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"All that is needed for evil to triumph is
that good men and women do nothing."
Edmund Burke
UNDER RENOVATION
A Letter to America
With all the finger pointing, name calling, double talk and fighting that goes on between our nation's political parties and politicians little has been, or is being done to protect this nation’s greatest natural resource-our children.
Whatever happened to rolling our sleeves up and getting the job done, together as a community, a city, a state, a government?
American children are dying, minute by minute, hour by hour and day by day, at the hands of predators, and our laws allow these individuals to repeatedly seek out new victims. As a youth my family and I were victims of abuse. For close to five years, we were at the mercy of a sadistic sexual predator. I wish it were possible to convey the all encompassing destructive force and empty pain that this leaves one with. By the age of fifteen the streets were my home and for 25 years I was a heroin and PCP addict. I have lived the jails, the prisons and the psychiatric wards.
My purpose for doing what I do is to challenge each and every person who reads this to insist that the laws that actually protect and aid these life destroyers, be changed. No person should have the right or the freedom, to use, abuse, rob and steal, a young person's money, their life and or their soul. Yet most of our elected officials, in their refusal to respond to these issues, proves that they neither have the courage or the personal fortitude it takes to tackle these issues head-on.
This web page and the letter campaign is not for revenge. I look at my life and my damage and I don't want this or worse to happen to anybody else and it's apparent that nothing will get done until our elected officials receive both letters and phone calls, from all walks of life.
Then, and when American children are recognized as individuals with rights that are honored and protected. When they are provided with safe environments at home and at school, so that they can learn and grow and mature, when this happens our youth will grow up in confidence knowing both their strengths and weakness’. Self destructive behavior, fear, shame and guilt will not govern their lives.
Contact your elected officials and follow up the communication until you receive results. They count on you giving up and going away. Make the difference and take a stand, the youth of America deserve this!
I do what I do because
I can do nothing else. I am a victim or should I say I was a victim. If what happened to me was an isolated occurence this page would not be. The past is the past and nothing can be done to change it. But it isn't and it continues to take place today. Childrens lives are at this very moment being both distorted and destroyed. That is why I do this. I don't understand how a society thats claim is,"to be inspired by God" can allow this to continue. An individual who is charged and convicted for a petty-theft with a prior will do more time in prison than an individual who rapes their own child. Add another prior and we are talking Life.Can someone please show me where the justice is. A multiple sex-offender has more rights to re-offend than parents do to protect their children. Untill the individuals who are responsible for the destruction of innocence either stop on their own or they are stopped. I pray that this page will be calling-out for the ONES that do not have a voice.
The ones who are alone,fearful,hurting and the isolated. The not knowing-thats the worst-the not knowing. Not knowing what to do or not do so that it would just stop, just stop and go away. That it would just go away...but its a dream just a dream.
When children no longer have to fear for their safety we will all be able to say,"We have done our best."
Below are two examples of the SYSTEM failing. I could have used different examples since the creation of this page and my involvement in 1998.These will remain on my page till justice has been served.
Ventura,California
In October of 1996, it was on the news how an eight-year-old boy forced a four-year-old boy to perform oral copulation on him in the Ventura County youth facility. The news expressed a desire by the
district attorney to charge this eight-year-old child with child abuse. As a survivor of such abuse I had to ask myself where did this eight-year-old boy learn such acts and where are the adults that
exposed him to this kind of behavior? Why aren't they held accountable?
I believe,and statistics show that 3 out 4 predators were once victims themselves. That does not excuse such actions; however, it should give each of us greater insight as to the need to stop the
repeated victimization of youth.
Spokane,Washington
In most of 1999, it was on the news how one Gregory McCrea and his two accomplices where charged with raping 9 children.(videos of such acts were found, confiscated and placed into evidence) Gregory took a twenty-five-year deal with the state of Washington for the 9 rapes of children. As part of the plea bargain, with immunity, Gregory confesses to molesting/raping one thousand children. Gregory also had weapons and munitions charges with the federal government. As part of a plea bargain he plead guilty and our federal government sentenced him to thirty years with the federal case taking jurisdiction over all court commitments. He then became a federal not state prisoner. His sentence is to run concurrent with state charges.
