with the reality that had been my life.
As I was cooking it up I felt an ease that I had not experienced for a long time. I had both the answer and the solution to all I was going through before me, in my very hands. Soon it would be over and that is all I wanted.
No more nightmares, no more tears, no more questions, life for me had proven that God did not exist. When it was ready I drew the heroin up into two 50cc syringes as it was too much for just one. As I was getting ready to and as I was inserting the needle from the syringe into my jugular vain, as the veins in my arms had given out years ago, in my mind I was screaming that I didn't want to die.
I had no choice, only in death would it all end.
I woke up lying on the floor and I repeated the process with the second rig. Once again I woke up on the floor. I was devastated, I was still alive. I remember thinking, J----
C-----, you can't even kill yourself right, your just about one sorry m-----
It was more a statement of desperation than a call for help but as I was laying there I spoke-out, God, help me.
At that very moment, the equivalent of a sparkler, you know the ones you light on the fourth of July, lit my pitch black core, my soul exploded back into existence. The very first time since I was a child that light went from inside-out instead of the outside-in. I believe a spiritual battle was at that moment taking place and a power greater than all my darkness became a part of me.
I have followed the leading that I have come to know as something bigger than I could ever have known or hoped for and it was also my greatest fear. Who knew?
The Impossible Dream
(words & music by Leigh/Darion)
To dream the impossible dream
To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear the unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go
To right the unrightable wrong
To be better far than you are
To try when your arms are too weary
The reach the unreachable star
This is my quest, to follow that star
No matter how hopeless,
No matter how far
To fight for the right
Without question or pause
To be willing to march into hell
For a heavenly cause
And I know if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will be peaceful and calm
When I'm laid to my rest
And the world would be better for this
That one man scorned and covered with scars
Still strove with his last ounce of courage
To reach the unreachable star
This webpage's purpose is not to create a witch-hunt.
More of how
I don't believe it should be used as a reason why
any group or peoples should be condemned.
What consenting individuals do is their business!
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