you are always caught between
what you Know and what you wish
i remember being alright as long as i kept my Silence
i prefer a graceful pain
i Can't bear to watch the coffers fill
with emotional sludge i would rather Keep my boots on

you feel what you feel
and you always Think that that's okay
if i disagree so Fiercely why've i written all your words
down in a ledger like
i am adding all of what you owe me
it's time for you to give it's Christmastime my dear

you have to have seen
if i am the queen of Winter
that even my dress will only Melt down all over me
leaving me ashamed to reveal
your ghost always Left me with
such a mark but i'd think you'd be so damn Proud of me

it's never felt so good
to be Frozen and unfeeling
and i don't notice anymore the Warmth running down my hands
and if other people's words
are the best that you can Give me
maybe you never Understood the way you thought you did

i want to destroy
Retroactively
to kill without killing but leave my Silence with you
i know i don't Deserve it and i
couldn't take care of it but
promise me that you will Always keep it with you