Not Your Savior

Unlucky Seventeen, already handed plans for the future. Glamour obsessed, told how to dress and shown how to think and I don't have a job, but I can show you to be a slob. So many days wasted and glazed sometimes I laugh aloud as I think about you asking me "Please can you help?" Can't help myself. I'm not your savior, I'm not who you want me to be. A cowardly mistake I've made so many times before. Refusing to break, cut my losses ties them with you. Like a good boy I'll pretend and promise not to do it again. Do you remember? When life was so simple and permanent? Everyone's changed, "Everyone's cool," everyone sucks, but I can't seem to complaing, exciting and new is just not there. You're getting scared. I'm not your savior, never thought I was anyway. I'm a void with empty promises that backs out late. Never said I'd change, taking back the words that we spoke. Like a fuel tank running dry, you'll believe it when I choke.

Life Size Mirror

She was done before the start, always medinging broken hearts making others miserable not knowing who she's hurting. Father said, "This day will be, one for everyone to see." Is it true you'll follow suit and have you learned a thing? It's just a selfish way to go. It's safe to say she'll never know for every person there's a whole life story. Waiting to be told when she is happy it's ok, but when these people start to fade, then we'll jus twatch her self-destruct as she gets old. She put up defensive shields to walk through all of life's mindfields. All defined by make-up and a car behind she's hiding. "Father do you have to go, Left me questions, I don't know." Any answers or even close the life time lie was true. She's gonna move on with her life and take it one heart at a time and watch the little girl inside her wait behind as she goes on, but with this black heart she decides who she'll take in and shove aside. Until the day she sees that everyone has gone. Getting use to people leaving, thinking true love is deceiving. Soon she'll know how lonely it can be. Now was it really worth the pain? A couple pills makes her feel sane. While she lives out the story written for the part she is to play, with so much shame for her to hide. There's no more dignity, no pride then there will only be dark in her, light of day. And she will only see a reflection of her father's reflection, nothing will change until she breaks this life. This life-size mirror.

Chasing Rainbows

Just heard the news today, let yourself done once again. Trusted your feelings in a place that no one goes. Will you do anything to satisfy your so-called friend? There's something you ought to know before you explode. All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows. Trusting those around you is an easy thing to do. I'm not saying don't believe in someone that you don't know. Just don't go on thinking that the whole world tells the truth. It's all fucked up being reserved and quiet, she doesn't understand the message that you send. Don't give it all away somewhere, someday there's someone who can replace that state of mind,yo never give it time (never). All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows. Letting everybody crawl inside yur heart and mind. Kicking you is easy when you're down. That's when the weak know to release their anger on someone who will not try to stand up and give thema fight.

Lies Can't Pretend

I received your letter in the mail, sounds like times are hard for you again. You said that you'd be nineteen in September of this year and you're breaking up with your first girlfriend. "My dad and I got in a fight, he told me to leave." When everything was fine, there isn't much that I can do to help you, yes it's true, but I promise that the hurt will heal in time... And you don't deserve this, ies can't pretend just another way of thinking people can change when it seems they're not there for you. Truth cannot lie. Never heard a better word than trust. Yes it's in you know that it's true and right. Let me count the ways that I feel so sorry, when it rains it drains the spirit dry. We all have our mishaps, misfortunes, missed opportunities ands the strength to carry on consider yourself free... and you don't deserve this...

Why Doesn't Anybody Like Me?

Maybe you don't understand it, what keeps them awak at night. What goes through their little minds. When you turn off the light? Always having to say sorry tears are stained on the pillow. like the light of the moon they can't be one, can't exist without the son. Let's think clearly for a while, can he shine without a smile? Why am I alone, with no one to be found? Looks like they know what's best for me. Why doesn't anybody like me I don't understand? Guess I'll have to crawl inside and I don't know why. I'm sitting by myself when the problem isn't mine. Been around the block a few times, been beat up by all his friends, learning life is like a maze that never seems to end. Like an open book, blank pages left for only him to write. Life is short this chapter takes so long, can't tell the right from wrong. It's so hard for you to place an expression on his face. Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand? Why my friends and family left me, at six years old he won't be taught a meaning to this mess. He'll just have to take a guess, and make his own plan, and we'll never see the child that was forced to be a man.

Sleeping In

Packing up the pictures in an old show box. It's so silent I can almost hear you walk down the hall standing in front of that window. If heaven is so high then why are you so low? Does it feel that you're taking back the love that made him real? In the darkness you will always see his face and I could never take the place of him today I'm sleeping in. Woke up it's too late and I should be in school. There's always something wrong when you ignore the rules. Never want to see myself in front of that window. sucking up your tears didn't want to let me know much. Raching out your hand for one last touch. Take me with you everbody here is fake and I don't wann feel the same when you give in. In a lifetime time will always take our place. But I will lay here shielded from the pain. This is a long time from today, you gave me all that I could take, and gave me strength to carry on. In the darkness you walways see his face, and I don;t wanna be there when you do give in. In a lifetime time will always take our place and I will lay here shielded from the pain. I do whatever I wan you never let me down. I always know when lost somehow you're found. Although life has all these consequences now and that's ok , abd that's ok.