That means he will not do even one day individually for raping the
nine young children,not even the ones he plead guilty to, and was
sentenced for.Never mind the one thousand children he confessed to raping and molesting.
After you as a person
came to understand who you were sexually in your wants and needs don't you seek fulfillment? Do you ever day-dream about being with that special someone? Maybe, even plan it?If the line has been crossed and you're best is the destruction and humiliation of another human being,being guided with piranha style instincts, searching to devour and kill. How do you rehabilitate?That's even if rehabilitation is desired, although you will be told they do. Lets be honest,stop and think for a moment,could you in your lifetime never again experience what brings you gratification sexually?
February 2001
Sex offenders are registering as homeless
Did you say vampire?
yes
Like the fabled vampire
they go back
time
and
time again.
Always
keeping an eye-out
for fresh
and
new
victims.
State and Federal links
Links to federal officials
Whitehouse, Washington DC
U.S.Senate
US House of Representatives
State officials address search.
More Links
The best of registries and organizations
in my opinion.
The Adam Walsh Child Protection and Safety Act (Pub.L. 109-248) was signed into law by U.S. President George W. Bush on July 27, 2006.
National Sex Offender Public Website (NSOPW)
The Dru Sjodin is a National Sex Offender Public Website (NSOPW),
between public sex offender registries and the federal government.
AMBER Alert
The Amber Alert is a critical missing child response program
that utilizes the resources of law enforcement and media
to notify the public when children are kidnapped.
Beyond Missing
Beyond Missing is a helpmate to The
Amber Alert
Megans law
On May 17, 1996, President Clinton signed Megan's Law.
Point of contact
Persons-Stopping Child Abusers Today
My journey
walking the tight-rope
I used to watch C-SPAN and one day while looking at the introduction for C-SPAN, the letters transposed came into my head. P-SCAN, Persons or People-Stopping Child Abuse or Abusers Now.Hence, the birth of this web page back in 1998.
Being afforded the opportunity by two very special people I would write letters send faxes and do allot of networking.I would hand out flyers while constantly working on this webpage. Something that was very difficult for me, as I had not received any training at that point. Anyway someone bought P-SCAN and put up a soft porn site. I was devastated, I was so angry-----------------------I called Rick and Marilyn, two people who believed in this issue, to vent.How could someone of done that, I was lost and confused. I was so naive. They listened, they were long haul truckers and on the road at the time. What could I name the new page? And it still say what I felt it should say, I asked myselfand them.
They called me back and it was Rick who came up with P-SCAT they also bought P-SCAT.com for me. It has since expired and I have not re-newed it, this page to stand on its own.I have aids and I'm on that rollercoaster of getting sicker then well then sicker never regaining my total health. Anyway this page is not about individual peoples it is about issues and the abuse of individuals. If however, it wasn't for Rick and Marilyn this page and the light it created would not of so brightly shown...Thank-you Rick and Marilyn
The spark of light
It was not a ploy for attention as I told no one of my intention or plan but in March of 2003,at the age of 50 and after being clean from heroin for years, I tried to commit suicide. On that day I got up and called an individual who I knew was strung-out on heroin. I arraigned to meet that person after placing my order and I bought one gram of mexican brown. I went home and wrote letters to different people to explain that I could no longer deal with my issues and that the pain and darkness in my soul was too great for me. I was tired; it had been 50 long years of hell with no hope for peace with-in me.
I had tried what I thought was everything, relationships, organized religion, 12 step programs, psychiatrists, psychologists, counseling, psychotropic drugs and I still found myself in such agony and desperation that all I wanted was to die. I could bare no more of the life that had been mine.