Fairytale Of NewYork

It was Christmas Eve babe In the drunk tank An old man said to me, won't see another one And then he sang a song The Rare Old Mountain Dew I turned my face away And dreamed about you Got on a lucky one Came in eighteen to one I've got a feeling This year's for me and you So Happy Christmas I love you baby I can see a better time When all our dreams come true. They've got cars big as bars They've got rivers of gold But the wind goes right through you It's no place for the old When you first took my hand On a cold Christmas Eve You promised me Broadway was waiting for me. You were handsome You were pretty Queen of New York City When the band finished playing They howled out for more Sinatra was swinging,All the drunks they were singing We kissed on a corner Then danced through the night. The boys of the NYPD choir Were singing "Galway Bay" And the bells were ringing out For Christmas day. You're a bum You're a punk You're an old slut on junk Lying there almost dead on a drip in that bed You scumbag, you maggot You cheap lousy faggot Happy Christmas your arse I pray God it's our last. I could have been someone Well so could anyone You took my dreams from me When I first found you I kept them with me babe I put them with my own Can't make it all alone I've built my dreams around you.


I see you clinging, stereotyping just to feel comfort,just to belong desperate for meaning to make sense of your life. Let me try to make you understand you got it wrong. You're not gonna catch me waving flags over my head. Looking straight and standing tall. I refuse to build the wall adding my own bricks that seperate us all. I'd rather die than be a part of your pride. This ain't the homeland they've written books on. Bever have been there, how would you know? Following footsteps that will get you nowhere and lving by some rules that were made up one hundred years ago. You're not gonna find me diggin through my family tree just to find out who I am. I don't need to know that I'm linked to some murder to live on the same land. I'd rather die than be a part of your pride. So it looks like I'll be here for a long time now, some things are better left mysteries. Can't change the future when living in the past. So do what you want and I'll decide my own history.

Always Carrie

When I'm awake at night sometimes I picture you and hear those words again you said, "I'm leaving." I couldn't hold you down and not to expect that you would drown. I'm a clown but no one's laughing. Maybe you're from another plant, one I want to invade. It's all been said, to me you're dead and it's time to turn your page. I'm not sure what it was that led us down a dead-end road. Some of those signs can be quite deceiving. I knew you favorite things, didn't know that one of them was someone else. I'm done believing. Some day there will be understanding everyday is a tragedy. It's me you blame but it's the shame that you will always carry that you will always carrie, that you will always carrie.

Let It Slide

I spend a day or nine, then finally realize. There's really nothing going on so why should I try to shake leaves? When there's no one in my tree , that I should care about. Let it fall, let it rise, let it be and let it slide. Let tomorrow come and take my mind away. I see the world get by and watch my friends get high. i really don't care who's to blame. Thye love to point fingers at you.`Cause there's nothing else to do, but waste away my time. Let it fall, let it rise, let it be and let it slide. Let tomorrow come and take my time away.

Six Degrees From Misty

When you were little she sold you out, out by the ounce the drugs and alcohol was free. Or maybe it was your imagination. Friend of the family, but now the foe. She gets inside your mind with everything you smoke. That's why your conspiracy comes from some words she spoke. The rain is controlled by misty, who's one but feels like three. She always has to be behind every little problem I face. I'd drive to Ireland but there's a lake between the land. She hired private eyes to follow me. Maybe I'll go to Paris and France? And meet the Pope and someone to be with for life?? A place far way where she never could find us here??? Everything bad is a "misty" she's hiding in that tree. I'm swimming at the beach and she's got submarines and high technology. She runs my life and in my dreams at night and everywhere I go. I'm always six degrees from misty.

Coming Too Close

There was a time when you would come and go. Now there's no time left to react. Just as it starts to heal in comes a bitter end. Well you were already to leave my side and then... You're coming too close and I can't pretend. That'll I pick you up or let you come in again. We've been through this before so please understand that nothing in this heart can save you from the pain you seek. if you pick up the phone please don't call me. No one can save you from the undertow. Nobody can blame you for the past. Just as I started thinking. "Everythings Alright." You showed us surely that yiur tenth time was your last. Yesterday i saw you falling to the groundseems like things get worse when no one is around. It's not ok.

Saddest Song

What's wrong with everyone? There's a panic in their eyes. Like others getting close are aliensin disguise. They smell conspriacy on the lips of dearest friends, reminds me of a time long ago, they think it's the end. Of what we all created, used to love but no we hate it. Life is as simple as the mind it lives in. The truth is a waste of time when we're conditioned to udnerstand lies are the right war as we watch the blind leading the blind. Everything that we see is anothers suffereing. Learn to enjoy the message your TV is delivering. You're safe behind the glass like being at the zoo. The face of guilty thoughts turns around and looks just like you. Don't want to be anothing vctime, but you watch them suffer organized, de-sensitized and trained to wake up at six AM, go to work, come home and in bed by ten.Where the feeling is safe and warm, horrified by any change, living by consensus destroys us. Paint pretty pictures at the same time will do us more harm.

Room 19

It's been so long since you've been here and I'm dieing, is there something you would like to say? Just drop the present on the shelf by the flowers and make the feeling go away. Looking back I can't recall who was listening. When I used to walk the streets at night, like a bird that used to sing, I was flying I was hapy all the time and it's hard to look back. Better days and different ways I can't explain. Another song to sing it all was simplified. Don't know what it's about, what have I learned to live without? It takes a day to live a life. I can't believe that way the world is. So different. Look what the lines in my face have made, living in my bed. I'm right next to the road. The one that goes the other way, takes me to a different place. Did you know that I was just as young as you. I had a job, a home, a family and a car. Did you say that yesterday or just right now? You'll never know the feeling of my bleeding heart.

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