As I was cooking it up I felt an ease that I had not experienced for a long time. I had both the answer and the solution to all I was going through before me, in my very hands. Soon it would be over and thatïs all I wanted.
No more nightmares, no more tears, no more questions, life for me had proven that God did not exist. When it was ready I drew the heroin up into two 50cc syringes as it was too much for just one. As I was getting ready to and as I was inserting the needle from the syringe into my jugular vain, as the veins in my arms had given out years ago, in my mind I was screaming that I didn�t want to die.
I had no choice, only in death would it all end.
I woke up lying on the floor and I repeated the process with the second rig. Once again I woke up on the floor.
I was devastated, I was still alive.
I remember thinking, J---- C-----,
you can�t even kill yourself right, your just about one sorry mf.
It was more a statement of desperation than a call for help but as I was laying there I cried-out,Oh God, help me.
At that very moment, the equivalent of a sparkler, you know the ones you light on the fourth of July, lit my pitch black soul. The very first time that light went from inside-out instead of the outside-in. A voice as clear as daylight said,You have to fight and fight like you have never fought before.I told the voice that I did not know how and it told me not to worry that it would be with me, guide me.
A spiritual battle was at that moment taking place and a power greater than all my darkness became a part of me.
I picked myself up off the floor and put one foot in front of the other.
I followed the leading that I have come to know as something bigger than I could ever have known or hoped for.
These books have helped my life and existence immensely.
Neale Donald Walsch's book Conversations with God, an uncommon dialogue
On page 86, it reads,
All your life you have spent convincing yourself that you are bad.Not only that you are bad, but the things you want are bad. Sex is bad, money is bad, joy is bad, power is bad, having a lot is bad a lot of anything.
Some of your religions have even got you believing that
dancing is bad, music is bad, celebrating life is bad.
Soon you will agree that smiling is bad,laughing is bad, loving is bad.
No, no, my friend,you may not be very clear about many things,
but about one thing you are clear: you and most of what you desire are bad.
Having made this judgment about yourself, you have decided that your job is to get better. It is ok, mind you. It is the same destination in any event it is just that there is a faster way, a shorter route, a quicker path.
Which is?
Acceptance of Who and What You Are right now and the demonstration of that.This is what Jesus did. It is the path of the Buddha, the way of Krishna,the walk
of every great Master who has appeared on the planet.And every Master has likewise had the same message: What I am, you are. What I can do, you can do. These things, and more, shall you also do.Yet you have not listened. You have chosen instead the far more difficult path of one who thinks he is the devil, one who imagines he is evil.
You say it is difficult to walk the path of Christ,
to follow the teachings of Buddha, to hold the light of Krishna, to be a Master.Yet I tell you this:
it is far more difficult to deny Who You Are than to accept it.
You are goodness and mercy and compassion and understanding.You are peace and joy and light.
You are forgiveness and patience and strength and courage, a helper in time of need, a comforter in time of sorrow, a healer in time of injury, a teacher in times of confusion.
You are the deepest wisdom and the highest truth; the greatest peace and the grandest love. You are these things. And in moments of your life you have known yourself as these things.
Choose now to know yourself as these things always.
Sylvia Browne's, The Other Side And Back on page 100 it reads,
It really does take a village to raise a child.
May we include the worlds children in all our prayers, and work every day at making a better, kinder, safer village than we've had.
I read something recently that struck me as a beautiful way to end a chapter on relationships.
It applies to couples,to friends, to family members,to anyone else we let into our lives,and mostly to the all-important relationship between ourselves and the divine light of God inside us.
It's called "The Invitation."
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are.I want to know if you will risk looking a fool for love,for your dreams,for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain,
mine or your own,without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy,mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful,to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul,if you can be faithless and therefore be trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty,every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,"Yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you,
from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
Oriah Mountain Dreamer, Indian Elder
Donald Walker
Apprentice in living life
School?
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